Lying’s All I’ve Learned

God can't see me from the cheap seats TØP blogging since 2013 *THE MASTERPOST IS 12 Y/O AND DEAD* 9.7.14 | 2.4.18

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as soon as they told frank they were gonna wear the original black parade jackets he started psyching himself up to try bisexuality again

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Just a cryptid in the backseat - TOP "Drum Show"

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Never coming home

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The Black Parade is Dead!, 2008 + Long Live the Black Parade, 2025

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via @/kotathorn on tiktok

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Tyler Joseph (35, very spry)

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2 happy boys

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The driving force of Clancy (album but also the guy) is "I was supposed to be better by now." You were supposed to grow up and be past this. You were supposed to be "normal." Isn't that what you always used to promise yourself? What everyone promised? That it would get better One Day? When is that day supposed to come? When you're 25? 35? Maybe everyone was wrong and it never comes. Maybe you will always feel like you're the worst you've ever been when a new depression episode hits. Maybe you will truthfully always be as suicidal as you were when you were 14, but now you just have more (practical) reasons not to do it. Maybe you never really recover from the trauma and it just grows and changes with you. Maybe you're always going to feel like you're a half step behind everyone else your age because you spent all your golden years locked alone in your bedroom wishing you could stop existing or at least become someone else. Maybe you will always feel like you're lying to everyone when you act like you're fine. Maybe they will always pity you. Maybe this time around they'll finally admit what you already suspect, that they're tired of you and tired of this, and they'll leave.

And the theme of Clancy is, actually, really, you have gotten better. Every time. Even if you can't see it yet. And they're all still waiting for you, like they always have before, and like they maybe always will. People want to see you at your worst because they love you. You just have to swim a little to get to them. You just have to look yourself in the face sometimes

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