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[anterocide-deactivated20170717]

Crashing at anyone’s place usually meant that he’d be out the door before the person even wakes up, but Isaac’s making an exception for today. Instead, he’s got a bowl of chips in his arms (courtesy of Sanhee’s pantry) and is in no real rush to leave. The evening had gone on a little too long and he had one too many drinks. Going home to his apartment, the same one without any heating, seems like a grim prospect and he isn’t interested. Not when he can stay a bit more and indulge himself a little.

Sanhee was making it too easy for him. "Just how much do you love me, huh?” He asks back with a laugh, taking the carefully rolled joint from between his lips. Isaac’s got his phone out, scrolling through all the pictures from last night. He doesn’t remember much and knows that’s for the best. “Honey,” He winces. Laughs. Take’s another hit. “You’re probably better off sleeping. These pictures… oh boy.”

[ahnsanhee]

       sanhee falls back into the comforts of her own bed, pulling the covers up to her head to block out the light and isaac’s voice. the bed embraces her warmly and it’s almost impossible to hold a conversation. “mmm… a lot.” she replies without much thought, turning on her side so her face is facing the other. she’s starting to feel the headache blare against her temples but she’s way too sleepy to deal with it right now. the warmth and the softness of the bed feels ethereal to the girl, but when the older mentions of photos from last night, she immediately shoots up, throwing the sheets off of her before making her way towards him. “what pictures?” it’s almost as if the sleep has been shaken off her immediately. she doesn’t remember much from last night and from experience, photos are never good when you don’t remember them being taken. “let me see them.” she demands, eyes glancing at his phone screen.  

[ahnsanhee]

       usually, sanhee loves listening to them talk. she loves having conversations about anything under the sun with them, she loves the exchange of banters and wit that transpires between the two of them but today... is a bit different. sanhee is groggy, still sleepy and a hungover from the night before that all she can do is stare at them as they talk, eyelids starting to droop. “honey, can we---” she yawns a little, a hand coming up to cover her lips, “talk a bit later? i love you, but i’m really really sleepy.”

[rxlers]

He adored her smile. It was probably one of the most lovable features about her given the fact that he got to see it so often. Sanhee’s humor was quite similar to his which played quite a big part in the harmony of their relationship. “Well that’s a compromise I can accept.” It was quite amusing how the morning started off with her not wanting him to leave and evolved into him not wanting her to leave. There was a certain kind of balance in their relationship; they were so similar yet so different. Leaning against the kitchen table when she turned to inspect the fridge, James made a mental note to give her some cooking lessons. It didn’t bother him to cook at all but despite them seeing each other nearly every day, there were still times when he wasn’t around and he didn’t exactly want her to spend her money on food when she’d get a nice, warm meal at home. 

Watching her hop onto the counter with a smile on his face, James started walking over to her while folding the sleeves of his hoodie up to his elbows. At least he finished rolling one of them up before his lips were sweetly placed on hers again for yet another kiss. James really couldn’t explain why but she looked damn adorable while sitting on that counter. Besides, he really liked having her around when he’d cook      Sanhee always managed to keep him entertained. Maybe it was because she really liked him, maybe it was because she was hungry and his food smelled nice or maybe it was both. Whatever it was, he hoped it’d stay that way. “I really gotta teach you how to cook a little bit more.” A hearty laugh escaped his lips when he started rolling up his other sleeve, looking up to her with an arched eyebrow. “Well then I hope you don’t have any plans for the next three hours because this might take a while.” However, his expression soon turned into a more questioning one when she stated that she’d like to cook with him. It was quite obvious that he was pleasantly surprised about her decision       he’d love to cook with her. “You could cook everything, actually.” there was a brief pause as he walked over to the fridge and opened it, immediately taking out some milk and eggs. “But let’s just start with something simple. How about we’ll make some pancakes and some french egg and bacon sandwiches?” 

