you're no good for me

Aiza Bodek || twenty seven || former marine current fairford police officer 'my ghost, where'd you go'

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WARM AND FUZZY MEME! SEND AN EMOTICON FOR MY MUSE’S REACTION TO: 🍨 YOUR MUSE SHARING A DESSERT WITH MINE 🎂 YOUR MUSE CELEBRATING MINE’S BIRTHDAY WITH MINE ☕ YOUR MUSE BRINGING MINE A WARM DRINK 🍴 YOUR MUSE MAKING DINNER FOR MINE 👻 YOUR MUSE TELLING MINE A SPOOKY STORY BY TORCHLIGHT 💀 YOUR MUSE COMFORTING MY MUSE DURING A SCARY MOVIE 💍 YOUR MUSE PROPOSING TO MINE 👶 YOUR MUSE REVEALING THAT THEY ARE PREGNANT WITH MY MUSE’S BABY 💋 YOUR MUSE GIVING MINE A KISS (SPECIFY WHERE) 👐 YOUR MUSE GIVING MINE A HUG 🐟 YOUR MUSE TAKING MINE TO THE AQUARIUM FOR THE DAY 🐜 YOUR MUSE ‘SAVING’ MY MUSE FROM AN ‘ENORMOUS’ BUG 💐 YOUR MUSE BRINGING MY MUSE FLOWERS 🌱 YOUR MUSE AND MY MUSE PLANTING A GARDEN TOGETHER 🌛 YOUR MUSE CUDDLING MINE AS THEY SETTLE DOWN TO SLEEP 🌟 YOUR MUSE TAKING MINE STARGAZING ⛈ YOUR MUSE COMFORTING MINE DURING A THUNDERSTORM ☀ YOUR MUSE SLATHERING MY MUSE IN SUNBLOCK ☂ YOUR MUSE SHIELDING MY MUSE FROM RAIN ❄ YOUR MUSE THROWING A SNOWBALL AT MY MUSE 💧 YOUR MUSE CLIMBING INTO THE SHOWER WITH MINE 🐁 YOUR MUSE 'SAVING’ MY MUSE FROM AN 'ENORMOUS’ MOUSE 🛀 YOUR MUSE RUNNING A BUBBLE BATH FOR MINE 🎨 YOUR MUSE DRAWING/PAINTING A PORTRAIT OF MY MUSE ⚽ YOUR MUSE CHALLENGING MY MUSE TO A GAME 🎸 YOUR MUSE PLAYING MUSIC/SINGING FOR MY MUSE 💌 YOUR MUSE SENDING MINE A LOVE LETTER 🎁 YOUR MUSE GIVING MINE A GIFT 💔 YOUR MUSE COMFORTING MINE AFTER THEIR HEART IS BROKEN ❤ YOUR MUSE DECLARING LOVE FOR MINE 💕 YOUR MUSE TELLING MY MUSE THAT THEY WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS

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drwebber:

For similar reasons, Julian sought comfort and companionship in a canine. Or, several of them at once; it had always been difficult to switch off the large chunk of his entirety devoted to ‘helping’ - it proved to extend beyond humans, and so he simply allowed it. It wasn’t exactly a bad thing, after all. Weary features brightened, hazel eyes widening in momentary surprise. “… That could be fun, maybe he could help teach her some better discipline.” He chuckled quietly, hands stuffing into his pockets. 

Aiza grinned softly at the prospect of the play date and nodded genuinely. “Of course, he’d whip her into shape.” she purred with a soft wink. She stood slowly and took out a piece of paper and pen from her purse before scribbling her name down with some numbers. “Here’s my number.. if you ever want to get a drink.. or have a little dog play date.. call me.” she mused, pushing the paper into his pocket with a grin.

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gracefulhaley:

“Your wish is my command,” she teased and easily hopped down from the stool. The dance floor was hot and crowded, the bass music pounding through the floor. She made her way through the crowd, at the same time making sure the brunette was following. The thing about cramped dance floor was; everyone was dancing with their partners, minding their own business which created an intimate atmosphere, believe it or not. Leaning in, Grace whispered in Aiza’s ear. “Now, how do you want to dance?”

Aiza couldn’t help but giggle as the girl guided her to through the crowd. She gripped her hand tightly and ignored the body bumping up against her. She didn’t dance all too often, she didn’t particularly have the time to do so. At Haley’s words Aiza bit her lip and grinned wide, her eyes drifting up and down the girl’s frame before turning around and pressing her back up against the blonde. “How do you think?” she questioned before beginning to move her hips against the other’s.

