if i'm being totally honest part of the reason why m-ttm-llo gets on my nerves (well it gets on my nerves in a fun angry dopamine hit kind of way. i love getting mad about it the stakes are SO low and a girl’s gotta get their hatearade somewhere) is because i AM a void-cigarettes-sex-drugs-cars-violence girlie. it's my hardboiled inner monologue i have a phd in griminess i love to write characters smoking seventeen cigarettes in the rain and shoving guns inside mouths phallically. so it's not like i don't GET the appeal because i do. it's incredibly easy to write, it’s universally sexy, it is flexible and forgiving — grittiness comes pre-packaged with a veneer of depth because (well we don’t have time to get into the history of american media). unfortunately underneath all of the fanon heavy lifting it is all aesthetic dust bunnies without substance when half the ship is an original character (matt is whatever you want him to be and the usual characterization of ‘just some guy’ appeals to the quintessential teenage boy next door who’s a bit witty trope to counterbalance mello's, well, everything) and the other half of the ship is more often than not wildly mischaracterized because if we know one thing from canon is that mello’s life revolves around beating near. our blessed understanding of mello's place in the narrative vs their barbarous creative liberties. like! what about black vs white what about being two halves of the same thing what about together we can surpass him. what about my brother broke my rib one morning and gave me half his orange in the evening. what about the machiavellian seedy underworld disgraced heir in all of his grimy fucked up fallen-from-grace streetsmart glory lifting his eyes up to a cold sterile skyscraper that fades into the clouds and the pristine boyking held prisoner within it wanting nothing but to stain the throne his entire world revolves around with his ugly fierce humanity; to break into the prince's tower and grind his face in the dirt, to free him, defile him. what about having known a boy only to be blinded years later by the knifeedge divine wrath of a naturalborn godkiller instead, pointing a gun at him anyway. look at me, why won’t you look at me. what about i don’t know where you end and i begin. what about then i guess i’m going to have to do it, what about the point where mello becomes aware of his place in the narrative and runs towards it to the bitter end. what about the relentless adversary turned unholy disciple by the festering devotion he could not excise. turned dirty-handed enforcer paving the way for the godtouched oracle to accomplish what neither of them ever could on their own and in that way finding release and grace. the softness and despair of adding up to a greater whole and yet both dying for it, one in body, the other in spirit. what about cain and abel. stick figure violence what! about! cain! and! abel! where was i going with this post it got wildly out of hand. oh yeah stream i'm your man by mitski on itunes
"...!" what a reaction to seeing mello show up unexpectedly. on top of like. his face. i dont have words or deep analysis here im just rotating this panel in my mind like im defrosting it in the microwave
“I can’t keep doing this. Seriously— I’m at my limit.”
L, perched on his spinning office chair in the way which is peculiar to him alone, nibbles on his thumbnail and drifts slowly to the left. At the last moment, he grabs the desk, preventing himself from rotating past the point of no return.
“So you’ve said,” he comments blandly. “Many times now, actually. Yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that, and, if memory serves, several days before that, also. And yet you have persisted.” He smiles. “Perhaps you underestimate yourself?”
Mello scrubs his left hand over his face. He tries to use his right as little as possible these days. “No, it’s— it’s just not livable.”
“Evidence would suggest otherwise. You are notably quite alive.”
“It interferes with me eating. Sleeping. Getting dressed? It’s a nightmare. And when I’m in the bathroom, I have to angle my wrist close enough to the door, otherwise—”
“Otherwise my hand is bludgeoned against the bottom of the steel door,” Near says, presenting the faintly-bruised backside of his hand for L to inspect. “Also, I am forced to sit on the ground, or else be knocked over.”
“Sitting on the ground is typical for you,” L notes. “I don’t think that’s especially taxing.”
“I don’t like being on the ground outside of bathrooms. It isn’t sanitary.”
Before L can retort, Mello cuts in. “You don’t know what it’s like,” he says, desperation leaking into his tone. “He rolls onto the floor in the middle of the night. It almost dislocated my shoulder once.”
“Almost?” L says, unimpressed. Then: “I am well aware of the logistical difficulties and personal indignities associated with being handcuffed to another person long-term. I was chained to Kira for ninety-seven days, mind you. You have been in the same situation with Near for—” he glances to the calendar— “two and a half weeks.”
