Wretched Pain

As wretched as it is, I need my pain. It makes me who I am. "Love is hope. It fuels our dreams if you're in it, you need to enjoy it because love doesn't always last forever." - OUAT

[aerickson]

I dreamt of my late father of 17 years, for the first time since the early days following his death.

Imagine . . .

Singing along to 'Sugar, Sugar' by The Archies, with your hands so mom can join in on your vibe. (I am a certified CODA, btw) Out of nowhere . . . This strange man points, oh so aggressively, directly behind you. You nearly feel whiplash when immediately you forget of all things existing around you. Your attention is gathered by the most powerful emotion you've had in almost 20 years. There he is, illuminating with life. It's as if he had never left and the one thing you've been yearning for is right before your eyes. Endless possibilities. You run toward him with open arms, statements, questions . . . "Where have you been?!" "How are you?" "Are you coming home?" He quickly walks away toward a distant uncle . . . His brother in law. "Dad!" "Where are you going?!!!" He walks back toward your direction then is quickly yanked from behind. He vanishes.

Did you imagine?

Seeing a loved one after so long only to lose him or her again is the worst feeling to wake up with. I woke immediately after he vanished and cried for a good 10 minutes.

Later that morning, I spent 30 minutes analyzing. I came to the conclusion that he wanted to let me know that he is okay and that he only wants what's best for me.

"Sugar, Sugar" it's safe to say he adored me with everything he was.

[thepersonalwords]

““I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” Marilyn Monroe”

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Good times in Bali // Instagram: miguel.sousa22

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In order for you to improve your true self, you need to understand that you are not your insecurities.

You are the person who’s listening to them.

Don’t get attached to these negative thoughts, instead tell yourself that you can do it.

You need to believe in yourself first, before you can conquer your limits.

Improvement starts mentally and the physical will follow.

Your mentality can be your enemy, or it can be your hero.

Help yourself instead of letting your obstacles set your limitations.

You should look for solutions instead of worrying too much about your problems.

You need to fill your mind with encouragement, kicking the fear and doubts out of it!

Prove to yourself that you are stronger than you might think.

Only you can be your saviour.

Believe you can do it. Trust yourself. Be strong

[freddiequell]

[thepersonalquotes]

““Human beings can withstand a week without water, two weeks without food, many years of homelessness, but not loneliness. It is the worst of all tortures, the worst of all sufferings.” - Paulo Coelho”

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[thepersonalquotes]

““She is his sunset. He is her storm.” - Unknown”

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[sadtape]

some days the sky comes out and says “don’t you know how beautiful it is to be alive?”

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepersonalwords]

“There is nothing that can take the pain away. But eventually you will find a way to live with it. There will be nightmares. And every day when you wake up, it will be the first thing you think about. Until one day, it will be the second thing.”

— Raymond Reddington

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