[ahnsanhee]

      “good,” she says with a small nod, already excited for their reunion later that day even though they’re still together when supposedly, he has to be in class. this is the most exciting part of a new relationship, sanhee thinks—the never getting tired of each other, the sweetness of it all and she hopes they always stay this way. “you’re not busy later though, are you?” she asks, not wanting to interrupt his plans for today. despite her already interrupting his plan to go to class, she doesn’t want to seem too clingy that she gets suffocating. he has his friends too, and sanhee doesn’t want him to stop hanging out with his friends just because he’s dating her now.

      her eyes dart to his sleeves as he starts rolling them and involuntarily, her teeth comes down to bite on her lower lip, really weirdly attracted to the way he looks when his sleeves are rolled up. almost immediately when she sees him coming closer, her head tilts up to welcome his kiss as her arm wraps around his neck, pulling him closer to deepen the kiss while her other hand cups his cheek. she pulls away after a while, a cheeky grin on her lips before she gives him a final peck, fingers clinging to the strings of his hoodie. she likes kissing him, and likes it even more how nice his lips feels against hers, but she definitely likes it the most how there is not a day where his lips don’t meet hers. perhaps, one of the best decisions of her life is deciding to kiss him back the first time. “mm hmm, you definitely should. i bet i’ll ace your class.” she says confidently, smoothing out his hoodie. as much as she wants to be good at cooking, she knows she’s inherently terrible at it. the girl can’t even fry an egg, what more a good enough breakfast for the both them? she’s quite content with just watching him cook, but helping him out sounds nicer and the picture of the two of them cooking together is just really fascinating in her mind. talk about relationship goals. “well, i have to leave for class in three hours but i don’t mind just watching you cook.” she beams, her smile quite child-like as she watches him head to the fridge. “i can’t cook everything, in fact, i can’t cook anything at all.” she states as a matter-of-factly, frowning at him a little as she hops off the counter and heads  to the fridge to help him take out the ingredients. she takes the eggs from him and then walks over to one of the cupboards to take a bowl, presuming they’ll be using it. she places the eggs in the bowl then turns to him. “that sounds simple enough, eggs, pancakes and sandwiches? i think i can do that.” she nods, determined to impress him. the bowl rests on the counter she’s previously sitting on and she opens her mouth to ask him. “what else do we need, sir?” she chuckles a little, “you instruct, i follow.”

[rxlers]

For the nth time that morning his laugh resounded in room when she hit him with a pillow. It was amazing how much fun he had when he was around her      she somehow always found a way to make their relationship interesting. “It’s pure talent. Blessing and curse at once.” James didn’t miss her ears flushing a red hue when she realized what he’s said      he simply assumed it was a good thing. Despite his playfulness, he really did mean his words. He didn’t look at any other girl like he looked at her, seeing as how he already was with the one he desired most. Even while they were just friends James started developing feelings for Sanhee and it sure wouldn’t be like him to keep them hidden. Thus flirting became an option and subsequently their relationship and he couldn’t be any happier about it. 

Sure, she did have her bad habits and bad days as well. For one, James wasn’t exactly thrilled about her smoking       he accepted it but for her own health he would like her to stop someday. Her partying wasn’t much of a problem just yet; he wanted her to enjoy herself, be with her friends and maybe meet new people but he would still have a slightly queasy feeling about it every time. You see, he did trust her. Completely. James just didn’t trust other people as much. It was more him being concerned of her well-being than her doing something she probably shouldn’t. After all, clubs were a bit more dangerous for women than it was for men, wasn’t it? “Well, I’d rather miss school and be with you for another day than be at school for another day and miss you…” His voice was a mere mutter as his lips curled into his typical smirk. A blessing and a curse at once      just like he said earlier. James wasn’t really good at being overly affectionate not even with his girlfriend but when he did show his devotion for her, he made sure it would be special. Just like now. Their fingers naturally intertwined with each other and he brought their hands up to place a gentle peck on hers before he’d lead her to the kitchen. “With all the stuff you’ve got in there I can probably prepare you a six-course-menu…” Again one of his jokes but just like the others, there was a bit of truth in there. Sanhee always had a full fridge and he couldn’t help but be amazed by it. A dream come true for somebody who actually liked to cook. Being five years older than his younger sister, Holly, James would always want to make sure she was feeling well and had a nice meal. Thus the boy learned how to cook, easy receipts at first but his desire to get better with each course was definitely there and in no time he was, what one may consider, a quite good cook. “What do you want? Pancakes? Scrambled eggs with sausage? Maybe some porridge or grilled cheese? I could make an omelette as well….or some really nice sandwiches.

