𝖋𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖓 𝖉𝖎𝖛𝖎𝖓𝖊

[againholy]

#AGAINHOLY - a private writing blog for the original nephilim charactrer cael stirling. as loved by luca ( 25+, she / they ). lore takes inspiration from a number of urban fantasy sources such as legion, supernatural, dresden files, and daniel faust. slow activity. interacting with 21+ due to mature themes. pre-established plots & relationships are heavily encouraged. using beta editor & x-kit rewritten.

rules ✚ bio ✚ memes ✚ verses ✚ connections

#BLOGROLL -

@valiantsword - oc based on a combination of the old guard & king arthur mythology

@inkpromise - book based gallowglass de clermont from a discover of witches

@aeternals - iconless multimuse featuring a wide range of heavily divergent canon and original characters

[forfoxsake]

closed starter for @againholy

Ezra slid onto the barstool with a grateful sigh, his body slumping into the familiar wooden frame. He must have looked like a wreck, he thought, waving off Cael's concerned expression as he slammed the steaming paper cup onto the counter. "The Liquid Crack special, pure expresso with a dash of coffee and cream, just how you like it," he said with a smirk, trying to reclaim some semblance of his usual bravado.

As Ezra sat, he allowed his senses to expand, as a wolf might tune into the stirring woods, sharpening his awareness of the hum of activity around him. The bar was a melting pot of noises—a cacophony of clinking glasses, raucous laughter, and the faint strains of an old blues song filtering through the crackling speakers. He closed his eyes momentarily, soaking in the sounds, the rhythm and cadence of life swirling around him. The distinct bouquet of the bar tickled his nostrils: a heady mixture of stale beer, the sharp tang of citrus peels, and beneath it all, the warm, inviting aroma of polished wood and well-worn leather.

Just beyond the veil of his lashes, he could sense the other patrons. They felt close, almost uncomfortably so, their energies pressing against his own like invisible, insistent waves. A low, throaty laugh from a woman two stools down sent a ripple of goosebumps cascading down his arm. Somewhere to his right, a man was nervously tapping his fingers on the counter, a rapid-fire staccato that Ezra could almost feel vibrating through the soles of his boots.

"Quite the crowd tonight, huh?" Ezra commented, raising his voice just enough to be heard above the din. "I can see why you need this."

[againholy]

it'd been a few years since cael discovered the truth behind his heritage. partial truth, anyway. the angel who'd found him, dumah, couldn't tell him exactly who his parents were just that, apparently, he sent off some weird angel vibes. since then, he'd learned, very vaguely, about what he could do. there were wings, sometimes some fire, the spirits made a lot more sense, and a bunch of other things that were still a giant question mark. some days he was angry about it, some days not. mostly, it depended on how busy the bar was and how free his thoughts were allowed to reign.

although, on nights like this when the energy was buzzing through his veins cael didn't understand why he was so mad about everything. not angry about the names he was called by other kids or the looks adults would send his way. half of them thought he was lying for attention while the other thought something stronger than prayer was needed to excise the demons from his body. here, in this bar, cael didn't have to be that same person. he could be whatever he wanted to be and that included happy. in control. normal.

" you, " cael turns towards the warm energy to his side; the one that always let him pick ezra from the crowed. well, after learning what it the other felt like. " are an angel. " fingers tap right next to the cup as a form of thanks. the liquid is still warm through the thick paper. if cael looks hard enough he can see the thin tendrils of smoke curling from the mouth piece in the plastic top.

after the first sip he steps to the side so he's not in the way of the register. hands feel around his pockets for his wallet, sliding a twenty over the polished surface in order to pay for his coffee. " yeah. it usually only gets like this on the weekend but i think there's someone playing later tonight that's pulling in the crowd. " shoulders shrug and eyes scan the immediate horizon out of habit. there was an unfamiliar twinge he couldn't put his finger on. half the time it indicated someone was about to throw a fist. other times nothing happened at all.

more things he didn't understand about himself.

" how's it look over your way? you this busy? " another sip on the steaming espresso. " thank you for bringing this over here. i ow you one. "

[wolfisheart]

                                       𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟

[againholy]

icb cael would get along with hale. no one needs that much sassy.

