bright - eyed and lost

ind. pri & sel . nagi karman from scarlet nexus . **under construction**

[aerkinetic]

@littlestwheeler 🌸

[thoughtkick]

I’m afraid that if you look at a thing long enough, it loses all of its meaning.

Andy Warhol (via thoughtkick)

[aerkinetic]

BRAIN CAPACITY : 71.3%

[aerkinetic]

| | --T E R R A -- | |

@aerkinetic​.  /  lyric starter call. old pine  -  ben howard

‘ i’ve come to know that memories were the best things you ever had. ’

Nagi looked up at his older brother then looked down as he thought about his words . He moved to gently hug himself as he tried to decide what he wanted to say  .

“ I- . . . I don’t know , Terra . . . I don’t even know what memories are the best , anymore .  ”

He couldn’t even remember what things were like before his head started to go all wonky . He had vague memories of childhood , but they were quickly just becoming things that he thought were dreams . 

“ Do - . . . Do you know which ones are the best ?  ”

[thoughtkick]

“Tell me you love me. If you don’t, then lie.”

— Coldplay

[xiaoguiwang]

with all due respect, which is none,

[aerkinetic]

“They said they were going to be running some tests on me, and that I should think about something else.”

—Titus, Feed by M.T Anderson. (93)

[thoughtkick]

“You kiss me with your mouth wide open like you’re not afraid of swallowing poison. I taste the good and bad in you and want them both. We call this bravery.”

— Anita Ofokansi

[brckensoulss-blog]

vicioussuggestion:

do not touch the ones i love ill tear you apart if i have to

[aerkinetic]

            I have 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕕 every 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓴𝓵𝓮 that 𝓭𝓮𝓬𝓸𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼 your 𝕟𝕠𝕤𝕖 , and 𝔀𝓪𝓽𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓭 the 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓼 light up your 𝕖𝕪𝕖𝕤 as you look at our 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 . I have 𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝔃𝓮𝓭 the way that you say , "𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦" and then . . . The next morning I wake up and I don't recognize you . [ We're ] [ strangers ] . . . I blink , WE'RE HOLDING HANDS and , suddenly , I 𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓻 the way it feels to be 𝓴𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓮𝓭 by you in the rain . "𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦" I say , I repeat it like a broken record . I repeat it and repeat it until my throat bleeds and I SCREAM for help . R E S E T . . . One , two , three . . . I count every 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓴𝓵𝓮 that 𝓭𝓮𝓬𝓸𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼 your 𝕟𝕠𝕤𝕖 , and 𝔀𝓪𝓽𝓬𝓱 as the 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓼 light up 𝕖𝕪𝕖𝕤 as you look at our 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 and . . . 𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓯𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷 .

[flynn-rp-memes]

Send a “❗” to force the truth out of my muse.

No limits. Ask whatever.

[rp-memes-atyourservice]

Some sexual tension / attraction prompts

Send a prompt for my muse to respond to it! Feel free to elaborate, create your own, send multiple, etc. Some smut-related prompts.

1. [unlikely kiss] - Your muse kisses mine, but they are not in a relationship with one another, so it comes as something of a surprise. Works for enemies to lovers, rivals with sexual tension, unrequired-or-is-it dynamics, crushes, etc. 2. [distracting kiss] - Your muse kisses mine to avoid answering a difficult question or discussing a difficult topic. My muse may or may not realise they’re being used as a distraction. 3. [laughing kiss] - Your muse kisses mine whilst laughing. Maybe they bumped noses, clacked teeth, or are generally giggly. Intimacy can be funny! 4. [heated stare] - Your muse gazes heatedly at mine, clearly undressing them with their eyes.  5. [taunting stare] - Your muse gazes mischeviously at mine, clearly trying to taunt them into something sexual, romantic, or playful. 6. [blissful stare] - Your muse gazes softly, dazedly at mine during the afterglow. 7. [wall slam] - Your muse pushes mine roughly into a wall, their faces only inches apart - or, if your muse pushes mine chest-first, my muse can feel yours’ breath on the back of their neck. 8. [pin arms] - Your muse pins mine’s arms to restrain them for whatever reason. Tension ensues.  9. [handsy] - Our muses make out and fumble with one another whilst fully clothed. 10. [thigh touch] - Your muse slides their hand slowly up my muse’s thigh, gazing at them the entire time to gauge their response. 11. [consent is sexy] - Your muse asks permission to touch mine below the waist, above or beneath clothing. 12. [sharing is caring] - Your muse catches mine wearing their shirt, still in the process of buttoning it or pulling it on. 13. [quiet jealousy] - Your muse becomes jealous over my muse for whatever reason, and expresses it non-verbally, lingering closer to my muse than usual, touching them casually, etc. 14. [that scent] - Your muse leans in to sniff my muse. When my muse turns their head to look, their faces are very close together. 15. [intoxicated] - Our muses, who are not in a relationship, are tipsy together and end up fooling around as a result. 

[aerkinetic]

“I look at you and I’m home.”

—Dory, Finding Nemo.

[aerkinetic]

| | -- Y U I T O -- | |

‘ you don’t have to say anything, i-i get it. ’ 

his voice is barely a whisper  ,  yuito’s so  terrified  of losing the best thing in his life that he doesn’t know what to  do  with himself.  he’s shaking like a  leaf  ,  he can’t even look nagi in the  eye  ,  he’s so  terrified  of what he’d see.

