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The Lily Of Bangtan |  Kim Namjoon
âpairing  ⹠ rm Ă you (fem!reader)
âchapter six  ⹠ entwined: in the quiet of the night, love finds its voice
âgenre  ⹠ mafia au Ă arranged marriage au Ă strangers to lovers au Ă best friendâs brother au ( angst Ă romance Ă smut )
âseries masterlist  ⹠ matters of the heart in the mafia
âstory masterlist  ⹠ the lily of bangtan
âprevious chapter  ⹠ chapter five
ârating  ⹠ mature-rated
âwordcount  ⹠ 15.5 k
âwarnings  ⹠mature and explicit sexual content. consummation of an arranged marriage. wedding night themes. first-time inexperience. sexual anxiety and nervousness. societal pressure to consummate marriage. dubious consent and coercive circumstances due to cultural traditions and family expectations. virginity testing and sheet ceremony. mention of blood. arranged marriage. forced and controlled dynamics. forced proximity. mafia dynamics. power imbalance. toxic and unhealthy relationships. emotional neglect. emotional distress and discomfort. slow burn. misogyny. objectification of women. sexist and degrading language. alcohol consumption. strong language and cursing. dark romance elements
âauthor's forenote  ⹠ i came to a rather disheartening realization while writing this chapter. i'm apparently very good at reading smut. writing it? not so much. i rewrote this tiny scene more times than i care to admit, stared at my screen for hours, questioned every sentence, deleted half of them, rewrote them again, held back from posting them on a decided time in hopes i will become an erotica expert overnight and eventually accepted that i was driving myself slightly insane. so, dear readers, i surrender. this is the version you're getting. if it's good, i'll happily take the compliment. if it's awkward, let's collectively pretend it's because these two are bad at sex. either way, i'm done fighting this chapter. i'm setting it free so i can finally move on to the rest of the storyâwhich, if you've seen the outline, gets infinitely more chaotic from here. thank you for sticking with me through my attempts at writing bedroom scenes. now, let's continue the story.
âchapter summary  ⹠ the wedding is over, but the hardest part is just beginning. left alone under the weight of tradition and expectation, you and namjoon must face a night neither of you can avoidâwhere duty, tension, and unspoken emotions blur into something far more complicated. by morning, everything has changed.
The drive to the estate is stifling.
Namjoonâs hand remains wrapped around yours, warm and firm, though his attention is elsewhere; fixed on the dark blur of the city slipping past the tinted window. He hasnât looked at you in several minutes.
Your fingers tremble slightly in his grasp. You canât tell if itâs from the cool air circulating through the limousine or from the quiet dread curling in your stomach. The thought of the next few hours sits heavy on your chest. You turn toward the window, trying to focus on the passing lights, but the anticipation makes everything outside look distant and unfocused.
âAre you cold?â Namjoon finally turns his head. His gaze drops to your joined hands, thumb pressing lightly against your knuckles as he notices the tremor.
âYouâre shaking,â he says, voice thoughtful, almost clinical.
âIâm okay,â you reply quickly, letting out a slow breath. âJust nerves.â He studies you for another moment before tilting his head slightly.
âI didnât realize the idea of sex with me was terrifying enough to make Baek Nari tremble.â
You roll your eyes immediately. âItâs not sex with you,â you correct, turning to face him properly. âItâs sex in general.â Your words come out faster now, nerves loosening your tongue. âThis is my first time, you know. And Iâm just expected to be fine with someone suddenly shoving a dick into my vagina one random nightââ
âIf itâs any consolation,â Namjoon cuts in smoothly, a slow smirk spreading across his face, âitâs my dick.â When you glare at him, he continues with irritating calm. âAnd youâve had your entire life to prepare for this marriage and, at the very least a few years to prepare for my dick specifically.â
You stare at him in disbelief.
âYeah, of course, Namjoon,â you say sweetly, offering him an obviously fake smile. âI shouldâve spent the last few years of my independence and freedom preparing myselfâlubing up in anticipation for your dick.â You curse out, âDick.â
âLube might not be necessary.â He says, but before you can react, Namjoon gently tugs your wrist, pulling you closer so youâre forced to face him fully. âI think I can get you wet enough,â he murmurs and the cocky attitude and plain audacity infuriates you. You scoff, both at him for his cockiness and at yourself for the heat creeping between your legs.
His eyes drop briefly to your lips, and he even licks his own like heâs considering closing the distance. But you yank your hand out of his grasp before he can move any closer, turning sharply toward the window with an irritated huff.
The rest of the ride passes in silence. Namjoon returns his gaze to the city outside, while you stubbornly keep yours fixed on the glass, refusing to look at him again.
When the limo finally turns through the estate gates, the familiar iron arches sliding past the windows, you straighten slightly in your seat. You smooth down your dress and shift your feet beneath you, positioning yourself so you can step out gracefully once the door opens. The last thing you want is to stumble in front of the guests and staff waiting at the mansion.
âItâs just us tonight,â Namjoon says suddenly. You glance at him despite yourself. His gaze is already on you, steady and observant. âOmma and the rest of the women in my family will arrive tomorrow for the sheet ceremony.â
You blink. âSo⊠itâs just you and me tonight at the estate?â
âWould you like for it to be?â he asks calmly. You shrug one shoulder, unsure what answer he expects. âThe boys are already there,â he continues. âTo welcome us and to make sure I can carry you to my bed. Because if I canâtââ, he pauses deliberately, âthen I canât have you.â
Your brows lift and smirk. âWell, Iâm heavy,â you say dryly. âSo, thereâs a chance we can avoid sex tonight after all.â
âIâm strong,â Namjoon replies without missing a beat. âI can carry you.â He leans back slightly, completely unbothered. âAnd itâs not really an avoid-sex-tonight situation,â he adds. âItâs more of a marriage-annulled-next-day situation.â
âThatâs even better,â you chirp. The words come out lightly, teasingly but a small knot of guilt twists in your stomach the moment you say it. Namjoon, however, graciously ignores the tone.
âWe all have our own wings in the house,â he continues, almost conversationally. âMost of the bedrooms are soundproofed, so no one will hear anything.â Your face heats instantly. âBut,â he adds, glancing at you again, âif youâd prefer it to be just the two of us tonight, I can send the boys away âthey are probably going to drive back to the party, or open a few bottles in the estate itself. Jin will probably head home to Yeojin.â
You shake your head quickly. âNo, itâs okay,â you say, exhaling. âWeâre all adults.â You look back toward the window, watching the grand front of the mansion slowly come into view. âAnd besides,â you mutter, âI have far worse humiliation waiting for me tomorrow.â
You glance at him briefly, and he gives you what you think might be a look of pity. Both of you know exactly what youâre referring to âthe sheet ceremony. A humiliating tradition where the sheets from your wedding night are inspected the next morning, searched for blood as proof of purity, proof that the marriage was properly consummated. The thought alone makes your stomach twist.
Namjoon looks like heâs about to say something, his lips parting slightly but the car comes to a smooth halt. The door opens before either of you can speak further, and youâre greeted by Hoseokâs bright grin.
âWelcome home,â he says warmly.
You return the smile automatically. âThank you.â
Carefully, you step out of the limo, making sure your heels land steadily on the gravel path. The cool evening air brushes your skin as you straighten, quickly adjusting your dress so the fabric falls neatly around your legs.
Namjoon steps out after you. You glance around at the people gathered at the entrance of the estate. For someone returning as the next Don, the crowd is surprisingly small. Just the Elites. Saera and Jangmi stand near the steps, while the others linger nearby.
You must look slightly confused because Namjoon leans closer to you and says, âThis is a private affair. Besides, we donât like having everyone visit the estate.â
You nod wordlessly.
âHow are you two getting home?â Namjoon asks, turning his attention to the women. âAnd whereâs Hwan?â
âJungkook is taking me back to the Kim residence,â Saera says with a cheerful smile. âHwan is already there.â Namjoon nods and turns to Jangmi.
âThe Don asked me to drive her home,â Taehyung answers before she can speak. He gestures casually toward Jangmi. âIâll drop her off once you two retire to your room.â Even with the knot of nerves tightening in your chest, you still manage to shoot Jangmi an excited look. Your eyes flick toward Jin.
âWhy isnât Yeojin here?â you ask, realizing you hadnât seen her much during the wedding either.
âShe isnât keeping well,â Jin explains gently. You nod in understanding, though before you can ask anything moreâ
âSo,â Hoseok suddenly claps his hands together loudly. âAre we doing this or what?â
Namjoon sighs. You donât even have time to question what that means before someone whistles.
âCome on, hyung,â Jungkook calls out teasingly. âDonât tell me you canât carry your own bride.â
Taehyung laughs. âNow, that would be embarrassing.â
âShould we call the annulment lawyer now?â Hoseok adds dramatically. Your eyes widen. Before you can protest, Namjoon turns toward you with a calm expression.
âHeyââ You gasp, instinctively grabbing onto his shoulders as the world tilts for a moment. The boys immediately erupt into loud cheers.
âThere we go!â
âLook at that!â
âHyungâs strong!â Someone fires a gun into the air in celebration, the sharp crack echoing across the estate as the group begins hooting and clapping. âCongratulations!â
Namjoon barely reacts to the chaos. He simply adjusts his hold on you, steady and secure, and begins walking toward the grand staircase. Your face burns as the cheering continues behind you.
âYou could have warned me,â you hiss quietly. Namjoon glances down at you, the corner of his mouth lifting.
âAnd ruin the moment?â he murmurs.
Behind you, the celebration continues âcheers, whistles, and another celebratory gunshot echoing into the night as he carries you up the stairs and into the house.
You barely take in your surroundings.
Your thoughts are far too tangled in the fact that your husband is carrying you effortlessly, through the mansion. The distance from the main entrance to his bedroom feels endless, though you hardly register the hallways or the décor as he walks.
Your arms remain looped around his neck, partly for balance and partly because youâre afraid to move. Your face is close to the side of his neck, close enough to catch the faint scent of his cologne âclean, warm, something woodsy beneath it. It was distracting, though not in a way you would welcome. He finally stops outside a large set of double doors, pushes them open with his shoulder, and carries you inside.
Namjoon crosses the room before lowering you onto the bed, very gently âfar more gently than you expected.
âYou arenât as heavy as you think,â he tells you casually. You nod automatically, though your tongue feels frozen in place. He walks away from you then, turning to close the bedroom door behind him. The soft click echoes louder than it should. When he turns back around, he has the gall to grin at you.
âJangmi spent a lot of time decorating this room for us,â he says. Your gaze slowly drifts around the room. âCandles, flowers⊠and your favourite wine.â He gestures toward the coffee table beside the sitting area. Sure enough, thereâs a bottle waiting there, two glasses placed neatly beside it.