[againholy]

@fulcrumfcrged said, " i need you to listen to me , we don’t have long ."

it'd been just another day. cael woke up, walked to work, and avoided as many people as possible. he couldn't say whether or not anyone's demeanor was worse than normal. again, just another day.

everything started to get questionable when the togruta slid in. she found a corner and angled herself towards the door. not exactly the weirdest thing he'd ever seen. in fact, a surprising amount of people tried to sit as far from the bar as they possibly could. wanting something to drink didn't always fight the urge to be left in the dark. all fine and dandy, that just meant cael poured the drinks and it took an extra step to get out to the customer.

all of a sudden, she was in his face and leaning across the bar as if about to share the secrets of the universe. stunned, cael didn't even finish wiping the spilled ale from his fingers before trying to shake some sense back in his head. was that the unease he'd been feeling? had she been staring at him this entire time? that odd sensation was in his chest again; two magnets trying to collapse together.

" no offense, but i hear that more often than you- " somewhere outside an explosion vibrated the entire building. the floor shook beneath his feet while dust and rock started to rain down over his head. rather than duck down, cael's first instinct was to look around to make sure everything was okay. " was that you?! "

before he could get his answer, however, blaster bolts started to light up the immediate area. this time he had no choice but to duck his head down behind the bar. he crawled on hands and knees, looking foe the one that made the initial warning. " what did you do?? "

[againholy]

@factiousfcrged said, " if they laugh , then fuck them all . "

desiderius was always sweet enough when he came through town. a lot of laugher, a lot of smiles. no one made him feel at ease quite like the grey. part of that came from actually having someone else to talk to about parts of himself he didn't understand. the magic, for instance. growing up, everyone ignored the moving water or the gusts of air. they ignored his questions about the people he ( thought ) he could see, instead shutting him down.

cael was used to the magician being on his own. this time he had a warder tucked so close to his side he wondered if, maybe, they were inseparable. desi? in a relationship? it'd be laughable if it didn't make so much sense. color him surprised when the invitation came to share a room for the evening. a question about the warder brought apprehension quickly masked away. the only reason he ended up taking the invitation was to feel seen one last time.

the next morning as he drank coffee before his shift at the pub, he found himself with some unexpected company. before long he was explaining to the warder how he knew desi, their history, and parts of his own uninteresting story.

fuck them all, amos said in response to a self musing of leaving for the white tower. it was something mentioned the night before. go to the white tower to see how strong he was. if nothing else, someone might have answers as to what he saw and what he could do.

" easier said than done, i guess, " cael grinned at no one in particular. " if i don't find the answers i'm looking for and i have to come back that kind of affects my quality of life. or else i would've told a bunch of people to fuck off a long time ago. " luckily, he got away with sarcasm since the rest of his personality was crowd friendly. " but it's something to think about. "

[tinglingpeter]

JOSHUA ORPIN as Superboy in Titans S03E13 “Purple Rain”

[againholy]

sith!@dutyfcrged said, " i think we should make an informed decision. "

cael had been feeling weird all day. there was that odd flutter in his stomach that wasn't anxiety and it wasn't anything else he knew how to define. a tug of sorts. almost like there was a magnet in his blood trying to connect with something else. it happened every now and again but he'd never been able to figure out why.

on this particular day it should've been a message to stay in bed.

walking home from the bar, he'd been attacked from behind. this tall soldier in black armor sucker punched him. there'd been a sarcastic quip in there cael hadn't hurt, probably because his head was already throbbing by that point. another punch to the gut and an arm around his neck meant all he could do was listen to the whisper in his ear telling him to go to sleep.

when he came to, the room was dark. from what he could tell the furnishings and shape of the room let him believe he was at least on the same planet, still. just not in any building that he could immediately recognize.

" do we? " cael squints against the single light hanging over his head like some interrogation. out of the corner of his eye he sees a glint that looks something like a leg plate. instincts told him there was someone else in the room, though. that particular direction wasn't where the energy in his blood was buzzing towards. " and what kind of decision is that? " fingers flex behind his back. could he use the force against two people and get free? only one real way to find out.

