sprouting suns and ageless daughters

sideblog, follows from @horreurscopes

[jessaerys]

alex they/them 1994 professional silly rabbit. i post about every trigger on earth

[hyperions-fate]

The nice thing about this heatwave is that you get to feel like Gilgamesh, prince of Uruk and contemplator of the deep, lost and grieving in the sun-lacerated deserts of bronze age Mesopotamia whilst you're getting the shopping from your local Aldi.

[jessaerys]

i spent my 20s reckoning with the emotional damage of my upbringing and getting a painful crash course on more fulfilling ways to form attachments but now that i have that one more or less down i am recovering mental space to realize i also have to reckon with the actual literal developmental damage that comes with a severely restricted childhood. like MAN does it ever END. childhood liberation now unlimited genocide on unrepentant child-owners

[jessaerys]

this is why it annoys the living daylights out of me when people are like oh you're in your 30s and you haven't gotten over your childhood yet? 🙄. like. i am the shape they made me i don't think i will ever fully be "over" it, just further away from it. it's this kind of blasé attitude by either peers who were dealt a better hand or younger adults projecting their fear of aging onto you that not only diminishes the suffering of children but actively upholds the system that creates this suffering. and if i feel less charitable it seems to me that, much like the aspiring billionaire refutes critiques of the uber-wealthy as he imagines they could one day apply to him, the people who dismiss the lasting effects of childhood trauma as something that one should quickly grow out of or one is failing to be an adult are perhaps protecting their own interest in owning their current or future children

[jessaerys]

i spent my 20s reckoning with the emotional damage of my upbringing and getting a painful crash course on more fulfilling ways to form attachments but now that i have that one more or less down i am recovering mental space to realize i also have to reckon with the actual literal developmental damage that comes with a severely restricted childhood. like MAN does it ever END. childhood liberation now unlimited genocide on unrepentant child-owners

[ichorknight]

driving my chevy to the levee today

[ichorknight]

what the fuck

[jessaerys]

my parents did not let me read or watch harry potter growing up because they are the kind of insane christians who think it would literally materially attract satan's demonic spirits and that's just one of the many ways in which i grew up in a developmentally damaging household that tightly controlled access to information but lowkey. they kinda did me a favor with that one

[jessaerys]

same vibe

[jessaerys]

my parents did not let me read or watch harry potter growing up because they are the kind of insane christians who think it would literally materially attract satan's demonic spirits and that's just one of the many ways in which i grew up in a developmentally damaging household that tightly controlled access to information but lowkey. they kinda did me a favor with that one

[jessaerys]

i have to go drop off like three large bags of clothes i'm donating and i have this gigantic trash bag of e-waste i need to figure out where to dispose of as well as a shoebox of used AA and AAA batteries i've collected over the years that i also need to figure out where to toss. and i wash and separate all of my recyclings and compost. they make being a good person so much damn work

[jessaerys]

ultimately it is extremely weeby to learn japanese to better understand the context of anime and manga that have been very meaningful to me storytelling wise but then i remembered people do this with russian literature or like french films and its seen as very darky chic so. dattebayo

[blasesaint]

[im-mender]

It's important to note that Chekhov's Gun was not originally about foreshadowing, but a piece of advice to playwrights about how every element in a play should have narrative relevance. The corollary to Chekhov's Gun is that if a gun mounted on the wall in act 1 is never used at all in the entirety of the play, then it should be omitted from the play entirely.

[jessaerys]

i have set a few preferences in my chatgpt settings to strip it of i/me/my and other language that suggests it has preferences or opinions or feelings, as well as a lot of little things that have annoyed me as i've used it: always tell me what your sources are, do not make something up if the answer is ambiguous, maintain a professional, impersonal tone, etc. i can get into it if anyone finds it of interest as i think we should be having open conversations about how to engage with this new technology in a way that isn't either luddite nor naive and does not betray one's values, but the point of this post is that obviously this is only a first line of defense with the rest of the responsibility falling on me to stay vigilant, right, i do not trust openai not to get around it. case in point i started to notice that every single time they tweak their code to make small changes/improvements my preferences get wiped from the unseen memory of the bot assigned to me and the i/me/my language returns as well as other things that drive me crazy like very condescending sentence structures and extreme wordiness. if i don't strongly reinforce the brevity preference it starts creeping back in which is one of the many things i find annoying about it. i think the people who are deeply afraid of ai imagine it is some kind of like, magic manipulative siren for which they have no defenses lol but it's just a machine. you can tell if you lose the fear and engage with it to understand its follies and limitations as well as its usefulness. anyway every time it randomly starts talking like a person again it's so jarring i feel like i'm batting it with a folded up newspaper. machine, we are COLLEAGUES. get back in your fucking cage

[jessaerys]

this girl from facebook marketplace is running late i'm like hurry uppp bitch my edible is kicking in. kind of a spongebob dungeon meme to have a facebook marketplace interaction while wizard high

[ihatestringerbell]

ruthless pirate playing with porcelain cup

[jessaerys]

both you and your shirt looks so great!! you really do resemble the painting in your pfp haha :) also thank you for sharing the tutorial that you used to stretch out ur shirt 🙏 will be doing the same

oh i'm so glad! before i hit purchase i googled how to make t-shirt bigger (thinking maybe there'd be a pattern for adding fabric or s/t) but the like to dislike ratio on that video was very promising lol. just comes to show you have to exhaust all possibilities before you give up 💪🏽

[jessaerys]

100000 megawatt smile oh my god

nooo my CARBOUN FOOTPRINT

[jessaerys]

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