&  then nagi’s hand is on his own  &  yuito can’t help but  relax  at the touch instinctively  ,  he always does.  he’s still scared  ,  still  shaking  ,  &  then nagi looks at him  &  speaks  &  yuito can’t believe what he’s hearing.

‘ you….you what ?? ’ 

his heart’s beating  faster  now  ,  he wonders if nagi can feel it under their hands now  ,  like a little hummingbird in a  cage  .  his cheeks turn red now as it seems to slowly wash over him  ,  sinking into him like a  stone  through the tides.  he blinks  ,  once  ,  twice  ,  thrice  before covering nagi’s hand with his own  ,  holding it between the two before he speaks. 

‘ please…tell me you mean it ?? ’

“ But I- . . . I [ [ w a n t ] ] to say something . I’m just not very good at it . ”

He tried to reason in hopes of calming his best friend’s nerves down . He SHOULD say something back . If he left Yuito hanging what kind of friend would he be ? Besides , his heart had only been screaming Yuito’s name for as long as he could remember . . .

He just wasn’t screaming it out loud because they were only [ [ j u s t ] ] friends . 

Nagi held onto Yuito’s hand nice and tight , hoping that he would GROUND HIM back to reality as he did so . Baby steps . . . That’s what this took . Baby steps and a lot of patience as they fumbled through the [ [ a w k w a r d n e s s ] ] and got to the part where they were more than friends . 

“ I- . . .I like you too , Yuito . ”

He says those words a little faster now , a little STRONGER now as if he was admitting to himself and the voices in his head that he was willing to take the chance of letting them both know how much he liked his best friend . 

If anyone in his LIFE was worth the risk it would be Yuito . 

Golden hues held warm embers in their grasp as Nagi kept his gaze on Yuito’s . His fingers curled in Yuito’s grasp as he nodded , giving him a small smile . 

“ I mean it . . . I mean it a lot . If- . . . If that’s not okay let me know , okay ?  ”

Though , he REALLY hoped it would be .

[aerkinetic]

| | -- Y U I T O |  |

it’s a  kind  rejection  ,  yuito thinks  ,  or at least  ,  he  hopes  that’s what it is.  he was  sure  nagi had noticed the way he was always looking at him  ,  always there  ,  stealing what moments he could.  he was  certain  this had to be rejection  ,  the sharp pain in his chest had to mean  something  .  he tries to smile  ,  wishes he could laugh it off the way nagi was  ,  but he  couldn’t  .

he couldn’t  lie  very well  ,  either.

‘ yeah….funny. ’ 

one hand rests over his heart  ,  feeling it  tighten  in his chest  &  his voice comes out so quiet  ,  so  small  . 

‘ …it’s okay if you don’t feel the same.  i-i…i shouldn’t have said anything in the first place.

Wait . . . He was [ [ s e r i o u s ] ] ? SHIT. Well , now he felt like a jerk . Mostly because he was clueless to the fact that Yuito liked him at [ [ a l l ] ] . Well , he knew that he liked him they were best friends , but Yuito liked him as more than a friend and that -- 

“ You . . . really like me . . .? ”

-- That scared Nagi to his core . No one needed another thing about him to use against him , to [ [ t a k e ] ] from him . 

His chest burned as he swallowed the anxiety that had BLOOMED in his throat , fiddling with his fingers in thought . He can’t LOSE something if he doesn’t have it in the first place . . . He had Yuito as a best friend , but if he didn’t take the leap of faith , he couldn’t lose him as more than that . 

Shakily , Nagi reached forward to grab the hand that had PRESSED itself to Yuito’s chest . 

“ What . . . if I like you too . . .? ”

He asked quietly as he looked into Yuito’s eyes with a soft smile .  

[aerkinetic]

| | -- Y U I T O -- | |

@aerkinetic​      →     unprompted ask.

“Hey , Yuito ?? Who do you have a crush on ?? ”

the question stops him cold in his tracks  &  yuito  blinks  in surprise.  was nagi just being  kind  by asking this  ,  or was he  genuinely  oblivious ??  either way  ,  yuito doesn’t say anything for a long moment  ,  cheeks going red in the dark of the room.  he clears his throat  ,  trying to come up with a  believable  lie.

‘ you. ’ 

&  then he  freezes  ,  pure panic flooding through him.  as he waits in the silence for  disgust  ,  for  rejection  ,  for  anything  ,  yuito finds himself  eerily  aware of the beating of his own heart.

It was a very SIMPLE question that Nagi asked . I mean , they were best friends right ? He could tell him [ [ a n y t h i n g ] ] that he put his mind to , and he knew Yuito could do the same .  For a while now , he had been watching Yuito light up around someone . He didn’t know WHO , but he did know that , whoever it was , had to be [ [ p r e t t y ] ] special in order to make him so happy . 

So , he figured he’d ask . 

Of course , what he wasn’t expecting that followed the THICK silence was the answer that he got . 

‘You. ’

Nagi just looked at him for a second , golden eyes wide as he processed exactly what was happening . That was until he blinked and shook his head with a small laugh . 

“ Nice try , dude ! Real funny . ”

You’d never like me like that . 

“ Who is it really ? C’mon ! You can tell me . It can’t be that much of a secret . ”

[aerkinetic]

Why can’t you hold me in the street? Why can’t I kiss you on the dance floor . . . ? I wish that it could be like that , Why can’t it be like that ?  ‘Cause I’m yours .  Why can’t I say that I’m in love ? I wanna shout it from the roof tops .  I wish that it could be like that , Why can’t we be like that . . .?

-- Secret Love Song , Little Mix .