[againholy]

@factiousfcrged said, " is that what you wanted to hear? "

ever since cael started bartending far away from home he'd been able to carve out a new persona for himself. it wasn't the hustle, bustle, or brightness of canto bight but there was enough traffic in the port that there were regulars and new faces alike. all of which, so far, left pretty decent tips. a few of the storm troopers just laughed in his face but, that was to be expected.

with each passing day he got a little more outgoing and a little more social with his interactions. in fact, there were days he found himself pretty excited to go to work simply to see who he'd get to meet for the day.

that happened to change when a beautifully angry face tucked itself into one of the darker corners. a few beers were sent his way but, overall, cael forgot he'd even slipped in.

until the fight started.

the bartender didn't hear the beginning of what started everything but he did hear that followed by a mumble of the poor rodian trying to crawl backwards, out of harm's way. something about how life could be so cozy and happy for everyone. is that what you wanted to hear? perhaps anti-empire mumbling.

" hey, handsome, " cael put himself between the body on the floor and the hulking over hovering over. kneeling down, he started cleaning up the cups and bottles that had fallen as if there wasn't anger so thick on the air a blaster bolt wouldn't be able to fly through. " if you come sit with me at the bar i'll get all these replaced on the house. " one of the cups waves up in the air. " ale, right? "

[againholy]

@sufferingfcrged said, " nothing comes without a consequence or cost . "

there was something in cael's chest that could only be described as a soft hum. like calling like. father matthias hadn't been able to define the things he saw and heard, let alone the things he felt. it wasn't until he'd run into a force user named dumah that cael learned who he was. knowing what he was didn't actually tell him anything about how to use it, though. everything he'd come to know was through trial and error. even that was for the sole purpose of hiding it.

the sensation in his chest had happened a few times while standing behind the bar with no visible rhyme or reason as to why. this time, however, was the first time he'd mentally associated power with what he was feeling. it practically vibrated from the man sitting on the stool in front of him to the point where cael felt himself drawn in a curious way.

" trust me, " cael shakes his head and pushes the glass across the counter. " i've learned that the hard way and so far? hasn't felt remotely worth it. i dunno if that changes or if you eventually find something worth all those consequences but..." no one had ever found him worth it. " is that what brings you here? "

[againholy]

since i blog hop so much, if anyone is interested in plotting feel free to contact me on dis.cord!

hellfirewerewolf

[againholy]

cael's personality is very much punch first, ask questions later. at least, where his friends and people he cares about are concerned. that circle is very small, though. even though father matthias was a loving and supportive figure in his life, that didn't stop other people in his life from having an influence.

when he was young, cael would get made fun of for seeing things no one else could. after a while, he'd get made fun of for reacting to those things ( since he learned not to ask questions anymore ). so, he tends to be very quiet and very guarded around new people. even those he's known for a while only know select layers that he's learned are safe enough to show the world.

after learning about his angel side and starting to bartend, he became a little more social. part of that was because he could essentially start over. in a new city, no one knew who he was or what he'd been scared of. no one knew cael used to be scared of seeing things. so, he could be a new version of himself. a version of himself that could enjoy the crowds, ignore the ( literal ) demons, and smile for the tips.

[ohisms]

↪     𝑴𝑼𝑺𝑰𝑪 ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ 𝑺𝑶𝑼𝑳 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted lyric starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will be updated frequently .  )

i’m not sticking around to watch you go down .

i hope that you don’t suffer ,  but take the pain .

the truth is , i’ve never seen a mouth that i would kill to kiss .

we will be everything that we’d ever need .

you only listen to your fucking friends .

you made a few mistakes .  it’s alright ,  it’s okay .

i’m trying to get better , but i can’t do that when everything is about you .

i can name a couple ways this shit might go .

can you feel my heartbeat fuckin’ kickin ?

you were my everything and all you did was make me fuckin sad .

it’s kind of tripping me up , i’ve got it bad for you .

i’m on my own , i had some space to deal with it .

i’ve got it too good to cry .

i don’t know where i am or where i’ve been .

don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled .

finish up the bottle , then we’ll go .

this room is so suffocating .

motherfucker , don’t play with me .

there’s no doubt in my mind that if you could ,  then you would try .

i’m not the type to be out past dawn .

it’s been a long time since i felt this good on my own .

i really wish that i could say it to your face .