[ahnsanhee]

       perhaps the greatest most unexpected thing about how this relationship works is their inherent playfulness. they match on that level of having fun with each other and they like the same things, she’s glad things turn out to be how they are now. the transition from friends to lovers has been natural, more natural and smooth than sanhee thought it would be. it hasn’t been awkward at all, especially when she started holding his hand and kissing him.  she can’t even remember the last time she’s had a serious relationship and how it started but she’s sure it didn’t have the same foundation she has with james now.  

       she has this hunch that james liked her first, and there are times when she likes teasing him about it. but that doesn’t matter now, it’s almost as if her falling for him is inevitable, because really, what’s not to like about him? he’s mr. perfect, responsible, understanding and most importantly, he knows how to cook. he’s the kind of guy you can introduce to your parents any time. sometimes, she just wonders what did she do to deserve someone like him in her life? she’s his complete opposite but somehow, the differences and the similarities are what bring them together. “you’re only going to be in class for a few hours.” she tells him with an enamoured smile, she can’t help herself from smiling so much and she hasn’t even been awake for an hour yet. “let’s meet up later after class, how about that?” and, sanhee has to pass a project today. she can’t skip class no matter how much her heart and body yearns to just be next to james the whole day. she heads to her fridge when they reach the kitchen, inspecting it before she turns back to him. “you know i only eat real food when you’re here so i make sure to stock up.” usually, and in her life pre-james, she’ll just go and eat outside but now that her boyfriend insists on cooking, she’s starting to be properly fed. sanhee hops up to sit on the counter, legs dangling off the edge as she tilts her head, watching him while he lists the kinds of food he can make. he looks inexplicably attractive right now and sanhee just wants to kiss him. “how about a six-course meal?” sanhee kids, laughing with her eyes turning into crescents. “i want to help you cook today, do you think i can cook any of those?” she always likes watching him cook, likes the view of his back and his sleeves rolled up when he cooks but today, as if they have all the time in the world, she wants to help.

[bokgin-archived-deactivated2017]

open to anyone

( — ben was half listening to the other speak but something caught his attention suddenly. “ what the fuck did you just say ?” — )

[ahnsanhee]

       “i said,” she pauses, slightly annoyed that he hasn’t been listening. or perhaps he has been, she just doesn’t know what could it be that she said that surprised him. “i said i bought these shoes for a thousand dollars. or do you mean what i said before that?” it may have been more or less than a thousand dollars, but to her estimate, it’s about around that price range. 

[shibvmii]

        ❥  — only sanhee could get away being that clingy with her, that much is true. with a small, sheepish grin she heads on over to one of the bar stools in front of the counter, setting the food down there and starts to unwrap her cheeseburger. “mm, that’s true.. and yes, ah! we’ve both been so busy, it’s so stupid how we overwork ourselves.” she laughs a little, “how’s schoolwork going for you? you working on any new pieces because if so, i wanna see them!” with a few firm nods, her brightened expression is very much evident as she began to talk about her best friend’s work.

[ahnsanhee]

       sanhee takes out the fries and her own burger as well, leaning against the marbled counter as she starts chomping down on the food in her hands. eating fastfood that can bloat your stomach before slipping into a tight dress for a party night is probably not the best idea but when does sanhee even have good ideas? “that’s the beauty of college perhaps, long sleepless nights and tired mornings. same old.” she shrugs, used to the routine of not getting enough sleep now. when sarang mentions her art, her ears perk up and face brightens up to a hundred times. “oh! i’ve been working on a few pieces, i can show you after we eat!” she says excitedly, she’s always thrilled to talk about her designs. especially with sarang, she wants to hear what her bestfriend thinks. 