The room is elaborate. Rose petals are scattered carefully across the floor and the bedspread. Someone has even arranged roses in two intertwined red hearts in the centre of the bed. The sheets are silk or satin, something far too smooth and expensive and the pillows look impossibly soft.
You nod again, still silent. The air suddenly feels thick in your lungs and the wine looks increasingly appealing.
Maybe it would help. Maybe a drink would loosen the tight knot of nerves sitting in your chest.
âWould wine loosen up your tongue?â Namjoon asks. You open your mouth. Nothing comes out again. âCome on, sweetheart,â he sighs, stepping closer. Before you can react, he lifts a finger to your chin and tilts your face upward so youâre forced to look at him. Your throat bobs as you swallow.
âYouâre making this harder than it needs to be.â Your eyes widen in disbelief.
âIâI am making this hard?â you repeat, incredulous. âThis is hard, Namjoon. What Iâm feeling is, if anything, a result of the hard circumstances.â
Namjoon exhales, rolling his eyes slightly despite trying to keep his tone even.
âNari,â he says, dragging a hand through his hair. He kneels down at your side, on your wedding dress, if it had been any other day, you would have pushed him off, but today, you had no strength to do anything. âTrust meâI know this is hard for you.â He pauses for a moment before adding quietly, âI donât want to force myself on you, and I can make it worth your while.â He takes a step closer. âBut you know we donât really have a choice.â
âBut you do,â you cut in immediately. âYouâre the son of the Don. The rules donât apply to you.â
Namjoon gives a quiet scoff, shaking his head.
âNot even close,â he says. âIf anything, the rules bind me tighter than anyone else.â
You look at him sceptically, and he continues, voice calm but firm.
âIâm about to take my fatherâs place,â he says. âEvery man in that house is watching how I carry myself. If I start ignoring traditions the very first night of my marriage, what does that tell them?â His gaze holds yours steadily. âIâm supposed to lead them,â he adds. âThat means I donât get to pick and choose which customs matter.â He gestures vaguely toward the bed. âThereâs also the sheet ceremony.â You wince slightly. âYou wonât be accepted as my wife, the Donâs wife, the Madam âunless the sheets are stained.â
âYes,â you scoff bitterly. âThereâs also that.â
For a moment, Namjoonâs expression softens with something almost sympathetic but it doesnât last long.
âLike I said,â he murmurs, stepping closer again, his thumb moving to rub gently against your lips, âI can make it worth your while.â
You stare at him. The handsome man you now call your husband is kneeling in front of you, his broad frame lowered between your knees as though it is the most natural position in the world. The sight sends a strange ripple through your stomach, warmth creeping through your body despite the tension twisting in your chest.
You canât deny the effect it has on youâthis powerful man, the future Don kneeling at your feet, calmly telling you he could give you a wonderful night in his bed, has your heart and body swelling with joy and heat.
Namjoon has always carried himself with a certain quiet dominance. Even now, on his knees, he somehow still feels in control of the room. His shoulders are broad beneath the fabric of his shirt, his arms strong and steady as his hands rest lightly against your legs. His veins stand faintly along the backs of his hands, his fingers large and deliberate in every movement.
But more than anything, itâs the way he looks at you. His gaze is always dark, focused, like heâs studying you, like heâs already decided he wants you and is simply waiting for the moment he can take you.
And he hasnât exactly been subtle about his attraction. Heâs shown it more than once now; through lingering touches, heated glances, teasing words that carried more truth than he probably realized.
Thereâs a confidence about him too. The kind of confidence that suggests he knows exactly what heâs doing when it comes to a woman. The way he says he could make it worth your while âthe way he speaks as though heâs certain he could make you feel good, and annoyingly, that confidence affects you.
Your mind betrays you with images you werenât trying to imagine âhis hands on you, warm and steady, the heat of his mouth brushing against your skin, the weight of his body close to yours. Even the simple fact that heâs kneeling like this, right between your legs, sends an embarrassing flicker of heat through you. But desire isnât the problem.
You do want him. You could see yourself consummating the marriage properly someday, maybe even having children with him, maybe even loving him. Just not like this, not tonight. Not when everything still feels so new and unfamiliar, when the distance between you both feels wider than the bed behind you. But the reality presses in around you all the same. You donât really have a choice.
And he made it clearâneither does he.
âCan Iââ you clear your throat, voice a little steadier now. âCan I take all this off, take a shower, and maybe get a little drunk before we start this consummation?â You glance down at him, your tone sharp despite trying, âOr is it tradition for you to rip my dress off and take me against a wall?â
Namjoon huffs out a quiet laugh. âYou can change,â he says. He reaches for your hand, pressing a brief kiss against your wedding ring before letting his fingers move to the hem of your dress. âLet me help you,â he adds softly. His hands slide down toward your feet. âLetâs start with these shoes.â
His hands are gentle yet steady as they settle around your calves. The contrast makes you tense for a second, the firmness of his grip, the careful way he holds you in place as his fingers move to the straps of your heels. He unbuckles them slowly. The metal clasp clicks open, and he slides the first heel off your foot with surprising care. The moment your foot is free, you instinctively stretch it forward, wiggling your toes with a quiet sigh of relief.
You hadnât taken the shoes off since putting them on earlier that day. Hours of standing, greeting guests, smiling for photos, walking through ceremonies, your feet had definitely paid the price.
Namjoon glances down at them, still holding the discarded heel loosely in his hand.
âTheyâre swollen,â he remarks casually. You flex your toes again, rolling your ankle slightly as the blood rushes back.
âWedding shoes should be illegal,â you mutter. He huffs a quiet laugh and moves to the other foot, his fingers brushing briefly against your ankle as he unfastens the second strap. The heel slips off just as easily. You stretch that foot too, relieved.
âYou have pretty feet,â Namjoon says, gathering both heels together in one hand as he rises to his feet. âThough theyâre definitely swollen and sore right now.â
You blink up at him. âWhat?â you say slowly. âDo you have a foot fetish?â The question slips out before you can stop it, and for a brief moment you feel a strange sense of dĂ©jĂ vuâhim kneeling in front of you, helping with your heels like this.
Namjoon pauses and then, he smirks.
âNo,â he says, straightening to his full height. âI have a âyouâ fetish.â You cringe instantly, though you canât quite stop the smile tugging at your lips.
âThat was terrible,â you tell him. âAre those the lines you use to make women swoon their way into your bed?â You lean back slightly on your palms, studying him as if youâre trying to solve a puzzle. Truthfully, you already know the answer.
Kim Namjoon does not look like a man who has ever struggled to get a woman into his bed. He picks up your heels and places them neatly beside the bed before straightening, his gaze sliding back to you slowly.
One corner of his mouth lifts. âDo they swoon?â he asks mildly.
You narrow your eyes at him. âYouâre avoiding the question.â
âAm I?â he says, completely unbothered. He takes a step closer, his height forcing you to tilt your chin up slightly to keep looking at him. âYou asked if I use lines.â
âAnd?â
âNo,â he says simply. The confidence in his voice makes you scoff.
âOf course not,â you mutter. âYou probably donât need them.â
Namjoon hums softly, clearly amused by your tone. âYou sound a little bothered.â
âIâm not bothered.â You counter sharply.
âMm.â That single sound is enough to irritate you. Your eyes flick over him before you can stop yourself âbroad shoulders still wrapped in his dress shirt, sleeves rolled just enough to reveal strong forearms, the faint outline of veins beneath his skin.
He notices your wandering eyes, and steps closer until heâs standing right in front of you, close enough that your knees nearly brush his thighs.
âYou think women just fall into my bed?â he asks quietly.
Your jaw tightens. âYouâre tall and rich and handsomeâthe Donâs son,â you say flatly. âStatistically speaking, Iâd say your chances are pretty good.â
Namjoon lets out a low laugh, not a bit offended. If anything, he looks pleased.
âWell,â he says, dragging a hand through his hair, âYouâre not wrong.â Your stomach twists in a way you absolutely hate. You cross your arms defensively.
âSo, you do have experience.â
âPlenty.â He says it without hesitation, without embarrassment. Just a simple fact, but the horrible feeling in your stomach spreads all over. Your lips press together. Namjoon watches your expression shift, something sharp flickering in his eyes as he notices the tension in your shoulders.
âWhy?â he asks lightly. âDoes that bother you?â
âNo.â You blurt out, nose flaring, âOf course not,â His brow lifts. âI am only worried I might contract an STD,â
âYou sure?â
âYes.â You refuse to look away from him. But thereâs a tightness in your chest you canât quite explain. Namjoon studies you for another moment before his mouth curves again, slower this time.
âYouâre territorial,â he observes.
âI am not.â
âYou are.â You roll your eyes hard enough that it almost hurts.
âYouâre delusional.â Namjoon doesnât argue. Instead, he leans forward slightly, bracing one hand on the bed beside your hip.
âYou asked if that was a line,â he murmurs. Your breath catches slightly at the sudden closeness. âIt wasnât.â His gaze drops briefly âto your lips, your throat, the soft curve of your collarbone, and at your chest where your dress dips and then back to your eyes.
âI do have experience,â he admits calmly. ââenough to know what Iâm doing, enough to know that I can pleasure you, satisfy you and,â Heat creeps up your neck. ââenough to know,â he continues, voice lower now, ââthat youâre not nearly as indifferent as youâre pretending to be.â
Your pulse jumps. Before you can fire back, he straightens again like the moment never happened.
âNow,â he says casually, nodding toward the closet across the room. âLetâs get the dress off you, you wanted a shower.â
You glance at the door and sigh, âI need to take the dress off, take the makeup off, take the 101 bobby pins in my hair out, wash my hair at least twice to get the hairspray out of my hair, condition it if I want them on my head for tomorrow, take a long shower to get the day off my skin, then dry myself and my hair, and get ready again in makeup and lingerie and present myself to you,â You sniffle in agony, âIt is going to take hours!â
âIt wonât,â Namjoon offers you a hand, âIâll help you,â he adds, pulling you to your feet, and leading you to the closet. âI think most of your stuff is already in there,â
You follow him quietly, realizing that the fastest way through this entire ordeal is simply to let him help you. Namjoon pushes open another set of doors just past the bedroom, revealing the closet.
Calling it a closet almost feels insulting.
The space is enormous âeasily the size of a small apartment room. Soft recessed lighting glows from the ceiling, illuminating polished marble floors and walls lined with custom shelving. One entire wall is dedicated to shoes, rows upon rows of immaculate shelves that could hold dozens of pairs. Another wall displays handbags âstructured leather, clutches, evening purses, arranged like pieces in a gallery.
In the centre of the room sits a wide island topped with glossy stone. Sunglasses, watches, cufflinks, and jewellery trays are arranged neatly across its surface, each item placed with careful precision.
