sprouting suns and ageless daughters

sideblog, follows from @horreurscopes

[jessaerys]

alex they/them 1994 professional silly rabbit. i post about every trigger on earth

[xxguiltcomplexxx]

when I was younger my mom would give me tangerines to snack on at school but the thing is that I didn't really like them so i would just not eat them but also couldn't bring myself to throw them out nor thought to give them away cuz I felt guilty abt it so I just let them sit at the bottom of my backpack and of course they started rotting but the smell rlly wasn't that bad it waz just rlly acid and sweet and floral so for months I just kept letting them pile up in the bottom of my backpack feeling more guilty and ashamed as the smell got stronger and the dark stain on it grew and I became more and more scared of my parents or classmates or teachers finding out that I had multiple rotting tangerines sitting on the bottom of my backpack so I made sure to open and close it really fast and everytime I did that the smell would hit my face and made me very aware that I liked it and that I was starting to smell like that too making me feel more guilty and more ashamed util obviously my collection of rotten tangerines was too big for my mom to not notice and she made me throw them out and put it in the washing machine and she wasn't even mad at me she was just extremly confused as to why i would let it get to that point. I still can smell them sometimes

[txttletale]

every time i watch some piece of media about how abused children need to put in the work to understand their poor put upon parents i think about the scene in the asoue netflix show where klaus is told his shitty boss had a terrible childhood and says "i'm having a very terrible childhood right now". like damn gottem pack it up we can stop doing this narrative in film and literature now

[jessaerys]

sing for me my angel of youtube

[yorkshirearthurdent]

I think if I heard I Gotta Feeling by The Black Eyed Peas in the correct circumstances it could move me to tears. It's like the promise of a brighter future that never came to pass

[jessaerys]

i cant believe there's people who think sasuke tops. you understand nothing

[jessaerys]

im gonna be real im just at the part where sasuke gets his goth girl tattoos and im already like idk how you can explain this heterosexually and i don't mean that flippantly. like yeah i know about warrior bonds and the way shonen is misogynistic and the differences between japanese and western storytelling and Yet this is. Something Else,

[jessaerys]

im sure this is like showing up to the sasunaru trenches going hey guys i think we're getting shot at by an enemy of some sort

[jessaerys]

wait ok actually the fact that it was inspired by kishimoto's relationship with his twin brother lowkey explains most of it one has to laugh. are they lovers. worse

[jessaerys]

im gonna be real im just at the part where sasuke gets his goth girl tattoos and im already like idk how you can explain this heterosexually and i don't mean that flippantly. like yeah i know about warrior bonds and the way shonen is misogynistic and the differences between japanese and western storytelling and Yet this is. Something Else,

[jessaerys]

im sure this is like showing up to the sasunaru trenches going hey guys i think we're getting shot at by an enemy of some sort

[jessaerys]

im gonna be real im just at the part where sasuke gets his goth girl tattoos and im already like idk how you can explain this heterosexually and i don't mean that flippantly. like yeah i know about warrior bonds and the way shonen is misogynistic and the differences between japanese and western storytelling and Yet this is. Something Else,

[rinadragomir]

If you stayed the age of your birth DAY forever, how old you would be?

[jessaerys]