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jaxonwarren:

“I could be better, but isn’t that everyone?”

“I don’t think anyone is truly okay in this town anymore. As depressing as that sounds.”

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miles from where you are || charlie & aiza

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xcharlie-campbell:

Aiza’s reassurance that she was there for her made her heart tighten in her chest. “Thank you.” If she’d said that before, Charlie would have believed it in a heartbeat, but after what had happened to them (despite how much time had already passed), and given recent event, she found it hard to believe. So instead of arguing, she settled for thanking her, it was easier to accept the support as it would come, instead of saying upfront she didn’t believe her, she wasn’t about to hurt her any more. “Are you?” Not everything had been bad, not in the slightest. Charlie and Aiza had shared many happy memories before she went ahead and ruined it. And if Charlie knew and was so open now about her sexuality, she owned it to Aiza. The only bad part about it was breaking Aiza’s heart along the way, but she still held her memories dear, both the good and the bad. “Amazing, uh?” She smiled gently, giving a shake of her head. “Have my doubts about that.” She shrugged her shoulders at the question. “I lost two years of my life. Not only the people who were in it, but… Myself as well. And things… Things are just so messed up right now.” She felt her eyes tearing up already and she cursed herself for it. “I don’t remember who I was and I feel… Like a shell. There’s just so much emptiness that I can’t fill no matter how hard I try. I really messed up. I’m a mess.”

Aiza would always be gentle for Charlie. No matter the time of day, no matter how much hurt she endured from the other, she would always be gentle. She would always open her door for her and keep her safe. That’s just what she did. She couldn’t help it. Aiza knew the pair was on unsteady terms. The last time they saw one another she was leaving for deployment and her feelings for the other were one sided, her heart breaking in the process. But every day leading up to that moment would be days she didn’t dare forget. “I am.” she pressed back, finishing her coffee in a large sip before crossing her arms, afraid that it was the only thing holding her together. Charlie’s words made her hurt, it made her ache to reach forward. She couldn’t help, she couldn’t console her. “It.. It get’s better.” she whispered, kicking her feet, her eyes lifting up. It took the girl’s tears to throw her over the edge and forgo holding back. Aiza pushed forward and enveloped the girl in her arms, holding her head against her chest as her fingers pushed through her hair. “It doesn’t matter anymore. Those years are gone and you can’t do anything about it. You just need to push past it.. You need to get over it. You’re here now, you’re making new memories and that’s all that matters.”

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miles from where you are || charlie & aiza

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xcharlie-campbell:

Charlie closed her eyes briefly, giving a small shake of her head. While it was a mere formality, a social rule, Charlie hated when people felt the need to apologize for her memory loss, particularly now that she’d remembered how it was all her fault. “You get used to it after a while.” It was only a half truth. While she’d grown accustomed with the frustration that came with her inability to remember part of her life, she was still dealing with its consequences (hence the whole Mikk-Finn incident, the whole reason she wound up a mess, which led to the present situation she found herself in). It never went away, to say the truth. The frustration, the newfound fear of being tricked, the sadness of not remembering someone and breaking their heart. “We all did.” She mumbled in response. “But memories are still precious. And I hold yours dear.” Perhaps she shouldn’t say those things, if she still felt terrible about how things had gone down with Aiza, how must she feel? Did she even still care at all, or had she at least forgiven Charlie for being such a stupid child? “Still, thank you.” To her surprise, she found herself laughing at Aiza’s comment. “I’m not sure if that’s a compliment or not. But I’ve changed…” She voice was softer at the end and Charlie’s gaze fell to the floor for a moment. “I changed so much I don’t even know who I am anymore.” She mumbled. It wasn’t the right place, it wasn’t the right moment, and Aiza definitely wasn’t the right person to hear what Charlie had to say, or how broken she suddenly felt, but the words slipped past her lips before she could even stop them.