Opposite the island is a vanity setup âsomething straight out of a luxury dressing suite. A large mirror framed with warm lighting sits above a marble tabletop, surrounded by velvet-lined drawers likely filled with cosmetics and accessories. A plush upholstered chair rests in front of it, inviting someone to sit and prepare for the day.
Near the far wall sits a long chaise lounge in soft cream fabric, with a low coffee table beside it holding neatly stacked magazines and a crystal tray. The closet itself is only half filled, you notice. Several wardrobe sections remain empty âclearly waiting for someone else to claim them.
You walk toward the large mirror mounted between two wardrobe sections and stop in front of it, smoothing your hands down the front of your dress as you watch Namjoon move behind you. He places your heels carefully onto one of the footwear shelves before turning back toward you.
âLetâs take the jewellery, then the pins in your hair,â he says calmly, his eyes catching yours in the mirror. âThen weâll deal with your dress.â You nod.
Your hands move to your ears, fingers working quietly to undo the delicate backings of your earrings. Meanwhile, Namjoon steps behind you, his focus shifting to the necklace resting against your collarbone. You try very hard not to react.
But the moment his fingers brush lightly against the back of your neck, a wave of goosebumps spreads across your skin. Itâs because heâs being gentle, you tell yourself, careful and feather-light. Thatâs all.
It definitely has nothing to do with anticipation, and absolutely nothing to do with the warmth of his touch.
Namjoonâs fingers work easily at the clasp. After a moment, the necklace loosens, the cool metal sliding away from your skin as he lifts it from around your neck. He holds out his palm without a word.
You place your earrings into his hand, followed by the rings you begin slipping off your fingers âeveryone except the wedding band now resting firmly at the base of your finger.
Namjoon glances down at it briefly before setting the rest of your jewellery neatly onto the island tray behind you. Then his eyes return to the mirror, to you. He holds your gaze for a few long seconds, before he quite skilfully starts taking your hair from its pinned-up curls. You are understandably surprised at the gentleness, but satisfied that he was not pulling at your hair in some lust-driven urgency. When the pins were all out, and your hair was a mess of weirdly curled bit of hairspray and a hair, he looks at you again.
âAll right,â he says quietly. âNow the dress.â
You think youâre ready to undress in front of him. You told yourself you were prepared for this momentâthe intimacy, the closeness, the fact that this man is now your husband. But nothing truly prepares you for the moment Namjoon steps closer behind you and presses a soft kiss to the back of your neck.
Your breath hitches instantly.
âYou looked beautiful today,â he murmurs, his lips still grazing the sensitive skin just below your hairline. The warmth of his mouth lingers there for a moment before drifting lower, brushing your shoulder. ââand you smell amazing too,â he adds quietly.
His nose grazes along the curve of your shoulder as if testing that claim for himself. Your heart stutters. His hands settle on your waist, large and warm even through the fabric of your dress. When you look up, his eyes are already watching you through the mirror, watching your reaction.
âI canât wait to actually have you,â he says softly, voice dipping lower. ââto feel your skin under me,â
A shiver runs through you. Seeing it reflected in the mirror only makes it worse âNamjoon standing behind you, towering and composed, his head bent toward your neck while his hands rest possessively at your waist.
The image is dangerously intoxicating.
His hands feel heavy even through the dress, his warmth bleeding into your skin. Everywhere he touches feels suddenly hypersensitive, like sparks are jumping beneath the surface of your body. His lips brush your shoulder again, then your back, then just beneath your ear. Each soft kiss sends another ripple of heat through you.
You can feel his breath against your skin, warm and steady as he inhales faintly like heâs savouring your scent. His dark eyes never leave yours in the mirror, watching every flicker of reaction cross your face.
Slowly, steadily, the calm you had been clinging to begins slipping away. You barely notice his hands moving.
The zipper at your back is already open, the tension of the dress loosening as he works at the laced corset beneath it. His fingers tug gently at the ties, loosening the careful cinch that had pulled your waist tight all evening.
Youâre far too distracted by the way he keeps pressing soft, almost teasing kisses along your shoulder blades.
By the way his eyes follow yours in the mirror.
By the way your body seems to melt a little more under his touch with every passing second.
âAre you going to keep holding it like that?â Namjoonâs voice is soft, amused in a way that sends a ripple down your spine.
The question pulls you out of the hazy fog youâve drifted into. You blink at the mirror in front of you, only now realizing your hands are still clutching the front of your dress tightly against your chest. The back has already been loosened, the structure of the bodice barely holding anymore, yet your fingers refuse to let it fall.
Your grip tightens instinctively. Behind you, Namjoonâs hands settle more firmly around your waist.
It was warm, steady and possessive in a quiet sort of way.
âI can leave right now,â he murmurs after a moment, voice dropping lower. âIf you want.â Your throat goes dry. You shake your head slowly. Because you know exactly what that means. Thereâs nothing much beneath the dress to soften the moment. When the fabric falls away, his hands will meet nothing but your bare skin. Your pulse jumps at the thought, and the look in Namjoonâs eyes through the mirror tells you heâs already thinking the same thing. His gaze drags slowly over your reflection, dark and heavy, like heâs memorizing every inch of you even before the dress falls.
You wanted this. You wanted him like thisâundone.
A shaky breath leaves you when you feel his hand move slightly on your waist. His thumbs brush over the curve of your back before he leans forward, pressing another slow kiss against the middle of it. Heat blooms through you instantly. You bite your lip, barely swallowing the sound that wants to escape. Your fingers curl even tighter in the fabric. Behind you, Namjoon exhales slowly, like heâs forcing himself to stay patient. Then both of his hands settle firmly at your waist. Your breath hitches again, and you wonder faintly if every touch from him is going to feel this overwhelming.
âLet go of the dress, baby,â he whispers near your ear. His eyes never leave yours in the mirror. âI want to see what youâve been hiding under this beautiful thing.â The way he says it makes warmth rush straight to your face. You hold his gaze in the reflection, taking in the hunger sitting plainly in his eyes, and something inside you, shifts. A small surge of confidence. Slowly, deliberately, you release the fabric. The bodice slips instantly, sliding down your body before bunching around your hips.
For a second, neither of you, moves. Namjoonâs eyes widen just slightly. Then his gaze begins to travel âslow, unapologetic and almost hungry. You actually see him swallow. He leans forward again, his nose brushing lightly against your shoulder as he breathes in.
âIs this all for me, darling?â he murmurs. Your lips curve before you can stop them. The way heâs looking at you, like he canât quite believe what heâs seeing sends a rush of confidence through your chest.
You hum softly, mouth dry in anticipation to say anything. Namjoon lets out a quiet sound under his breath. One hand tightens subtly at your waist.
âI fucking love it,â he says. His voice is rougher now. Then, after a beat, he adds softly near your ear, âI might actually die from how much I love it,â You huff out a small laugh, biting your lips to help yourself to keep calm and stumbling slightly to tun and face him. His hands are once again on your bare waist to steady you in the pool of fabric you are standing in.
âEasy there,â He says, pulling you closer to him, almost guiding your arms around his shoulders, to let you hold on to him, âI might be the luckiest man on the planet tonight,â He murmurs, his thumb drawing soft sensual circles on your sensitive belly, where you were beginning to feel the desire grow, ââuniverse even.â
You hum again in response, though you aren't entirely sure it's coherent. Your heartbeat has become a thing with a mind of its own, loud enough that you're convinced he can hear it. But like most of the time you spend around Namjoon, you found yourself relaxing and unconsciously your fingers found his hair, twiddling with them, now quite relishing the sensualism of his fingertips on you.
His smile softens. âCan I kiss you?â he murmurs, as though he'd been waiting for you to relax all evening. His thumb stills against your waist. The gentleness of his request catches in your throat, a sharp contrast to the bold, cocky assertions heâd thrown at you in the limousine. There is something unexpectedly vulnerable about the way he waits, his dark eyes searching yours for permission, even while his hands hold you captive in the fallen silk of your dress.
You look at him, really look at him, noting the faint tension in his jaw and the way his breath hitches just a fraction as he waits for your answer. The future Don, a man bred for iron-fisted control and ruthless choices, is standing perfectly still in the middle of his sprawling closet, letting you dictate the pace.
âYes,â you whisper, the word barely leaving your lips before you lift yourself to your tips and close the distance yourself. When your mouth meets his, it isn't the aggressive, demanding claim you had braced yourself for. It is slow and deliberate. His lips are warm and incredibly soft, pressing against yours with a gentle, testing pressure that makes your knees turn to water. You whimper softly into the kiss, the sound swallowed instantly by him as his grip on your waist tightens, pulling you flush against the solid wall of his chest.
The scent of himâthat rich, intoxicating blend of woodsy cologne and clean skinâwraps around you completely. Your fingers tangle deeper into the short, soft strands of his hair, pulling him closer as the last remnants of your hesitation dissolve into the heat blooming between you.
Namjoon hums approvingly against your mouth, the sound vibrating low in his chest. His tongue coaxes your lips open, deepening the kiss with a smooth, intoxicating rhythm that leaves you breathless. It feels less like a tradition being forced upon you and more like an anchor pulling you out of the storm of your own anxiety.
As the strain of staying on your tippy-toes forces you to drop back onto your heels, you pull away just enough to catch your breath. Namjoon notices immediately. His eyes are dark, fixed on your parted lips as you both pant for air in the tight space between you. Without a word, his fingers catch your chin, tilting your face back up to his. Before you can even let out a soft whimper of protest, he bends down to capture your lips again, cutting the sound off entirely.
When his mouth meets yours this second time, the last remnants of his testing restraint vanish completely. Namjoon catches his breath with a low growl that vibrates deep in his chest, his hands instantly locking onto your waist with a sudden, bruising intensity. He doesn't just kiss you; he claims you, his mouth pressing down with a fierce, demanding hunger that leaves your head spinning. Before your feet can even try to stretch down and touch the floor again, his strong arms hook beneath your thighs, effortlessly lifting you completely off your feet.
The world tilted as he carried you across the marble floor, your hands gripping his broad shoulders for dear life. Before you could even think to adjust your position, he set you down onto the plush cream fabric of the chaise lounge, immediately crowding over you. Instead of stepping back, he sank slowly onto one knee, boxing you in completely with his hands braced firmly on either side of your hips. Your breath caught as his dark gaze dropped to your thigh, fixing intently on the intricate lace garter still hugging your skin.
Slowly, deliberately, Namjoon leaned forward. A tremor ran through you at the warm rush of his breath against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. His mouth brushed feather-light against you for one excruciating moment before he nipped gently at the bottom edge of the lace. You whimper, one hand clenching into the cream fabric of the chaise and the other tangled in his hair as he skilfully latched onto the elastic with his teeth.