[dohertyinc-archive-blog]

better ideas for chance encounters than a bar or coffee shop:

a storm is delaying our flight home and i’m afraid of thunder, please talk to me while we wait

we’re both in small claims court and i got into a huge fight with the person suing me but you stepped in to hold me back before security got there

i drove two hours to the closest video rental store that’s still operating and you were checking out the only copy of the movie i was after

i hit you with my car but luckily you’re okay, but we should still exchange information i guess

our friends that we came here with went off together and now we’re making awkward small talk

i was worried about buying something off of someone creepy from craigslist but oh no you’re hot

my friend talked me into playing a drunken game of spin the bottle even though we’re all adults and now we have to make out

we both decided to take a [yoga/fencing/cooking etc] class and we’re the only two assholes not taking it seriously and everyone else is giving us dirty looks but we keep grinning over at each other

my date just made a scene in public and got arrested and now i’m stranded in a city without a ride home

sharing a cab together

you’re trying to get me to sign a petition and i have no idea what you’re talking about

you’re drunk at this festival and dancing on the table and when you eventually fell i caught you

i tried to get a part time job at this place right by my house but they hired you instead and i have to see you every day when i go there now

blind date!

my roommate is your ex, and your roommate is my ex, and i caught them sleeping together and told you so now we’re pissed off and going on a date to get away from them even though we didnt really know each other before now

[lyricallyaesthetic]

lost in stereo // all time low

[rxlers]

Was she just trying to tease him? Or was there a hint of jealousy hidden in her voice? Either way James couldn’t help but chuckle softly, thinking that it was quite adorable. The two of them were on the same page when it came to…well…a damn lot of things and that was the exact reason why he felt so at ease with her. Everything was just so natural when he was with Sanhee. “Is this jealousy I hear?” Again, his voice was nothing but playful as he put a hand on her small waist to keep her close. You see, James did have relationships in the past       quite a few to be frank       but barely any of them were as promising as this one was. And none of them felt so nice. “It’s alright, it’s completely understandable because I’m quite a catch but there really is no need to be. I’m all yours.” Once more he let his cocky demeanor out, only his tone and a smug smirk inclining that he was merely joking. If anybody would have reason to be jealous, it was definitely James. Sanhee was extremely beautiful and pretending that other men wouldn’t notice it to avoid arguments was quite a challenge to the usually outright and snarky student. 

Laughing softly at her suggestion, James merely pecked her lips once more as a silent answer. Both of them knew it wasn’t possible      she had her classes too      but skipping school to spend just a couple more hours with her sounded quite fantastic in his ears. “Until dinner actually sounds just about right.“ Mischief glistered in his eyes as he pulled back from her to get fully dressed by putting on his shirt. Both of them knew how little motivation he had left for the attendance of his classes and his semester just barely started. Yet he was also quite connected with his conscience, leading him to actually attend school in an attempt to finish it as fast as possible. James had always been something between good and above average      no more, no less. Whether he attended classes or not seemed to not play much of a part in that. A simple, navy colored zip up hoodie was placed over his black shirt as he waited for her to finish as well. “Yeah, let’s get breakfast, maybe I’ll make it in time for the second period then. If I try hard enough I can eat slow enough to only make it to the first break…” Another smirk lit up his face as he arched a brow. “You wanna go out to eat or should I just make something?”

[ahnsanhee]

       “i’m not jealous!” sanhee says incredulously, pulling a face of feign amusement as laughter bubbles in her throat at how ridiculous his accusation is. maybe she is, just a little. but she won’t tell him that of course, not unless a girl flings herself on him while performing or even after performing then that is an entire different story. despite his cockiness so early in the morning, his words don’t fail to bring butterflies to her stomach that sanhee hits him with a pillow playfully. “how can you both be so cocky and cheesy at the same time? i don’t get it.” i’m all yours. that sounds nice, very nice, really. she feels her ears heat up. this part of relationships is something sanhee will have a hard time getting used to, sweet words usually mean nothing to her, but this is james, and james means a lot to her. and that changes a lot of things.

