putting this here bc i dont want it to fester but i domt want the person its to to read kt so here
i don't like that you are mean about my friends and so open about it when you know ill see it. I also don't like that you block them for no reason other than you're jealous or something. It makes me really upset. i also wish you took our relationship seriously. i feel like anytime something is said you always make it like a joke or something. like the pet names you call me i don't like them because they're so stupid it makes it seem like a joke when you call me them it just seems like something you'd call a friend as a joke. I know im not the person to talk about being bad in a relationship though. I have been horrible to you. I barely respond, i find it hard to be attentive, im dry texting constantly, and it's so hard for me to be nice lately. You don't deserve any of that and I know this seems super mixed signals but it's just me. I find it hard to even keep a relationship going when I don't feel like myself or even feel real. I feel horrible for even saying or thinking any of these things but i cant help it. if i don't talk about it it doesn't change and it gets worse. I know this is horrible and definitely weird but i am trying to cover everything bothering me. You don't deserve this and I do love you and I always will i just can't do this. Im sorry.