His dark eyes flicked up to yours, locking onto your flushed expression as he began to pull. The tension of the elastic snapped softly against your skin with every slow, deliberate inch he slid it down. He refused to rush, savouring the friction and the sound of your ragged breathing as he worked the lace past your knee, down your calf, until it finally dangled from his mouth. With a subtle toss of his head, he let the garter drop onto the low table beside the chaise.
The room felt instantly hotter, filled only by the uneven sound of your breathing. The primal hunger in his eyes was more potent than before as his hands slid up the bare skin of your leg, deliberate and heavy. His knuckles brushed your inner thigh, leaving a trail of fire in their wake as his mouth found the sensitive dip of your shoulder, biting down just firmly enough to make you arch into his touch and moan loudly.
âNamjoo-ahââ The name cut off into a sharp gasp as his teeth grazed the sensitive line of your neck. Just as the tension reached a breaking point, he forced a shaky exhale, his jaw clenching tight as he pulled back slightly. He was fighting hard for control, though the intense, possessive focus in his dark eyes never wavered.
âYou needed a shower,â he muttered, his voice suddenly husky, almost strained. He stood up rather unceremoniously, breaking the heat of the embrace so abruptly it left you shivering against the cushions. He adjusted his shirt, the ruthless, composed future Don snapping back into place, though his uneven breathing betrayed him.
âIâm going to use the other room,â he said, pausing at the threshold of the closet. He looked back at you over his shoulderâflushed, bare-skinned, and utterly stunned on the cream chaise. A dark, lingering look passed over his features before he gave a tight nod. âTake your time. Iâll be back.â
The door clicked shut behind him, leaving the room suddenly vast, quiet, and torturously hot.
You stood there for a moment after the door closed, the sudden silence of the room settling over you like a physical weight. The suffocating gravity of the dayâthe vows, the prying eyes, the heavy mantle of expectations but mostly the delirious need of feeling namjoon in youâstill clung to your skin like a second layer. You took a few deep breaths to calm yourself down, and decided you need to get the night moving. Standing before the mirror, you tackled the makeup first, wiping it away meticulously until the heavy bridal cosmetics were gone and the face reflecting in the glass belonged entirely to you again.
Next, you stepped into the shower to wash your hair, massaging your scalp until the stiffness of the hairspray and the stress of the ceremony rinsed down the drain. Only then did you focus on your body, scrubbing your skin under the pounding deluge and lingering beneath the heat until your aching muscles finally surrendered their tension. Your chest finally loosened, allowing you to draw a proper breath for the first time all day.
By the time you finally stepped out, the tracks of time had blurred. You wrapped yourself in a plush bathrobe, drying and brushing out your hair until it fell in soft, clean waves over your shoulders.
Returning to the bedroom, the fragile sense of peace evaporated. Now came the real hurdle.
You walked into the sprawling closet and opened the wardrobe dedicated to you, only for your stomach to tighten. The shelves were practically an exhibitionânothing but lace, sheer silk, satin, and intricate garters. Every single piece had been chosen with an unmistakable, single-minded purpose. You hesitated, your fingers shifting through the hangers in search of a simple silk robe, a modest nightdress, or a negligee that didnât leave you entirely exposed. The closet offered nothing of the sort. Every option was designed for display.
Closing the door with an irritated huff, your gaze drifted across the room to the adjacent wardrobe: Namjoonâs.
After a brief, defiant pause, you crossed the marble floor and pulled it open. His scent hit you immediatelyâthat warm, clean, woodsy aroma that was distinctly his. Your fingers brushed past structured suits before settling on an oversized shirt made of white silk.
It swallowed you, of course. When you slipped it on, the hem draped loosely down to your mid-thigh, the cuffs completely burying your hands until you pushed them up, and the collar resting low and relaxed against your collarbone. It wasn't standard bridal attire, but it was comfortable, and it covered what mattered.
Taking a deep, steadying breath, you finally walked out of the closet and back into the main bedroom and then you froze.
Namjoon was already there.
He sat on the bed, reclining against the headboard. His hair was still slightly damp from his own shower, pushed back from his forehead. He was shirtless âhis bare chest, broad shoulders out in the open for your hungry eyes. A pair of dark slacks hung low on his hips, the top button undone slightly as he leaned back in the thought. His hand held a glass of wine, and his gaze moved to you, stopping at you.
âThatâs mine,â His eyes lingered, eyes gazing hotly over your body as he lifted the glass to his lips, taking a slow sip. You gulp, feeling the intensity of his stare on your bare legs, on the oversized shirt, on your slightly hardened buds poking through the silk.
âSuits me better, I think,â you smirked, stepping closer. You climbed onto the bed, the mattress dipping softly beneath your weight as you crawled toward him. The silk shirt slid lower as you moved, the loose collar falling open just enough to reveal the soft curve of your chest.
Namjoon noticed, gulping down the lust crawling up his body. His eyes flickered downward for the briefest second before returning to your face.
âIt does,â he agreed quietly. He shifted slightly against the headboard as you settled beside him on the edge of the bed, the mattress sinking just enough to bring you closer to his level.
You flashed him a small, mischievous grin and reached out, slipping the wine glass neatly from his hand. Namjoon didnât stop you. He simply watched. His gaze stayed fixed on your face as you lifted the glass and took a sip. Â The wine rolled over your tongueâtart at first, then sweet, the warmth of it spreading faintly through your chest. The alcohol barely registered. Your lips puckered a little in disappointment. Without another thought, you tipped the glass back and finished the rest in one long swallow.
Namjoonâs eyebrow lifted slightly. You lowered the empty glass and glanced at him. âCan I have more?â
His mouth twitched faintly. He picks up the bottle, pouring another drink for you, âDo you really need to empty the bottle before you can gather the courage to sleep with me?â You scoffed softly, leaning back on one hand against the bed. You take a long sip till you emptied the entire glass.
âIf you think emptying the bottle would give the courage to sleep with someone,â you said, eyeing him slowly, feeling unnaturally confidentâmaybe the time spent showering and relaxing was truly pushing you out of the shell into your husband, you add, âthen I think youâre the one who should be drinking it, Namjoon.â Your gaze dropped deliberatelyâover his broad chest, the lines of muscle across his stomach, the way the waistband of his slacks sat low on his hips. Then you looked back up at him with a small, teasing tilt of your head.
âBecause so far,â you continued, voice light but pointed, âyou, my dearest husband, have only been looking.â
Namjoon went still as if taken aback at the sudden surge of self-assurance and honesty you were showing. For a moment the room seemed to hold its breath. Then the corner of his mouth lifted slowly. Something darker, sharper settled into his expression. The next second the wine glass was gone from your hand; set aside somewhere on the bedside table you didnât even see him reach for.
You barely had time to inhale before he moved. Namjoon caught your wrist, guiding you backward until your back met the mattress. The bed dipped beneath the sudden shift of weight as he leaned over you; one hand braced beside your head and then his mouth was on yours.
The kiss was rough. Not careless âbut decisive, firm in a way that stole the teasing breath right out of you. His lips pressed hard against yours, silencing the smirk that had been forming there. Your fingers instinctively reached for his hair, the other hand resting on his shoulder as you gasped softly against his mouth. For a moment he didnât move beyond that âjust held the kiss there, steady, controlled, as though reminding you exactly how close he was. When he finally pulled back slightly, his face hovered only inches from yours.
His voice was low now. âBe careful what you challenge me about,â he murmured. His thumb brushed lightly along your jaw. âI might take it seriously.â
âYou should take it seriously just about now,â You murmur back, breathing heavy, ââbecause I am as ready as I can be,â It did not take a second for Namjoon to understand your drift, because his lips were on yours again. His hands rough against your waist, tracing your curves. One of his hands are on your boob now, his thumb rubbing over your slowly hardening bud. His other hand running over your knees, up your thighs, till they settled on your garter. He had let go of your lips, moving to biting and licking at your neck, trailing down to your clavicle.
You moan, hands naturally moving to touch his body. Your breath is heavy as Namjoon moves from your neck to the valley between your breasts, leaving marks, making little moans come out of you. He leans back slightly, âYou have tortured me all day, baby,â He is breathless as he mutters it, licking his lips, âDamn near killed me with need,â he says, hands moving to rip the shirt open roughly. You gasp in shock, as the buttons fly away, your breast now spilling out of the shirt, teasing Namjoon. âFuck,â He curses, going to capture your boob in his warm mouth.
âAhââ You moan, pleasure running through your body from the way his tongue draws circles on your hardened nipple. His other hand is playing with your other boob, as your slightly arch your back to let him touch more. âNamjoonââ You gasp, when you feel his hands move lower, to your hips, ââwait.â
Namjoon is panting when he pulls back, meeting your eyes. His hair is ruffled, and you can see his lust-filled gaze bore into yours, looking like he was seconds away from losing control.
âPl-Please be gentle,â You whisper, âI am scared it will hurt,â
Namjoon sucked in a long breath, exhaling as his hand finds yours, and he brings it up to his lips. âI will be gentle, darling,â He presses a kiss on your wedding ring, âYou are my wife, I have sworn to protect you, I will be as gentle as I can be,â
You give him a small smile, your heart warming at the smile he gives you back. âNow, can I, have you?â
You nod, your smile turning into a giggle, his impatience at this being dragged, and his lips are back on you. Your breath hitches and his body hovers over you.
âFucking pretty,â he coos, his words dripping with affection, as he kisses his way down to your belly, you arch in pleasure, anticipating his actions. ââso fucking perfect,â he says, his hands rubbing circles on your thighs, he bites his lips, gazing at hungrily at your naked pussy.
âWhy didnât you wear a panty, baby?â He presses a kiss right above your pelvic bone, âDid you want to make it easy for me?â His breath tickles you as you shiver and you let out a little exhale, trying to calm yourself. He catches your eyes from between your legs, you had propped yourself on your elbows to see him, âDid my darling wife think wearing lingerie was a waste of time?â He runs his warm hands, over your thighs, keeping your legs apart so he could continue to look at your glistening cunt.
âIt is,â You say, mouth drying at the anticipation on your husband, broad shouldered and divine from between your thighs, âDid you like it?â You ask, the fire in your belly stroking at his words.
âLike?â he scoffs, quickly smiling, his dimples making an inappropriate warm appearance, âI love it,â he pecks your pussy, before gazing intently at your wet core, âI am right at the doors of heaven,â he says, making your heart swell a bit. âBut, why are you so wet, hm?â He gives you a look, more mocking than curiosity, âI barely touched you. Did you touch yourself in the shower, darling?â
âI did not touch myself at the thought of you in the shower,â you huff out, scandalised, tugging slightly at his hair between your thighs. He catches your eyes from where he is marking your inner thighs, his eyes holding childish mischief, despite the heat between you two. You scoff indignantly, letting yourself fall back in bed, in a weak attempt to hide your face away from his view.