i kinda like it when you talk to me the way you do .

i’ve got something up my sleeve , i walk my talk .

i love you , but i know i’ve gotta let you go .

it’s getting hard to find a silver lining .

of course it hurt , of course it fucking hurt .

i know that you’re hiding something from me .

i don’t need to be loved by you .

trying to ignore it is fucking boring .

i tried to pretend ,  but it just doesn’t feel right .

i just can’t take it anymore .

i’m not trying to change your mind .

living in the city isn’t where it’s at .

don’t waste the time i don’t have ,  don’t try to make me feel bad .

i almost did it … glad that i didn’t .

you better run , you better do what you can .

yeah , i don’t really wanna be here .

pretty things should be seen and not heard .

can’t you bother someone else ?

now i’m sitting here wondering , when did this all start ?

i’m terrified but i can’t resist .

is there someone else or not ?

i’ve been around long enough now to know that good things never last .

i’d rather be the girl that got away than be under your thumb .

it ain’t so bad if i wanna make a few mistakes .

wish i could get some fuckin’ sleep without wasting all my weed .

you scared me to death ,  but i’m wasting my breath .

i feel like a kid again .

you were always taught to believe that everything you think is the truth .

nothing comes without a consequence or cost .

i don’t deserve someone loyal to me .

thought you were headed somewhere new .

touch me like tonight we’re gonna die .

can we go back to the world we had ? 

you should know right now that i never stay in one place .

i’d suffers hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight .

the games you played were never fun .

you said you’d stay , but then you ran .

if i can’t hold you like a lover , i won’t hold you at all .

you and i have history ,  or don’t you remember ?

i’ll be the one to deliver the news .

i’m better than this ,  i know my worth .

there’s something tragic about you .

you don’t know what it’s like , waiting up all night .

thank you for teaching me how i could live without you .

tell me what it is you wanna know .

you’re not a monster ,  you’re just human .

maybe i need better friends . or maybe i need a wake up call .

there’s so much to do , i’ll never have the wherewithal to do it .

i know i’d miss you ,  if i left right now .

i don’t like anyone better than you .

they told me once nothing grows when a house isn’t a home .

what makes you sure you’re all i need ?

i know you feel the way i do .

forever never really felt so right .

i overcommunicate and feel too much .

you say you’ve changed and you’re sorry ,  but i don’t wanna know .

i know i’ve got friends ,  i still get so lonely .

i’ve been doing greater good for a long time .

i’m no hero ,  but i can take a punch .

i thought it would all be great when i was older .

i used to be the one that was lying .

i can’t stand your condescending tone when you talk to me .

we’re still going cause we’re not quite dead .

i wanna scream ,  but what’s the use ?

i know what’s going on in your head .

you know ,  i never wanted to hurt you .

i don’t want to be a prisoner to who i used to be .

if we could stay this way forever , would it be enough ?

can’t you see that i’m getting bored ?

i hope you don’t think that shit’s fair .

i never knew you had such a dirty mind .

sometimes i don’t have a filter .

i’m the worst mistake that god has ever made .

you know i love you , but i’m still learning to love myself .

darling , you’re sick in the head .

am i someone you can’t live without ?

if you don’t come back , at least i’ve got nothing to lose .

did you think that i should listen to you ?

the meds aren’t working for me anymore .

goodbye to my good side ,  it only ever got me hurt .

you know ,  you’ve got a real smart mouth .

i know i’m where i belong .  deep down inside ,  i’ve known all along .

i’ve been putting myself on the sideline .

i was worth something , and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food .

i know i took the path that you would never want for me .

my tongue’s gotten real tired of me biting it .

you’re acting like your deadbeat dad .  you’re better than that .

i swear i changed my ways for the better .

i hate it when dudes try to chase me .

when you’re in love ,  you get so cruel .

sorry , but i guess i’ve gotta let you down again .

just fucking leave me alone .

i walk through this world just trying to be nice .

i can’t be your savior ,  i don’t have the power .

will heaven step in ?  will it save us from our sin ?

follow my lead ,  take my hand .

you should’ve made some plans with me ,  you knew that i was free .

there are things that we’ll never say , but we know .

the only way you can know is to give it all you have .

i’m not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain .

