from abyss

REDAC, mediafluid artist and disabled DID system. They/them, late 20s. If you like our art or just want to help out, you can tip/donate here.

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Opening up commissions! We got a new art program that we’re really vibing with and we feel like we can take them on again to help pay for bills and disability expenses.

Additional Notes and Terms

> The pictures in this post are the most indicative of current style. We can work in other styles (realism, for example) but the prices will be different and determined case by case. We do not have N SF W samples in the current style, but can provide older ones if you are interested.

> Prices are for personal use only. Commercial use prices must be negotiated.

> See the About linked in our bio to see further elaboration on what we will/will not draw.

> Price must be paid in full before I begin for sketch and lineart commissions. For colored commissions, you will be asked to pay the cost for the lineart, then to pay the remaining balance before I begin colouring.

> Commissions may be paid for via either PayPal or UGiftAble. I require screenshot proof of payment on the latter.

> I am willing to negotiate prices with you based on your budget. But please understand that these prices, as they are, do not grant me a liveable hourly wage, and I absolutely will not work for less than $10 per hour. Respect me and the value of my time and effort, and I will work with you.

> Payment plans are available for commissions $80 and over. Discuss with me!

> As noted in our About, we are physically disabled. This can impact how much work we can do in one sitting. The prices as listed are first-come-first-serve and done when I’m able. If you have a deadline, you need to let me know! That said, we are always communicative about our progress and delays, and we like to get work done as soon as we can. Our latest commission (Bust with background and flat color) was completed within a few days. I cannot guarantee that speed, as it depends on how our health is, but that’s the kind of efficiency we strive for. We will always be transparent about our current workload and what kind of time frame we anticipate the project taking.

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This is my other blog. I’m happy to work for you.

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Gender & Multiplicity: A Primer On The Intersection of Transness & DID REDAC FourOFour Spring 2023

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This comic is now available as a high quality PDF download on itch.io! It’s free to download, but there is an option to donate if you’re so inclined. Feel free to print and share copies!

Thanks again for all your support.

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Moving On to Our Next Project: Kin and DID

A great many people have appreciated our comic talking about what it’s like being trans and a DID system. We’re very, very proud of our work on that. And we’ve been tossing around what is like to work on next. One thing keeps coming back to the forefront of our mind, but I’ve been a little worried about poor reactions.

We want to talk about what it’s like for us to have DID and also be spiritual otherkin/fictionkin.

I’ve seen a lot of negativity from OSDDID systems about kin things. I understand where it comes from, since there are a lot of misconceptions/misinfo about OSDDID that come from conflating it with endogenic plurals* and the ways that is associated at times with kin things, and from people that confuse fictional introjects with fictionkin and soulbonds* (an endogenic practice). But there are OSDDID systems that are kin too. It’s just a spiritual belief (I’ll only be talking about the spiritual past life reincarnation belief, even though plenty of people identify as kin for nonspiritual reasons), so there’s no reason that people with OSDDID can’t believe in it.

And what I find interesting is how the belief interacts with how our brain works. Which alters connect most to each life, is that because of something spiritual or psychological, is this memory something repressed from this life, a pseudomemory of an alter, or something from a past life? There are parts that get messy and complicated and we’ve done a LOT of thinking about it over the years, and formed many theories. This will be about our experience and thoughts, not a broad general primer like the previous comic. Though if you are spiritual kin and a traumagenic system (you do not need to be diagnosed) I would love to hear about your experiences so I can see what we have in common and possibly incorporate similarities and differences into the final work! The comic would likely cover a run down of basic beliefs, misconceptions, and then talk about the interactions of the spiritual with the psychological. At least, that’s the plan.

Kin is often controversial because of how people that don’t believe in it often feel the need to shame, mock, and belittle people that do. That’s unnecessary and if you sincerely have a problem with people having their own beliefs, please block me and move on.

Now then, are you interested in reading this?

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Voting ended onSep 28, 2023

Please reblog for sample size. I know everyone says that but please do it, it helps.

*I understand that these things are subjects of great debate in system communities. I am not touching that discourse with a 79 and a half foot pole. I frankly don’t think it’s my business outside of requesting that conflation be avoided so that misinfo doesn’t proliferate. If you respect differences and don’t try to step out of your lane I have no problem with you.

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RISE FROM THE ASHES

REDAC FourOFour July 18th, 2023

We wanted a DID sticker for our car (and a design to use on notebooks or shirts). We found a very nice design featuring flowers by SpoonieSisterShop on Etsy (check it out if you're a floral person), but it wasn't waterproof. But we liked the use of the DID Awareness Ribbon with white divisions, so we sat down to make our own design.

For our design, we chose the phoenix as the symbol. We felt that nothing better represented the experience of being a survivor in recovery, making a new life after all we went through. Trauma survivors —and especially alters "born" from the trauma itself— are all phoenixes rising from the ashes of what we went through.

I am considering selling this design. If you would be interested, please let me know.

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Gender & Multiplicity: A Primer On The Intersection of Transness & DID REDAC FourOFour Spring 2023

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Well, I wanted to have a comic finished for Trans Day of Visibility, but I’ve been working nonstop for 27 straight hours and it’s just not gonna happen before midnight. So instead, I’ll post the first three pages as a peek.

Once I’m able to finish the rest of the ten pages (I have about three and a half pages left to ink, type, and tone), I’ll post the whole thing! It’s a discussion of the intersection of DID and transness. The peek is just the introduction to it.

View at full size —screen tones can look wonky when zoomed out too far.

Happy Trans Day of Visibility!

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drew how I (ian) look in the headspace

im technically a fictive. I don’t connect to the character anymore but you can still tell from my appearance I think. can you guess?

my interests include rock, metal, and garlic butter ritz crackers. band and song recs appreciated.

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We Will Be Loud, oil on canvas

It’s Autism Acceptance month and the day for Red Instead so I have this painting to finally post! It’s huge irl (the width of a door and 2/3rds the height) and took a lot of effort but I’m so proud of it.

Autistics aren’t broken. Our hands don’t need to be quiet.

We Will Be Loud.

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I actually managed to forget to post all of my recent work! this isn’t even recent anymore OTL

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11-08-16

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did you know there’s a skeleton living inside you Right Now

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portraits from today’s class c: people are beautiful.

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I have now spent 5 full hours of my life drawing dead sunflowers

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I’m never drawing sunflowers again.

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This is, in fact, an actual photograph of yours truly.

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Here’s the owl wing I did! I’m thinking about making a series of wings for different types of birds.

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