I hate that I am not normal. Why did my childhood get so messed that I have developed an anxious attachment style when it comes to dating.
I have worked hard on this in the last three years but now that I am in a healthy relationship.. my brain goes into hyper vigilance mode and protect myself mode even tho I am a lover girl to the core.
I just want it to finally be my time where I get to move in with my partner. Engaged, married and be a mom.
I see this so much with my current partner and it helps that he is actually a guy. He can actually give me kids and the life I have been craving for years.
Please god.. let this be the one.
I am tired.



