“But you did that for the case,” says Mello. “This is—”
“This is to teach the two of you how to work with one another,” L interrupts. “I remain unconvinced that you’ve mastered that skill. Now, if you’ll excuse me—” he makes a shooing motion— “I have many important matters to attend to.”
girl idk, but I'll tell you how I think girlmatsuda would be because I'm trying to write a fic about her. keep reading if you care
she would be such a girldisaster. I imagine she'd have a much harder time in the male dominated field of policing, because on top of being a girl she'd be a little irresponsible/unreliable. I think she would pull through because 1) she's a nepo baby/has connections in the industry, 2) she's at least a talented sharpshooter (I bet she loves shooter video games and she probably got into policing more out of a desire to live out the fantasy than anything else) and 3) she was one of the only people who was really adamant about wanting to be in the Kira Task Force. I bet they didn't let her in at first because: girl. but she kept sending applications and people kept dropping out and so they got desperate and said okay. let this girl in I guess. (I don't really know how the police force works)
canon Matsuda genuinely cares about helping people, but I feel like you can tell the heroism runs a little shallow for him. I think girlmatsuda would be mostly the same. why does she want to be on the kira case so bad? probably because she thinks it's cool. for the glory of it all. but at least she'll risk her life to do these things. she'd be a bit cowardly and lazy but risk-taking at the same time-- her risk-taking comes from a lack of forward-thinking and not taking things seriously, but it's the thought that doesn't count.
I think girlmatsuda would have to be even more committed and determined than canon though, just because of how many more obstacles she would have to endure to be in her position.
a big difference is that I think the task force would be nicer to her, at least at the beginning. I think they'd find her shenanigans more endearing and be more gentle and coddling with her, until they've spent enough time with her. once they get comfortable enough, then they'll be openly tired of her shit and treat her the way they've always treated boymatsuda from the start. except for L, who would act exactly the same I imagine.
also Matsuda would be a young bachelorette, career-driven woman in East Asia. given boymatsuda's enthusiasm with light's infidelity in the post-yotsuba arc, I bet girlmatsuda would have a little bit of promiscuous and noncommittal attitude on sex and relationships too (but maybe it's toned down?). this is more bold and going-against-the-grain than I think boymatsuda is capable of honestly. So um that's a whole other can of worms. thanks for the ask!
they dont tell u this about death note but if u get to the second half and take a particular interest in the wammys side of things ur doomed. its over. thats how it gets you
What I mean with this post is that: If they were theoretically let to freely roam the enormous wild internet and gather a collection of art pieces that remind them of their significant other... what would they choose? What does it say about their relationship?
in the tags or replies pls tell me what your favorite deathnote rarepair is :-)
i am obsessed w rarepairs and i wanna know what all is out there that i have not heard of or thought of yet. and when i say rarepair i do not mean "ship that is not as popular as lawlight but still has 500+ fics on AO3." i am talking about the kind of ships that have less than 100 fics on AO3 [if you filter out things where it's the background ship] -- ideally, actually, the ships that have less than 25 fics to their name total. this doesn't have to be something you've written or made art for or even posted about -- just something you find fun or appealing.
Why have we as a top L/bottom Light fandom decided that L has sexual experience??? Like we can all agree that Light is 1000% a virgin I feel like we got sufficient nudges from canon for that but literally nothing in the source material suggests that L has any more experience at all we all just Wanted him to lmao
Tbh that line has always bothered me too but not the fact that it exists - the way it's treated by the fandom. Every time I see that line come up someone has L acting like he has no idea that he's legitimately being a sexual being, which... like... everyone following me knows that he's way too self-aware for that shit right. That's wildly out of character.
In the anime, just from the way the dub actor performed the line, I've never minded it. He's not realizing he's being a perv or whatever (because honestly I don't think he's getting any sexual satisfaction out of her torture... if anything he's really frustrated from the lack of results at that point lol). It's just that he's baffled that Misa is accusing him of THAT when he knows she KNOWS she was arrested by the police. Pervert is synonymous with stalker to L in that line. It's some kind of "weird" explanation Misa has come up with to understand the situation, when to L, it looks like blatant denial/possibly insanity in a way he didn't predict.
I can't speak for the way it was portrayed in the manga because I haven't read that volume in a hot second lol.
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