      old habits die hard, so they say and sanhee’s habits are quite unconventional for a girl who’s in a relationship. she tries her best to stop smoking (she’s been trying for a long time now, even before she became his girlfriend. it’s a hard process), and doesn’t go out partying as much and when she does, she makes sure she tells him so he doesn’t worry. she thinks he understands her, this is who she is before they met and it’s something hard to change. she isn’t the girl everyone wants to introduce to their parents, after all. nonetheless, there are parts of sanhee that are starting to change ever since meeting him. like, her refrigerator for example. “yah, you have to be quick so you don’t miss much.” she reprimands him, without much weight to her words as she slips into her shorts from last night. she also doesn’t want to go to class, just lie in bed with him and maybe eat pizza but they have responsibilities. “i still have food in the fridge, want to check out what you can do with it? hm?” when james comes over, her fridge is always filled with groceries. she doesn’t want them to hang in her place without food. the only thing is that, sanhee can’t cook---good thing he does. it’s a good match. she walks over to his side then takes his hand to lace their fingers together. sanhee is naturally affectionate even with friends, and with him being her boyfriend, he definitely gets all the affection the girl can give. 

[blissfulxwishing-blog]

As the owner of the cafe, Marie was happy to see business doing so well even after so many years with its competition. Off in the corner she saw a young woman who looked to be a student in one of the near by colleges. She has seen her in here a time or two before, and today at this point she has been there for a while. Making her way over she stopped in her tracks when she saw her artwork. This girl was obviously talented as Marie stared in awe of the designs and pieces she was creating.

Hearing her question brought her out of her trance and she lets out a small laugh “ I apologize, i was taken by your talent. that’s a wonderful piece you have there” She said referring to the sketch pad before turning her attention to the girl. “ Actually, may i help you? I am the owner of this cafe and just wanted to see if there was anything i could get you. Anything to drink or eat?” 

[ahnsanhee]

       if there’s one thing that sanhee doesn’t know how to react to, it would be compliments directed to her art. she’s used to people telling her she’s pretty, or complimenting her clothes and how she put them together but she doesn’t think she’ll ever get used to people praising her actual talent. “i... um.... well...” she smiles shyly, biting on her lower lip as she plays with the edges of her sketch pad. “thank you, i mean, these are really... nothing.” she says, gesturing to the entire page she’s been scribbling on. “i have better ones, actually.” she’s suddenly excited now, like a child that has been praised for doing something good. “i can show them if you want.” why is she suddenly like this? sanhee doesn’t know but the offer of food makes her stop speaking. “oh yes right, of course, i’ll have a latter please? sorry if i’ve been taking up this table for a while. my class is in an hour, i’ll get going soon.”

[bulletsouls-deactivated20170524]

Jihae was rendered speechless at the question. It wasn’t that she was uncertain of how to respond, but she was caught off guard. “Ah, well…I think I would love it! I mean, I would ask how long they’ve liked me for first. Because I’m curious…ah, I think I would ask too many questions.” She paused, looking over at the younger girl with a puzzled look on her face, then a small smirk. “Ahn Sanhee, do you like somebody?”

[ahnsanhee]

       sanhee’s fingers come up to touch her neck at the other’s question, sudden panic surging through her. right, she’s way too obvious now. “i do, i think i do--yeah.” she nods, pursing her lips together as she averts her eyes from her. at times, sanhee’s mouth needed filtering and this is definitely not one of those times. why can’t she be brutally honest like how she always is? “i just wanted to get some perspective on how they would react if i confess now.” she mumbles, the feeling of wanting to tell jihae her feelings still stuck on her throat and she can’t seem to get it out. 

[rxlers]

In all honesty, James would fancy his warm place next to her on the bed way more than the cold winds outside and the annoying road to university and just as boring classes. Alas, it was simply not in his power to decide when he’d get to come in late or not. Although he really had to admit that her request was extremely tempting. Lying in bed with his beautiful girlfriend for just thirty minutes more was something he certainly wouldn’t want to miss. A soft laugh slipped past his lips as he pulled his pants up to secure them with a belt, now only revealing his toned upper body. “That sounds pretty tempting, actually.” James leaned in to quickly kiss her, taking her hand in the process. She was so cute when she was sleepy      then again, she was cute no matter what she did. “But what will all my fangirls in class think if their idol wouldn’t show up?” In just a matter of a second, his tone changed into a more playful one as he stayed close to her, one of his legs placed on the warm mattress to keep his balance. A faint smirk traced his features as he pecked her lips once more. Gosh, why couldn’t class just be cancelled for today? 

