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I'm fuming.

Somebody reported my recent chapter of my new series, The Celebrity Next Door because it contained "adult content."

I'm not sure who reported but this is absolutely ridiculous. I've posted many smut pieces before, this one was no different.

My entire account is messed up now, my profile picture and cover has been taken down and even after many attempts to change them back, it keeps failing.

Whoever reported, that was low. I added warnings for a reason.

Whoever has been supporting me and my series, thank you. I will release the chapter again, when I can.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 9

Summary: Late nights cause for unexpected heated moments... not that I'm complaining.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 1600+

Warnings: SMUT18+, Oral (F), First time, Sexual content, swearing, probably more

Overwhelming sensations. 

Heat, lots of heat spreading throughout my body.

Vibrations from my toes to my eyes.

The sound of grunting and light moaning filled my ears.

Was this a dream?

My eyes fluttered open, facing the dark, only a small night light in the corner giving the room some warmth.

But I knew this house wasn’t asleep even with how dark it was. 

Not with all the feelings that were rushing through my body like a tsunami. 

My hands moved beside me searching for Jensen but he was nowhere in sight. 

I felt the intense feeling grow lower in my body and I lifted the blanket off of me, my eyes falling on Jensen laying between my legs, his mouth devouring me, only slowing for a second so he could look up at me.

I gasped at the sight of him, a shiver rushing through my body when I realized that this was not a dream. 

Here he was, going down on me in the middle of the night. It was random, surprising but in such a good way. Jensen and I haven’t gotten this far before, the most we have done was makeout. 

His head lifted off of me, his eyes searching mine. My mouth was gaping open, waiting for him to say something, anything.

But just a simple smirk appeared on his face, along with one word.

“Okay?”

I bit my lip and nodded, a loud moan falling out of my mouth when he instantly put his mouth back on me, licking and sucking like a starved man.

My hands clenched the sheets so tight I thought I’d rip them. 

He never slowed, he kept his pace while his fingers pushed inside of me, filling me so deliciously I could have come undone here right now. 

But I wanted to do that with him.

My hand moved to his hair, lightly tugging the strands to force him to face me.

“Jensen… Wait please…”

He lifted his head instantly, snaking up my body before gently kissing my lips. “Did you want me to stop? It’s okay if you do.” He whispered in my ear.

I moaned at his rough voice, goosebumps spreading on my arms and legs. “No.. I don’t want to… I want you. I need you.”

He smirked a knowing smile, his eyes turning a darker color when he realized what I was asking for. “You sure honey?”

I nodded and moved my hand lower, grabbing his already hard cock in my hand to stroke him.

His eyes rolled back slowly and a low groan escaped his lips.

“F-Fuck…”

“Yes…. precisely.” I winked, my attempt at being sexy.

He bit his lip and his gaze moved down towards our bodies, grabbing his cock and slowly sliding it inside me.

We fell apart instantly, moans and hums of approval filling the room.

He moved slowly at first like he was chasing the feeling of being inside of me.

I was falling apart, feeling so full. He was bigger than anybody I’ve been with and there was something about this that just felt so right.

His pace moved faster as time went by, his lips pressing down on mine, his hand on my cheek, pushing as hard as he could against me that I swore my ribs would break but I couldn’t care less. This was everything I wanted.

He moved faster, thrusting harder and harder until we were being deafened my our own moans and screams.

His hand snaked down my body moving down to my clit, rubbing the swollen nub gently yet fast, bringing me closer and closer to the edge of that sweet release.

He growled and leaned his head on my shoulder, panting and coming undone. He was close.

“Honey.. Please… Need you to cum first.”

I giggled and kissed his head, “You don’t need to do that… as much as I appreciate it.”

He chuckled back and shook his head, “What kind of guy would I be if i didn’t make you cum before I do?”

I was about to respond when his thumb moved harder, faster. Pushing me toward the finish line with flying colors.

“Oh…” I gasped out, my eyes squeezed shut tightly. “Fuck…. Oh god… Oh, fuck.”

He smirked and lifted his head, watching the show in awe. “That’s it honey… that’s it. C’mon, cum for me.”

I gripped his shoulders tightly and lifted my legs to wrap around him. He moved his other hand on my hip and gripped me tightly, pounding into me with all his strength. My head was spinning, my vision going white. I could feel his cock twitching, threatening to spill at any second. 

I gripped as tight as I could and let myself go, shockwaves flowing through my body before the coil finally snapped. 

Jensen’s eyes widened at the sight, his moans growing louder as he was forced to the edge.

“F-Fuck… oh fuck I’m going to…” He growled, his grip on my hip almost bruising.

He collapsed on top of me, the room now filled with breathy gasps and panting, surrounding the room like a cozy blanket.

He lifted his head and leaned down, kissing my lips passionately before rolling off of me and pulling me into his arms.

“Mmm… That was amazing, baby.” He whispered, laying a kiss on the back of my head.

I smiled to myself and held his hands tighter against me, “It was more than amazing, it was perfect.”

“Your perfect.” He mumbled before we both drifted into a peaceful sleep.

When I opened my eyes again, daylight filled the room. 

There was no sight of Jensen and his side of the bed was cold. 

My heart started pounding, was it just a dream last night? Did he regret what happened?

Like my savior of bad thoughts, Jensen showed up at the doorway, his hair messy and a wide smile on his face. 

“Good morning honey, breakfast is ready.”

I smiled and breathed out a breath of relief. My head sometimes killed me.

He stepped closer and sat at the edge of the bed, his eyes locked into mine, slight concern spreading across his features. “Are you okay?”

I nodded and pulled him closer to me, holding him tight to my chest. “Yeah, just got worried for a second.”

He hummed against me and titled his head to face me. “About what baby?”

I shrugged and smiled nervously, I hated talking about my insecurities. I knew he would never judge me or look at me like I was a freak, but I always felt so pathetic for being worried about the stupidest shit.

“Please tell me… Was it last night? Too soon?”

I shook my head frantically and placed my hand on his cheek, “No no… Not at all, last night was perfect. It was just this morning when you weren’t here. My mind played tricks on me I guess.”

He smiled and nodded, “Thought I fucked and chucked?”

My mouth dropped and he burst into giggles like a child causing me to giggle with him. “Jensen… No that’s so weird!”

He smirked and kissed my chest, “Dine and dashed?”

I cringed and put my hand over his mouth, “No! Stop that!”

“Hit it and quit it?”

I rolled my eyes and smacked him, “Stoppppp!”

He burst into laughter, “Okay okay I’m done! Seriously though, is that what you thought?”

I nodded sadly and shrugged, embarrassed to be even thinking that, ashamed that I felt this way.

He sat up slowly, leaning over me before kissing my lips hard. “I’d never. You mean too much to me, honey. Last night was unexpected.”

I wriggled my eyebrows and bit my lip, “More for me than for you, the whole idea was yours.”

His cheeks turned a beautiful shade of red and my heart melted for him. He chuckled and hid his face beside me, “I didn’t even know what I was doing. I just woke up craving you and I couldn’t resist.”

Now it was my turn to blush, causing him to smile wide. 

“Well, never resist. You're good at that. More than good…..”

He smirked cockily causing my eyes to roll before smacking his shoulder playfully.

He chuckled and shook his head, “I do still have some Dean Winchester in me, it’s probably all him.”

I put on my best poker face and looked confused, “Who?”

His mouth gaped open before it closed, “Oh.. nothing sorry it’s a character I played.”

Loud laughter filled the room when my face broke and he instantly knew I was fucking with him. 

“You little shit, I made you breakfast!”

“I’m sorry but you are too easy sometimes. Of course, I know who Dean is!”

He moved to get off the bed, his hand reaching for mine to help me off the bed. “So you are a Dean girl eh?”

I laughed and shook my head, “No, I am a Castiel and Sam girl but they unfortunately didn’t live beside me, so I had to settle for you.”

He froze as an evil smile spread across his face. “Okay, now your done.”

I screamed when he picked me up in his arms, dropping me on the bed before his fingers moved underneath my arms, tickling me relentlessly.

“No! No okay, I’m a Dean girl!” I laughed loudly.

He chuckled back and shook his head, “It’s too late, Dean and I are deeply offended and voted that you need to be punished. Two against one sweetheart!”

I laughed and accepted my punishment, my heart full of love. If this could be my everyday routine, I could die happy.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 8

Summary: Insecurities run wild when it's the first time in public as a couple.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2500

Warnings: Slight panic attack, mentions of anxiety, mentions of body insecurities, swearing probably.

Time flies when you're having fun.

That’s what everybody says, and I never believed it. I’ve had fun before and time didn’t necessarily go by any faster. 

But spending the week with Jensen and his kids felt like it’s been only hours since they came home. 

And now here they were already, packing their bags and getting ready to go back to their mom’s house. 

Kevin placed his bag in the hallway as did Katie, Jensen coming down the stairs to see them off as he always did.

I packed my belongings in my purse and put my shoes on at the back door, getting ready to leave when Jensen rushed to my side.

“Where are you sneaking off to?” He smirked, pulling me closer by my coat.

I laughed and pushed his chest back gently, “Home silly.”

His smile dropped and he stared at me in shock, like I just hurt his feelings.

 “Why?”

Confusion filled me as I stepped closer, and a small polite smile spread on my lips. “What do you mean why? Out of respect. I don’t need to be here when she shows up, remember last time?”

His features grew cold and he looked away from me, a poor attempt to put his walls back up.

“Hey... Jensen, don’t do that. I’m not trying to upset you. But last time we both slightly froze and we mentioned how we were enjoying the drama-free life. We don’t have to change anything.”

He frowned and shook his head, “I want it to change. I don’t want to hide us anymore. The past week has been amazing, for you, me, and the kids. And I want that to become real, I want our little bubble to pop, and for us to go out into the real world, together.”

I smiled and put my bag down, stepping closer to him to wrap my arms around his waist.

“Then let’s change it.”

Half an hour passed and finally, the children’s mom pulled up. I swallowed my nerves and stood in my spot, turning to glance at Jensen who was looking even more scared than I was.

Her face dropped when she spotted me, a knowing smile playing on her red-stained lips.

“Oh… Hi. Y/N was it?” She spoke, stepping closer to Jensen and me.

I nodded and smiled friendly, “Yes, it’s nice to see you again Danneel!”

She kept her composure and stared back at Jensen who was quiet, and still. You’d swear he was frozen in position by the way he wasn’t even moving an inch. 

“Jensen? Are you going to say Hi or just stand there like a deer in headlights?” She joked.

Jensen smiled politely and shook off his nerves, stepping closer to her, “Hey Danneel. How was the drive?”

She shrugged and looked back at her car, “Not bad, I do miss living in Austin though, I might have to see if I can move back there.”

He swallowed hard and his face went cold. Angry. The wall building. Brick by brick.

I backed up to let them talk, sitting beside the kids on the stairs. 

“So.. Did you have a good week guys?”

Katie nodded and smiled, leaning her head on my shoulder. “I’ll miss you!”

I laughed, my heart instantly warming at her words. “I’ll miss you too Katie Girl but don’t worry, I live right next door. Come visit me whenever you come back okay?”

She nodded enthusiastically and my attention turned towards Kevin, who was sitting with his arms crossed and a really grumpy look on his face.

“What about you Kevin? Have a good week?”

He shrugged and huffed, putting that cold shoulder back, like this week never happened.

Yes, I’ll admit it hurt,  but he was a kid, there would be a million things in his mind, especially the switching back and forth between parents, it couldn’t be that easy.

The voices of the parents got louder before they just stopped talking to each other completely. 

Jensen walked away shaking his head, approaching Katie and Kevin and attempting to force a smile. “C’mon guys, time to get in the car.”

We waved goodbye to the kids as they left, watching the sad expression on their faces. 

They weren’t even my kids but it broke my heart to say goodbye to them. It made me want to crawl into bed and never come out. 

Jensen and I sat on the stairs in silence, the air was filled with tension, something that was bothering him that maybe he didn’t want to share yet. He stared out into the street where the car was.

“Jensen?” I whispered, catching his attention.

He turned towards me and smiled sadly, “I’m good, it’s just a lot sometimes.”

I nodded understandingly and gripped his hand in mine tightly. “Well, why don’t we do something today? Get out of the house a bit?”

He smiled for the first time this morning and nodded, “Yeah. Let’s do it.”

After researching things to do and places to go, Jensen suggested we go see the market by the beach. Apparently, there were little kiosks and stands with handmade items, something that I was really interested in. 

We parked on the street and got out of the car, his hand instantly reaching for mine. He was never a man shy of affection in the right moments, in front of his kids it was more innocent and less “in your face”. Usually, when it’s just him and I thought, his hands are constantly on me.

Not that I’m complaining.

We walked down the pier and my eyes lit up by all the beautiful booths set up, anything you could imagine- they had it.

They had henna, face paints, handmade bags, shirts, skirts, dresses, stickers, stuffed animals, and hats. It was like I was attending an art exhibit and I couldn’t look away.

Jensen chuckled causing my attention to move to him, where his eyes were staring right at me.

“What?” I whispered nervously.

He smirked and pulled me into him tightly, “You're adorable. That’s what.”

My cheeks burned red at the compliment, he was never shy of that either. Constantly telling me how cute he thought I was or how beautiful I was. I don’t think he realized how much it really meant to me. Because man, as much as I wanted to believe it, I didn’t.

We kept walking down the boardwalk, stopping for seconds to look at each booth. Jensen was checking out the handmade gemstone necklaces when my eye caught something amazing in the booth next door. 

It was a handmade beanie that said “COD” on it. Call Of Duty.

My mind thought of Kevin and what he would think if we got him this hat, would he hate it? Would he wear it? Would he think it’s ridiculous that we even bought a hat from here? I never knew with that kid.

Jensen’s arms wrapped around me from behind, a light kiss on my shoulder giving me chills. “What are you looking at?”

I smiled and pointed to the hat hanging on the hook, “I’m not sure if Kevin would like that but…”

He turned me around to face him, a wide smile on his face. “He would love it.”