Aiza knew what it was like to feel loss. She lost friends overseas, her brothers and sisters. She knew how painful it was but she could never relate to the feeling of loosing memories, loosing precious time. She ducked her head at Charlie’s words and simply nodded a bit. “Yeah, well if you need help with anything.. i’m here.” she promised in a soft whisper. Aiza kicked at her feet, unsure of what to say. There was no words to console the girl and the ones already said surely wouldn’t help. She took another sip of her coffee, aching to lurch forward and embrace the other, she settled for gripping her mug tighter. Aiza smiled softly at Charlie’s remark, thankful she hadn’t been forgotten. She wasn’t sure she would be able to live with the thought, the memories only she would hold close. “I’m happy to hear that, Charlie.” she mused, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear momentarily. She let out a soft laugh and shook her head. “It’s a compliment. You’re still amazing.” she mumbled before her heart ached at the girl’s following words. “What do you mean by that, Charlie? Why don’t you know who you are?”

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gracefulhaley:

“What, you despise liars?” Grace asked with raised eyebrows, taking a sip of her drink. “You surely will. I’ll even be kind enough to leave you wanting more.” Clearly amused, she leaned forward. “Aiza, Aiza, Aiza.”

“They’re not my favorite..” Aiza mused with a shrug. Her tongue dipped out to swipe against her lower lip, holding back a groan as the blonde moved closer, whispering her name. “Well I want to dance.. Maybe you can prove your words.” she insisted, grabbing Haley’s hand and tugging her off the stool beside her.

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shippy thing for Charlie and Aiza :')

controls the remote: Aiza. she takes her sunday night football and hells kitchen nights seriouslycontrols the furnace: Charlie. she insists on it being warm, aiza has a fan blasting on her side of the bedmakes nachos at 2 am:  Charlie, Aiza catches her every time... and joinsreally really likes Candy Crush:  Aiza. she kills it, forces Charlie to send her livesdrinks directly from the orange juice jug: Charlie, it’s barbaric, Aiza loves it.tracks mud inside the house:  Aiza, very oblivioustakes the kids out of school early to go to a baseball game:  Aiza, she loves baseball and hates schooldoes crafts and leaves them half-finished on the table: Charlie, there’s still about 5 DIY flower pots needing paintingbroke the toaster and lied about it:  Charlie, claimed the dog bit the wire.. 

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i’d totally fuck you

“You’re just drunk..” Aiza protested Charlie’s claim as they sat side by side, glasses in hand after a long night out. “No i’m serious..” the other sighed, her hand falling on Aiza’s lap. She sucked in a deep breath and gulped down the remainder of her drink, her eyes forbidding a glance at Charlie. “Drunk.” she pressed again. “But if you’re serious.. Then find me back in my car. Five minutes Campbell.. Don’t wimp out.” she shot a glance and a small smirk in the others direction. “Prove me wrong.” her words were slow and sultry before turning and exiting the bar, thanking her drunken state for the confidence and inability to ignore her emotions.

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Aiza/Grace!

controls the remote grace. always has her damn tv lineup ready for every night of the week.

controls the furnace Aiza, she enjoys the apartment being habitable by polar bears.

makes nachos at 2 am aiza, don’t keep her from her late night munchies. 

really really likes Candy Crush grace, plays it at 8pm every night

drinks directly from the orange juice jug aiza, she’s casual about it

tracks mud inside the house grace, even if aiza insists on a welcoming mat.

takes the kids out of school early to go to a baseball game grace, aiza is the strict parent

does crafts and leaves them half-finished on the table aiza, she insists they’ll be finished but the puzzle of disney world has been on the table since christmas

broke the toaster and lied about it grace. insisted metal in the microwave was their toddler’s doing.

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miles from where you are || charlie & aiza

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xcharlie-campbell:

The tension on Charlie’s shoulders was unbearable – she felt like she the whole world was weighing on her shoulders, pushing her down, down, down, until it was even too hard to breath, until she couldn’t take it anymore. “Uhm.” She hummed softly, gulping down the knot that had formed on her throat before she answered the woman’s question. “No, of course not.” She mumbled softly, her voice gentle, as she returned her gaze to Aiza’s. There was an ache in her heart, a feeling of longing. Once upon a time, Aiza had been Charlie’s best friend. Once upon a time, Charlie almost fell in love with her, before she fucked up and Aiza stalked out of her life. It almost made her want to cry, having her so close now, after all those years. “I had an accident, two years ago. Forgot the two years, more or less, before the accident…” She explained. As far as she knew, Aiza hadn’t been back in her life during that period of time, but then again it wouldn’t be the first thing about that period of time that would be kept a secret from her. “I still remember everything about you.” Her gaze was stuck on Aiza’s back and truth be told, Charlie felt horrible about the whole ordeal. “I’m sorry. I’m— I was a mess.” She admitted, before letting out a sigh. “Thank you for taking care of me…”

