# july 25th, 2016 ā 6:30pm
prompt .Ā āin the mood to delete everything, go missing for a month, get my life together and come back.ā (list)
requested by @svt-juyeonā
a/n . so basically i originally planned on making this funny, but jiseulās having a timeā so now it is less funny
what would starting over be like ?
exo were four years into their career. they had made great friends, watched trainees under their label come and go ⦠they had even watched members of their own group leave. no one blamed them for leaving, but it hurt.
what if she tried to restart, even if it was only to get a fresh feed on her socials ?
jiseul didnāt want to leave the group. four years would be a lot to delete. and there had been so many habits sheād picked up from the boys. she wouldnāt make it a day anywhere else. would she even have a chance in the industry without the boys backing her ? they were a lot better than her, but all ten of them made exo.
āare you alright ? itās your turn.ā
a familiar voice broke her thoughts. she must have been spacing out. their card game left half finished as she sifted through her questions.
āIām alright, sorry.ā jiseul continued the rest of the game, more or less distracted. she had barely reacted when chanyeol stacked his +2 to make her draw twelve cards. no one thought much of it, thinking she was just getting tired from a long day in the practice room.
while everyone was challenging baekhyunās cheers of victory, she snuck out of the room down to the small kitchen area. someone had followed her.
ājiseul,ā suho startled her. she would have dropped her water glass if she hadnāt been close to the counter.Ā āI didnāt mean to scare you.ā
āitās fine ⦠I thought you were joining the rematch.ā
āIām more worried about you. itās not everyday someone draws twelve cards and doesnāt react. whatās on your mind ?ā
some days jiseul cursed their leader for paying so much attention to them. they would be able to get away with so much. but also she liked to know she wasnāt invisible. āI think Iām in the mood to delete everything, go missing for a month, get my life together and come back.ā
even saying her thoughts didnāt make them have sense. she could tell suho didnāt even understand what she was trying to say.
āyou want to go on hiatus ? I donāt think we have anything plannedĀ ātil summer so you should be able to without trouble.ā
āsomething like that. I just need time to sort myself out, maybe to help me stop feeling like Iām pulling the group down.ā
she had been feeling like this for a while. she had seen the tweets saying exo would be more popular if they didnāt have a girl in the group. they would be better off without the girl ruining their songs. so what if she let them have a comeback without her ? would everyone be happier with their performance ? maybe suho was right to be worried.
āI donāt know where that idea came from, but youāre not pulling us down. we all bring out own specialties to the group.ā he moved to the other side of the islandās counter.Ā āif you need time, we can speak with the managers in the morning, but I donāt want you to sit out this comeback since youāve been looking forward to it since you saw the choreography demo.ā
jiseul placed her glass gently on the counter and grabbed his hand. he had always been so nice to the group. what if he had the similar feelings she did, but couldnāt talk to anyone because he had to take care of them ?
āthank you ⦠Iāll think about it.ā