We grabbed the hat and went towards the cash when giggling filled my ears. My gaze fell on two girls who were standing in the booth next door, eyeing Jensen like he was a piece of meat. 

I looked at him who seemed unbothered, unaware of the giggles or the way they were pointing and I quickly realized that of course, he was used to this. I keep forgetting he’s a celebrity. 

When we paid for the hat we started to leave but the girls from before rushed over, stopping only mere inches from Jensen and me.

“Jensen!! OH MY GOD! I LOVE YOU!” One girl shrieked out causing me to jump and back up.

“Can we get a picture!! Please?” The other girl asked, she was more polite and distant, she was somebody I didn’t mind, but this other girl… I slightly wanted to hit her.

Jensen looked at me apologetically but I shrugged it off, I knew this would happen to all celebrities, I just didn’t expect how intense it could be.

I grabbed the phone for the girls and took a few photos, my eyes focusing on Jensen’s bright smile and the way he wrapped his arm around each of them. There was a green monster overtaking my body and I hated it. My insecurities were growing. They were well dressed, beautiful, and practically flawless with their sun-kissed skin. 

And then there was me.

I wasn’t the type of person you’d expect to see with a celebrity. I was the one who wouldn’t be allowed on the red carpet because I don’t “Fit in”.

And my anxiety started growing, unsure of why Jensen was really with me in the first place. 

I passed the phone back to the girls and slowly turned around, continuing to walk down the boardwalk. 

Jensen caught up to me, his hand resting on my back gently. “Hey.. You okay?”

I nodded and attempted a smile, but it was no use. My anxiety was growing with every thought flowing through my mind. 

Your not enough.

Your fooling yourself by thinking he would ever want to be with you.

Jensen deserves better.

He doesn’t find you attractive.

Your nothing.

“Y/N?” He whispered, standing in front of me to try and get a better look at my condition. He frowned when he noticed the stray teardrop falling and the way my breathing was becoming heavy. I hated it. I hated that he was staring at me like this. I hated that I couldn’t control my insecurities or my worries. I hated that I wasn’t enough for him.

His hand was tight on my arm, pulling me to the stairs so we could get some privacy. I shakily sat down, throwing my head in my hands to avoid whatever pity look he was offering me. 

“Honey… Please talk to me, what’s going on?” He begged, his voice filled with concern.

Good job, now your worrying him.

I opened my mouth to speak when my breath got caught in my throat, a loud raspy cough escaping my lips causing my breathing to become faster.

“Okay… Okay deep breaths baby your okay.”

Nice, now it’s his job to take care of you. Again. Your a burden.

“Jensen… you don’t need to… I’ll be okay.”

He moved to sit in front of me, confusion filling his face as he looked into my eyes. Noticing the fear and the sadness behind them.

“Okay, what’s going on baby? You know I’m here for you.”

I laughed lightly and shook my head, more tears rushing down my face but I didn’t care anymore. “That’s the point… you shouldn’t be.”

He tilted his head and frowned, his eyes filling with sadness of his own. “Why are you saying this?”

I shook my head and put my face in my hands, hiding away from the man I really wanted to hug right now, I was trying to protect him… from me. 

“Because… I’m not worth it… Fuck, your Jensen fucking Ackles, and I am… me. It doesn’t seem quite right does it?”

His hand grabbed mine off my face, the other tilting my chin to face him better. A soft smile played on his lips as he stared in my eyes. God, his eyes.

“Says who?”

“Says everybody. Society. You seen those girls fangirling over you. When you had your arms around them, it just looked right. I can’t imagine it ever looking right if you did that to me. Because I am not a model with the perfect body and perfect face. Hell, I’ve been in LA for a while now and I still don’t have that perfect sun-kissed skin all the girls around here have.”

He laughed lightly, not like he was laughing at me, but more that he was laughing that I would even say something so ridiculous. Like it was hilarious that those words even came out of my mouth. 

“Honey, you are right. You are not a model, you don’t have sun kissed skin. But that doesn’t make you less than what they are. That doesn’t make you worthless or not enough for me.”

I scoffed and tried to stand, tried to walk away from this conversation all together. “Your just pity saying that.”

He quickly grabbed my arm and spun me around so I was tight against him, his hand pushing my head on his chest in a cuddling kind of way. 

“You are enough. You are more than enough because of who you are. You never have expected anything from me, you gave me a second chance when I was nothing but a total dick to you. You helped me multiple times when you didn’t need to. And you connect with my kids so well, Kevin won’t admit it but he likes you. I’ve never seen somebody make the effort to play video games with him or try out what he wanted to do, Katie takes up all the time and I think he gets left out but you? You see him. You balance everybody and never ask for anything in return.”

I wrapped my arms around him and held him for dear life, feeling him bringing me back to the surface and he knew it. God, he knew how to read me better than anybody.

“You are always going to be enough. You are the one I want to be with. Not girls like them. They're not beautiful to me. You are beautiful. You are flawlessly, naturally gorgeous. I mean… look at you… Honey, you can stop anybody's breath.”

Jensen backed up, pulling my face up towards him before pressing his lips firmly against mine. Kissing me harder and more passionately than he’s ever done. His hands moved in my hair, pulling me impossibly closer, bodies on bodies. Heat spreading throughout our bodies. Loud breathy gasps escaped our lips whenever we separated for a second. We were falling in love, or maybe we already did. 

If he could love me like this, than maybe I am enough afterall.

He moved back slightly, his hand coming on my cheek while his other hand grabbed something in his pocket. He spun me around and moved my hair, placing a necklace around my neck gently.

I looked down and smiled widely, staring at the small blue gemstone that was hanging from my neck.

“Oh… Jensen I love it!” I exclaimed, turning to face him again.

He smiled shyly and leaned closer to kiss my lips gently this time, just enough to know he meant it.

“You deserve the world. I promise I’m going to try and give it to you Y/N, if you let me.”

My heart was pounding but this time, it wasn’t from the anxiety. It was from the amount of love I had for this man.

For the man who was changing my life. I was ready to push my anxiety aside and be here with him, forever.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 8

Summary: Insecurities run wild when it's the first time in public as a couple.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2500

Warnings: Slight panic attack, mentions of anxiety, mentions of body insecurities, swearing probably.

Time flies when you're having fun.

That’s what everybody says, and I never believed it. I’ve had fun before and time didn’t necessarily go by any faster. 

But spending the week with Jensen and his kids felt like it’s been only hours since they came home. 

And now here they were already, packing their bags and getting ready to go back to their mom’s house. 

Kevin placed his bag in the hallway as did Katie, Jensen coming down the stairs to see them off as he always did.

I packed my belongings in my purse and put my shoes on at the back door, getting ready to leave when Jensen rushed to my side.

“Where are you sneaking off to?” He smirked, pulling me closer by my coat.

I laughed and pushed his chest back gently, “Home silly.”

His smile dropped and he stared at me in shock, like I just hurt his feelings.

 “Why?”

Confusion filled me as I stepped closer, and a small polite smile spread on my lips. “What do you mean why? Out of respect. I don’t need to be here when she shows up, remember last time?”

His features grew cold and he looked away from me, a poor attempt to put his walls back up.

“Hey... Jensen, don’t do that. I’m not trying to upset you. But last time we both slightly froze and we mentioned how we were enjoying the drama-free life. We don’t have to change anything.”

He frowned and shook his head, “I want it to change. I don’t want to hide us anymore. The past week has been amazing, for you, me, and the kids. And I want that to become real, I want our little bubble to pop, and for us to go out into the real world, together.”

I smiled and put my bag down, stepping closer to him to wrap my arms around his waist.

“Then let’s change it.”

Half an hour passed and finally, the children’s mom pulled up. I swallowed my nerves and stood in my spot, turning to glance at Jensen who was looking even more scared than I was.

Her face dropped when she spotted me, a knowing smile playing on her red-stained lips.

“Oh… Hi. Y/N was it?” She spoke, stepping closer to Jensen and me.

I nodded and smiled friendly, “Yes, it’s nice to see you again Danneel!”

She kept her composure and stared back at Jensen who was quiet, and still. You’d swear he was frozen in position by the way he wasn’t even moving an inch. 

“Jensen? Are you going to say Hi or just stand there like a deer in headlights?” She joked.

Jensen smiled politely and shook off his nerves, stepping closer to her, “Hey Danneel. How was the drive?”

She shrugged and looked back at her car, “Not bad, I do miss living in Austin though, I might have to see if I can move back there.”

He swallowed hard and his face went cold. Angry. The wall building. Brick by brick.

I backed up to let them talk, sitting beside the kids on the stairs. 

“So.. Did you have a good week guys?”

Katie nodded and smiled, leaning her head on my shoulder. “I’ll miss you!”

I laughed, my heart instantly warming at her words. “I’ll miss you too Katie Girl but don’t worry, I live right next door. Come visit me whenever you come back okay?”

She nodded enthusiastically and my attention turned towards Kevin, who was sitting with his arms crossed and a really grumpy look on his face.

“What about you Kevin? Have a good week?”

He shrugged and huffed, putting that cold shoulder back, like this week never happened.

Yes, I’ll admit it hurt,  but he was a kid, there would be a million things in his mind, especially the switching back and forth between parents, it couldn’t be that easy.

The voices of the parents got louder before they just stopped talking to each other completely. 

Jensen walked away shaking his head, approaching Katie and Kevin and attempting to force a smile. “C’mon guys, time to get in the car.”

We waved goodbye to the kids as they left, watching the sad expression on their faces. 

They weren’t even my kids but it broke my heart to say goodbye to them. It made me want to crawl into bed and never come out. 

Jensen and I sat on the stairs in silence, the air was filled with tension, something that was bothering him that maybe he didn’t want to share yet. He stared out into the street where the car was.

“Jensen?” I whispered, catching his attention.

He turned towards me and smiled sadly, “I’m good, it’s just a lot sometimes.”

I nodded understandingly and gripped his hand in mine tightly. “Well, why don’t we do something today? Get out of the house a bit?”

He smiled for the first time this morning and nodded, “Yeah. Let’s do it.”

After researching things to do and places to go, Jensen suggested we go see the market by the beach. Apparently, there were little kiosks and stands with handmade items, something that I was really interested in. 

We parked on the street and got out of the car, his hand instantly reaching for mine. He was never a man shy of affection in the right moments, in front of his kids it was more innocent and less “in your face”. Usually, when it’s just him and I thought, his hands are constantly on me.

Not that I’m complaining.

We walked down the pier and my eyes lit up by all the beautiful booths set up, anything you could imagine- they had it.

They had henna, face paints, handmade bags, shirts, skirts, dresses, stickers, stuffed animals, and hats. It was like I was attending an art exhibit and I couldn’t look away.

Jensen chuckled causing my attention to move to him, where his eyes were staring right at me.

“What?” I whispered nervously.

He smirked and pulled me into him tightly, “You're adorable. That’s what.”

My cheeks burned red at the compliment, he was never shy of that either. Constantly telling me how cute he thought I was or how beautiful I was. I don’t think he realized how much it really meant to me. Because man, as much as I wanted to believe it, I didn’t.

We kept walking down the boardwalk, stopping for seconds to look at each booth. Jensen was checking out the handmade gemstone necklaces when my eye caught something amazing in the booth next door. 

It was a handmade beanie that said “COD” on it. Call Of Duty.

My mind thought of Kevin and what he would think if we got him this hat, would he hate it? Would he wear it? Would he think it’s ridiculous that we even bought a hat from here? I never knew with that kid.

Jensen’s arms wrapped around me from behind, a light kiss on my shoulder giving me chills. “What are you looking at?”

I smiled and pointed to the hat hanging on the hook, “I’m not sure if Kevin would like that but…”

He turned me around to face him, a wide smile on his face. “He would love it.”

We grabbed the hat and went towards the cash when giggling filled my ears. My gaze fell on two girls who were standing in the booth next door, eyeing Jensen like he was a piece of meat. 

I looked at him who seemed unbothered, unaware of the giggles or the way they were pointing and I quickly realized that of course, he was used to this. I keep forgetting he’s a celebrity. 

When we paid for the hat we started to leave but the girls from before rushed over, stopping only mere inches from Jensen and me.

“Jensen!! OH MY GOD! I LOVE YOU!” One girl shrieked out causing me to jump and back up.

“Can we get a picture!! Please?” The other girl asked, she was more polite and distant, she was somebody I didn’t mind, but this other girl… I slightly wanted to hit her.

Jensen looked at me apologetically but I shrugged it off, I knew this would happen to all celebrities, I just didn’t expect how intense it could be.

I grabbed the phone for the girls and took a few photos, my eyes focusing on Jensen’s bright smile and the way he wrapped his arm around each of them. There was a green monster overtaking my body and I hated it. My insecurities were growing. They were well dressed, beautiful, and practically flawless with their sun-kissed skin. 

And then there was me.

I wasn’t the type of person you’d expect to see with a celebrity. I was the one who wouldn’t be allowed on the red carpet because I don’t “Fit in”.

And my anxiety started growing, unsure of why Jensen was really with me in the first place. 

I passed the phone back to the girls and slowly turned around, continuing to walk down the boardwalk. 

Jensen caught up to me, his hand resting on my back gently. “Hey.. You okay?”

I nodded and attempted a smile, but it was no use. My anxiety was growing with every thought flowing through my mind. 

Your not enough.

Your fooling yourself by thinking he would ever want to be with you.

Jensen deserves better.

He doesn’t find you attractive.

Your nothing.

“Y/N?” He whispered, standing in front of me to try and get a better look at my condition. He frowned when he noticed the stray teardrop falling and the way my breathing was becoming heavy. I hated it. I hated that he was staring at me like this. I hated that I couldn’t control my insecurities or my worries. I hated that I wasn’t enough for him.

His hand was tight on my arm, pulling me to the stairs so we could get some privacy. I shakily sat down, throwing my head in my hands to avoid whatever pity look he was offering me. 

“Honey… Please talk to me, what’s going on?” He begged, his voice filled with concern.

Good job, now your worrying him.

I opened my mouth to speak when my breath got caught in my throat, a loud raspy cough escaping my lips causing my breathing to become faster.

“Okay… Okay deep breaths baby your okay.”

