This will likely be my final post on this blog. I want to explain clearly why I stopped posting and why I'm keeping this blog up as an "archive." TW for non detailed mentions of abuse.
I started this blog as a teenager. What I've realized since then is that I went through repeated CSA, which was the cause of my feelings. In the past I was unwilling to admit what happened to me or face those memories, and I think I was sort of "stuck." I'm now 21 and I don't experience age dysphoria anymore. Quite frankly I have nothing to post about here. I don't want to suggest that everyone or even most people experiencing age dysphoria have been through CSA. I think the human mind is more complicated than that.
The main reason I started this blog was because I went looking for people who shared my feelings and distress about age on the internet as a teenager and saw people being accused of being pedophiles or predators in disguise for feeling "stuck" at a younger age. Especially given what I went through this was extremely upsetting to me and I wanted to create a space where it was safe to talk about experiences of age dysphoria in an honest and non-judgemental way.
I want to keep this blog open for the same reason I started it. I have a feeling people are here for many reasons, and have many different experiences. But it's important to me that people know they're not alone with what they're feeling and they shouldn't be ashamed of it, regardless of the exact situation. People often don't know exactly what's going on with them and shouldn't have to justify feeling the way they do. The only reason to be ashamed is if you have predatory intentions, period.
I do recommend that people who are experiencing similar feelings to the ones I was having (feeling stuck in childhood, distressed by my body and social role, dreading each new birthday, feeling like a kid stuck in an older person's body) seek professional help if possible, because at the very least I think it's likely that some kind of dissociation is involved.
I'll reiterate for the last time that I don't believe identifying as trans age is healthy. Of course that's just my opinion, and I want this blog/archive to be welcoming and open anyways to people regardless of how they choose to cope with their feelings.


















