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intro post thing

hi uh intro post

im kenosha we have around 100 alters we use i/us interchangeably

they/xem collectively

syscourse dni i dont knownwhat these words mean systems are systems radqueers yall dni too yall are NAWT rad

adhd ocd udd bp2 narc traits

ask me about idiopathic hypersomnia ill fall asleep midconversa

DO NOT MENTION BLUUDUD AROUND ME UNLESS I DO FIRST. /srs

daddy longlegs (burner) and lucas cokley (itft) riako, painter (pressure) non traditional soulbound collectively, different alters have different yumes aswell

I LOVE @skitterthecritter14 SOSOSOOSO MUCH MORE THAN ANYTHING INFACT I AM GOING TO YHTOW MYSELF INTO A BLENDER TO PROVE IT

im 118o8 irl /srs 118o8 fictionkins or the such dni (I AM NOT AN IRLKIN I AM COPING WITH THE FACT I WILL NEVER SEE SOMEONE WHO REFERRED TO ME AS THEIR FATHER AND SAW THEMSELVES AS BLUUDUD EVER AGAIN)

idm proshippers but if you ship bluudud with ANYONE and thats in general but ESPECIALLY BLUUGUEST DNI OR DONT TALK ABOUT IT NEAR ME. same with bluudud selfshippers even if its famillial

#intro #what #I LOVE MY BLUUDUD

divinesys

headmate keeps paralysing me 😞😞

aflatoutlie

the first time i experienced this was when our nansensu alter first formed and now shes dormant but SHES PASSED IT ON TO EVERY ALTER. EVERY TIME SOMEONE WANTS SOMETHING THEY PARALYZE THE BODY UNTIL I PROMISE TO GO GET IT.

WHAT WAS I DOING LAST NIGHT THAT MADE ME START UNIRONICALLY WATCHING TSAMS??????? HOW WAS I THAT BORED

bathhousekitty

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

d0ll-st4rz

I will never judge anyone for not getting diagnosed with DID/OSDD/any other form of plurality cause oh my fucking god even therapists and psychiatrists who are more recently graduated genuinely know nothing about plurality or systems 😭

Like when a majority of medical professionals still refer to it as “multiple personality disorder” you cannot expect people to find that one doctor who actually knows something just for a diagnosis that can have severe negative effects on how medical professionals in the future treat you. Like systems get dismissed so often, so I will NEVER fault someone for not having access to or just refusing to get a diagnosis.

neo-pilled

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

leathersys

letter to an old friend

malachites-system

drv3ch5

how it feels trying to hold back the mean alters from saying mean shit

kittycatutaite

Small reminder that DID is often a covert disorder and overt DID is actually pretty rare. A person could go their whole life without knowing they have DID because that's the point. You do not need to know who you are all the time or who's fronting or need to feel like you're a faker because you act the same pretty much all the time. You do not need to act drastically different between your headmates to be valid.

stupid syscomic of basically how our gps/gabriel and michael got together

#our jx1dx1 is nothing like its source why is he so sweet #syscomic #idk what else to tag this #sys comic

amnesia means checking tumblr over and over and over and over again because you cant remember what you saw on there and it just ends up being nothing and now your headmates are calling you retarded

four posted this btw

R u gay?

is the image related

having fictives is so weird because ok cool blue evil number! blue normal number! hi green british number! hi roblox obsessed kid that died in a cult suicide! woah green EVIL TWO DIGIT number! and a necrophilliac