you get me through every dark night .

i know that i’ve done some wrong ,  but i’m trying to make it right .

now you’re over there ,  and i’m way over here , what are we gonna do ?

think about what you believe in .

if i keep my eyes closed ,  he looks just like you .

i don’t wanna feel better .  no one’s ever gonna love me like that again .

there are things that you say ,  and you don’t say .

all my filthy life i loved someone i barely knew .

bless your soul ,  you’ve got your head in the clouds .

what did you say ?  you’re breaking up on me .

if you adore me ,   why do you ignore me ?

you’re not as brave as you were at the start .

it was a bad idea ,  calling you up .

i see it on your face ,  you’ve had a bad day .

people are so fake ,  this world is a cruel place .

i’d rather be hunter than the prey .

someone’s gonna hate ,  it’s never gonna change .

you used to be so kind .

never gonna be easy ,  was it ?

every day’s another shot but all i do is fuck it up .

i can take the hate and all the pain .

it doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right .

tell your baby that i’m your baby .

they’ll kick you and they’ll beat you ,  and they’ll tell you it’s fair .

i wanted to pretend that this time was the end .

no one around me knows who i am or what i’ve done .

i would’ve gave it all for you .

i won’t run ,  i’m not afraid .

same way that they come ,  that’s the way they go .

somehow ,  i just want you more .

i never regretted the day that i called you mine .

i don’t want to get over you .

take it out on me .  i don’t mind if we fight if you make me bleed .

you look better in that dress than i do .

i know i let you down ,  didn’t i ?

it’s a cruel ,  cruel world .

i know i don’t want to live without you .

i’m always tired ,  i just can’t fight it .

i’m too consumed with my own life .

you didn’t think it’d be so much fun .

i won’t let you go ,  so don’t let go of me .

darling , you’re so pretty it hurts .

how’d i ever get so off my rocks ?

tell me where i went wrong .

what’s a king to a god ?  what’s a god to a non-believer ?

they’re out to get you ,  better leave while you can .

i know i’ll never know just what to say .

goddamn it ,  i was worth something .

we don’t need to be enemies .

should’ve kept my ass in bed .

i tried to love you ,  but you’re not my type .

there’s something here that i just can’t explain .

baby ,  is that really what you want ?

i’m not good at making friends .

i keep a close watch on this heart of mine .

i’m obsessed ,  i’ve never met someone like you .

can’t you see that you’re lost without me ?

when i’m like this , you’re the one i trust .

i was born into this , won’t hesitate to use my fists .

i always get my revenge .

the world thinks i’m a mess .

there’s something wrong with me ,  cause all i wanna do is get high .

it’s been a long time since i gave a shit .

sometimes i have these thoughts , they leave me all confused .

when i said take me home ,  that wasn’t what i meant .

oh my god ,  why are you sad again ?

you have to show them that you’re really not scared .

i don’t have many friends .  most of them are pretend .

i had my cake ,  and i ate it too .

i’m too afraid about the things i might say .

shit wasn’t real ,  it was all in my head .

it’s too late to apologize .

i know my disposition gets confusing .

you’ve gotta be so cold to make it in this world .

satisfaction is a distant memory .

no one can ever know .

there’s you in everything i do .

i wish i could say that i’m sorry ,  but i’m over that now .

you’re playing with your life ,  this ain’t no truth or dare .

fool me twice ,  and i know that’s all i need .

i hope if everyone leaves ,  you choose to stay .

i was afraid to leave you on your own .

where along the line did we stop seeing eye to eye ?

if they laugh ,  then fuck them all .

i’m sick and tired of everyone in this place .

i miss the way you made me feel .

he’ll never stay . they never do .

take a dose of something to forget .

aren’t we too young for this ?

i’m not the type to admit i’m wrong .

i shouldn’t think the things i’m thinking .

i don’t wanna know where you’ve been ,  or where you go .

[againholy]

star wars verse inc. just need to brain which era to thrust him into.

[fictkin-aes]

Fallen Angel aesthetic with crows and rebellion themes

[mndvx]

TITANS – Super Super Mart (S04E04) ››› Joshua Orpin as Conner Kent / Superboy

[ohisms]

↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   no longer updating .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?