i want to write some real ass posts about it and gif it to infinity but for now: the single season of apple tv's the changeling with lakeith stanfield, clark backo & adina porter is probably what completes my favorite-shows-of-all-time trifecta alongside black sails and atlanta fx. this is just my taste and what speaks to me in the language of the hyper-stylistic so it might not be for everyone but to me it's the most gorgeous and deeply layered fairytale ever put to film and i'm not exaggerating. i love when a tv show looks and sounds like a play and yet it could never have been anything other than film. episode 7 in particular is perhaps my favorite episode of television of all time. the show starts slow, builds up to an explosion, and rewards multiple viewings. however i worry some people who don't like theatre would find it weird or corny or heavy-handed, but whatever, it's a fairytale it has Lessons. it's the sort of heart-wrenchingly earnest that makes me bawl like a baby, kind of like how people talk about the lord of the rings making them feel and the only reason why it's not as popular as, like, severance, is because it's about black peopleeeeee it's racism it's literally just racism it's maddening but it's the same story with atlanta fx. the changeling is a more whimsical, more textual version of the sort of surrealism the later seasons of atlanta fx had going on, kind of. it's not a fairytale horror genre blend but a piece of art that recovers and restores both the wonder and the absolute horror of the fairytale, the fable, the oral history, the leyend, the mystical, the mythical, the american myth, the global south, the Big City, the first generation immigrant and their bootstraps; the horror of class and poverty and the wonder of community, of the woman and more specifically the black woman; the passing down of knowledge from parent to child and from woman to daughter; from your future self to your past self, from the spirits to the mortals; of motherhood, of fatherhood, of childhood, of the son, of the daughter, of the sister, of the lover.

[jessaerys]

aside from the fact that all tv critics are hacks who give opinions based on one quick watch while theys scroll an article on the atlantic on their phone about how modern technology is dopaminemaxxing their ai slop fried brains, one just simply has to wonder why the changeling got mediocre reviews. one just simply has

[jessaerys]

i want to write some real ass posts about it and gif it to infinity but for now: the single season of apple tv's the changeling with lakeith stanfield, clark backo & adina porter is probably what completes my favorite-shows-of-all-time trifecta alongside black sails and atlanta fx. this is just my taste and what speaks to me in the language of the hyper-stylistic so it might not be for everyone but to me it's the most gorgeous and deeply layered fairytale ever put to film and i'm not exaggerating. i love when a tv show looks and sounds like a play and yet it could never have been anything other than film. episode 7 in particular is perhaps my favorite episode of television of all time. the show starts slow, builds up to an explosion, and rewards multiple viewings. however i worry some people who don't like theatre would find it weird or corny or heavy-handed, but whatever, it's a fairytale it has Lessons. it's the sort of heart-wrenchingly earnest that makes me bawl like a baby, kind of like how people talk about the lord of the rings making them feel and the only reason why it's not as popular as, like, severance, is because it's about black peopleeeeee it's racism it's literally just racism it's maddening but it's the same story with atlanta fx. the changeling is a more whimsical, more textual version of the sort of surrealism the later seasons of atlanta fx had going on, kind of. it's not a fairytale horror genre blend but a piece of art that recovers and restores both the wonder and the absolute horror of the fairytale, the fable, the oral history, the leyend, the mystical, the mythical, the american myth, the global south, the Big City, the first generation immigrant and their bootstraps; the horror of class and poverty and the wonder of community, of the woman and more specifically the black woman; the passing down of knowledge from parent to child and from woman to daughter; from your future self to your past self, from the spirits to the mortals; of motherhood, of fatherhood, of childhood, of the son, of the daughter, of the sister, of the lover.

[jessaerys]

the art of finding the perfectly above average but not too good film to watch while stoned + drawing

[andhumanslovedstories]

A patient, explaining what their relationship is to their new visitor who was headed up to see them, said, “he’s my guardian,” and I said “oh I didn’t you had a legal guardian,” and the patient said, “he’s not my legal guardian, he’s my spiritual and physical guardian. He is also my brother. Well, I say he’s my brother. He’s like a brother. He’s my husband.” And I say this with genuinely no judgment, just pure curiosity, what

[jessaerys]

writing near is like well i have to say more than "lol" just know that in all ways except narratively he is thinking: lol

[raichett]

liking a ship but disliking the distinct set of stock fanon that they have been assigned is like one of those punishments dante came up with when he wrote the worldbuilding for hell in inferno

[jessaerys]

when i was a tween i learned that stephanie meyer loved muse (the alt/prog rock band) so i listened to their first four albums on repeat because it made me feel cool despite being kind of unpleasant noise at first and it taught me that you can brute force any music taste if you listen to something until you Get It. which is a great skill to have artwise and tastewise. i think that's the most long-lasting effect twilight had had on me so thanks joseph smith i guess