Nice, now it’s his job to take care of you. Again. Your a burden.

“Jensen… you don’t need to… I’ll be okay.”

He moved to sit in front of me, confusion filling his face as he looked into my eyes. Noticing the fear and the sadness behind them.

“Okay, what’s going on baby? You know I’m here for you.”

I laughed lightly and shook my head, more tears rushing down my face but I didn’t care anymore. “That’s the point… you shouldn’t be.”

He tilted his head and frowned, his eyes filling with sadness of his own. “Why are you saying this?”

I shook my head and put my face in my hands, hiding away from the man I really wanted to hug right now, I was trying to protect him… from me. 

“Because… I’m not worth it… Fuck, your Jensen fucking Ackles, and I am… me. It doesn’t seem quite right does it?”

His hand grabbed mine off my face, the other tilting my chin to face him better. A soft smile played on his lips as he stared in my eyes. God, his eyes.

“Says who?”

“Says everybody. Society. You seen those girls fangirling over you. When you had your arms around them, it just looked right. I can’t imagine it ever looking right if you did that to me. Because I am not a model with the perfect body and perfect face. Hell, I’ve been in LA for a while now and I still don’t have that perfect sun-kissed skin all the girls around here have.”

He laughed lightly, not like he was laughing at me, but more that he was laughing that I would even say something so ridiculous. Like it was hilarious that those words even came out of my mouth. 

“Honey, you are right. You are not a model, you don’t have sun kissed skin. But that doesn’t make you less than what they are. That doesn’t make you worthless or not enough for me.”

I scoffed and tried to stand, tried to walk away from this conversation all together. “Your just pity saying that.”

He quickly grabbed my arm and spun me around so I was tight against him, his hand pushing my head on his chest in a cuddling kind of way. 

“You are enough. You are more than enough because of who you are. You never have expected anything from me, you gave me a second chance when I was nothing but a total dick to you. You helped me multiple times when you didn’t need to. And you connect with my kids so well, Kevin won’t admit it but he likes you. I’ve never seen somebody make the effort to play video games with him or try out what he wanted to do, Katie takes up all the time and I think he gets left out but you? You see him. You balance everybody and never ask for anything in return.”

I wrapped my arms around him and held him for dear life, feeling him bringing me back to the surface and he knew it. God, he knew how to read me better than anybody.

“You are always going to be enough. You are the one I want to be with. Not girls like them. They're not beautiful to me. You are beautiful. You are flawlessly, naturally gorgeous. I mean… look at you… Honey, you can stop anybody's breath.”

Jensen backed up, pulling my face up towards him before pressing his lips firmly against mine. Kissing me harder and more passionately than he’s ever done. His hands moved in my hair, pulling me impossibly closer, bodies on bodies. Heat spreading throughout our bodies. Loud breathy gasps escaped our lips whenever we separated for a second. We were falling in love, or maybe we already did. 

If he could love me like this, than maybe I am enough afterall.

He moved back slightly, his hand coming on my cheek while his other hand grabbed something in his pocket. He spun me around and moved my hair, placing a necklace around my neck gently.

I looked down and smiled widely, staring at the small blue gemstone that was hanging from my neck.

“Oh… Jensen I love it!” I exclaimed, turning to face him again.

He smiled shyly and leaned closer to kiss my lips gently this time, just enough to know he meant it.

“You deserve the world. I promise I’m going to try and give it to you Y/N, if you let me.”

My heart was pounding but this time, it wasn’t from the anxiety. It was from the amount of love I had for this man.

For the man who was changing my life. I was ready to push my anxiety aside and be here with him, forever.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 8

Summary: Insecurities run wild when it's the first time in public as a couple.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2500

Warnings: Slight panic attack, mentions of anxiety, mentions of body insecurities, swearing probably.

Time flies when you're having fun.

That’s what everybody says, and I never believed it. I’ve had fun before and time didn’t necessarily go by any faster. 

But spending the week with Jensen and his kids felt like it’s been only hours since they came home. 

And now here they were already, packing their bags and getting ready to go back to their mom’s house. 

Kevin placed his bag in the hallway as did Katie, Jensen coming down the stairs to see them off as he always did.

I packed my belongings in my purse and put my shoes on at the back door, getting ready to leave when Jensen rushed to my side.

“Where are you sneaking off to?” He smirked, pulling me closer by my coat.

I laughed and pushed his chest back gently, “Home silly.”

His smile dropped and he stared at me in shock, like I just hurt his feelings.

 “Why?”

Confusion filled me as I stepped closer, and a small polite smile spread on my lips. “What do you mean why? Out of respect. I don’t need to be here when she shows up, remember last time?”

His features grew cold and he looked away from me, a poor attempt to put his walls back up.

“Hey... Jensen, don’t do that. I’m not trying to upset you. But last time we both slightly froze and we mentioned how we were enjoying the drama-free life. We don’t have to change anything.”

He frowned and shook his head, “I want it to change. I don’t want to hide us anymore. The past week has been amazing, for you, me, and the kids. And I want that to become real, I want our little bubble to pop, and for us to go out into the real world, together.”

I smiled and put my bag down, stepping closer to him to wrap my arms around his waist.

“Then let’s change it.”

Half an hour passed and finally, the children’s mom pulled up. I swallowed my nerves and stood in my spot, turning to glance at Jensen who was looking even more scared than I was.

Her face dropped when she spotted me, a knowing smile playing on her red-stained lips.

“Oh… Hi. Y/N was it?” She spoke, stepping closer to Jensen and me.

I nodded and smiled friendly, “Yes, it’s nice to see you again Danneel!”

She kept her composure and stared back at Jensen who was quiet, and still. You’d swear he was frozen in position by the way he wasn’t even moving an inch. 

“Jensen? Are you going to say Hi or just stand there like a deer in headlights?” She joked.

Jensen smiled politely and shook off his nerves, stepping closer to her, “Hey Danneel. How was the drive?”

She shrugged and looked back at her car, “Not bad, I do miss living in Austin though, I might have to see if I can move back there.”

He swallowed hard and his face went cold. Angry. The wall building. Brick by brick.

I backed up to let them talk, sitting beside the kids on the stairs. 

“So.. Did you have a good week guys?”

Katie nodded and smiled, leaning her head on my shoulder. “I’ll miss you!”

I laughed, my heart instantly warming at her words. “I’ll miss you too Katie Girl but don’t worry, I live right next door. Come visit me whenever you come back okay?”

She nodded enthusiastically and my attention turned towards Kevin, who was sitting with his arms crossed and a really grumpy look on his face.

“What about you Kevin? Have a good week?”

He shrugged and huffed, putting that cold shoulder back, like this week never happened.

Yes, I’ll admit it hurt,  but he was a kid, there would be a million things in his mind, especially the switching back and forth between parents, it couldn’t be that easy.

The voices of the parents got louder before they just stopped talking to each other completely. 

Jensen walked away shaking his head, approaching Katie and Kevin and attempting to force a smile. “C’mon guys, time to get in the car.”

We waved goodbye to the kids as they left, watching the sad expression on their faces. 

They weren’t even my kids but it broke my heart to say goodbye to them. It made me want to crawl into bed and never come out. 

Jensen and I sat on the stairs in silence, the air was filled with tension, something that was bothering him that maybe he didn’t want to share yet. He stared out into the street where the car was.

“Jensen?” I whispered, catching his attention.

He turned towards me and smiled sadly, “I’m good, it’s just a lot sometimes.”

I nodded understandingly and gripped his hand in mine tightly. “Well, why don’t we do something today? Get out of the house a bit?”

He smiled for the first time this morning and nodded, “Yeah. Let’s do it.”

After researching things to do and places to go, Jensen suggested we go see the market by the beach. Apparently, there were little kiosks and stands with handmade items, something that I was really interested in. 

We parked on the street and got out of the car, his hand instantly reaching for mine. He was never a man shy of affection in the right moments, in front of his kids it was more innocent and less “in your face”. Usually, when it’s just him and I thought, his hands are constantly on me.

Not that I’m complaining.

We walked down the pier and my eyes lit up by all the beautiful booths set up, anything you could imagine- they had it.

They had henna, face paints, handmade bags, shirts, skirts, dresses, stickers, stuffed animals, and hats. It was like I was attending an art exhibit and I couldn’t look away.

Jensen chuckled causing my attention to move to him, where his eyes were staring right at me.

“What?” I whispered nervously.

He smirked and pulled me into him tightly, “You're adorable. That’s what.”

My cheeks burned red at the compliment, he was never shy of that either. Constantly telling me how cute he thought I was or how beautiful I was. I don’t think he realized how much it really meant to me. Because man, as much as I wanted to believe it, I didn’t.

We kept walking down the boardwalk, stopping for seconds to look at each booth. Jensen was checking out the handmade gemstone necklaces when my eye caught something amazing in the booth next door. 

It was a handmade beanie that said “COD” on it. Call Of Duty.

My mind thought of Kevin and what he would think if we got him this hat, would he hate it? Would he wear it? Would he think it’s ridiculous that we even bought a hat from here? I never knew with that kid.

Jensen’s arms wrapped around me from behind, a light kiss on my shoulder giving me chills. “What are you looking at?”

I smiled and pointed to the hat hanging on the hook, “I’m not sure if Kevin would like that but…”

He turned me around to face him, a wide smile on his face. “He would love it.”

We grabbed the hat and went towards the cash when giggling filled my ears. My gaze fell on two girls who were standing in the booth next door, eyeing Jensen like he was a piece of meat. 

I looked at him who seemed unbothered, unaware of the giggles or the way they were pointing and I quickly realized that of course, he was used to this. I keep forgetting he’s a celebrity. 

When we paid for the hat we started to leave but the girls from before rushed over, stopping only mere inches from Jensen and me.

“Jensen!! OH MY GOD! I LOVE YOU!” One girl shrieked out causing me to jump and back up.

“Can we get a picture!! Please?” The other girl asked, she was more polite and distant, she was somebody I didn’t mind, but this other girl… I slightly wanted to hit her.

Jensen looked at me apologetically but I shrugged it off, I knew this would happen to all celebrities, I just didn’t expect how intense it could be.

I grabbed the phone for the girls and took a few photos, my eyes focusing on Jensen’s bright smile and the way he wrapped his arm around each of them. There was a green monster overtaking my body and I hated it. My insecurities were growing. They were well dressed, beautiful, and practically flawless with their sun-kissed skin. 

And then there was me.

I wasn’t the type of person you’d expect to see with a celebrity. I was the one who wouldn’t be allowed on the red carpet because I don’t “Fit in”.

And my anxiety started growing, unsure of why Jensen was really with me in the first place. 

I passed the phone back to the girls and slowly turned around, continuing to walk down the boardwalk. 

Jensen caught up to me, his hand resting on my back gently. “Hey.. You okay?”

I nodded and attempted a smile, but it was no use. My anxiety was growing with every thought flowing through my mind. 

Your not enough.

Your fooling yourself by thinking he would ever want to be with you.

Jensen deserves better.

He doesn’t find you attractive.

Your nothing.

“Y/N?” He whispered, standing in front of me to try and get a better look at my condition. He frowned when he noticed the stray teardrop falling and the way my breathing was becoming heavy. I hated it. I hated that he was staring at me like this. I hated that I couldn’t control my insecurities or my worries. I hated that I wasn’t enough for him.

His hand was tight on my arm, pulling me to the stairs so we could get some privacy. I shakily sat down, throwing my head in my hands to avoid whatever pity look he was offering me. 

“Honey… Please talk to me, what’s going on?” He begged, his voice filled with concern.

Good job, now your worrying him.

I opened my mouth to speak when my breath got caught in my throat, a loud raspy cough escaping my lips causing my breathing to become faster.

“Okay… Okay deep breaths baby your okay.”

Nice, now it’s his job to take care of you. Again. Your a burden.

“Jensen… you don’t need to… I’ll be okay.”

He moved to sit in front of me, confusion filling his face as he looked into my eyes. Noticing the fear and the sadness behind them.

“Okay, what’s going on baby? You know I’m here for you.”

I laughed lightly and shook my head, more tears rushing down my face but I didn’t care anymore. “That’s the point… you shouldn’t be.”

He tilted his head and frowned, his eyes filling with sadness of his own. “Why are you saying this?”

I shook my head and put my face in my hands, hiding away from the man I really wanted to hug right now, I was trying to protect him… from me. 

“Because… I’m not worth it… Fuck, your Jensen fucking Ackles, and I am… me. It doesn’t seem quite right does it?”

His hand grabbed mine off my face, the other tilting my chin to face him better. A soft smile played on his lips as he stared in my eyes. God, his eyes.

“Says who?”

“Says everybody. Society. You seen those girls fangirling over you. When you had your arms around them, it just looked right. I can’t imagine it ever looking right if you did that to me. Because I am not a model with the perfect body and perfect face. Hell, I’ve been in LA for a while now and I still don’t have that perfect sun-kissed skin all the girls around here have.”

He laughed lightly, not like he was laughing at me, but more that he was laughing that I would even say something so ridiculous. Like it was hilarious that those words even came out of my mouth. 

“Honey, you are right. You are not a model, you don’t have sun kissed skin. But that doesn’t make you less than what they are. That doesn’t make you worthless or not enough for me.”

I scoffed and tried to stand, tried to walk away from this conversation all together. “Your just pity saying that.”

He quickly grabbed my arm and spun me around so I was tight against him, his hand pushing my head on his chest in a cuddling kind of way. 

“You are enough. You are more than enough because of who you are. You never have expected anything from me, you gave me a second chance when I was nothing but a total dick to you. You helped me multiple times when you didn’t need to. And you connect with my kids so well, Kevin won’t admit it but he likes you. I’ve never seen somebody make the effort to play video games with him or try out what he wanted to do, Katie takes up all the time and I think he gets left out but you? You see him. You balance everybody and never ask for anything in return.”

I wrapped my arms around him and held him for dear life, feeling him bringing me back to the surface and he knew it. God, he knew how to read me better than anybody.