Aiza knew the pair would wind up speaking again, she just didn’t know it would be this moment. She didn’t know it’d be as awkward and as tense as it was now. She wished she could reach to her, hold her like she once did but that moment wouldn’t come. She chewed on her lower lip, her worries rising over the prospect of their fond memories being gone in Charlie’s mind. She didn’t want to be forgotten. She kept her arms crossed over her chest, afraid that if she moved them she’d fall apart. She nodded at her words, breathing almost a sigh of relief that she wasn’t forgotten. “I’m sorry to hear that, Charlie.” she spoke softly, understanding that losing any part of your life would be frustrating and defeating. Aiza wished she’d known, wished she could have come home to visit her, assure her she’d be okay. That wasn’t her job anymore. “Not much to remember, i’ve changed.” she mused, brushing her fingers through her long hair before looking back at the girl. “It’s fine.. happens to the best of us. Wasn’t going to just let you get hurt. Kind of my duty to prevent that.” she hummed and took another sip of her coffee. “You.. You haven’t changed. Still the most energetic drunk i’ve come to lo- know.” she caught herself, taking another large sip of her drink to compensate for the words aching to spill from her lips.

New Ship Meme (because I didn't learn my lesson from last time)

terminirwin:

Send me a ship and I’ll tell you who…

controls the remote

controls the furnace

makes nachos at 2 am

really really likes Candy Crush

drinks directly from the orange juice jug

tracks mud inside the house

takes the kids out of school early to go to a baseball game

does crafts and leaves them half-finished on the table

broke the toaster and lied about it

Send "I'd totally fuck you" my for my muses reaction to yours saying it.

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gracefulhaley:

“It is, I wouldn’t lie to you.” Except she already had. Aiza gliding her hand higher up her leg caused the blonde to bit down on her bottom lip, the smirk still present. “Whether your attention is mine or not, I can tell you one thing: I’m not letting you leave this time. Unless it’s with me.”

“I’d really hope not.” Aiza purred back to the blonde and bit her lower lip softly as she lay a gentle squeeze on Haley’s leg. At her words she couldn’t help but smirk, her eyes shifting to the other patrons at the bar before roaming back to the girl. “You know I think I might take you up on your offer.. If you’re so confident i’m going to enjoy your attention that is.”

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jaxonwarren:

“Well, that wasn’t what I intended to do, but…”

“Kidding. How’ve you been Jax?”

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earthlingwrites’ character aesthetics - the lovers (take me to church feminine edition)

the only h e a v e n                 i’ll be sent to              is when i’m alone with you

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miles from where you are || charlie & aiza

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xcharlie-campbell:

Aiza’s response and cold tone had Charlie gulping, one hand reaching for her other arm, resting above the elbow, suddenly feeling very much self-conscious of her behavior. Her whole demeanor displayed the nervousness and even the little bit of shame she felt for however she may have acted the night before, but more importantly, because she couldn’t remember a single thing that had happened – which, granted, had been her goal all along, she just hadn’t expected to encounter such a familiar face from her past. “No, I don’t. But if it serves as an excuse, I’m an amnesiac, so I guess that’s okay.” It was a bad joke and her tone was slightly bitter, it was too soon for her to even be joking with the situation. Suddenly, a thought crossed her mind and her breath got caught in her throat. “Did we—?” She asked returning her gaze t the brunette with a slight frown, trailing off at the end. “What happened last night?”

Aiza’s posture was stiff before Charlie. She didn’t know how to react to the sudden closeness, the ache in her body to jump forward and kiss her, to simply wrap her arms around her small frame. She wanted Charlie. She craved her, but she couldn’t have her, she never would. She scratched the back of her neck as the tension in the room rose, her eyes flicking up at the sudden remark. “Amnesiac? What? Why?” She questioned, her eyebrow lifting in concern. Aiza hadn’t heard of the girl getting hurt, part of her felt saddened and helpless. “You didn’t forget me, did you?” she asked, her voice soft, defeated. Aiza turned to the coffee maker, turning it off and fumbling with her mug a bit before turning to Charlie, her heart catching at the girl’s words. “No- God no.” she stammered, sucking down a large gulp of the hot beverage before placing the mug back down. “I tried to coax your address out of you, but you proceeded to take another shot and almost throw up on me.. So I decided you weren’t in any shape to go anywhere.. I don’t know who your friends are anymore so.. Just brought you here.. You just slept.”