A Glimmer of Gold

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I’m very excited to have made a logo for my Etsy! I’ve been enjoying playing with Procreate and trying out different styles. This one best fits my energy I think.

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A pagan prayer for those who are feeling haunted

This is one of my favorite times of year. Watercolor leaves crunch under my feet and somehow the air SMELLS cold. Food tastes warmer. The world around me is infused with energy like the Death card, a shedding of old to a barren winter to soon be reborn again. And these cycles we live through each year happen in our own lives too, but the winters can feel long. The dead things that we wish would leave us alone feel like they cling onto us sometimes, leeching off of our life force. And so this is a prayer for anyone who is going through a winter alongside me. If you are shedding something that just won’t let you go, if you are trying to bury a heart in the earth and it keeps showing up again on your bedside table, if the plants in your bedroom are all wilting in spite of your care for them because you yourself are depleted, this prayer is for you and me.

Mother of earth and father of sea

The spirits of all the things in between

Spirit of heart and spirit of soul

The ones in our doorways

The ones in our folds

I ask you to be here inside of my room

Gather together, there’s plenty of room

The fire of heat and the air of etheric

Water of love and earth, home of our weaving

Water flow through me and clean out the gunk

Rush through the blocks and the broke-in-two junk

Rush through my body and push it all out

Down in the earth, spit from my mouth

Air please come in, please pass by my tongue

Through every valley and mountain inbound

The wind with it’s playful chimes and it’s muse

That dances and rhymes, sing out my wounds

Fire unbind me and enter my chest

My lonely, my unloved, forgotten heart-vest

Fill up my cracks with light and inspire me

I trust my stomping feet to lead where I’m meant to be.

Earth rise up through the soles of my feet,

May a vine crawl up my limbs and make me a beast,

I become big and green as a giant

Strong in my footing, I let out a shout of sighing

HAAAA I push out the troubles that bind me

HOOOOO I release the ties that confine me

HEEEEE I claim my life as my own canvas to draw on

OHHHHHH I am stronger and brighter, connection

Mother of earth and father of sea,

Land that I walk on

Air that I breathe

Fire that feeds me and water that quenches

I pray for your energy to ground me and center

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How INFP solitary witches celebrate Halloween

Plan: This year I’m gonna go all out. I’m decking the halls with skeletons and brewing my own funky potion in a pan on the stove. The hearth is the home of my cauldron. I’m gluing a kernel of corn to my nose where all my wisdom will come from. I’m going to go outside naked and dance with a small bonfire and I’ll get all the dogs in the neighborhood to bark at the moon queen. Hekate will knock down my door and we will raise spirits from the dead. Everyone who has been wronged will get their revenge. And there will be Reese’s. Lots of Reeses. 

What I (we?) actually do...Make frosting, eat it with a spoon, and watch The Conjuring. Also possibly a spell of some type that involves me and a pen. No skinclad dancing unfortunately unless I wanted to actually freeze my nipples off. I think Halloween would be so much more fun if I lived in Australia. There will be some laughter. There may be some trick or treaters. But always there is that witchy, mysterious feeling that comes when the veil is v e r y thin and there are spirits about. And we, the sloth witches, know there is magic in the air.

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The energy cord that lead me to hell (okay, I might be exaggerating) and mental alchemy

Strings, or cords, between people and places are something that are often brought up in spiritual communities. Typically when I hear them talked about, it's in the context of cutting them to remove a connection from our lives. When I'd scroll pass conversations about them or hear them brought up in my day to day life, I kind of shrugged them off because it didn't resonate with me. UNTIL I realized that my first crazy spiritual experience was completely based around those cords.

I was a 14 year old high school freshman and navigating the halls to my first class. I was nervous because the building was so big but everyone said it was designed in these quarters that were shaped like circles, so if you got lost all you had to do was make your way around again and rejoin the main hallway 'til you found the right circle. I had my school map in hand and was walking towards my first class, checking the map like every 10 seconds because I was uncertain of my map-reading skills. And then I got a pull in the middle of my gut. It was the weirdest sensation, just like something had reached inside my body and was tugging. And when I looked down to see my map I saw a thick blue string just underneath where my hand was holding the paper.

I was just rounding the last corner so I stood in the hall where my class was, and the string stretched down the hall and angled into a room on the left. Until then, I had seen some spirits before but it was when I was a little kid, and my parents had discounted it as imagination so I did too. But now I was 14 and there was this string, and I knew that at the very end of it waited something that would change the rest of my life.