“You are always going to be enough. You are the one I want to be with. Not girls like them. They're not beautiful to me. You are beautiful. You are flawlessly, naturally gorgeous. I mean… look at you… Honey, you can stop anybody's breath.”

Jensen backed up, pulling my face up towards him before pressing his lips firmly against mine. Kissing me harder and more passionately than he’s ever done. His hands moved in my hair, pulling me impossibly closer, bodies on bodies. Heat spreading throughout our bodies. Loud breathy gasps escaped our lips whenever we separated for a second. We were falling in love, or maybe we already did. 

If he could love me like this, than maybe I am enough afterall.

He moved back slightly, his hand coming on my cheek while his other hand grabbed something in his pocket. He spun me around and moved my hair, placing a necklace around my neck gently.

I looked down and smiled widely, staring at the small blue gemstone that was hanging from my neck.

“Oh… Jensen I love it!” I exclaimed, turning to face him again.

He smiled shyly and leaned closer to kiss my lips gently this time, just enough to know he meant it.

“You deserve the world. I promise I’m going to try and give it to you Y/N, if you let me.”

My heart was pounding but this time, it wasn’t from the anxiety. It was from the amount of love I had for this man.

For the man who was changing my life. I was ready to push my anxiety aside and be here with him, forever.

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed it!

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 8

Summary: Insecurities run wild when it's the first time in public as a couple.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2500

Warnings: Slight panic attack, mentions of anxiety, mentions of body insecurities, swearing probably.

Time flies when you're having fun.

That’s what everybody says, and I never believed it. I’ve had fun before and time didn’t necessarily go by any faster. 

But spending the week with Jensen and his kids felt like it’s been only hours since they came home. 

And now here they were already, packing their bags and getting ready to go back to their mom’s house. 

Kevin placed his bag in the hallway as did Katie, Jensen coming down the stairs to see them off as he always did.

I packed my belongings in my purse and put my shoes on at the back door, getting ready to leave when Jensen rushed to my side.

“Where are you sneaking off to?” He smirked, pulling me closer by my coat.

I laughed and pushed his chest back gently, “Home silly.”

His smile dropped and he stared at me in shock, like I just hurt his feelings.

 “Why?”

Confusion filled me as I stepped closer, and a small polite smile spread on my lips. “What do you mean why? Out of respect. I don’t need to be here when she shows up, remember last time?”

His features grew cold and he looked away from me, a poor attempt to put his walls back up.

“Hey... Jensen, don’t do that. I’m not trying to upset you. But last time we both slightly froze and we mentioned how we were enjoying the drama-free life. We don’t have to change anything.”

He frowned and shook his head, “I want it to change. I don’t want to hide us anymore. The past week has been amazing, for you, me, and the kids. And I want that to become real, I want our little bubble to pop, and for us to go out into the real world, together.”

I smiled and put my bag down, stepping closer to him to wrap my arms around his waist.

“Then let’s change it.”

Half an hour passed and finally, the children’s mom pulled up. I swallowed my nerves and stood in my spot, turning to glance at Jensen who was looking even more scared than I was.

Her face dropped when she spotted me, a knowing smile playing on her red-stained lips.

“Oh… Hi. Y/N was it?” She spoke, stepping closer to Jensen and me.

I nodded and smiled friendly, “Yes, it’s nice to see you again Danneel!”

She kept her composure and stared back at Jensen who was quiet, and still. You’d swear he was frozen in position by the way he wasn’t even moving an inch. 

“Jensen? Are you going to say Hi or just stand there like a deer in headlights?” She joked.

Jensen smiled politely and shook off his nerves, stepping closer to her, “Hey Danneel. How was the drive?”

She shrugged and looked back at her car, “Not bad, I do miss living in Austin though, I might have to see if I can move back there.”

He swallowed hard and his face went cold. Angry. The wall building. Brick by brick.

I backed up to let them talk, sitting beside the kids on the stairs. 

“So.. Did you have a good week guys?”

Katie nodded and smiled, leaning her head on my shoulder. “I’ll miss you!”

I laughed, my heart instantly warming at her words. “I’ll miss you too Katie Girl but don’t worry, I live right next door. Come visit me whenever you come back okay?”

She nodded enthusiastically and my attention turned towards Kevin, who was sitting with his arms crossed and a really grumpy look on his face.

“What about you Kevin? Have a good week?”

He shrugged and huffed, putting that cold shoulder back, like this week never happened.

Yes, I’ll admit it hurt,  but he was a kid, there would be a million things in his mind, especially the switching back and forth between parents, it couldn’t be that easy.

The voices of the parents got louder before they just stopped talking to each other completely. 

Jensen walked away shaking his head, approaching Katie and Kevin and attempting to force a smile. “C’mon guys, time to get in the car.”

We waved goodbye to the kids as they left, watching the sad expression on their faces. 

They weren’t even my kids but it broke my heart to say goodbye to them. It made me want to crawl into bed and never come out. 

Jensen and I sat on the stairs in silence, the air was filled with tension, something that was bothering him that maybe he didn’t want to share yet. He stared out into the street where the car was.

“Jensen?” I whispered, catching his attention.

He turned towards me and smiled sadly, “I’m good, it’s just a lot sometimes.”

I nodded understandingly and gripped his hand in mine tightly. “Well, why don’t we do something today? Get out of the house a bit?”

He smiled for the first time this morning and nodded, “Yeah. Let’s do it.”

After researching things to do and places to go, Jensen suggested we go see the market by the beach. Apparently, there were little kiosks and stands with handmade items, something that I was really interested in. 

We parked on the street and got out of the car, his hand instantly reaching for mine. He was never a man shy of affection in the right moments, in front of his kids it was more innocent and less “in your face”. Usually, when it’s just him and I thought, his hands are constantly on me.

Not that I’m complaining.

We walked down the pier and my eyes lit up by all the beautiful booths set up, anything you could imagine- they had it.

They had henna, face paints, handmade bags, shirts, skirts, dresses, stickers, stuffed animals, and hats. It was like I was attending an art exhibit and I couldn’t look away.

Jensen chuckled causing my attention to move to him, where his eyes were staring right at me.

“What?” I whispered nervously.

He smirked and pulled me into him tightly, “You're adorable. That’s what.”

My cheeks burned red at the compliment, he was never shy of that either. Constantly telling me how cute he thought I was or how beautiful I was. I don’t think he realized how much it really meant to me. Because man, as much as I wanted to believe it, I didn’t.

We kept walking down the boardwalk, stopping for seconds to look at each booth. Jensen was checking out the handmade gemstone necklaces when my eye caught something amazing in the booth next door. 

It was a handmade beanie that said “COD” on it. Call Of Duty.

My mind thought of Kevin and what he would think if we got him this hat, would he hate it? Would he wear it? Would he think it’s ridiculous that we even bought a hat from here? I never knew with that kid.

Jensen’s arms wrapped around me from behind, a light kiss on my shoulder giving me chills. “What are you looking at?”

I smiled and pointed to the hat hanging on the hook, “I’m not sure if Kevin would like that but…”

He turned me around to face him, a wide smile on his face. “He would love it.”

We grabbed the hat and went towards the cash when giggling filled my ears. My gaze fell on two girls who were standing in the booth next door, eyeing Jensen like he was a piece of meat. 

I looked at him who seemed unbothered, unaware of the giggles or the way they were pointing and I quickly realized that of course, he was used to this. I keep forgetting he’s a celebrity. 

When we paid for the hat we started to leave but the girls from before rushed over, stopping only mere inches from Jensen and me.

“Jensen!! OH MY GOD! I LOVE YOU!” One girl shrieked out causing me to jump and back up.

“Can we get a picture!! Please?” The other girl asked, she was more polite and distant, she was somebody I didn’t mind, but this other girl… I slightly wanted to hit her.

Jensen looked at me apologetically but I shrugged it off, I knew this would happen to all celebrities, I just didn’t expect how intense it could be.

I grabbed the phone for the girls and took a few photos, my eyes focusing on Jensen’s bright smile and the way he wrapped his arm around each of them. There was a green monster overtaking my body and I hated it. My insecurities were growing. They were well dressed, beautiful, and practically flawless with their sun-kissed skin. 

And then there was me.

I wasn’t the type of person you’d expect to see with a celebrity. I was the one who wouldn’t be allowed on the red carpet because I don’t “Fit in”.

And my anxiety started growing, unsure of why Jensen was really with me in the first place. 

I passed the phone back to the girls and slowly turned around, continuing to walk down the boardwalk. 

Jensen caught up to me, his hand resting on my back gently. “Hey.. You okay?”

I nodded and attempted a smile, but it was no use. My anxiety was growing with every thought flowing through my mind. 

Your not enough.

Your fooling yourself by thinking he would ever want to be with you.

Jensen deserves better.

He doesn’t find you attractive.

Your nothing.

“Y/N?” He whispered, standing in front of me to try and get a better look at my condition. He frowned when he noticed the stray teardrop falling and the way my breathing was becoming heavy. I hated it. I hated that he was staring at me like this. I hated that I couldn’t control my insecurities or my worries. I hated that I wasn’t enough for him.

His hand was tight on my arm, pulling me to the stairs so we could get some privacy. I shakily sat down, throwing my head in my hands to avoid whatever pity look he was offering me. 

“Honey… Please talk to me, what’s going on?” He begged, his voice filled with concern.

Good job, now your worrying him.

I opened my mouth to speak when my breath got caught in my throat, a loud raspy cough escaping my lips causing my breathing to become faster.

“Okay… Okay deep breaths baby your okay.”

Nice, now it’s his job to take care of you. Again. Your a burden.

“Jensen… you don’t need to… I’ll be okay.”

He moved to sit in front of me, confusion filling his face as he looked into my eyes. Noticing the fear and the sadness behind them.

“Okay, what’s going on baby? You know I’m here for you.”

I laughed lightly and shook my head, more tears rushing down my face but I didn’t care anymore. “That’s the point… you shouldn’t be.”

He tilted his head and frowned, his eyes filling with sadness of his own. “Why are you saying this?”

I shook my head and put my face in my hands, hiding away from the man I really wanted to hug right now, I was trying to protect him… from me. 

“Because… I’m not worth it… Fuck, your Jensen fucking Ackles, and I am… me. It doesn’t seem quite right does it?”

His hand grabbed mine off my face, the other tilting my chin to face him better. A soft smile played on his lips as he stared in my eyes. God, his eyes.

“Says who?”

“Says everybody. Society. You seen those girls fangirling over you. When you had your arms around them, it just looked right. I can’t imagine it ever looking right if you did that to me. Because I am not a model with the perfect body and perfect face. Hell, I’ve been in LA for a while now and I still don’t have that perfect sun-kissed skin all the girls around here have.”

He laughed lightly, not like he was laughing at me, but more that he was laughing that I would even say something so ridiculous. Like it was hilarious that those words even came out of my mouth. 

“Honey, you are right. You are not a model, you don’t have sun kissed skin. But that doesn’t make you less than what they are. That doesn’t make you worthless or not enough for me.”

I scoffed and tried to stand, tried to walk away from this conversation all together. “Your just pity saying that.”

He quickly grabbed my arm and spun me around so I was tight against him, his hand pushing my head on his chest in a cuddling kind of way. 

“You are enough. You are more than enough because of who you are. You never have expected anything from me, you gave me a second chance when I was nothing but a total dick to you. You helped me multiple times when you didn’t need to. And you connect with my kids so well, Kevin won’t admit it but he likes you. I’ve never seen somebody make the effort to play video games with him or try out what he wanted to do, Katie takes up all the time and I think he gets left out but you? You see him. You balance everybody and never ask for anything in return.”

I wrapped my arms around him and held him for dear life, feeling him bringing me back to the surface and he knew it. God, he knew how to read me better than anybody.

“You are always going to be enough. You are the one I want to be with. Not girls like them. They're not beautiful to me. You are beautiful. You are flawlessly, naturally gorgeous. I mean… look at you… Honey, you can stop anybody's breath.”

Jensen backed up, pulling my face up towards him before pressing his lips firmly against mine. Kissing me harder and more passionately than he’s ever done. His hands moved in my hair, pulling me impossibly closer, bodies on bodies. Heat spreading throughout our bodies. Loud breathy gasps escaped our lips whenever we separated for a second. We were falling in love, or maybe we already did. 

If he could love me like this, than maybe I am enough afterall.

He moved back slightly, his hand coming on my cheek while his other hand grabbed something in his pocket. He spun me around and moved my hair, placing a necklace around my neck gently.

I looked down and smiled widely, staring at the small blue gemstone that was hanging from my neck.

“Oh… Jensen I love it!” I exclaimed, turning to face him again.

He smiled shyly and leaned closer to kiss my lips gently this time, just enough to know he meant it.

“You deserve the world. I promise I’m going to try and give it to you Y/N, if you let me.”

My heart was pounding but this time, it wasn’t from the anxiety. It was from the amount of love I had for this man.

For the man who was changing my life. I was ready to push my anxiety aside and be here with him, forever.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 7

Summary: The first real day of Jensen and I goes way better than I thought.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2700

Warnings: Mentions of anxiety, shy, mentions of divorce, custody, swearing.

A/N: Since the last chapter was so short, here's a longer one! Enjoy!

I woke up feeling refreshed and reenergized for the first time in a while, it felt like there was a brand new me, starting a new chapter.

I rolled over expecting to be in my own bed, but when my eyes opened, I could see Jensen laying beside me on the floor. 

I sat up and looked around, realizing I was on his couch, cuddled into his sweatshirt.

The movement make him stir, his head lifting, eyes fluttering and that beautiful smile shining directly towards me.

What a way to wake up.

“Mmm... Good morning honey.” He whispered, his voice hoarse and sexy.

I smiled and lay down on my side facing him, “Good morning. I guess I slept over.”

He chuckled and sat up, leaning his head on the couch beside mine. “I guess you did.”

“Sorry if that’s not what you wanted,” I stated, worry trailing in my voice.

He laughed slightly and shook his head, lips coming to mine in a sweet, gentle kiss. “It was. It is.”

I grabbed my phone from the floor and pulled it out, “How did we sleep till 10:00 am?”

He laughed and laid back down, before his eyes shot wide, “10:00 am? It’s 10:00 am?”