Now, James didn’t exactly have fangirls as he described them but being a singer and guitarist      a good-looking one at that, too      in a band that would perform originals as well as covers at numerous parties and school assemblies sure did gain him a certain level of popularity among his female schoolmates. But could he let that opportunity to tease her just go and tell her that they weren’t all over him? Well, no. Not James. He loved teasing people and with Sanhee being his favorite person, she was also often the target of his shenanigans. It wasn’t his fault though. Her reactions were just too cute to pass up an opportunity like that. To him, her begging was like torture. On one hand he really didn’t want to leave her side just yet but on the other a tiny voice in his head      probably belonging to his sister who was righteous as fuck and would never miss class       told him that he had to go. “Hm…about how late are we talking here?” James practically lost this battle but didn’t want Sanhee to know about it just yet. She probably knew it anyways.

[ahnsanhee]

       a small smile stretches itself upon sanhee’s lips when james takes her hand and presses his lips against hers, eyes closing in contentment at this way of saying ‘good morning’, she really doesn’t mind this new way of greeting james. however, that smile is erased as quickly as it came, a frown replacing it as she deadpans at him, despite the peck he has given, she’s still frowning. “they won’t think anything because you don’t have fangirls except me.” she teases as she gets on her knees to level with him, keeping the blanket wrapped around her. she knows well enough that james has his own following. it’s not his fault that he’s talented, good-looking, charming and performs on events but she just doesn’t know how to feel about girls fawning over her boyfriend. when they used to be friends, it didn’t bother sanhee much, she just laughed at his cockiness and claims of having fangirls but now, it just feels different. 

       for now, she pushes it to the back of her mind as she wraps and arm around his shoulders, the other hand keeping the blanket secure around her frame. the moment he asks how late she wants him to stay, that’s when she knows her begging has worked. she wins. “hmm, how about until dinner?” she grins up at him as she tells him her playful suggestion. she knows he has to go to class and she has to go to class later into the day so she has to make adjustments to that request. compromise---isn’t that what couples do? “or we could get breakfast together? then you can go to class and i can go to class.” sanhee suggests as she pulls away from him, getting off the bed so she can get dressed. in the process, she lets the blanket fall off her body, her back facing james as she picks up her clothes and slips into them easily. when she turns back to him, she throws her hair back as her shirt from last night hangs haphazardly on her shoulders. “breakfast it is then?”

[ahnsanhee]

    “can you stay instead?” sanhee asks, voice hoarse as she has just woken up from slumber. the budging of the bed next to her space startles her and seeing them already pick up their clothes and get ready for the day ahead awakens her even more. she props herself up with her elbows, eyes half-open as she looks at her significant other through the sunlight filtering on her curtains. it’s surprising, really, how sanhee managed to finally commit to one serious relationship and the feeling is new—exhilarating even. they haven’t been official for a long time, but they’ve been flirting  and have known each other for god knows how long that sanhee trusts them enough—loves them enough to stay.

      “it’s still early, can’t you come in late today?” she pouts, hand reaching out for the other to hold on to. she’s their girlfriend now and she’s allowed to do this. so, excuse her for enjoying the feeling. she hasn’t been in a relationship in so long that doing couple and romantic and sweet things seem so foreign to her now. she’s almost as if back to square one, learning the ropes of how to be one’s girlfriend. “please?” she practically begs, eyes bright and wide as juts out her lower lip in an attempt to get to them. she feels extra clingy today and it is appearing with her actions so early in the morning.

[ahnsanhee]

     (  REVERSE STARTER CALL! since my exams are all almost over, i really want to get back on track with roleplaying so please hit the ♥ button if you want me to reply to one of your open starters! 

[numberxix]

Apparently I’ve been on this account ( numberx9 and numberxix ) for around two years now. Can we get some apple juice and chocolate cake here, please? I mean, I’m not picky, but I’ll never skip the chance to have some chocolate cake. Neither should you!

To be honest, I was never too fond of ‘follow forever’s, but I remembered that I could include all the amazing people that I follow and let the world know that they exist and that you’re losing a lot, if you’re not following them. But, hey, I’m keeping an eye on you; I love my RP partners very much, it’s because of them I’ve not deleted this account ( even when I just felt like letting all go ). And, I suppose, this is the part where I start to get emotional – not that I wasn’t before!