âBut I did,â He smirks at you and before you even register his words, he dives right into your sopping core, making your toes curl in sudden shockwaves of pleasure. His tongue pressed flat against your sopping slit, and your body fully sagged as you gasped, clutching almost pathetically at the sheets when his lips closed over you viciously.
âNam-ah, fuckââ You writhe under him, his tongue brutally working on you, and as Namjoon cruel as he is, places your thighs over his shoulders, humming in you in absolute pleasure. Him humming on your throbbing clit, if anything added more to your pleasure, leaving you breathless. You moan, waves of pleasure course through your body, as you involuntarily arch. Your hands find his hair almost instinctually, as you find yourself nearing your release.
âJoo-Joon-Iâm gonnaââ You whimper out in pleasure and the coil inside your belly erupts, making you see stars as your body relaxes, ââcum.â You finish, catching your breath, as you feel your lower body go numb.
You are catching your breath, slowly recovering from the throes of pleasure you just felt, when you find yourself facing Namjoon, who was now hovering over you, using his arms to prop himself. His face is shimmering with your juices all over him, and he has a smug smirk on his face, and you just know he is going to brag.
âSo far, so good?â He asks, despite yourself you answer breathlessly, âSo far, so good.â He grins hearing you, moves away from you, taking off his pants and his underwear and you find yourself tongue-tied at him. He smirks at your eyes on him, âLike what you see?â
Your eyes widen at him, and he continues much to your shock, âTrust me, itâll fit.â He says casually, as he gets back in position between your legs. His hands are back on your thighs, he peppers a few more kisses on the, moves up to your belly and up to your ribs, and he has one of your buds in his warm mouth. He runs his tongue is circles and you find the fire in your belly light up again, despite the dull throb in your folds. You let out a breath, when namjoon moves to the next bud, his hand taking over the neglected one now. Your nipples begin to harden and Namjoon lets them go to focus on your neck now. He bites, licks and soothes the blooming hickeys on your skin, his hand in your hair.
âThis will be a little painful, darling,â He gives you a soft kiss on your lips. âI want you to trust me and relax, hm? I want you to tell me if itâs too much. Bite my shoulder, scratch me or anything once you feel the pain and till it goes away, okay?â His thumb strokes across your cheek.
âIt hurts that much?â You ask, meekly for someone who was runs her mouth so confidently on a day-to-day basis.
âNot really,â Namjoon smiles, using his finger to push the stray hair away from your face, âItâs scarier in the head than in reality,â
âI donât know if thatâs comforting,â you mutter.
Namjoon smiles a little guiltily, and quietly asks you, âYou do want this right?â
âOf course, I want your dick in me, Namjoon,â you roll your eyes, âI wanna be the next Madam!â
âThatâs not what I meant,â Namjoon clicks his tongue at you, bucking his hips against you lightly. You hiss, your lower body still feeling a little sensitive after all his ministrations.
âNamjoon, I know why we're here tonight.â You bring your hands to cradle his face, and look him straight in the eye, âI know what our families expect. Despite all my drama regarding this, I trust you to not hurt me and I want to do this with you.â
Namjoon rests his forehead against yours for a moment as he lets out a slow breath. The guilt gnawing inside him loosened a bit. âNow, just relax, okay?â He said and he dove back to your neck to suck on it, âJust relax, darling âI'll make it good for you, I'll make you feel so good.â
You next words are caught in your throat when you feel his manhood rub deliciously against your nub. You let out a small gasp, the warmth in the touch, lighting up your pussy. He is lazy as he rubs his penis against your sensitive nub, the luscious wetness making you squirm in anticipation of what is coming.
You keep your head back, letting out soft moans, enjoying the tiny waves of pleasure rippling through you as Namjoon rubs himself against you while he plays with your boobs and lays kisses on your neck. Namjoon lets you lay back, eyes half closed but on him as he teases your clit with his thumb.
âI am gonna go in, alright?â He says, catching your eye and you nod almost lazily. He positions himself right at your entrance, Â and guides himself in and you hold your breath as he enters you. It burned as he pushed himself inside and you despite how careful and soothing, he was being, it was painful, not as much as you expected it to, but after all the high you were feeling, the pain felt like a lot.
âYou can bite me,â Namjoon mutter, âYou can scratch, you can do whatever you want to me,â
âYouâll get hurt,â You manage to pant out, feeling yourself stretch in pain to accommodate the large man inside you.
âDonât fucking care, baby,â He scoffs, âI am almost entirely in you, bite me!â And you would not have if the last and final push did not feel like you were about to be ripped in half.
âAhââ You cry out and bite Namjoon on the shoulder to hold yourself down. You were quick to let go, breathing hard, to calm down and hone the pain you were feeling and you were almost sure you were feeling the blood drip out of you.
âLet me know when I can move, yeah?â Namjoon says in a soothing tone, resting his forehead against yours, âI promise the pain wonât last long,â
âYeah,â you whisper, eyes tearing up despite your efforts not to. Namjoon is extremely gentle as he wipes away your tears, that you give him a shy smile and say, âYou can move, Joon, just beââ
âIâll be gentle, sweetheart, Iâll be as gentle as I can,â He promises and begins to move, one of his hands is intertwined with yours, almost holding you against the bed, as he guides himself in and out of you.
At first, it just burns for you, then you feel the slight pleasure course through. You feel Namjoon inside you and the way you feel stuffed full of him. His thrusts are very slow, calculated, his eyes never leaving your face as if he is scanning you for discomfort.
âJoon,â You call, making him hum, âYou know you can enjoy this, right? Enjoy me?â
âY-Yeah,â He pants, of course he was but he was also holding himself back because you felt too good and he did not want to hurt you if he lost himself in the pleasure. You open your legs a little wider, wrapping them around his moving hips, and you hear him let out a grunt of pleasure.
Maybe it was because you were getting comfortable with Namjoon inside you that the delicious tingling of sex was beginning to light your core, and your mind was beginning to go hazy and you were beginning to enjoy the feeling of being filled by your husband. But it was all too quiet from Namjoon, like he was too in his head and not with you.
âI wanna hear you, tell me how you feel,â you purr at him, seductively, adding with a teasing, impatient tone, ââand go a little faster,â
âYou feel amazing, baby,â He groans out, âSo warm, so tight, so wet, so good,â He moans in your ear and you feel the familiar coil of pressure begin to build within you, âI might not last long if I go any faster,â
Namjoon picks up his pace regardless though and you find yourself squirming and moaning in pleasure as well. He begins thrusting a little faster, but a little sloppier almost as if the pleasure was working against his precision. His moans and groans also were beginning to get louder and his praises of your cunt was becoming more and more gibberish.
As his hips continued to buck against you, his moans of your name and his pleasured groans in your ear you were also nearing your release.
âIâm gonnaââ Namjoon groaned, and you agree, ââme too.â
You hook your arms around his neck and pull you to him, lips capturing his and he moans into you, and relentlessly thrusts into you till you both reach your peak and he crumbled on top of you, still gasping.
You felt the warmth of his cum spread inside you and no matter how much you knew or heard about it, the feeling of someoneâs essence so deep in you was very intimate and strange.
âFuck,â he gasped, panting heavily against the column of your neck. âThat was incredible.â
You could only hum in response; your hands still loosely looped around his shoulders. Sensing your exhaustion, Namjoon shifted his weight with practiced care, positioning himself, so he was still draped over you, but no longer crushing your frame into the bed. For a few long, quiet minutes, the two of you simply stayed there, soaking in the fading afterglow while your breathing slowly syncopated in the quiet of the night.
When Namjoon finally moved away, breaking the warmth of the embrace, you looked up at him with a questioning glance. He offered a slow, thoroughly satisfied grin, his thumb softly tracing the line of your jaw.
âDid I stay true to my word about making this worth your while, baby?â
You gave a faint, breathless nod, your face warming as fragments of the evening replayed in your mind. The way he'd spoken to you, the patience he'd shown, the tenderness you'd never expected from a man who insisted he could never love you.
âI'm glad.â A smile ghosted across his lips. The warmth in his expression lingered for only a moment before practicality settled back over him and you can swear you see the elite made-man, Kim Namjoon enter your husbandâs body.
âWe should get cleaned up and get some sleep,â he said gently. âTomorrow is going to be a long day, and we have to be up early.â You groan. âI've already given the maids instructions for the food, the guests, and everything they'll need for the sheet ceremony.â His thumb brushed absently across the back of your hand. âYou don't have to worry about any of that tonight.â
You nod, a little comforted at your workload being reduced from ten to one. When you tried to climb out of bed, however, a sharp ache made you stop halfway. Your face immediately scrunched.
ââow.â You wince, feeling your legs jiggle, and your thighs ache as your pussy tingled in a sore way. Namjoon looked at you and you are sure he was gonna make fun of you, and to your absolute horror, he smiles. âOh, don't you dare.â You threaten him, making him grin wider.
âI didn't say anything.â
âYou were thinking it.â You point a finger in accusation.
âI absolutely was.â He admits, and you swatted weakly at his arm.
âI hate you.â
âI know.â Before you could attempt another dramatic escape, he slipped one arm beneath your knees and the other around your back.
âWhat are you doing?â
âYou'll only complain the whole walk.â
âI can walk.â
âI'm sure you can.â He lifted you effortlessly anyway.
âYou know,â you muttered as he carried you toward the bathroom, âyou're incredibly annoying.â
âSo, I've been told.â
The warmth and steam greeted you the moment he pushed open the bathroom door. He set you down carefully, never once rushing you. The quiet that followed felt strangely intimate, more intimate and vulnerable than the sex you had minutes ago. There was no teasing, no poking, no insults, just the two of you helping each other wash away the longest day of your lives. Namjoonâs movements remained gentle, almost reverent, as though he feared even now that he might accidentally hurt you. As he reached for a towel, your eyes caught the distinct darkening mark on his shoulder. Heat rushed straight to your cheeks.
âI bit you too hard, didn't I?â Your fingertips hovered over the bruise before lightly tracing its edge. Namjoon glanced down before letting out a quiet chuckle.
âI've had worse.â
âI'm serious.â You admonish him, hands still tracing the mark.
âSo am I.â He looked back at you, smiling softly. âDon't worry about it, darling.â His hand briefly covered yours. âIt's a very small price to pay.â Something in the way he said it made your heart squeeze. Once you were both clean, you slipped into one of his oversized silk shirts, the sleeves swallowing your hands.
Together, you returned to the bedroom. The rose petals still decorated on the floors and the satin sheets, bunched around the edges. Only the centre told the story the family would expect to see.
Neither of your spoke. Namjoon quietly crossed to the linen chest at the foot of the bed and pulled out a fresh cream flat sheet. With practiced care, he spread it over the mattress, smoothing every crease until the stained bedding disappeared beneath pristine fabric.
