[aercaenist]

MASTER OF ARCANA .      independent & extremely private & mutuals only blog for  ✧ allura vysoren ✧  of campaign one of critical role      .      canon divergent & headcanon based    ,    cherished by alexys    (   she/her , mst , 29   )    .      est 2022      .      sideblog to princessofpranks      .

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[vysorens]

regrets collect like old friends , here to relieve your darkest moments . ©

[aercaenist]

find allura @vysorens !

[ludinusdaleth]

-C2E80, "The Folding Halls"

[cowboahs]

quotes that broke me starters

feel free to adjust pronouns / names as needed !

quotes taken from random sources or tiktok. i claim no ownership whatsoever.

❛   i’m supposed to be the one who protects you from monsters. i’m not supposed to be one.  ❜  

❛   if i could make a deal with god, and i’d get him to swap our places.  ❜  

❛  no one heard our screams for a long time.  ❜  

❛   i know so many last words. but i’ll never know hers.  ❜  

❛   there is a home for every departed thing.  ❜  

❛   it reminded me that i will never truly know you.  ❜  

❛   i also buried a part of myself alongside them.  ❜  

❛   after you died i could no longer hold a funeral. so my life became the funeral.  ❜  

❛   you don’t have to be awake to cry.  ❜  

❛   forgive me, for all the things i did. but mostly the things i didn’t do.  ❜  

❛   the human eye is the loneliest creation of all.  ❜  

❛   fairness is for happy people.  ❜  

❛   the things we lost will always be heavier than the things that stayed.  ❜  

❛   perhaps it is the greater grief, to remain on the earth when another is gone.  ❜  

❛   you stain the pages with yourself.  ❜  

❛   tears will not wash away the sorrow.  ❜  

❛   beautiful things grow a certain height and then they fall and fade off.  ❜  

❛    who in all these centuries has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?  ❜  

❛   i have scars on my hands from touching certain people  ❜  

❛   despite everything, i believe that people are really good at heart.  ❜  

❛   you tried to change, didn’t you?  ❜

❛   you can’t make homes out of people. someone should have taught you that.  ❜  

❛   i hid my deepest feelings so well, i forgot where i placed them.  ❜  

❛   we have no scar to show for happiness. we learn so little from peace.  ❜  

❛   i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you. i left because the longer i stayed, the less i loved myself.  ❜  

❛   at every moment in our life, we have one foot in a fairytale & the other in the abyss.  ❜  

❛   there are too many sad eyes on happy faces.  ❜  

❛   it’s strange, i felt less lonely when i didn’t know you.  ❜  

❛   things change, friends leave. life doesn’t stop for anybody.  ❜  

❛   it takes a lifetime to die, and no time at all.  ❜  

❛   i am deathly afraid of almosts. of coming close to what i want and then falling just a little short.  ❜  

❛   i felt your absence.  ❜  

❛   what do we do now, now that we are happy?  ❜  

❛    you honestly thought anybody would love you? purely and truly love you?  ❜  

❛   don’t stop looking. he deserves to know someone saw his end, that someone noticed him.  ❜  

❛    i can bear my pain so long as it has meaning.  ❜  

❛   i dont have a single friend - not one.  ❜  

❛   i’ve had more than enough pain in my life, what’s a little more going to do?  ❜  

❛    it would have been you if i met you first.  ❜  

❛    i really thought he was going to be my forever.  ❜  

❛    maybe in the next life it would work.  ❜  

❛   in spite of everything, you’re still you.  ❜  

❛   the dead have it easy.  ❜  

❛   there’s an ocean of silence between us, and I’m drowning.    ❜  

❛   there have been countless times in my life when i thought i’d be better off dead.  ❜  

❛   what on earth… have i become?  ❜  

❛   don’t look at me! i don’t … i don’t want you seeing me like this.  ❜  

❛   i wish i could’ve been like you.  ❜  

❛   your fate was sweeping you away, like a flood.  ❜  

❛   the future should know the mistakes we made.  ❜  

❛   of course you have. you feel guilt. you want redemption.  ❜  

❛   i’m here because you can’t accept what you’ve done. it broke you.  ❜  

❛   even now, after all you’ve done, you can still go home.  lucky you . ❜  

❛   you’re all that’s left, and we can’t live this lie forever.  ❜  

❛    prometheus gave us light, and warmth, and eternal damnation.  ❜  

❛   take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act.  ❜  

❛    i know i ruined your life. i suffer for it every day.  ❜  

❛   don’t let yourself get killed for… for pride. i’ve seen it kill too many folk.  ❜  

❛    you and me, we ain’t decent… but those folk… they were.  ❜  

❛   we’re more ghosts than people.  ❜  

❛   despite my best efforts to the contrary… it turns out i’ve won.  ❜  

❛   i gave you all i had … i did.  ❜  

❛   this whole time, I’ve blamed myself for that decision.  ❜  

❛   do you think even the worst person can change…? That everybody can be a good person, if they just try? ❜  

❛   i don’t want to break their hearts all over again. it’s better if they never see me.  ❜  

❛   please leave me alone. i can’t come back. i just … can’t, okay?  ❜  

❛   no matter the struggles or hardships you faced… you strived to do the right thing, you refused to hurt anyone. ❜  

❛    people like you don’t ever want to be happy.  ❜  

❛   i don’t want to let go. i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❜  

[aercaenist]

allura blaming herself for thordak , for her friends’ deaths , for the entire chroma conclave & carrying it . . . forever . allura not being there for the final battle with thordak .

[devil-seabird-king]

Someone with more talent than me please draw Yussa on a baby leash with Allura holding the other end because I feel like that's the perfect visual representation of their relationship.