I nodded and turned the phone to face him, watching fear spread through his features.

“Oh shit… Okay.” He spoke fast, racing to get off the floor and throw the pillows onto the chair. 

I sat up in confusion, staring back at him. “What’s going on Jensen?”

“My kids are going to be back any second, my wife is dropping them off.”

I quickly nodded in understanding and stood, grabbing my sweater and throwing it on before rushing to get my shoes. He stood in the living room with a confused look spread upon his face, “Wait, where are you going?”

I stared back, my mouth dropping to say something, but my mind was blank, all the mixed messages were making my head spin. “Um… Home?”

He frowned and stepped closer, hands moving to my arms to hold me in place. “I didn’t mean you had to go home, I don’t mind if you're here when they arrive.”

“Oh…” I stopped, my head reeling on why he was panicking. He smiled and read my thoughts, leaning in to kiss my head. “I’m just worried about what their mom will think. Not about you! About the place. I usually clean the house and get breakfast ready, and meet them outside. I’m always worried about what she might say based on the past, that’s all.”

I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around him, kissing his chest gently hoping to ease some of the anxiety that I knew was building there.

“Go sit on the porch and wait for your kids, I’ll get this all cleaned up.”

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion as he stared down at me, “Y/N, no you don’t-”

“I’m not asking, I’m telling. Go. What your kids want and need is a happy dad who’s excited to see them. I’ll take care of the rest.”

He smiled and kissed my head before rushing to the door, stopping at the mirror to comb his hair down which made my heart melt in my chest.

Jensen was an amazing dad, an amazing person, and had such a big heart, he proves it every single damn day.

I could hear a car pulling into the driveway as I finished cooking the last bit of bacon and eggs on the stove, serving them on a plate for the kids to enjoy when they got home. 

Voices filled the hallways, pounding on the stairs from the children running to their rooms, the voices were getting closer and the anxiety instantly filled me when I heard a woman’s voice. I didn’t expect her to come in, but who am I to say anything, it wasn’t my house.

Jensen turned the corner into the kitchen, his eyes widening when he stared at the plates of food on the counter, the house spotless. 

Before he could say anything, a taller, really frigging attractive woman stepped beside him, her eyes instantly on me. 

“Oh… Hi. Didn’t realize Jensen had company.” She stated, a smirk on her lips.

Jensen froze and stared back at her, to me, like he was unsure of what to say, what excuse to give.

I smiled warmly and wiped my hands, “Hi, not really company, I was just stopping by to say Hi to Jensen when you guys pulled up so I figured I’d help him finish breakfast for the kids. Trying out these new neighborly duties.”

She smiled warmly and nodded, her eyes moving to Jensen’s in suspicion. Probably at the way his mouth was hung open in shock. 

“Anyways.” I spoke, my eyes staying on hers, “I should get back home, thanks for the cup of coffee Jensen!”

He hesitated before smiling and nodding, “Of course, thanks for helping out here, I’ll see you around?”

I nodded back and smiled, “Yup! Bye, it was nice to meet you!”

“You too!” She stated, her eyes following me as I walked to the door to leave.

The door closed behind me and I released a breath I had no idea I was holding. She seemed nice enough, but I didn’t know the story between them, I hope it wasn’t weird or wrong that I was there, and the way that Jensen was staring at me for help, he regretted having me over when she arrived which was understandable, but I couldn’t stop the pang in my chest at the feeling of being hid.

A few hours passed since the little meet and greet at Jensen’s house, it’s been quiet and lonely. I had no work to do, I had nobody to hang out with and I was bored out of my damn mind.

I thought about going over and at least saying hi to the kids but I didn’t want to overstep, Jensen could have brought them over if he wanted them to see me, or vice versa.

I was in the middle of cleaning my kitchen when a knock at the door filled my ears and confusion filled me, was this a huge coincidence or was Jensen thinking the same thing I was?

I stepped towards the door and looked down, a small smile spreading on my lips when I spotted Katie on my doorstep. 

I opened the door and stared back at her wide smile. “Hi, Katie!”

“Hi Y/N! Daddy told me to come to ask you if you wanted lunch!.”

I smiled and laughed to myself, “Oh did he? Well, I am pretty hungry. How about you? Are you hungry?”

She nodded her head enthusiastically and reached for my hand which I gladly took. I locked my door and we walked back to her house, my heart melting with every step.

We entered the house and walked towards the backyard where Jensen was cooking, Kevin was focused on some type of game he was playing, and the smell of burgers filled my nose.

Jensen smiled when he spotted me, a gentle yet nervous smile.

“Y/N! Glad you could join us!” He stated.

I nodded and smiled, letting go of Katie's hand when she booked it for her toys, instantly playing with her barbies. She was so cute I almost couldn’t handle it.

Jensen closed the barbeque and stepped closer, side-eyeing the kids to make sure they were far enough. “I am so... so sorry about this morning.”

I shook my head and waved my hand, “Don’t, you have nothing to apologize for. I am curious though, is that why you asked Katie to come to get me?”

His cheeks burned red in embarrassment as a shy smile spread across his lips. It was taking everything inside me not to grab him and kiss him right here.

He shrugged and a chuckle left his lips, “Well Yeah, I didn’t know if you were angry or upset with me, and you did mention that because my daughter is so cute, it makes it impossible to say no to her. I thought maybe I’d have a better chance to make it up to you.”

I giggled and shook my head, “You don’t need to make it up to me. I wasn’t upset, well- not with you.”

His face froze, his eyes searching mine, “But you were upset?”

I stopped and plastered on a smile, “Well no not really…”

He cleared his throat and turned towards his kids, “10 minutes until supper, I’m going to go get the condiments inside, Y/N do you mind lending a hand?”

I sighed and nodded, praying that I didn’t just fuck anything up by admitting that to him. I followed him inside and stopped at the counter, my hands shaking at the thought of whatever he was going to say. “Jensen… I-” 

He quickly stepped closer, his hand moving to my cheek, his eyes locked on mine, his lips leaning closer to press against my lips. Just for a moment, but it was enough to erase all of this morning's memories.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have acted how I did this morning, as soon as you left I felt like a complete dick. You did all this work to help me get ready, you were the reason I wasn’t running around like a mad man yet I didn’t even really thank you or acknowledge you, I froze like a coward.” His head tilted down, staring at the floor below us.

My finger moved under his chin to grab his attention, pulling his gaze back to me.

“Stop. Don’t. You didn’t do anything wrong, at all. You did everything right this morning. You were calm and happy to see your kids without the stress of not looking like a bad dad, that’s all I wanted.”

He smiled sadly and shrugged his shoulders, letting me go instantly when Katie filled his vision from the backyard. “Then why were you upset?”

I frowned and stared at the backyard, making sure no little ears were listening. “It was stupid, I shouldn’t have said it.”

“No.” He whispered, his hand grabbing mine in his. “Whatever makes you upset is not stupid Y/N, I want to know for the future. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

I sighed and fiddled with the hem of my shirt, eyes locked on the ground like his were previously.

“It’s just…. My stupid insecurities. I enjoyed our time together, and I knew we were getting closer. When we pretended we were friends and I left the way I did, I just felt like I was being hidden… And yeah I got a little anxious about it, but it’s not a big deal I swear.”

He stepped closer and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me tightly in for a hug.

“I would never hide you. I’d be crazy to do that, I was more protecting you from whatever drama could occur, I love how close we are, I love spending time with you I just didn’t want all of this to be too much for you, I’m still enjoying the drama free life we are building.”

I nodded and looked back up towards him, a genuine smile pulling on my lips. “Me too.”

We all ate lunch and I was set to go home and let the kids spend some alone time with their dad, when Katie stopped me, her hand grabbing mine. “Stay, please!” She begged, her wide eyes pleading.

I swore this kid knew she had the power of cuteness, nobody could ever resist those big blue eyes of hers. I smiled and looked toward Jensen, “As long as it’s okay with you boys, I have nowhere else to be.”

Jensen nodded and smiled widely, before turning his gaze to Kevin who was sitting on the couch. “Kevin? Do you mind?”

He shrugged and sat further on the couch, “I don’t care.”

Jensen rolled his eyes and stared back at me in an apologetic way. I smiled and shook my head to brush it off before I went to sit on the couch next to Kevin. 

I couldn’t blame the kid for not being friendly around me, or anybody else, really. When he’s here, he’s playing with his sister. When I’m here, Katie is talking up my ear, begging me to play with her and talk to her. Kevin must have felt left out or alone, and I could completely relate to that.

Jensen and Katie left to go upstairs to get dressed for the evening, but I stayed downstairs with Kevin, hoping we could get to know each other or bond just a little bit now that we had free time.

He grabbed his phone and started playing a game, completely ignoring me. But I was stubborn also, probably more than he was. 

“What are you playing?” I questioned, peeking my eye at the screen.

He tilted his phone away from me and continued playing, “Nothing you’d know.”

I smiled and sat back against the couch to face him, “Try me.”

He sighed before turning the screen, showing the title of the game. “Call Of Duty.”

My mouth dropped in fake shock as I stared back at the screen, “Are you kidding me? I love that game!”

He rolled his eyes and scoffed, “Yeah right.”

“I do. I used to play with my sisters, we played Black Ops on the Xbox and we used to have so much fun with it.”

This time he was silent, gently turning towards me to check if I was serious. When I didn’t break, I swore his whole face lit up. “Are you any good?”

I laughed and winked at him, “I bet I could kick your butt.”

He laughed back and shook his head, “No way, I’m great at this game.”

I pulled out my phone and quickly downloaded the game before creating a profile, Kevin anxiously waiting beside me. 

We joined a game and started battling each other, purposely hunting for each other within the maps. Kevin was good just like he said. I wasn’t bad but I was used to using a console instead of my fingers so It was pretty difficult getting around but seeing the smile on his face every time he corned me, hearing his laugh when I jumped when he unexpectedly snuck behind me-and knifed me, it was all worth it.

And soon, laughter and shouting filled the room, Kevin had to wipe his tears away from laughing so hard and my ribs were starting to hurt. Despite how grumpy and closed off he came off, he was a genuinely amazing kid. He was funny and smart and kind, stopping the game to teach me more about how to play before continuing. 

I snuck up on Kevin’s character thinking that I was finally about to get him, when he turned and caught me off guard, shooting my character straight in the head.

“You suck!” He shouted, laughing out right after.

“Kevin!” Jensen shouted behind us, causing both of us to drop the phones and turn around.

Before Jensen could yell or get angry, I stood up and showed my phone, “No, we are playing Call of Duty he was just joking!”

Jensen looked towards Kevin who lifted his phone too, showing the screen. He laughed and stepped closer, grabbing the phone from Kevin’s hands before sitting on the couch between us.

He smirked and looked towards me, offering a thank you wink to me, before pressing resume on the game. “Let’s see if I can kick your butt, Kevin teach me what to do.”

Kevin smiled and sat next to his dad, instructing him on the moves and controls. Within seconds, they found me and knifed me, laughing and cheering along the way.

And I didn’t even notice, because my eyes were locked on the boys who seemed so happy, so cheerful. It was amazing to see them getting along so well, especially after everything Jensen opened up about when it came to his son, his fear of him hating him.

They deserved this type of love, this bond and it was amazing to watch and be a part of.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 7

Summary: The first real day of Jensen and I goes way better than I thought.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2700

Warnings: Mentions of anxiety, shy, mentions of divorce, custody, swearing.

A/N: Since the last chapter was so short, here's a longer one! Enjoy!

I woke up feeling refreshed and reenergized for the first time in a while, it felt like there was a brand new me, starting a new chapter.

I rolled over expecting to be in my own bed, but when my eyes opened, I could see Jensen laying beside me on the floor. 

I sat up and looked around, realizing I was on his couch, cuddled into his sweatshirt.

The movement make him stir, his head lifting, eyes fluttering and that beautiful smile shining directly towards me.

What a way to wake up.

“Mmm... Good morning honey.” He whispered, his voice hoarse and sexy.

I smiled and lay down on my side facing him, “Good morning. I guess I slept over.”

He chuckled and sat up, leaning his head on the couch beside mine. “I guess you did.”

“Sorry if that’s not what you wanted,” I stated, worry trailing in my voice.

He laughed slightly and shook his head, lips coming to mine in a sweet, gentle kiss. “It was. It is.”

I grabbed my phone from the floor and pulled it out, “How did we sleep till 10:00 am?”

He laughed and laid back down, before his eyes shot wide, “10:00 am? It’s 10:00 am?”

I nodded and turned the phone to face him, watching fear spread through his features.

“Oh shit… Okay.” He spoke fast, racing to get off the floor and throw the pillows onto the chair. 

I sat up in confusion, staring back at him. “What’s going on Jensen?”

“My kids are going to be back any second, my wife is dropping them off.”

I quickly nodded in understanding and stood, grabbing my sweater and throwing it on before rushing to get my shoes. He stood in the living room with a confused look spread upon his face, “Wait, where are you going?”

I stared back, my mouth dropping to say something, but my mind was blank, all the mixed messages were making my head spin. “Um… Home?”

He frowned and stepped closer, hands moving to my arms to hold me in place. “I didn’t mean you had to go home, I don’t mind if you're here when they arrive.”

“Oh…” I stopped, my head reeling on why he was panicking. He smiled and read my thoughts, leaning in to kiss my head. “I’m just worried about what their mom will think. Not about you! About the place. I usually clean the house and get breakfast ready, and meet them outside. I’m always worried about what she might say based on the past, that’s all.”

I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around him, kissing his chest gently hoping to ease some of the anxiety that I knew was building there.

“Go sit on the porch and wait for your kids, I’ll get this all cleaned up.”

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion as he stared down at me, “Y/N, no you don’t-”

“I’m not asking, I’m telling. Go. What your kids want and need is a happy dad who’s excited to see them. I’ll take care of the rest.”

He smiled and kissed my head before rushing to the door, stopping at the mirror to comb his hair down which made my heart melt in my chest.

Jensen was an amazing dad, an amazing person, and had such a big heart, he proves it every single damn day.

