A pagan prayer for those who are feeling haunted
This is one of my favorite times of year. Watercolor leaves crunch under my feet and somehow the air SMELLS cold. Food tastes warmer. The world around me is infused with energy like the Death card, a shedding of old to a barren winter to soon be reborn again. And these cycles we live through each year happen in our own lives too, but the winters can feel long. The dead things that we wish would leave us alone feel like they cling onto us sometimes, leeching off of our life force. And so this is a prayer for anyone who is going through a winter alongside me. If you are shedding something that just won’t let you go, if you are trying to bury a heart in the earth and it keeps showing up again on your bedside table, if the plants in your bedroom are all wilting in spite of your care for them because you yourself are depleted, this prayer is for you and me.
Mother of earth and father of sea
The spirits of all the things in between
Spirit of heart and spirit of soul
I ask you to be here inside of my room
Gather together, there’s plenty of room
The fire of heat and the air of etheric
Water of love and earth, home of our weaving
Water flow through me and clean out the gunk
Rush through the blocks and the broke-in-two junk
Rush through my body and push it all out
Down in the earth, spit from my mouth
Air please come in, please pass by my tongue
Through every valley and mountain inbound
The wind with it’s playful chimes and it’s muse
That dances and rhymes, sing out my wounds
Fire unbind me and enter my chest
My lonely, my unloved, forgotten heart-vest
Fill up my cracks with light and inspire me
I trust my stomping feet to lead where I’m meant to be.
Earth rise up through the soles of my feet,
May a vine crawl up my limbs and make me a beast,
I become big and green as a giant
Strong in my footing, I let out a shout of sighing
HAAAA I push out the troubles that bind me
HOOOOO I release the ties that confine me
HEEEEE I claim my life as my own canvas to draw on
OHHHHHH I am stronger and brighter, connection
Mother of earth and father of sea,
Fire that feeds me and water that quenches
I pray for your energy to ground me and center