You watched him in silence. It didnât feel like he was ashamed of what you did or that he was embarrassed, more like protective, as though he couldn't spare you tomorrow morning, but he could spare you from staring at the reminder all night. When everything was finished, he pulled back the duvet.
âLetâs sleep.â You climbed beneath the covers with a grateful sigh. The mattress dipped a moment later as he joined you. You waited. Surely now, he'd wrap an arm around your waist, pull you against his chest, brush your hair back, whisper goodnight.
Instead, he lay down on his own side of the bed, not far but not touching you either. A careful gap remained between your bodies.
You frowned. You'd just married him, shared the most vulnerable night of your life with him and now he was treating the mattress like it had a border neither of you was supposed to cross. You began mentally composing an argument about the emotional incompetence of mafia men when his voice broke the silence.
âThisââ He stared quietly at the ceiling. ââis the only pleasure of matrimony I can promise you.â You turned your head. His expression was unreadable. After a long pause, he spoke again.
âThank youââ His voice was barely above a whisper. ââfor marrying me.â
Silence settled over the room once more. The words echoed in your mind long after he'd said them. A dull ache spread quietly through your chest. You closed your eyes before they could betray you.
How foolish of you.
For a few beautiful hours, you'd almost allowed yourself to believe that perhaps, just perhaps he had begun to love you. But this, all of it, i was only gratitude. Somehow, that hurt far more than his honesty ever had.
From the moment your engagement was announced, you had understood what this marriage was to him. A duty. An obligation. A strategic alliance between families. You had accepted that early on, forcing yourself to be practical about it. There were never supposed to be feelings.
You knew that and yet, the past few months had been confusing. Namjoon had been kind and patient. Surprisingly attentive in ways you hadnât expected. He had defended you more than once when others questioned you. He had made an effort to speak to you privately at gatherings, to make sure you were comfortable. The day of your engagement, he had kissed you with a confidence that had left your heart racing for hours. He had looked at you like he actually wanted you.
You were never foolish enough to believe he loved you, but you certainly didnât think he hated you either.
A man doesnât willingly kiss a woman like that, doesnât hold her close, doesnât let his hands linger, if he feels nothing at all or so you thought.
So, what were you to him? Was all of that kindness just strategy? A way to soften you up, to make you agreeable, so that when the night finally came you wouldnât resist when he touched you? Was all that warmth just a careful performance? A way to ensure you quietly allowed him to take what he needed from you? Was that all you were in his life?
A duty. A body. A quick fulfilment of tradition. The thoughts spiral before you can stop them, cruel and relentless, until your chest tightens painfully. You bury your face into the pillow, shoulders trembling as quiet tears slip free. You try to cry silently. You really do.
âGood night,â Namjoon says after a long moment.
You donât reply. You can feel him waiting beside you, the silence stretching between you like something fragile. When no response comes, he lets out a quiet sigh. Then the room falls still. Now, hours later, as dawn slowly creeps through the room, Namjoon stares down at the sheets with hollow eyes.
He notices everything, the stains, the dishevelled bedding, the marks on your skin where his hands had held you too tightly, each detail makes something sour twist in his stomach. He feels disgust, not at you, but himself. He feels dirty, feels pathetic, like something inside him has rotted away. Because the truth presses harder the longer, he thinks about it.
He forced himself on you, didnât he? You had held onto that part of yourself for yearsâsomething precious, something private, and he took it without truly stopping to ask if you were ready, without asking if you wanted him, just hours after standing in front of the entire Bangtan family, promising to keep you happy, promising to protect you.
The memory burns like acid in his chest. He wants to say something now. He wants to turn to you, to ask you directly. Did you want it? Did you agree because you truly wanted him in the moment or because you felt you had no choice?
Youâre his wife. He cares about you. He would never hurt you intentionally, but then another quiet sob escapes from your side of the bed and the sound shatters whatever fragile defence he had built in his mind.
Namjoon closes his eyes. Because in that moment, one thought feels impossible to escape.
Maybe the men who call him a monster werenât wrong.
Namjoon had not slept, not even for a second.
The entire night had passed with him lying awake, staring at the ceiling while guilt settled heavily in his chest. It clung to him like something physical, thick and suffocating, the kind that seeped into bone and made him feel unclean in a way he had never experienced before.
He had done something he once swore he never would, lowered himself to a place he had always believed he was better than and the worst part of it all and you had cried yourself to sleep.
The memory makes his jaw tighten.
He had heard it. Every quiet sniffle you tried to muffle into the pillow, every shaky breath that trembled through your body as you lay beside him. Silent tears had slipped from your eyes, darkening the pillowcase beneath your cheek while you tried so hard not to make a sound.
Each one had felt like a blade pressed slowly into his chest.
He hadnât touched you, not after everything. He hadnât dared.
So, he had simply laid there, rigid beside you, staring into the darkness while the weight of what he had done settled deeper and deeper into his chest. Now, as the faint light of dawn begins creeping through the curtains, reality crashes down on him againâthe sheet ceremony.
His stomach twists violently at the thought. The very idea of it makes disgust rise bitter in his throat. An ancient, humiliating ritualâone that reduces a womanâs worth to a stain on a white sheet. Proof of purity. Proof of innocence. As though a life, a marriage, a woman herself could be measured by something so crude and so painfully unscientific.
If the sheets remain clean, the marriage is declared invalid. You would be cast aside. Stripped of the vows spoken just hours ago. Declared unworthy of the role you had stepped into as his wife.
Namjoon exhales slowly, dragging a hand down his face. He hates it, every part of it. But he cannot stop it. Not yet. Not while his father still sits at the head of the table as Don. Not while Namjoon himself is bound by traditions older than himârules he never wrote but is expected to uphold. Still, one day that will change. When he is the one sitting in that chair, when the power finally rests in his hands, this will be the first tradition he buries.
His jaw tightens again as another thought creeps in. What if Taehyung hurts Jangmi like he did you? There wasnât much difference between your story and theirs after all. Taehyung was as much an Elite made-man as Namjoon, and Jangmi was innocent and a victim of this circus just like you. What if he has a daughter one day? What if she is forced to stand where you stood? What if some man, some husband chosen by politics or power puts her through the same humiliation he has just put you through?
His fists clench at his sides. The thought makes something dark stir in his chest. Maybe people would say he deserves this guilt. Maybe they would say this is the price of power. Maybe they would even be right.
But none of those changes one simple truth.
You didnât deserve it.
âJoin me for breakfast?â His voice is tentative, cautious, as if he is scared you will scream or throw the vase at him. You look up from where you sit at the vanity, brushing your hair with slow, distracted strokes. Thereâs a dull ache in your chest, a heaviness in your limbs, but you force yourself to meet his gaze in the mirror.
âCan I?â Your voice is quiet, uncertain. âShouldnât I be out welcoming the guests?â
âThey wonât mind,â Namjoon says. âNot if I say I want to keep you to myself.â
A ghost of a smile tugs at your lips, but it doesnât quite reach your eyes. âYou can say that, and theyâll listen?â
âDo they have a choice?â He exhales a soft chuckle, though it lacks humour. He isn't wrong. The world bows at his feet, even when he doesn't want it to. When you donât reply, and simply hold his gaze, as you comb, he shifts, licks his lips unsure and says, âHave you seen the estate?â
 You hesitate, then shake your head. âI mean,â you murmur, setting the brush down, âwe were very busy last night. I barely got to see anything. Will you give me a tour?â
His lips part slightly, caught off guard by the question. A glimmer of something passes through his eyes.
âCome on,â he says, offering his hand. âWeâll start with my favourite place.â
The morning air is crisp, the scent of damp earth and blooming jasmine lingering as Namjoon leads you through the sprawling grounds of the estate. The sky is a soft blue, golden sunlight filtering through the leaves, casting dappled patterns on the cobblestone paths.
He keeps a careful distance from you as you walk, his hands tucked into the pockets of his slacks, as if afraid to overstep. When you reach the terrace overlooking the gardens, a staff member is already waiting with a table set with food. Namjoon pulls out a chair for you before taking his seat across from you. You are still looking around, wondering when Namjoon had the time to set up a breakfast with you, when he ours you a cup of coffee.
âHereâs your coffee,â he says, setting a cup in front of you. âJust how you like it.â
Your fingers curl around the porcelain, the warmth seeping into your skin. You take a slow sip, letting the familiar bitterness ground you.
âBlack and bitter,â Namjoon muses, watching you. âHow does someone with a face as sweet as yours enjoy something so acrid?â
You hum, setting the cup down. âJangmi likes black coffee too.â
He scoffs. âSheâs a raging lunatic.â
You arch a brow. âSheâs your sister.â
âExactly why I know her better than you do,â he says dryly, shaking his head.
Despite everything, a small laugh escapes you. Itâs quiet, barely there, but Namjoon catches it. His shoulders loosen just the slightest bit.
âTry the stuffed French toast,â he says, nudging a plate toward you. âYouâll like it.â
You cut off a small piece, bringing it to your lips. Itâs rich, soft, filled with cream and fresh berriesâexactly the kind of thing you would have indulged in once, back when your life was simpler.
âGood?â he asks.
You nod, swallowing. âItâs perfect.â
He watches you for a long moment, then clears his throat. âWhat do you want for your gift?â
You blink. âGift?â
âFor the sheet ceremony.â His voice is steady, but thereâs a flicker of something behind it. Something you canât quite place. âItâs tradition. The husband gifts his wife something after her⊠success.â
A bitter taste lingers on your tongue, one that has nothing to do with the coffee. You glance away, staring at the garden below. âShouldnât we be waiting for the Bangtan womenâs verdict first?â
Namjoon shakes his head. âNo.â His voice is firm, leaving no room for argument. âYou are my wife, regardless of what they think. I know I was your first. I know I will be your only. So, ask for whatever you want, and Iâll get it for you.â
Your hands tighten around your cup, the weight of his words pressing into your chest.
âI donât want anything, Joon,â you whisper. His heart softens a bit at the nickname. He was expecting curses and tears out of you after last night, so a nickname truly warms his heart.
Silence stretches between you. Then, slowly, Namjoon reaches across the table, his fingers hesitating for only a second before brushing over yours. Itâs the first time heâs touched you since last night.
âThen let me give you this,â he murmurs, voice low, earnest. ââa promise.â You glance up, searching his eyes. âOne day,â he says, his grip tightening ever so slightly, âI will burn every trace of this tradition to the ground. So that no woman will ever have to suffer it again.â
Your breath catches. He was making a promise, a vow âand for the first time since last night, something inside you begins to thaw.