I could hear a car pulling into the driveway as I finished cooking the last bit of bacon and eggs on the stove, serving them on a plate for the kids to enjoy when they got home. 

Voices filled the hallways, pounding on the stairs from the children running to their rooms, the voices were getting closer and the anxiety instantly filled me when I heard a woman’s voice. I didn’t expect her to come in, but who am I to say anything, it wasn’t my house.

Jensen turned the corner into the kitchen, his eyes widening when he stared at the plates of food on the counter, the house spotless. 

Before he could say anything, a taller, really frigging attractive woman stepped beside him, her eyes instantly on me. 

“Oh… Hi. Didn’t realize Jensen had company.” She stated, a smirk on her lips.

Jensen froze and stared back at her, to me, like he was unsure of what to say, what excuse to give.

I smiled warmly and wiped my hands, “Hi, not really company, I was just stopping by to say Hi to Jensen when you guys pulled up so I figured I’d help him finish breakfast for the kids. Trying out these new neighborly duties.”

She smiled warmly and nodded, her eyes moving to Jensen’s in suspicion. Probably at the way his mouth was hung open in shock. 

“Anyways.” I spoke, my eyes staying on hers, “I should get back home, thanks for the cup of coffee Jensen!”

He hesitated before smiling and nodding, “Of course, thanks for helping out here, I’ll see you around?”

I nodded back and smiled, “Yup! Bye, it was nice to meet you!”

“You too!” She stated, her eyes following me as I walked to the door to leave.

The door closed behind me and I released a breath I had no idea I was holding. She seemed nice enough, but I didn’t know the story between them, I hope it wasn’t weird or wrong that I was there, and the way that Jensen was staring at me for help, he regretted having me over when she arrived which was understandable, but I couldn’t stop the pang in my chest at the feeling of being hid.

A few hours passed since the little meet and greet at Jensen’s house, it’s been quiet and lonely. I had no work to do, I had nobody to hang out with and I was bored out of my damn mind.

I thought about going over and at least saying hi to the kids but I didn’t want to overstep, Jensen could have brought them over if he wanted them to see me, or vice versa.

I was in the middle of cleaning my kitchen when a knock at the door filled my ears and confusion filled me, was this a huge coincidence or was Jensen thinking the same thing I was?

I stepped towards the door and looked down, a small smile spreading on my lips when I spotted Katie on my doorstep. 

I opened the door and stared back at her wide smile. “Hi, Katie!”

“Hi Y/N! Daddy told me to come to ask you if you wanted lunch!.”

I smiled and laughed to myself, “Oh did he? Well, I am pretty hungry. How about you? Are you hungry?”

She nodded her head enthusiastically and reached for my hand which I gladly took. I locked my door and we walked back to her house, my heart melting with every step.

We entered the house and walked towards the backyard where Jensen was cooking, Kevin was focused on some type of game he was playing, and the smell of burgers filled my nose.

Jensen smiled when he spotted me, a gentle yet nervous smile.

“Y/N! Glad you could join us!” He stated.

I nodded and smiled, letting go of Katie's hand when she booked it for her toys, instantly playing with her barbies. She was so cute I almost couldn’t handle it.

Jensen closed the barbeque and stepped closer, side-eyeing the kids to make sure they were far enough. “I am so... so sorry about this morning.”

I shook my head and waved my hand, “Don’t, you have nothing to apologize for. I am curious though, is that why you asked Katie to come to get me?”

His cheeks burned red in embarrassment as a shy smile spread across his lips. It was taking everything inside me not to grab him and kiss him right here.

He shrugged and a chuckle left his lips, “Well Yeah, I didn’t know if you were angry or upset with me, and you did mention that because my daughter is so cute, it makes it impossible to say no to her. I thought maybe I’d have a better chance to make it up to you.”

I giggled and shook my head, “You don’t need to make it up to me. I wasn’t upset, well- not with you.”

His face froze, his eyes searching mine, “But you were upset?”

I stopped and plastered on a smile, “Well no not really…”

He cleared his throat and turned towards his kids, “10 minutes until supper, I’m going to go get the condiments inside, Y/N do you mind lending a hand?”

I sighed and nodded, praying that I didn’t just fuck anything up by admitting that to him. I followed him inside and stopped at the counter, my hands shaking at the thought of whatever he was going to say. “Jensen… I-” 

He quickly stepped closer, his hand moving to my cheek, his eyes locked on mine, his lips leaning closer to press against my lips. Just for a moment, but it was enough to erase all of this morning's memories.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have acted how I did this morning, as soon as you left I felt like a complete dick. You did all this work to help me get ready, you were the reason I wasn’t running around like a mad man yet I didn’t even really thank you or acknowledge you, I froze like a coward.” His head tilted down, staring at the floor below us.

My finger moved under his chin to grab his attention, pulling his gaze back to me.

“Stop. Don’t. You didn’t do anything wrong, at all. You did everything right this morning. You were calm and happy to see your kids without the stress of not looking like a bad dad, that’s all I wanted.”

He smiled sadly and shrugged his shoulders, letting me go instantly when Katie filled his vision from the backyard. “Then why were you upset?”

I frowned and stared at the backyard, making sure no little ears were listening. “It was stupid, I shouldn’t have said it.”

“No.” He whispered, his hand grabbing mine in his. “Whatever makes you upset is not stupid Y/N, I want to know for the future. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

I sighed and fiddled with the hem of my shirt, eyes locked on the ground like his were previously.

“It’s just…. My stupid insecurities. I enjoyed our time together, and I knew we were getting closer. When we pretended we were friends and I left the way I did, I just felt like I was being hidden… And yeah I got a little anxious about it, but it’s not a big deal I swear.”

He stepped closer and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me tightly in for a hug.

“I would never hide you. I’d be crazy to do that, I was more protecting you from whatever drama could occur, I love how close we are, I love spending time with you I just didn’t want all of this to be too much for you, I’m still enjoying the drama free life we are building.”

I nodded and looked back up towards him, a genuine smile pulling on my lips. “Me too.”

We all ate lunch and I was set to go home and let the kids spend some alone time with their dad, when Katie stopped me, her hand grabbing mine. “Stay, please!” She begged, her wide eyes pleading.

I swore this kid knew she had the power of cuteness, nobody could ever resist those big blue eyes of hers. I smiled and looked toward Jensen, “As long as it’s okay with you boys, I have nowhere else to be.”

Jensen nodded and smiled widely, before turning his gaze to Kevin who was sitting on the couch. “Kevin? Do you mind?”

He shrugged and sat further on the couch, “I don’t care.”

Jensen rolled his eyes and stared back at me in an apologetic way. I smiled and shook my head to brush it off before I went to sit on the couch next to Kevin. 

I couldn’t blame the kid for not being friendly around me, or anybody else, really. When he’s here, he’s playing with his sister. When I’m here, Katie is talking up my ear, begging me to play with her and talk to her. Kevin must have felt left out or alone, and I could completely relate to that.

Jensen and Katie left to go upstairs to get dressed for the evening, but I stayed downstairs with Kevin, hoping we could get to know each other or bond just a little bit now that we had free time.

He grabbed his phone and started playing a game, completely ignoring me. But I was stubborn also, probably more than he was. 

“What are you playing?” I questioned, peeking my eye at the screen.

He tilted his phone away from me and continued playing, “Nothing you’d know.”

I smiled and sat back against the couch to face him, “Try me.”

He sighed before turning the screen, showing the title of the game. “Call Of Duty.”

My mouth dropped in fake shock as I stared back at the screen, “Are you kidding me? I love that game!”

He rolled his eyes and scoffed, “Yeah right.”

“I do. I used to play with my sisters, we played Black Ops on the Xbox and we used to have so much fun with it.”

This time he was silent, gently turning towards me to check if I was serious. When I didn’t break, I swore his whole face lit up. “Are you any good?”

I laughed and winked at him, “I bet I could kick your butt.”

He laughed back and shook his head, “No way, I’m great at this game.”

I pulled out my phone and quickly downloaded the game before creating a profile, Kevin anxiously waiting beside me. 

We joined a game and started battling each other, purposely hunting for each other within the maps. Kevin was good just like he said. I wasn’t bad but I was used to using a console instead of my fingers so It was pretty difficult getting around but seeing the smile on his face every time he corned me, hearing his laugh when I jumped when he unexpectedly snuck behind me-and knifed me, it was all worth it.

And soon, laughter and shouting filled the room, Kevin had to wipe his tears away from laughing so hard and my ribs were starting to hurt. Despite how grumpy and closed off he came off, he was a genuinely amazing kid. He was funny and smart and kind, stopping the game to teach me more about how to play before continuing. 

I snuck up on Kevin’s character thinking that I was finally about to get him, when he turned and caught me off guard, shooting my character straight in the head.

“You suck!” He shouted, laughing out right after.

“Kevin!” Jensen shouted behind us, causing both of us to drop the phones and turn around.

Before Jensen could yell or get angry, I stood up and showed my phone, “No, we are playing Call of Duty he was just joking!”

Jensen looked towards Kevin who lifted his phone too, showing the screen. He laughed and stepped closer, grabbing the phone from Kevin’s hands before sitting on the couch between us.

He smirked and looked towards me, offering a thank you wink to me, before pressing resume on the game. “Let’s see if I can kick your butt, Kevin teach me what to do.”

Kevin smiled and sat next to his dad, instructing him on the moves and controls. Within seconds, they found me and knifed me, laughing and cheering along the way.

And I didn’t even notice, because my eyes were locked on the boys who seemed so happy, so cheerful. It was amazing to see them getting along so well, especially after everything Jensen opened up about when it came to his son, his fear of him hating him.

They deserved this type of love, this bond and it was amazing to watch and be a part of.

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The Celebrity Next Door - Part 7

Summary: The first real day of Jensen and I goes way better than I thought.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 2700

Warnings: Mentions of anxiety, shy, mentions of divorce, custody, swearing.

A/N: Since the last chapter was so short, here's a longer one! Enjoy!

I woke up feeling refreshed and reenergized for the first time in a while, it felt like there was a brand new me, starting a new chapter.

I rolled over expecting to be in my own bed, but when my eyes opened, I could see Jensen laying beside me on the floor. 

I sat up and looked around, realizing I was on his couch, cuddled into his sweatshirt.

The movement make him stir, his head lifting, eyes fluttering and that beautiful smile shining directly towards me.

What a way to wake up.

“Mmm... Good morning honey.” He whispered, his voice hoarse and sexy.

I smiled and lay down on my side facing him, “Good morning. I guess I slept over.”

He chuckled and sat up, leaning his head on the couch beside mine. “I guess you did.”

“Sorry if that’s not what you wanted,” I stated, worry trailing in my voice.

He laughed slightly and shook his head, lips coming to mine in a sweet, gentle kiss. “It was. It is.”

I grabbed my phone from the floor and pulled it out, “How did we sleep till 10:00 am?”

He laughed and laid back down, before his eyes shot wide, “10:00 am? It’s 10:00 am?”

I nodded and turned the phone to face him, watching fear spread through his features.

“Oh shit… Okay.” He spoke fast, racing to get off the floor and throw the pillows onto the chair. 

I sat up in confusion, staring back at him. “What’s going on Jensen?”

“My kids are going to be back any second, my wife is dropping them off.”

I quickly nodded in understanding and stood, grabbing my sweater and throwing it on before rushing to get my shoes. He stood in the living room with a confused look spread upon his face, “Wait, where are you going?”

I stared back, my mouth dropping to say something, but my mind was blank, all the mixed messages were making my head spin. “Um… Home?”

He frowned and stepped closer, hands moving to my arms to hold me in place. “I didn’t mean you had to go home, I don’t mind if you're here when they arrive.”

“Oh…” I stopped, my head reeling on why he was panicking. He smiled and read my thoughts, leaning in to kiss my head. “I’m just worried about what their mom will think. Not about you! About the place. I usually clean the house and get breakfast ready, and meet them outside. I’m always worried about what she might say based on the past, that’s all.”

I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around him, kissing his chest gently hoping to ease some of the anxiety that I knew was building there.

“Go sit on the porch and wait for your kids, I’ll get this all cleaned up.”

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion as he stared down at me, “Y/N, no you don’t-”

“I’m not asking, I’m telling. Go. What your kids want and need is a happy dad who’s excited to see them. I’ll take care of the rest.”

He smiled and kissed my head before rushing to the door, stopping at the mirror to comb his hair down which made my heart melt in my chest.

Jensen was an amazing dad, an amazing person, and had such a big heart, he proves it every single damn day.

I could hear a car pulling into the driveway as I finished cooking the last bit of bacon and eggs on the stove, serving them on a plate for the kids to enjoy when they got home. 

Voices filled the hallways, pounding on the stairs from the children running to their rooms, the voices were getting closer and the anxiety instantly filled me when I heard a woman’s voice. I didn’t expect her to come in, but who am I to say anything, it wasn’t my house.

Jensen turned the corner into the kitchen, his eyes widening when he stared at the plates of food on the counter, the house spotless. 

Before he could say anything, a taller, really frigging attractive woman stepped beside him, her eyes instantly on me. 

“Oh… Hi. Didn’t realize Jensen had company.” She stated, a smirk on her lips.

Jensen froze and stared back at her, to me, like he was unsure of what to say, what excuse to give.

I smiled warmly and wiped my hands, “Hi, not really company, I was just stopping by to say Hi to Jensen when you guys pulled up so I figured I’d help him finish breakfast for the kids. Trying out these new neighborly duties.”

She smiled warmly and nodded, her eyes moving to Jensen’s in suspicion. Probably at the way his mouth was hung open in shock. 

“Anyways.” I spoke, my eyes staying on hers, “I should get back home, thanks for the cup of coffee Jensen!”

He hesitated before smiling and nodding, “Of course, thanks for helping out here, I’ll see you around?”

I nodded back and smiled, “Yup! Bye, it was nice to meet you!”

“You too!” She stated, her eyes following me as I walked to the door to leave.

The door closed behind me and I released a breath I had no idea I was holding. She seemed nice enough, but I didn’t know the story between them, I hope it wasn’t weird or wrong that I was there, and the way that Jensen was staring at me for help, he regretted having me over when she arrived which was understandable, but I couldn’t stop the pang in my chest at the feeling of being hid.