The string lead me to the first person I'd fall in love with, who also used my heart as a trampoline for a bit before I walked away, but something cool is that my birth chart has my sun in the house of love and relationships, so it's no wonder that my experience with him would influence the rest of my life, because love is everything to me. And the place where I'd felt that string pulling in my torso was what I now know to be the Solar Plexus chakra, which is where will and strength and confidence emanates from- all lessons that I was pushed to learn in my early romantic life and as a lady with a Leo sun 😊

A few years after this happened I watched Donnie Darko for the first time and that was a WOW experience, because he saw all those cords too only for him, it was related to quantum physics. I really like the idea that quantum physics supports the possibility that supernatural experiences are real- that one physical being can be in two places at the same time. While quantum physics is still perplexing a lot of scientists out there, I can sit with my fellow lovers of metaphysics and magic and talk about our understanding of our own mental complexity and the traps we fall into with it, along with the rabbits we pull out of our red silk hats to save us.

My trap with Mr. Acrobat and his jumping act was that I believed he was worth the pain he caused me because he was fun. Not only that, but I thought that love would have to be painful if it was worth experiencing. So what is worth pain? My answer to that would be “life” because we can’t have life without pain. Whether we’re losing time and inching closer to our life’s end or we’re suffering from an illness or we’ve lost a loved one or are healing from a heartbreak, hurt is very alive in us. Sometimes it even seems to possess us. 

There’s something so tragically beautiful about suffering for love. It’s a trap a lot of people fall into. Maybe I watched Beauty and the Beast too many times as a kid or maybe something else made the impression in my mind that love is suffering, but now that I know that it exists within my mental framework I can work with it, and there are three ways I do that.

Instead of feeding into my own suffering by choosing the wrong mate, I can ask myself what I need to be happy without any mate at all. It’s a dreadful scenario, honestly, imagining myself at 70 alone in my wicker rocking chair and singing to myself about “the boy who never liked me at ‘tall’”. But that is just one interpretation of my future, arising from a mind that’s been trained with the false belief that to love greatly is to suffer hard. So instead I ask myself to imagine another life, one spent dancing and leaping and being my own kind of acrobat (sans other people’s hearts beneath my landing feet). What does it look like?

I’ll keep that to myself, but here’s what I do when I know:

I breathe in and imagine the universe’s love and support filling my lungs and my body, and then I breathe out and imagine that breath pulling every painful belief out of me. I do this a few times and say “I am clean of any external influence and every imprint within and without me.”

I write down some words to express what the good life looks like, and I tell myself that every time I hear those words I will be reinvigorated with passion and excitement to continue on my path. I do a ritual to imprint these words as connections for me with my path - whatever it is, it’s intuitively chosen, but often has something to do with singing and ripping up the old words that made me feel smaller.

Every night before I go to bed, I repeat the good-words in my mind and with my voice if I can and imagine golden energy flooding my body, filling me with strength and everything that I need to be ready for the journey. Because who is the fool without their napsack?

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My Decks for Readings

Hello everyone! My name is Tabitha and I really connect with cards. There’s something comforting about shuffling and trusting that the answer will come in the form we need it most. Below is a list of the decks I have open for readings. My soul called for each of them at different times and I understand the pull to a certain deck and I’m here to support that in my readings 😊

Tarot decks:

The Rider-Waite Tarot

The Nicoletta Ceccoli Tarot

The Everyday Witch Tarot

Tarot of the Sidhe (borders trimmed)

The Animal Wisdom Tarot

The Tarot of the Vampyres

Oracle decks:

The Legendary Ladies Goddess Deck

A Yogic Path Oracle

The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit Oracle (The mass produced version)

Island Time Wellness: Love Oracle Cards 

Some cards in this pinpoint if/when a romance is with a narcissist and if there’s codependency involved in a relationship at all. The deck is mainly for romance and as a single person I’ve used it to help decide if I’m ready to date again and where I stand with a prospective partner. 

The Starseed Oracle

This one’s not solely for Starseeds, it has some really reaffirming affirmations at the bottom of each card that help even those who don’t align with this terminology.

Work Your Light Oracle

 This one also has reaffirming affirmations at the bottom of each card.

Dark Mirror Oracle

The Celtic Tree Oracle (Oghams)

Tao Oracle

The Blind Spot Oracle 

      This is a great tool for identifying blocks and shadow issues.

Spirit de la Lune

       This is a moon based oracle that’s great for telling what to do next and what we should be focusing on. Very gentle but direct.

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The photo in the background of this page

The photograph of the beautiful lion came from Free-Photos here https://pixabay.com/photos/lion-animal-african-mammal-1246678/

The corgis playing with a pumpkin came from ElfinFox here https://pixabay.com/photos/welsh-corgi-pembroke-corgi-dog-4237630/

I think it’s important to cite sources for the work and knowledge of other people and will always do that in this blog and outside of it.