Catastrophe

nyel / wasn't good enough, and never will be

[escafeism]

““We’re so close yet so far apart, i can touch your hand but not your heart and so i’m willing to give up this fight, cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t.””

— hensonpatricia

[escafeism]

“Sorry, if I ruined your life. Sorry, if I am a nuisance to you. Sorry, if I pushed myself too much just for you to accept me. Sorry, if I am too desperate for your love.”

— - Sorry, I just love you so much.

[escafeism]

“One day, you’re gonna miss me chasing you, you’re gonna miss my pointless messages, you’re gonna look for someone like me, you’re gonna look for someone who loved you exactly like I did. And I’m gonna forget everything about you.”

— K.Y

[escafeism]

“Part of me says it was horrible. Loving you was never good for me, it was self draining, toxic and poisonous. But another part of me says, it was beautiful. It was real and honest. Falling in love with you was terrifying yet stirring. You made me love the beast I’m concealing inside. You made me tame the monsters and embrace the sorrows the beast is carrying. But I lost in the end. I was so busy taming the monster, I didn’t notice you creating another one. You have left me alone with the beast and you made me carry the scar. You ruined me in exchange for the wonderful memories. I’m torn.”

— (d.r.n)

[escafeism]

“I really wanted to write something to end this but I can’t find the exact words that will fit the story that never had a chance to get started properly. There’s no reason to go back from the start because there’s no beginning at all and it will only cause damage over and over again. And I won’t let that happen because I don’t want you to get hurt even if you brought so much pain to me. It’s fine if it’s just me feeling the pain bacause for once in my life I felt how to be happy for real. I will always keep in my mind the moment how you made me realized the way how to embrace my own flaws, to dance with the storm I am in and to face the fears that I have. You just have that ability to teach the best lessons in life. Maybe you don’t know about this, but I am so much thankful because you passed by my life but your little stopover made me fall for you. Of all people, why does it have to be you? Why do I need to be in love alone? Do you know how hard it is to feel like your heart breaks everytime you remember someone’s name knowing that he’s just letting yours slip away? I don’t want this pain and I can’t do anything about it but just to endure it all alone because you already left without knowing how I feel. I thought you’ve already taught me the best lessons but you forgot to teach me not to fall in love with people who doesn’t stay and now I don’t know how to end this. I don’t want this anymore but I keep on coming back to feel the pain because aside from what I learned from you, this is the only thing you’ve left for me.”

—

[escafeism]

“You’re the kind of medicine I take more than the prescribed dosage”

— BXSKXN

[escafeism]

let me still write about you long after the epilogue;

let me still write about your eyes, my favorite shade of brown, long after the days when its color will fade in those pictures saved in the back of my head.

let me still write about your laugh, one of my favorite sounds, long after the days when its echoes will fade into silence.

let me still write about your stories, my favorite pieces of literature, long after the days when its ink burned in my memories will fade into indecipherable symbols.

let me still write about the way you kiss, and my favorite aftertaste, long after your name fades away from these lips.

let me still write about you long after whatever we had was over.

[stfpheny]

Don’t be with someone who hurts you & slaps a bandaid on your wound and calls it love. Be with someone who changes and improves themselves to love and protect you.

[mrbigosapagibig]

I promised to love you even if it hurts and to love you more when it hurts.

[houseofsoul]

I hate being ignored by someone I pay the most attention to.

[radiantquotes]

When you love someone more than they deserve, they’ll probably hurt you more than you deserve.

[myonlywayoutofhere]

“I love you a lot but it’s okay if you don’t love me, I wouldn’t love me either”

-Day 476

[radiantquotes]

“And soon time will pass and I will forget the color of your eyes, the way your face altered when you smiled, the placement of your freckles, and what you meant to me”

— Elianett Gonzalez (via takesmybodyhigher)

[radiantquotes]

“one day we will find each other again but not in coffee shop not in train station but in early morning while everyone else is asleep and it will feel like we are meeting each other for the very first time and everything that hurts will be left behind just so we can say hello to everything that makes us happy”

— k.m (via fluohrine)

[lacquerofthemoon]

i’m learning that every person i leave behind will carry a piece of my heart for the rest of their lives. but i have to continue to move forward and allow my heart to grow anew, instead of backtracking and trying to reclaim those parts of me again in them.

[guiltytoledo]

“It is a frightening thought, that in one fraction of a moment you can fall in the kind of love that takes a lifetime to get over.”

— Beau Taplin // O N E

[guiltytoledo]

I think what hurts the most is when you give your all to someone. Through thick and thin, you’re there for them. You stick with them, no matter what. Then one day they just give up. They won’t even fight for you. The one thing you would never have done, they did without any hesitation.