A few hours passed since the little meet and greet at Jensen’s house, it’s been quiet and lonely. I had no work to do, I had nobody to hang out with and I was bored out of my damn mind.

I thought about going over and at least saying hi to the kids but I didn’t want to overstep, Jensen could have brought them over if he wanted them to see me, or vice versa.

I was in the middle of cleaning my kitchen when a knock at the door filled my ears and confusion filled me, was this a huge coincidence or was Jensen thinking the same thing I was?

I stepped towards the door and looked down, a small smile spreading on my lips when I spotted Katie on my doorstep. 

I opened the door and stared back at her wide smile. “Hi, Katie!”

“Hi Y/N! Daddy told me to come to ask you if you wanted lunch!.”

I smiled and laughed to myself, “Oh did he? Well, I am pretty hungry. How about you? Are you hungry?”

She nodded her head enthusiastically and reached for my hand which I gladly took. I locked my door and we walked back to her house, my heart melting with every step.

We entered the house and walked towards the backyard where Jensen was cooking, Kevin was focused on some type of game he was playing, and the smell of burgers filled my nose.

Jensen smiled when he spotted me, a gentle yet nervous smile.

“Y/N! Glad you could join us!” He stated.

I nodded and smiled, letting go of Katie's hand when she booked it for her toys, instantly playing with her barbies. She was so cute I almost couldn’t handle it.

Jensen closed the barbeque and stepped closer, side-eyeing the kids to make sure they were far enough. “I am so... so sorry about this morning.”

I shook my head and waved my hand, “Don’t, you have nothing to apologize for. I am curious though, is that why you asked Katie to come to get me?”

His cheeks burned red in embarrassment as a shy smile spread across his lips. It was taking everything inside me not to grab him and kiss him right here.

He shrugged and a chuckle left his lips, “Well Yeah, I didn’t know if you were angry or upset with me, and you did mention that because my daughter is so cute, it makes it impossible to say no to her. I thought maybe I’d have a better chance to make it up to you.”

I giggled and shook my head, “You don’t need to make it up to me. I wasn’t upset, well- not with you.”

His face froze, his eyes searching mine, “But you were upset?”

I stopped and plastered on a smile, “Well no not really…”

He cleared his throat and turned towards his kids, “10 minutes until supper, I’m going to go get the condiments inside, Y/N do you mind lending a hand?”

I sighed and nodded, praying that I didn’t just fuck anything up by admitting that to him. I followed him inside and stopped at the counter, my hands shaking at the thought of whatever he was going to say. “Jensen… I-” 

He quickly stepped closer, his hand moving to my cheek, his eyes locked on mine, his lips leaning closer to press against my lips. Just for a moment, but it was enough to erase all of this morning's memories.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have acted how I did this morning, as soon as you left I felt like a complete dick. You did all this work to help me get ready, you were the reason I wasn’t running around like a mad man yet I didn’t even really thank you or acknowledge you, I froze like a coward.” His head tilted down, staring at the floor below us.

My finger moved under his chin to grab his attention, pulling his gaze back to me.

“Stop. Don’t. You didn’t do anything wrong, at all. You did everything right this morning. You were calm and happy to see your kids without the stress of not looking like a bad dad, that’s all I wanted.”

He smiled sadly and shrugged his shoulders, letting me go instantly when Katie filled his vision from the backyard. “Then why were you upset?”

I frowned and stared at the backyard, making sure no little ears were listening. “It was stupid, I shouldn’t have said it.”

“No.” He whispered, his hand grabbing mine in his. “Whatever makes you upset is not stupid Y/N, I want to know for the future. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

I sighed and fiddled with the hem of my shirt, eyes locked on the ground like his were previously.

“It’s just…. My stupid insecurities. I enjoyed our time together, and I knew we were getting closer. When we pretended we were friends and I left the way I did, I just felt like I was being hidden… And yeah I got a little anxious about it, but it’s not a big deal I swear.”

He stepped closer and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me tightly in for a hug.

“I would never hide you. I’d be crazy to do that, I was more protecting you from whatever drama could occur, I love how close we are, I love spending time with you I just didn’t want all of this to be too much for you, I’m still enjoying the drama free life we are building.”

I nodded and looked back up towards him, a genuine smile pulling on my lips. “Me too.”

We all ate lunch and I was set to go home and let the kids spend some alone time with their dad, when Katie stopped me, her hand grabbing mine. “Stay, please!” She begged, her wide eyes pleading.

I swore this kid knew she had the power of cuteness, nobody could ever resist those big blue eyes of hers. I smiled and looked toward Jensen, “As long as it’s okay with you boys, I have nowhere else to be.”

Jensen nodded and smiled widely, before turning his gaze to Kevin who was sitting on the couch. “Kevin? Do you mind?”

He shrugged and sat further on the couch, “I don’t care.”

Jensen rolled his eyes and stared back at me in an apologetic way. I smiled and shook my head to brush it off before I went to sit on the couch next to Kevin. 

I couldn’t blame the kid for not being friendly around me, or anybody else, really. When he’s here, he’s playing with his sister. When I’m here, Katie is talking up my ear, begging me to play with her and talk to her. Kevin must have felt left out or alone, and I could completely relate to that.

Jensen and Katie left to go upstairs to get dressed for the evening, but I stayed downstairs with Kevin, hoping we could get to know each other or bond just a little bit now that we had free time.

He grabbed his phone and started playing a game, completely ignoring me. But I was stubborn also, probably more than he was. 

“What are you playing?” I questioned, peeking my eye at the screen.

He tilted his phone away from me and continued playing, “Nothing you’d know.”

I smiled and sat back against the couch to face him, “Try me.”

He sighed before turning the screen, showing the title of the game. “Call Of Duty.”

My mouth dropped in fake shock as I stared back at the screen, “Are you kidding me? I love that game!”

He rolled his eyes and scoffed, “Yeah right.”

“I do. I used to play with my sisters, we played Black Ops on the Xbox and we used to have so much fun with it.”

This time he was silent, gently turning towards me to check if I was serious. When I didn’t break, I swore his whole face lit up. “Are you any good?”

I laughed and winked at him, “I bet I could kick your butt.”

He laughed back and shook his head, “No way, I’m great at this game.”

I pulled out my phone and quickly downloaded the game before creating a profile, Kevin anxiously waiting beside me. 

We joined a game and started battling each other, purposely hunting for each other within the maps. Kevin was good just like he said. I wasn’t bad but I was used to using a console instead of my fingers so It was pretty difficult getting around but seeing the smile on his face every time he corned me, hearing his laugh when I jumped when he unexpectedly snuck behind me-and knifed me, it was all worth it.

And soon, laughter and shouting filled the room, Kevin had to wipe his tears away from laughing so hard and my ribs were starting to hurt. Despite how grumpy and closed off he came off, he was a genuinely amazing kid. He was funny and smart and kind, stopping the game to teach me more about how to play before continuing. 

I snuck up on Kevin’s character thinking that I was finally about to get him, when he turned and caught me off guard, shooting my character straight in the head.

“You suck!” He shouted, laughing out right after.

“Kevin!” Jensen shouted behind us, causing both of us to drop the phones and turn around.

Before Jensen could yell or get angry, I stood up and showed my phone, “No, we are playing Call of Duty he was just joking!”

Jensen looked towards Kevin who lifted his phone too, showing the screen. He laughed and stepped closer, grabbing the phone from Kevin’s hands before sitting on the couch between us.

He smirked and looked towards me, offering a thank you wink to me, before pressing resume on the game. “Let’s see if I can kick your butt, Kevin teach me what to do.”

Kevin smiled and sat next to his dad, instructing him on the moves and controls. Within seconds, they found me and knifed me, laughing and cheering along the way.

And I didn’t even notice, because my eyes were locked on the boys who seemed so happy, so cheerful. It was amazing to see them getting along so well, especially after everything Jensen opened up about when it came to his son, his fear of him hating him.

They deserved this type of love, this bond and it was amazing to watch and be a part of.

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Hi!! Do you have any plans on doing kinktober this year? 😊

Hey there!

Last year was sooo fun I am definitely going to be kinktober!

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Celebrity Next Door - Part 6

Summary: Like I said, breakdowns seem like the worst but sometimes it's exactly what you need.

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Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 620

Warnings: Anxiety, panic attacks, angst, missing family, missing others, swearing.

A/N: This one is short but sweet, new chapter coming soon!

It was crazy how things could change so quickly.

A couple of days ago Jensen and I were friends, becoming closer, sharing an intimate moment.

And now, I haven’t seen him, I’ve avoided running into him. 

I made up a fake illness so I could work from home, I’ve dived into my work, forcing myself to be distracted. But I soon completed all the files, forms, and tasks I had and there was nothing left for me to distract myself with. 

I walked down the hallway of my home, my eyes landing on the photograph of my family strung up on the lonely wall.

I couldn’t stop the tears that made their way into my eyes as I stared at our smiling faces, knowing that they were genuine. I missed them, I missed having somebody to talk to, I missed smiling. I haven’t smiled since I was with Jensen, and that was clearly over now.

I didn’t want to be here anymore, living and working in LA wasn’t worth it, even with the promotion and perks, it wasn’t worth it.

I was supposed to find myself here but I was even more lost and confused. I didn't fit in.

I picked up the phone and dialed, listening to the annoying call tone, waiting for a voice to answer.

“Hello?” My mother spoke, causing tears to instantly come rushing to my eyes. 

“Mommy?” I whispered back, hearing her gasp slightly on the other end. “Oh Y/N!! I’ve been waiting to hear back from you baby, how are you doing? How is LA treating you?”

I sniffed and held back the sob threatening to escape, but my family was always smart, they knew when something was wrong.

“Y/N? What’s going on?” She spoke gently.

I sniffed and choked, “I don’t want to be here anymore.”

“Why? What happened baby?”

I moved to sit on my porch, the first time I’ve been outside since Jensen showed up. I looked around the street and frowned, nobody was out, nothing to help me make my decision about staying. Jensen’s car was in the parking lot but he made no effort to come to see me, another reason why I wanted to leave this place and never look back.

“I’m so lonely here mom, there’s nobody for me. I feel so isolated and alone and lost.”

She sighed back, “Y/N honey I know it’s hard moving to a new place, but do you remember how excited you were about making this decision? When you finally went through all the pros and cons and decided that this move was the right decision, I’ve never seen you happier. If you want to come back of course I’ll support you 100% and you know you have a place here, but don’t give up your dreams because you are lonely. Because you're not alone. We are always here baby girl, and you will find others there who will fill that void.”

Others, yeah. Jensen for example. I debated on telling her but I held my tongue, it was stupid and embarrassing and shameful that I thought a celebrity would ever fall for quiet, awkward me.

“Your right mom, thank you. I think I just needed to hear your voice again.”

Her voice lightened and I could tell she was smiling, “We are always here for you to talk to okay? And I promise, your father and I are trying to save to come visit you.”

“I know.” I smiled, “I’m trying to do the same.”

I hung up the phone and sat back on my porch, watching the sunset, noticing the street lights come on, and watching everybody inside living their lives while I was sitting here, alone and pathetic. 

The night progressed as usual, the streets were dark and I was alone. Huddled up in my comfy blanket, I turned on The Office and drank my hot chocolate, it was something small I’d do to ease the anxiety in my chest but tonight it wasn’t working.

It was ridiculous how caught up I was with Jensen, how quickly things progressed for us. I couldn't understand why I couldn't just let him go, push him out of my mind but at the same time I really didn’t want to. 

Jensen was different. The way he looked at me, his eyes reaching mine, listening intently, acting like he cared about what I was saying. The way his hand felt on my skin, burning every inch of me, the way that he treated me. Like I was normal, I wasn’t somebody crazy, I wasn’t a loner, or an anxious weird person, I was just a neighbor, to a friend, to something more, and than nothing.

My head started working overtime, spinning in circles. Maybe it was me. Maybe I am not meant to have friends or others in my circle. It’s always been hard for me to make friends, to know what to say or what to do, I didn’t really have anybody except my family and even than, they got along closer than I ever did.

I could feel the anxiety building in my chest, threatening to erupt like a volcano. No matter what I did or how hard I focused, it was there and it was getting worse.

I climbed off my couch and stumbled outside, sitting on my porch. Everything was quiet, too quiet.

I thought the air would help but it only made it worse, the empty streets was only a further reminder of how alone I was. 

My breathing became heavier, the oxygen in my lungs felt like it was being cut off, I was burning and freezing at the same time. Everything was too much, I didn’t know what to do. I pulled my phone from my sweater and dialed Jensen’s number, about to press call when I stopped myself.

This is the last thing he needs; a call from me-having a damn breakdown at 9:00 pm. 

But I thought back to the other day when he mentioned if I ever needed somebody, he was there. He wouldn’t have said it without meaning it right? He wouldn’t revoke his offer because of last night. Right?

I needed somebody right now, I needed him.

My heart nearly stopped beating at his response, that’s not what I wanted, in fact, that’s the last thing I wanted. I wasn’t expecting him to come over, I didn’t want him to see me like this, such a mess and a burden. 

It took less than two minutes until I heard his door shut and him approaching my walkway, his eyes falling on mine before he froze, taking in my condition.

I must have looked worse than I thought because I swore his face went white as a ghost, concern, and fear spread all over his features as he ran up the stairs to my side.

“Y/N… What’s going on? What happened?”

I tried to shake it off and offer him a smile but my attempt failed, resulting in a breathy cough escaping my lips, my entire body trembling. His hand moved to my back, rubbing the skin gently, leaning closer to my ear.

“Okay.. Okay, breathe honey, slow deep breaths with me okay?”

I nodded and forced my head lower, staring at the steps below my feet. 

“One… Two… Three and exhale… Okay, good girl, again, one two three inhale….” he coached.

I swore that if I wasn’t suffocating or a whole mess of anxiety, I would have smiled at the way he was speaking to me, so gentle and caring, all my thoughts of being a burden have dissipated because he acted as he belonged nowhere but here.

