Alone

there are infinite shades of grey. writing often appears so black and white.

[urfriendlywriter]

"i wanna be closer to you" (ldr) prompts that i absolutely adore:

>°< the 6th, 8th, 9th, 11th and the 22nd??? CRYING

@urfriendlywriter | req by @seungspolaroid

hugs that feels like clench in your heart because you don't know when u might see them again

"don't let go yet" "i won't, sweetheart"

running into their arms after a long time ♡ and fitting right in :(

hoping it's them whenever the bell rings

just looking into each other's eyes while cuddling

always touching each other because they miss the feel of your skin against theirs :(((

holding hands until their fingertips reach out of grasp

yearning kisses when they press their palm against your cheek, slightly lifting you up. never getting enough and parting lips always wanting more (IM IN TEARS IM SO LONELY)

feeling heart wrench when you see their face while they leave

when they're excited to show you something they're proud of through face time.

when they break into tears as soon as they see you. and the hug after :(((

them having your picture as their wallpaper

"i--i have a day off tomorrow, do you want go somewhere?" "i just want to be in your arms, no matter where."

"go ahead, byee??" they cutely pout and mumble, "I'd rather not go and spend my time with you tho.."

remembering every detail about you.

eyes always on yours whenever you are together as if they're memorizing everything about you ㅜㅜ

"atleast we share the same moon. it's so pretty that it reminds me of you"

feeling empty without the other

"i missed you-doesn't feel good enough to express how much longing i feel for you."

many things will be left unsaid, because of the time difference, not being able to talk with them all the time

"is everything okay?" "yeah- *shuffles behind the camera* yeah i guess." "does it take. what? 3 hours on a flight? I'm coming tomorrow. i don't like this."

"sweetie, I'd run to you in a heartbeat if you'd ever need me."

"i do live 14 hours away from you, but my heart is always where you are."

a broken "come to please" with tears in the eyes, and the helpless other being able to do nothing about it

"you've grown a bit.." "it's only been a week, hun???"

[lifeof-gra]

i have been thinking about death pretty often.

sometimes it’s pretty easy to acknowledge the fact that we’re all going to die and it’s inevitable. but sometimes, you get reminded of how scary death is. especially if it’s a death of a loved one.

also, i think about how i’d react if i knew i’m dying. like, what would i do if i get chronically ill (which is likely to happen), would i fight it or would i give up treatment and finish my bucket list of some sort. would i be truly at peace if i choose the latter?

do i want to die of old age or to simply die 20 or 30 years from now bc life can get too unbearable sometimes and you just feel like it has to stop. idk where this is going. bc i want to tell more about how i feel. but idk i’ll just post it like this. don’t mind me. lol.

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kulang kulang thoughts q but i’ll leave it this way lol i may or may not edit this anymore kapag wala na amats q loool but i just felt the need to share my thoughts para mabawas bawasan

[ds6-deactivated20220227]

Nothing hurts more than having flashbacks of all the things that broke you

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Learn to articulate how you're feeling without accusing anyone of having bad intentions. You can say "I'm afraid of being alone" without saying "you're just going to leave me like everyone else." You can say "I need some reassurance" without saying "you probably don't love me anymore." You can say "I'm afraid I've hurt your feelings and I'd like to talk it through" without saying "you don't even like me anymore." You can say "I want to spend more time with you" without saying "you've gotten tired of me." You can say "I feel misunderstood" without saying "you always judge me." Try not to let your emotions get the best of you. Have a conversation focused on finding solutions instead of escalating the conflict.

[officialaudreykitching-deactiva]

Know in your heart that you will attract everything that is meant for you.

[fine-line-bones]

it just hurts to know that i’m never gonna be anyone’s favourite person. i’ll always be their last choice

[litaratura]

Michael Cunningham, The Hours

[tullipsink]

desperation sits heavy on my tongue

[painted-poems]

[ilovetoodeeply]

sometimes i wonder how many times you thought about giving up on me

probably more than i could ever bear to hear

[bitchscavenger]

dear love,

Please don’t leave me not just yet

Losing isn’t something you can prepare I know

it won’t hurt less if I know when you will gone

[ilovetoodeeply]

if u can fall asleep when things are bad between us then it shows me u dont care what could happen when u wake up

[apesterrrr]

[bittersuggestion]

Give yourself something to look forward to that isn’t a person

[thoughtkick]

“I still get very high and very low in life. Daily. but I’ve finally accepted the fact that sensitive is just how I was made, that I don’t have to hide it, and I don’t have to fix it. I’m not broken.”

— Unknown

[dont-give-a-fuck-club]

Hey if you're reading this and you're in a bad spot mentally or anything i hope you feel better soon and have a good day

[paraluw-deactivated20221029]

i want my soul to feel like a calm blue sea