The sheet ceremony was archaic and disturbing, but even Madam Kim did not know how to undo it. She herself had never completed one. When she first married the Don, the circumstances had been complicated. There had been whispers, doubt, quiet judgment from the elders of Bangtan. It had taken years for her to truly be acceptedâyears of loyalty, sacrifice, patience.
She had birthed the next Don. She had helped raise the Elites like they were her own sons, feeding them at her table, patching them up after reckless fights, scolding them when their arrogance grew too large for their young shoulders. She had stood beside the Don through the darkest years of Bangtan.
Through the deaths of his parents, when the weight of leadership had fallen onto him far too young. Through the endless nights of whispered meetings and shifting alliances. Through multiple coups that threatened to tear the organization apart from the inside. She had watched men she once trusted turn traitor. She had seen blood spilled in the very halls of the manor. She had learned, slowly and painfully, how fragile power truly was.
While the Don fought wars outside these walls, she fought quieter ones inside them âholding the household together, managing the wives and families of made-men, calming fears when the streets ran violent.
She had buried friends, welcomed new brides who arrived trembling and uncertain, just like you. She had carried the weight of Bangtan in ways no one ever acknowledged, the silent labour expected of the woman who would one day be called Madam Kim.
And still, for years, some had whispered that she did not truly deserve the title.
Not until she proved herself, not until she endured enough âwhich was exactly why she refused to let another young woman be broken by traditions that had nearly broken her.
Maybe that was why she approached every sheet ceremony the same way now.
No matter how little blood there was no matter how questionable the proof might seem, Madam Kim always declared the marriage consummated.
Always.
Life was already difficult enough as the wife of a made-man in Bangtan. Women in this world carried burdens men would never fully understand âloneliness, danger, endless scrutiny. Being shamed and cast aside over something as meaningless as a stain on cloth was cruelty she refused to add to that list.
So, when Madam Kim left the Kim Manor that morning, she had already made up her mind. No matter what she saw you would not be disqualified ânot today, not in this house, never during her reign.
Even so, the thought still made her uncomfortable in ways she could not quite explain. The idea of wondering whether her son and his wife had consummated their marriage felt intrusive, deeply personal in a way that made her uneasy.
Still, she hoped.
She hoped nothing depraved had happened in that room. If the marriage had been consummated, she hoped it had been because you wanted it and not because Namjoon had followed tradition in the cruellest way possible.
When neither you nor Namjoon came down to receive the ladies that morning, Madam Kim noticed it immediately. In this house, appearances mattered. Formalities mattered even more. A newly married couple was expected to greet the elders together the morning after the wedding âmodest, respectful, composed. It was not simply etiquette; it was tradition.
Your absence was noticeable. Your mother noticed it too. Her polite smile remained in place as she accepted the tea offered by the staff, but Madam Kim saw the way her eyes flicked briefly toward the grand staircase.
âPerhaps they are still resting,â one of the older aunties said, a knowing smile spreading across her face. Another woman laughed softly into her kerchief.
âWell, it was their wedding night.â A few of the younger women giggled quietly among themselves.
Madam Kim did not laugh. She lifted her hand slightly, summoning one of the maids standing by the doorway. The girl hurried forward and bowed.
âWhere is my son?â Madam Kim asked.
The maid lowered her eyes respectfully. âYoung Master escorted Young Madam Nari upstairs shortly after the reception ended, Madam.â
âEscorted?â one woman repeated with raised brows.
âOh, please,â another auntie said with amusement. âHe whisked her away.â The room filled with soft laughter and whispers.
But Madam Kim felt her stomach tighten. Her son was not considered a good gentleman by most people. Neither was the Don. Men like them ruled through strength, fear, and blood. Their reputations carried weight for a reason.
Still, she had raised the Elites herself. She had watched those boys grow up in her halls âfed them, scolded them, guided them and she had made one thing very clear to them from the beginning.
Some acts were not mistakes or crimes, they were sins âbetrayal, cowardice, violence against women. Those were stains that never washed away. So, while the women around her continued chatting and sipping their tea, Madam Kim sat very still and prayed quietly that Namjoon had not committed any of those sins against you.
The staff soon brought refreshments to the sitting hall.
Porcelain cups of steaming bori-cha and yuju-cha were placed carefully on the low tables. Plates of songpyeon, yakgwa, and delicate rice cakes followed.
But Madam Kim barely touched her tea. She did not want food. She did not want gossip. She wanted this finished. Setting her cup down quietly, she spoke.
âLet us go upstairs.â The room fell silent almost immediately.
A maid stepped forward to guide them, and the women rose together âten in total. Madam Kim and your mother walked in front, followed by several senior women from both families. Their footsteps echoed softly through the long corridor as they approached the bridal suite.
The maid opened the door. Madam Kim stepped inside first. The room told its story immediately.
Rose petals that had once been scattered beautifully across the bed now lay crushed and scattered across the floor. Some clung to the tangled sheets, others had drifted under chairs and along the carpet. Candles had burned nearly to their ends, wax hardened into uneven trails down the holders.
The air still held a faint scent of roses and warm skin.
The bed itself was in complete disarray âsheets twisted, pillows pushed aside. The blanket half hanging from the mattress. There was no doubt the room had been used.
But Madam Kimâs eyes went straight to the bed, to the white sheets and there was a dark stain, red against the pale fabricâblood. She did not step closer. She did not examine it. She did not allow anyone else the chance to do so either.
Straightening her posture, Madam Kim turned toward the women behind her.
âThe marriage has been consummated.â Her voice was calm and final. A few of the aunties exchanged satisfied glances. Someone murmured a soft congratulations. Before curiosity could turn into something uglier âbefore any of them could begin whispering or inspecting, Madam Kim gestured toward the door.
âThat will be enough.â Her tone left no room for argument. âLet us return downstairs.â And just like that, she ushered the entire group back out of the room.
Brunch was served shortly after in the main dining hall.
The long wooden table had been laid out beautifully, the kitchen staff clearly preparing for a full house of guests. Steam curled gently from ceramic bowls and brass serving dishes, filling the room with the warm scent of sesame oil, broth, and freshly cooked rice.
Large platters of haemul pajeon and kimchi jeon were arranged beside bowls of soft gyeran-jjim, their fluffy egg custard trembling slightly as they were set down. There were small bowls of janchi guksu and tteokguk, light but comforting, along with bulgogi, grilled fish, and delicate plates of kimbap neatly sliced into perfect rounds. Fresh fruit âsliced pears, persimmons, and grapes sat beside trays of songpyeon and yakgwa for something sweet. Porcelain teapots filled with yuju-cha and bori-cha made their way around the table.
Soon the women settled into their seats, the earlier tension dissolving into comfortable chatter as plates were passed around and cups were refilled.
Your mother leaned slightly toward Madam Kim as she placed a small portion of bulgogi onto her plate.
âI will tell Nari she should provide Bangtan with an heir soon,â she said thoughtfully, as if discussing something perfectly reasonable. âAn heir would secure her position very quickly. And I am sure the Don would be pleased to finally have a grandchild that carries his blood.â
Madam Kim paused mid-movement. Her spoon hovered over her bowl before she slowly set it down.
âNo, Sook-ah,â Madam Kim said calmly. Your mother blinked, clearly surprised by the firmness in her tone. âHwan is already our grandchild,â Madam Kim continued evenly. âThe first.â
Your mother frowned slightly, confused by the direction the conversation was taking. âButââ
âIf Saera and Youngho had not refused the position so fiercely,â Madam Kim said, setting her chopsticks down with quiet deliberation, âHwan would have been the heir.â
The light chatter around the table faltered. A few of the women looked up from their plates, sensing the shift in tone.
âHuh?â your mother asked, caught completely off guard. Madam Kimâs expression remained composed, but there was a quiet authority in her voice when she spoke again.
âIf Hwan walked into the Kim manor tomorrow and demanded the seat of the Don,â she said slowly, âI am quite certain the Don would not refuse him.â She lifted her cup, taking a calm sip before continuing. âAnd I believe Namjoon would step aside just as easily.â A few of the aunties exchanged startled glances. Madam Kim placed the cup back down. âNari would agree as well,â she added, almost thoughtfully.
Madam Kim folded her hands neatly on the table.
âNamjoonâs child if born next will be the heir now,â she said plainly. âBut that does not mean my other grandchildren would mean less.â Her gaze swept across the women seated around the table.
âHwan is the first. And any child born to the Elites will be my grandchild as well.â There was a quiet authority in the way she said it. Your mother shifted slightly in her seat.
âBut still,â she began carefully, âa child soon wouldââ
âThey are newlyweds,â Madam Kim said, cutting her off gently. âThey need time âto understand each other, to grow into the marriage.â
âBut the family will expectââ
âWe are still here,â Madam Kim interrupted softly. She gestured around the manor. âThe Don and I are not going anywhere anytime soon.â Her expression softened just a little. âLet the youngsters be youngsters for a while longer.â
Your mother hesitated. Then she nodded slowly.
Madam Kim added one last thing, her tone calm but final. âNamjoon is the next Don, no matter what. Nari is the next Madam no matter what.â She lifted her teacup again. âThere is no need to force a child into their lives to prove something that is already secure.â A faint smile touched her lips. âIf they choose to give me a grandchild soon, I will be delighted to spoil the child.â She took a sip of tea. âBut I will not force them.â
The conversation gradually shifted to lighter topics after that. Eventually, the women finished their meal and began preparing to leave the manor. One by one, cars were called and the guests were escorted out. Madam Kim personally saw them off. But when the final car rolled down the driveway and the gates closed behind it, she did not leave with them. Instead, she remained in the manor.
Now she wanted to see you, properly, not as part of a ceremony, not as a rumour whispered over tea.
âIf she is hurt,â Her jaw tightened slightly. She would deal with her son herself. She stopped one of the maids walking down the hallway.
âWhere is Nari?â The girl bowed quickly.
âThey are at the garden in their wing, Madam.â
âThey?â Madam Kim repeated.
âYes, Madam. Young Master Kim is with her.â
Her brows pulled together slightly. âAre they arguing?â she asked sharply. âIs she hurt?â
The maid looked startled. âOhâno, Madam. Not at all.â
âThen what are they doing?â
âThey had breakfast together earlier,â the girl explained. Madam Kim blinked.
âBreakfast?â
âYes, Madam. Young Master had breakfast prepared and served on the terrace this morning.â
Now that surprised her. Namjoon was many things. Romantic has never been one of them. Curiosity replacing some of her worry, Madam Kim walked slowly toward the garden, the soft gravel path crunching faintly beneath her shoes. The morning air was warm, sunlight spilling through the pergola vines and casting gentle patterns across the stone floor.
The moment she stepped into the garden, she stopped.
You and Namjoon were asleep on the large daybed beneath the pergola.