[dichenlachmandaily]

You’d rather believe I’m the reason you’re girlfriend’s fucked up, because it makes you feel better about what you did to me.

[saader]

The natural twenty of love. Thanks, Dice Gods.

[aercaenist]

@sparkhe​ said  ,  okay,  you  gotta  go  slow,  honey.

❛  i have not been called that in quite a while .  ❜  she says , a ghost of a smile on her lips as she sips at her warm tea . she’s exhausted & it shows . her shoulders drooping slightly with the weight of , well , the state of everything . she’d hoped . . . she’d hoped that she’d save better face than this . between the ziggurat . . . helping cloak whitestone . . .  the nightmare she’s had for a decade becoming reality , sleep is a thing of the past & she’s almost sure that’s how he just knows she’s not exactly at her best .  ❛  i’m fine , shaun .  ❜

[jurassicsource]

DICHEN LACHMAN AS SOYONA SANTOS Jurassic World Dominion (2022) dir. Colin Trevorrow

[aercaenist]

kima : allura is the best, but she's 20. When allura was born I was already in third grade, which means if we were friends back then I would have been hanging out with a baby. I don't know anything about infant care. Oh my god I could have killed her.

[dichenlachmandaily]

Dichen Lachman in an interview for The Morning Show on Australia’s Channel 7

[aercaenist]

WHAT IS YOUR ROLE IN FOUND FAMILY DYNAMICS?

the brains . people are not so much your forte. you are more at home with thoughts, ideas, hobbies, skills. as such, you probably have to learn how to work well with others--but once you do, hey, it has its moments. while you are treasured for your ability to solve problems, people also have this unique love of novelty. when you break from your schedule, when you say something no one is expecting--that's novel. you are as curious and lovable as the subjects you study. you are family. this place is not the same without your witty comments and wry observations. you definitely feel more comfortable when someone needs a straightforward answer than a shoulder to cry on, but it's not impossible to give both. know that your family loves you for more than that, though, and will (usually) remember to respect your boundaries.

[aercaenist]

thinking abt allura in her magnificent tower , the full weight of the sovereign & the pansophical behind her , her discoveries at her fingertips . . . the loneliest she’s ever been until vm shows up 

[ohlexa]

[ktmarison]

THE  SEVEN:  SENTENCE  STARTERS.

‘  i’m  sorry–  did  you  say  my  name  ?  ’

‘  is  there  anything  i  can  do  ?  ’

‘  i  can’t  be  surprised.  ’

‘  i  want  more  than  anything  to  achieve  at  any  cost.’

‘  go  back  to  sleep,  bitch.  ’

‘  thank  you  for  waking  me  up.  ’

‘  you  threw  a  ring  at  me  ?  ’

‘  why  do  you  want  enemies  ?  ’

‘  you’re  really  good  at  this.  ’

‘  what  you’re  saying  is  really  harsh  and  cruel.  ’

‘  this  is  a  terrific  advertisement  for  jurassic  park.  ’

‘  i  freaking  love  you.  ’

‘  i’d  recognize  that  handwriting  anywhere.  ’

‘  most  of  our  notes  are  just  to  make  you  jealous.  ’

‘  there  are  no  hot  billionaires.  ’

‘  my  culture  is  wealth  and  violence.  ‘

‘  this  taste  exactly  like  horse  meat.  ’

‘  i’m  not  gonna  lie  to  you,  i  feel  incredibly  sick.  what  the  fuck  was  that  ?  ’

‘  okay,  you  gotta  go  slow,  honey.  ’

‘  just  as  gandalf  once  said,  get  to  the  chopper  !  ‘

‘  sometimes  there’s  like,  a  fun  way  to  put  it,  but  sometimes  it’s  just  hey,  no.  ’

‘  it’s  good  to  have  boundaries.  ’

‘  i  love  this  game  !  ’

‘  so,  do  you  come  here  often  ?  ’

‘  listen,  you  know  i  love  confrontation,  but  i  wanna  be  gentle  when  i  say  this.  ’

‘  i  think  that  i  have  a  been  a  raging  bitch  very  recently,  and  it  has  caused  some  problems.  ’

‘  i  will  never  not  think  about  birds  again.  ’

‘  we  are  going  to  break  some  rules.  how  about  it  ?  ’

‘  i’m  going  to  light  up  a  drug  cigarette.  ’

‘  i  will  not  be  censored  !  ’

‘  i’m  guessing  you’re  used  to  feeling  burning  sensation  in  parts  of  your  body.  ’

‘  there  is  phoenix  chlamydia,  it’s  the  worst  thing  ever.  ’

‘  at  least  i  get  my  knees  scuffed.  my  god,  how  long  were  you  dating  [name],  a  guy  who  doesn’t  fuck  ?  ’

‘  you  should  know  that  your  parents  are  divorcing.  ’

‘  are  you  happy  ?  .  .  .  well,  me  neither,  so  that  makes  two  of  us.  ’

‘  i’m  fine,  i’m  fine,  i’m  fine,  i’m  fine.  ’

‘  do  you  think  that  there  is  anything  other  than  love  in  my  heart  for  you  even  when  you  say  hurtful  things  ?  ’

‘  sometimes  i  think  that  you  might  shatter  into  a  million  pieces.  ‘

‘  if  you  work  hard  and  you  smile  and  you  put  in  the  elbow  grease  and  you  give  it  your  all  and  you  sing  a  little  song  about  it,  i’m  fine.  ’

‘  i  just  saw  the  most  beautiful  thing  i’ve  ever  seen  in  my  life.  ’

‘  i  said  some  mean  shit,  i  was  hurt.  ’

‘  i  love  you  so  much,  but  that  really  hurt  my  feelings  and  it  was  pretty  shitty.  ’