It took a while but finally, I felt the air seeping through my lungs and finally slowing down. I lifted my head slowly, staring into the open air, avoiding his eyes at all costs. The shaking started to stop and the post-panic attack dizziness kicked in.

It was finally over.

The area was quiet, the only sound around us was Jensen and I’s breathing, and a few crickets around. His hand never left my back, and I swore he was healing me just from his touch. But my mind started racing back to the night where I thought everything was coming together, and I was reminded of how wrong I was.

I slowly stood, glancing down at his confused expression. I smiled sadly and nodded, “Thank you for the help Jensen, I’m sorry you had to see that.”

I started to walk towards the door but he quickly stood up, his hand on my arm preventing me from leaving. “Wait..”

I turned to face him, awaiting whatever he was about to spit out, whatever he wanted to say but he was a blank page. I couldn’t read him.

“Did… Do you want to come over? Have a drink?” He questioned desperately.

I laughed lightly and shook my head, “You know what drinking did to us last time, I don’t think it’s a good idea.”

He frowned and nodded, his hand leaving my arm. “I… I wanted to talk to you about that.”

Frustration started filling me slowly, I was a very naive person and didn’t know much about social interactions, but I did know that waiting a couple of days to talk to your friend after an incident like that, probably wasn’t the smartest idea.

“I was here. All week. You knew where I lived, and you didn’t come over. What am I supposed to think?”

His shoulders dropped sadly, regret and shame filling his face. “I know. I was lost and confused… Y/N, your the first person I’ve been with since my ex-wife, your the only person I’ve had feelings for, and it scared the shit out of me…”

“Feelings for?” I started becoming upset, remembering that night playing in my head, feeling the emotions building inside. “Jensen, when you left you straight out said that you didn’t want that to happen. It shouldn’t have happened. That came from your mouth. Please don’t tell me you have feelings for me if you didn’t want to do any of that with me in the first place.”

His eyes widened and his mouth dropped, “Oh… that’s not what I meant when I said it… fuck. You’ve been feeling that this whole time?”

I shrugged as a tear rushed down my cheek, “What else was I supposed to think?”

He shook his shoulders and stepped closer, gently rubbing the tear off my cheek with his thumb. “I don’t know. That’s my mistake. When I said I didn’t want it to happen, I meant that’s not how I wanted it to happen. I didn’t want to jump you, I didn’t want to move too fast, I wanted to take things slow. But before I came over, I had a hard conversation with my friend, he was telling me that I was a coward, I never jumped the gun on things I wanted, I was too shy, and whatever. So yeah, I tried to be impulsive, shoot for what I wanted and I couldn’t do it, I wanted to take things slow and treat you right before I did anything stupid or moved too fast….”

I nodded and my head dropped, I completely felt like an idiot for taking things wrong, for feeling the way I did. I should have remembered that he just got out of a marriage not too long ago, things are new and scary, he was still damaged and I wasn’t just going to magically cure that.

“Honey…” He whispered, stepping closer before hugging me tight to him. “I do want something with you, I do have feelings for you. I’m just fucking terrified.”

I nodded and lifted my head, wrapping my arms around him, “I am too.”

“He looked down and smiled sadly, “You are?”

“Yeah. I’ve never really been in a relationship. People don’t seem to like me that much…”

He frowned and kissed my head, his lips lingering longer than I thought they would. 

“I like you.” He whispered against my skin, spreading goosebumps throughout my body. 

“You don’t have to say that.” I chuckled. 

His eyes reached mine, shining in the light causing my heart to skip a beat in my chest. 

“I do. I really do Y/N.”

I nodded and smiled gently, leaning on my top toes to kiss his head back, “I like you too Jensen. A lot.”

His smile was so genuine I would have kissed him for hours, but I didn’t want to pressure him or move to fast. I wanted to give him the lead. His hand moved down to mine, clutching it tightly in his own. “Do you want to come over? The kids are at their mom's till tomorrow.”

I smiled for the first time in a while and nodded, “I’d like that.”

I quickly locked my door before following him to his house, letting things happen for themselves, and for the first time, I wasn’t panicking about the outcome. I knew it would be good.”

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Celebrity Next Door - Part 6

Summary: Like I said, breakdowns seem like the worst but sometimes it's exactly what you need.

Series Masterlist - Main Masterlist

Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Word Count: 620

Warnings: Anxiety, panic attacks, angst, missing family, missing others, swearing.

A/N: This one is short but sweet, new chapter coming soon!

It was crazy how things could change so quickly.

A couple of days ago Jensen and I were friends, becoming closer, sharing an intimate moment.

And now, I haven’t seen him, I’ve avoided running into him. 

I made up a fake illness so I could work from home, I’ve dived into my work, forcing myself to be distracted. But I soon completed all the files, forms, and tasks I had and there was nothing left for me to distract myself with. 

I walked down the hallway of my home, my eyes landing on the photograph of my family strung up on the lonely wall.

I couldn’t stop the tears that made their way into my eyes as I stared at our smiling faces, knowing that they were genuine. I missed them, I missed having somebody to talk to, I missed smiling. I haven’t smiled since I was with Jensen, and that was clearly over now.

I didn’t want to be here anymore, living and working in LA wasn’t worth it, even with the promotion and perks, it wasn’t worth it.

I was supposed to find myself here but I was even more lost and confused. I didn't fit in.

I picked up the phone and dialed, listening to the annoying call tone, waiting for a voice to answer.

“Hello?” My mother spoke, causing tears to instantly come rushing to my eyes. 

“Mommy?” I whispered back, hearing her gasp slightly on the other end. “Oh Y/N!! I’ve been waiting to hear back from you baby, how are you doing? How is LA treating you?”

I sniffed and held back the sob threatening to escape, but my family was always smart, they knew when something was wrong.

“Y/N? What’s going on?” She spoke gently.

I sniffed and choked, “I don’t want to be here anymore.”

“Why? What happened baby?”

I moved to sit on my porch, the first time I’ve been outside since Jensen showed up. I looked around the street and frowned, nobody was out, nothing to help me make my decision about staying. Jensen’s car was in the parking lot but he made no effort to come to see me, another reason why I wanted to leave this place and never look back.

“I’m so lonely here mom, there’s nobody for me. I feel so isolated and alone and lost.”

She sighed back, “Y/N honey I know it’s hard moving to a new place, but do you remember how excited you were about making this decision? When you finally went through all the pros and cons and decided that this move was the right decision, I’ve never seen you happier. If you want to come back of course I’ll support you 100% and you know you have a place here, but don’t give up your dreams because you are lonely. Because you're not alone. We are always here baby girl, and you will find others there who will fill that void.”

Others, yeah. Jensen for example. I debated on telling her but I held my tongue, it was stupid and embarrassing and shameful that I thought a celebrity would ever fall for quiet, awkward me.

“Your right mom, thank you. I think I just needed to hear your voice again.”

Her voice lightened and I could tell she was smiling, “We are always here for you to talk to okay? And I promise, your father and I are trying to save to come visit you.”

“I know.” I smiled, “I’m trying to do the same.”

I hung up the phone and sat back on my porch, watching the sunset, noticing the street lights come on, and watching everybody inside living their lives while I was sitting here, alone and pathetic. 

The night progressed as usual, the streets were dark and I was alone. Huddled up in my comfy blanket, I turned on The Office and drank my hot chocolate, it was something small I’d do to ease the anxiety in my chest but tonight it wasn’t working.

It was ridiculous how caught up I was with Jensen, how quickly things progressed for us. I couldn't understand why I couldn't just let him go, push him out of my mind but at the same time I really didn’t want to. 

Jensen was different. The way he looked at me, his eyes reaching mine, listening intently, acting like he cared about what I was saying. The way his hand felt on my skin, burning every inch of me, the way that he treated me. Like I was normal, I wasn’t somebody crazy, I wasn’t a loner, or an anxious weird person, I was just a neighbor, to a friend, to something more, and than nothing.

My head started working overtime, spinning in circles. Maybe it was me. Maybe I am not meant to have friends or others in my circle. It’s always been hard for me to make friends, to know what to say or what to do, I didn’t really have anybody except my family and even than, they got along closer than I ever did.

I could feel the anxiety building in my chest, threatening to erupt like a volcano. No matter what I did or how hard I focused, it was there and it was getting worse.

I climbed off my couch and stumbled outside, sitting on my porch. Everything was quiet, too quiet.

I thought the air would help but it only made it worse, the empty streets was only a further reminder of how alone I was. 

My breathing became heavier, the oxygen in my lungs felt like it was being cut off, I was burning and freezing at the same time. Everything was too much, I didn’t know what to do. I pulled my phone from my sweater and dialed Jensen’s number, about to press call when I stopped myself.

This is the last thing he needs; a call from me-having a damn breakdown at 9:00 pm. 

But I thought back to the other day when he mentioned if I ever needed somebody, he was there. He wouldn’t have said it without meaning it right? He wouldn’t revoke his offer because of last night. Right?

I needed somebody right now, I needed him.

My heart nearly stopped beating at his response, that’s not what I wanted, in fact, that’s the last thing I wanted. I wasn’t expecting him to come over, I didn’t want him to see me like this, such a mess and a burden. 

It took less than two minutes until I heard his door shut and him approaching my walkway, his eyes falling on mine before he froze, taking in my condition.

I must have looked worse than I thought because I swore his face went white as a ghost, concern, and fear spread all over his features as he ran up the stairs to my side.

“Y/N… What’s going on? What happened?”

I tried to shake it off and offer him a smile but my attempt failed, resulting in a breathy cough escaping my lips, my entire body trembling. His hand moved to my back, rubbing the skin gently, leaning closer to my ear.

“Okay.. Okay, breathe honey, slow deep breaths with me okay?”

I nodded and forced my head lower, staring at the steps below my feet. 

“One… Two… Three and exhale… Okay, good girl, again, one two three inhale….” he coached.

I swore that if I wasn’t suffocating or a whole mess of anxiety, I would have smiled at the way he was speaking to me, so gentle and caring, all my thoughts of being a burden have dissipated because he acted as he belonged nowhere but here.

It took a while but finally, I felt the air seeping through my lungs and finally slowing down. I lifted my head slowly, staring into the open air, avoiding his eyes at all costs. The shaking started to stop and the post-panic attack dizziness kicked in.

It was finally over.

The area was quiet, the only sound around us was Jensen and I’s breathing, and a few crickets around. His hand never left my back, and I swore he was healing me just from his touch. But my mind started racing back to the night where I thought everything was coming together, and I was reminded of how wrong I was.

I slowly stood, glancing down at his confused expression. I smiled sadly and nodded, “Thank you for the help Jensen, I’m sorry you had to see that.”

I started to walk towards the door but he quickly stood up, his hand on my arm preventing me from leaving. “Wait..”

I turned to face him, awaiting whatever he was about to spit out, whatever he wanted to say but he was a blank page. I couldn’t read him.

“Did… Do you want to come over? Have a drink?” He questioned desperately.

I laughed lightly and shook my head, “You know what drinking did to us last time, I don’t think it’s a good idea.”

He frowned and nodded, his hand leaving my arm. “I… I wanted to talk to you about that.”

Frustration started filling me slowly, I was a very naive person and didn’t know much about social interactions, but I did know that waiting a couple of days to talk to your friend after an incident like that, probably wasn’t the smartest idea.

“I was here. All week. You knew where I lived, and you didn’t come over. What am I supposed to think?”

His shoulders dropped sadly, regret and shame filling his face. “I know. I was lost and confused… Y/N, your the first person I’ve been with since my ex-wife, your the only person I’ve had feelings for, and it scared the shit out of me…”

“Feelings for?” I started becoming upset, remembering that night playing in my head, feeling the emotions building inside. “Jensen, when you left you straight out said that you didn’t want that to happen. It shouldn’t have happened. That came from your mouth. Please don’t tell me you have feelings for me if you didn’t want to do any of that with me in the first place.”

His eyes widened and his mouth dropped, “Oh… that’s not what I meant when I said it… fuck. You’ve been feeling that this whole time?”

I shrugged as a tear rushed down my cheek, “What else was I supposed to think?”

He shook his shoulders and stepped closer, gently rubbing the tear off my cheek with his thumb. “I don’t know. That’s my mistake. When I said I didn’t want it to happen, I meant that’s not how I wanted it to happen. I didn’t want to jump you, I didn’t want to move too fast, I wanted to take things slow. But before I came over, I had a hard conversation with my friend, he was telling me that I was a coward, I never jumped the gun on things I wanted, I was too shy, and whatever. So yeah, I tried to be impulsive, shoot for what I wanted and I couldn’t do it, I wanted to take things slow and treat you right before I did anything stupid or moved too fast….”

I nodded and my head dropped, I completely felt like an idiot for taking things wrong, for feeling the way I did. I should have remembered that he just got out of a marriage not too long ago, things are new and scary, he was still damaged and I wasn’t just going to magically cure that.

“Honey…” He whispered, stepping closer before hugging me tight to him. “I do want something with you, I do have feelings for you. I’m just fucking terrified.”

I nodded and lifted my head, wrapping my arms around him, “I am too.”

“He looked down and smiled sadly, “You are?”

“Yeah. I’ve never really been in a relationship. People don’t seem to like me that much…”

He frowned and kissed my head, his lips lingering longer than I thought they would. 

“I like you.” He whispered against my skin, spreading goosebumps throughout my body. 

“You don’t have to say that.” I chuckled. 

His eyes reached mine, shining in the light causing my heart to skip a beat in my chest. 

“I do. I really do Y/N.”

I nodded and smiled gently, leaning on my top toes to kiss his head back, “I like you too Jensen. A lot.”

His smile was so genuine I would have kissed him for hours, but I didn’t want to pressure him or move to fast. I wanted to give him the lead. His hand moved down to mine, clutching it tightly in his own. “Do you want to come over? The kids are at their mom's till tomorrow.”

I smiled for the first time in a while and nodded, “I’d like that.”

I quickly locked my door before following him to his house, letting things happen for themselves, and for the first time, I wasn’t panicking about the outcome. I knew it would be good.”

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