That being said, are you ready to meet the most awesome people you’ve ever had the chance to meet in your life? Let’s get going!

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[chcshirc-archived-blog]

         crescent shaped eyes and a wide grin graced her features as she let out a chuckle. “you don’t have to but… i mean, real girlfriends would probably keep such a nickname exclusive to each other, right?” maddie didn’t want to come off as too demanding. after all, this relationship wasn’t even a real one so why should she ask so much of the other? 

as she rolled the windows down, the breeze from outside immediately blew in her face, causing her hair to fly in the wind. she turned her head to the other to give a warm smile and a nod. an arm reached out to punch the older’s shoulder playfully yet carefully, so not to disturb sanhee as she drove– she definitely didn’t want anything bad to happen to them tonight. “yah! why would i do that? i’m not a DOG.” the exclamation of fake annoyance was then followed by a genuine laugh, her eyes once again looking like tiny crescent moons on her face.

instead of placing her feet on the dashboard as the other had told her she could do, maddie slipped her shoes off, and hugged her legs closely, silently listening with interest to sanhee’s stories. leaning her head on her bony knees, the younger girl stared at the other with glistening eyes, completely enamoured by the way she spoke, the way she looked, and… just everything about her. 

“ah, well… it is practical.” she thought about all the times she had to find ways back home after those late night parties– not that she went to them often but she’s had to attend them more than once. “now that we’re girlfriends, maybe i can go to more of those parties WITH you.” it was a joke that she ended with a wink but if the other were to take it seriously, she wouldn’t mind it at all.

[ahnsanhee]

        the car is filled with sanhee’s laughter mingling with the beautiful sound of maddie’s mirth. “of course you’re not.” sanhee emphasizes, snorting a little as she playfully rolls her eyes at the other. she gives her a second glance, eyebrows furrowing together as if she’s in deep thought before turning her gaze back on the road then a shrug of her shoulders follow. “on a second thought, you look like a puppy when you’re annoyed. it’s cute.” 

      when sanhee talks of stories like this, it’s personal. something a lot of people she’s formed friendships with never have the chance of hearing but maddie is special to her now. and she doesn’t really mind opening up. she’s especially protective of her past that lacked her parents supervision but what the hell---this is maddie, and for tonight, at least just tonight, she’s her girlfriend and girlfriends tell each other everything. she might as well internalize the role right?

      sanhee has always been good at lying and pretending, it’s a skill that gets her out of most situations but right now, her expertise at faux emotions doesn’t give her much of an edge with the way how she inevitably smiles so fondly at maddie. “i mean, sure. i’d love to take you to parties. i’d be like ‘hey guys! meet my girlfriend’ it’ll be great.” the picture her words paint in her mind makes her blush at the slightest, her arm around maddie’s waist, proudly showing her off to her friends and just... it’s a great fantasy.

      sanhee gulps then turns a corner as she proceeds to ask maddie a question. “did you get dinner? i mean it’s pretty late, but want to go buy some food? my treat.”

[ahnsanhee]

       “you look stressed today.” sanhee comments, sinking down on the chair next to them and handing them a new glass of champagne. the party (not the kind of party she goes to in gangnam but the one with long dresses and appropriate attitude, the one where she needs to be at the best behavior as she’s with her parents) drags on, and sanhee isn’t enjoying herself either. not when she can’t comfortably and freely talk to them without the fear of anyone figuring out the secret they have been keeping for so long. 

        she hates being kept a secret, hates sneaking out behind hotels and coming up with different excuses just to meet with them. but the thing is, the reason why she keeps coming back is that she thinks she loves them. the reason why she keeps coming back is them. sanhee doesn’t make eye contact and only looks out at the crowd of people before them, all busy in their own bubble talking about stocks and money and luxury. things that sanhee should understand but she doesn’t care. she sees her parents conversing with another couple and she sighs inwardly, her leg bumping ever so slightly against theirs. she tucks loose strands of her hair which has been put up into a low bun behind her ear and turns to them, hoping and doing her best to make it sound like they’re just acquaintances talking. “bad day or bad music? i personally don’t enjoy the music so far.”