[akachilly]

I love the tinge of red when the sun sets, the red dahlias and, odd as it may sound, I love the red of blood - it keeps me alive.

I love the orange leaves in fall, endless orange deserts and the orange of ocean creatures - all vibrant and full of life.

I love the yellow of the sunflowers, of the bees and of sunlight - a color to be seen and always noticed.

I love green apples, the green of trees and of grass - green is a breath of fresh air.

I love the blue of the sky and the deep blue of the ocean - it is strong and, though not always predictable in its behavior, it is always there.

I love the purple of the galaxy and how the night sky takes on a purple hue when filled with lighting - it is mysterious and full of power.

I love all the colors in between.

But lately I’ve been living life in grey. Not the grey of a cloud in a storm, not the grey of the moon nor the grey of a wolf.

They grey of ash - devoid of life. I am drained of my color.

[bakwaaas]

there is so much love in friendship, people forget that

[byekansas]

No thanks.

[akachilly]

I only get on tumblr when I feel too much.

I left my religion behind almost 4 years ago now. My church left me behind not too long after that. When I left my religion I didn’t know my church would leave me. That the people I grew up with since I was 11 would turn their back on me. The friends I made along the way, the people I grew to love and learned to be vulnerable with could push me from their minds in the blink of an eye. And even thought it’s been almost 4 years there are days like today where I’m overcome with emotion. I feel abandoned, I feel betrayed, I feel unloved and I feel like I will never move past this. I feel like I’ve healed so much most days but on days like today I feel like I’m at day one.

[daughterofcainandchaos]

i feel like people who were raised religious & gradually started questioning everything they had been told and eventually decided to leave those beliefs behind deserve to burn the holy book of the certain religion at least once in their lifetime

[copiasprincipessa]

Reblog if you come from a church background and you were made to feel shame about getting pleasure from literally anything ever. It can’t be just me.

[annasinthewalls]

I will never seek the approval of a god. If a sentient godlike force exists, their sins infinitely outnumber mine.

[theshoesofatiredman]

Idk call me crazy but I don't think you should worship a god who says you can't kiss someone before you're married. Like you'd think he'd have his hands full with the wars and the famine and the fuckheads causing them, but no for some reason the lord god above is PRESSED about where and when you're pressing lips together. I feel like if we just take a step back for a moment and look at the world, all presumably a result of the divine plan, we might be able to start weighing the divine planner's opinion on kissing a little bit less. Let's get this universe a little peer review

[jesusinstilettos]

Why yes I do think I’m better than god. Because I’m able to process my emotions and forgive people and be empathetic towards them. God can only forgive if he tortures and murders his own son and if everyone begs for forgiveness their entire life and serves him. We are not the same.

[hereticcoyote]

so god was incapable of forgiving us without a blood sacrifice, but he expects us to forgive the people who hurt us without even asking for an apology? sure doesn't sound like practicing what you preach

(edit: terfs stay off my posts)

[pettymaryshelley]

God seems like a fairly unreliable narrator

[theshoesofatiredman]

Idk I think Job's wife really went off when she told him to curse God and die. It's interesting how there's no oxygen for her suffering in the narrative. She lost her children too. She lost her home too. Her health was taken from her too. Everything she had was stripped away by God. And yet there's no compassion for her. Not in the narrative nor in the commentaries or the sermons. She isn't even named.

[jwapostate]

atheist not in the sense that I don't believe in god (I don't) but in the sense that even if there was evidence that a higher power existed, I'd be so opposed to the idea of worshipping it I'd rather die

[noangels4me]

i'm not religious anymore, but there's some things that still linger in my mind about adam and eve.

how was eve supposed to know she was being lied too? having never been lied too before, always around people she trusts, alongside her god, her creator, someone she could've potentially considered a father; never having known a parental figure.

how did adam feel when he and his wife, the only other human he'd ever known and loved, was cast out with him because she'd never been lied too? never been tricked like that before?

how did they feel when eve had her first menstruation? when she started bleeding, experiencing an unexplainable pain in her stomach?

how did they feel knowing their god, their creator, wouldn't help them? wouldn't explain it as anything else besides as a punishment for being lied too and being deceived so easily.

how did adam feel knowing he couldn't help his wife, couldn't find anything to help her with the pain and the bleeding she was putting up with?

how did they both feel knowing that they were the first parents, knowing they'd never fully grasp the concept because they themselves never had anything of the sort?

knowing that now, their children were likely to suffer because god's sacrifice and payment was blood.

they'd both witness it first hand, and they were helpless to stop it.

[creature-wizard]

Reminder that if you're leaving Christianity to embark upon a new spiritual path, your new spirituality doesn't have to answer or even acknowledge Christianity at all. You don't owe Christianity any kind of justification; you can just say "nah I'm not into you" and leave it there.

[fire-to-fire]

Actually, ex-Christians have earned the right to make fun of Christianity. It comes free with the religious trauma.

[theshoesofatiredman]

It's really fucked up how Christianity teaches that some people can only be reached for Christ when they hit rock bottom. Christians will pray for people to endure tremendous suffering simply so that the non-believers can hear the voice of god. Truly an abysmal failure in imagining a loving god.

"he's so loving because he caused me to experience the greatest pain of my life so that I could finally listen to him"

Absolutely insane move on the part of an all powerful, all knowing, all loving deity. You're telling me the ONLY WAY was the road of agony? Unrelenting love, kindness, and divine revelation weren't options?