Curled instinctively against his side, as though your body had simply found the safest place it could rest. One of Namjoonâs arms was wrapped firmly around you, holding you close even in sleep. His body was slightly angled toward yours, broad shoulders forming a quiet barrier between you and the open garden. Even unconscious, there was something protective in the way he held you.
Your head rested against his chest. Your fingers were lightly clutching the fabric of his shirt, as though at some point in the night you had needed reassurance that he was truly there.
For a long moment, Madam Kim simply stood there, watching.
The tension she had carried since the wedding ceremony âsince hearing whispers, since noticing the way you had walked, slowly eased from her shoulders. Her gaze moved briefly over you. You looked peaceful, safe and definitely comfortable. Her lips softened into a small smile. Quietly, she reached into her dress pocket and pulled out her phone. The camera shutter made the faintest click as she captured the moment âthe two of you tangled together beneath the morning light.
Within seconds, she sent the photo to Jangmi. Then to the Don. She typed a single message beneath it.
Your son is doing right by his wife. I am proud.
After sending it, she slipped the phone back into her pocket and turned toward the maid waiting respectfully near the entrance of the area.
âHave their bedroom cleaned,â she instructed quietly. âAnd wake them later so they can rest properly inside.â
âYes, Madam,â the maid said with a small bow.
âChange the sheets,â Madam Kim added thoughtfully. âWash them andââ
The maid hesitated. âMadam, I am sorry to interrupt but Young Master Kim has already given instructions regarding the sheets.â
Madam Kim raised an eyebrow slightly. âOh?â
The girl nodded carefully. âYes, Madam.â A quiet pause stretched between them before the maid continued. âHe ordered for them to be burned.â
Madam Kimâs gaze drifted back toward the pergola. You were still tucked against Namjoonâs chest, sleeping peacefully. His arm tightened slightly around you even in sleep, pulling you closer instinctively.
It was not possession âbut protection. Understanding dawned slowly in her eyes. Namjoon had not asked for the sheets to be burned out of arrogance, or tradition. He had asked for it to be burned because he refused to honour the circumstances of that night, because the woman beside him had been pushed into something before she was ready, because if that moment was ever remembered, he wanted it erased.
Madam Kim exhaled quietly. Her son had always been stubborn, always been difficult. But sometimes, he surprised her.
âYes,â she said softly. âThat sounds like my son.â
ânext chapter  ⹠ chapter seven
âauthor's endnote  ⹠wellâi finally did it. i honestly don't know how people write scenes like this so often. i rewrote this chapter more times than i can count, and at this point, i think i have parts of it memorized. it's still not perfect, and there are definitely things i'd like to refine, but i'm choosing to let it exist instead of chasing perfection forever. i'd really love to hear what you thought. did the pacing feel right? did the emotional weight come through the way i intended? and i'm especially curious about your thoughts on namjoon after this chapterâhe was a very delicate balance to write. as always, your comments, reblogs, theories, random messages, keyboard smashes, or even a simple 'i liked it' mean more to me than you know. my asks and dms are always open if you want to talk about the storyâor anything else. also, fun fact: i thought the wedding night would be the hardest chapter to write. then i rememberedâthere's a honeymoon chapter after this. this may have been a terrible decision. so if the next update takes a little longer than expected out from me, you know exactly which scenes i'm wrestling with. wish me luck. i hope you're all doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
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The Lily Of Bangtan | Kim Namjoon
âpairing âą rm Ă you (fem!reader)
âchapter five âą the union of souls: a day to remember and forever begins
âgenre âą mafia au Ă arranged marriage au Ă strangers to lovers au Ă best friendâs brother au ( angst Ă romance Ă smut )
âseries âą matters of the heart in the mafia
âstory masterlist âą the lily of bangtan
âprevious chapter âą chapter four
ârating âą mature-rated
âwordcount âą 10.7k
âwarnings âą trying to be dark and angsty. lots of bangtan traditions. arranged marriage. english not my first language. noob writer, experienced daydreamer.
âauthor's forenote âą smut will be next chapter, i didn't realise a wedding of my fantasy would take over 10k words, so sorry to disappoint but smut is next chapter, but good news is that its written and scheduled to go up soon. this chapter is a bit extensive with how much i have explained stuff, but i like daydreaming about minute details like these. so, please indulge me.
âchapter summary âą the day of the wedding, the night and all the bells and whistles of a traditional bangtan wedding.
The morning of your wedding begins before your eyes are even fully open. You're roused from sleep and promptly ushered into the whirlwind of preparations. After freshening up, you settle into a chair, wrapped in a soft robe, as the stylists begin their meticulous work. The quiet hum of their chatter blends with the soft music playing in the background, while the steady clicks of the photographerâs camera document every moment.
Your mind is a tangled mess of thoughts as you sip on a smoothie âanything heavier feels impossible to stomach. The stylists keep reminding you not to drift off, but the weight of anticipation keeps you wide awake. The butterflies in your stomach flutter relentlessly, a mix of nerves and excitement.
Your motherâs absence isnât surprising. Your father, on the other hand, has been kept away at the photographersâ request, allowing for a âfirst lookâ moment later. Truthfully, you prefer it this way âyou know youâll tear up the second you see him.
âAre you nervous?â the makeup artist asks, noticing the way your fingers fumble with the tie of your robe.
âYeah,â You admit, but you leave it at that.
There's too much on your mind, too many emotions swirling inside you. Namjoon's words and actions from last night should have eased your nerves, and yet, they havenât ânot entirely. Maybe itâs the weight of the traditions looming over the next 24 hours, each one an expectation you must fulfil. Among them, the consummation of the marriage lingers at the forefront of your thoughts. A shiver runs down your spine ânot just from anxiety, but something else. As your mind flickers between apprehension and desire, you exhale, bracing yourself for the day ahead.
âMo-mo,â You hear Hwan's voice. Your mood is instantly a little better as your hear the boyâs sunshine voice, you turn around startling the makeup artist a little, greeting him as he runs to you in his red suit.
âBoo-boo!â You cheer, picking him up to place him on your lap, âYou look so handsome!â You squeeze his cheeks, attacking him with kisses, as the adorable boy giggles loudly.
âHwanie?â You hear Jangmiâs excited voice and you roll your eyes as you hear her heels click against the floor as she practically runs to you, âYou look so handsome!â She pulls the boy away from your lap, perching him on her hips, âDid you miss me?â She asks, and much to her betrayal, Hwan says no, giggling loudly at her betrayed face.
You join in the laughter, âGive him to me,â You pull him into your lap again, âWho bought you this, Hwanie?â You asked, fixing his little coat.
âGoogie samchun,â Hwan said, jumping down to the floor and twirling to show off his little suit, âIt's nice, right?â You nod, chuckling at him.
âSuits you,â You press yet another kiss on his cheek.
âHe couldn't have chosen a much more attention-grabbing suit, right?â Jangmi laughs, bending down to hug and lift the boy up in her arms. âBut it suits you, Hwan-ie.â She kisses his chubby cheeks.
âWhere's your Omma?â you ask, scanning the room for Saera.Â
âI'm right here,â Her cheerful voice comes, and you barely have time to turn before she pulls you into a warm hug.Â
âDid you really think Iâd miss the honour of attending the next Don and Madamâs wedding?â She teases, squeezing you lightly.Â
âYou mean you wouldnât dare miss your Namuâs wedding,â You counter, jutting out your lower lip in a rare pout âsomething utterly uncharacteristic of you at twenty-five. âI know you have favourites,â You add, shooting her a mock glare. âAnd itâs not me.âÂ
 âHey, thatâs my baby brother!â Saera laughs shamelessly. âOf course, heâs my favourite.âÂ
âWow,â Jangmi interjects, clutching her chest like sheâs just been mortally wounded. âSo, Iâm just the spare, I guess.âÂ
Saera grins, offering a sliver of hope before swiftly yanking it away. âNo,â she muses, pausing just long enough for dramatic effect. âYou're my third favourite.â
âBloody Jungkook is the second, isnât he?!â
âAre you wearing lingerie under that robe?â Saera asked, her voice laced with playful mischief.
Jangmi giggled, nodding furiously in agreement. Earlier, she had whistled when you'd adjusted your robe, catching a glimpse of the delicate white lace beneath. You had shot her a glare and reminded her that it was forher brother, to which sheâd dramatically gagged before promptly shutting up.
Heat rushed to your cheeks, and you closed your eyes, hoping to salvage at least some dignity. âIt's tradition to wear something pretty for the husband,â You mumbled, willing the conversation to move on.
âI know,â Saera teased, her giggle full of amusement. âAnd you wear garters for the husband too.â
âGarters?!â you screeched, eyes flying open. âI didnât know we had a garter tradition! I've never seenââ
âOh, we definitely do,â Saera interrupted, smugly folding her arms. âIt's just a private tradition âone not meant for an audience. The garter is part of your lingerie, and your husband gets to remove it himself later that night.â She even had the audacity to drop you a wink.
âYet another gift for the husband.â Jangmi scoffed, rolling her eyes, but hummed in agreement a second later. âAdds to the moment, I suppose.â Jangmi and Saera giggled again, and you fought the sudden urge to shove them straight off the balcony.
âYou do realize I'll return this torture in full on your wedding day, right?â you shot back, narrowing your eyes at her. âWhen you marry Taehyung, I will have my revenge.â Jangmi stuck out her tongue before darting behind Saera as you lunged forward, her laughter ringing through the room.
âYah, settle down,â Saera chided, placing a firm hand on your shoulder. âDon't get yourself hurt. Namjoon will want you in one piece.â
You rolled your eyes but relented, sinking back into your seat. Saera smiled approvingly before producing a velvet box and placing it in your hands. âWear the garter. And your heels. Omma asked the staff to bring the dress âsheâll be here soon.â
Lifting the lid, you found the garter nestled inside, a delicate creation of white lace adorned with shimmering blue sequins and a silky blue bow. It was intricate yet elegant âsubtle, but undeniably alluring. You nodded wordlessly, slipping the garter over your thigh, the soft lace feeling cool against your skin.
Jangmi reappeared beside you, holding out your shoes. âAnd hereâs your torture for the day,â she smirked.
The heels had been custom-made for the wedding âdesigned with comfort in mind, knowing youâd be wearing them from morning until night. The thick, supportive block heels ensured stability, while the elegant straps wrapped securely around your ankles, promising a perfect fit. The craftsmanship was exquisite âbaroque-like details etched into the golden embellishments, adding a regal touch. Despite their height, they were surprisingly light, making movement effortless. You slipped them on, fastening the buckles as the pieces of your bridal attire was slowly coming together.
The moment you slipped your feet into the towering heels, you wobbled, the unexpected height throwing you off balance. Your stomach flipped as the ground felt farther away than usual. Jangmi and Saera both rushed forward, hands outstretched to steady you, but you quickly lifted a hand to stop them, catching yourself before they could.
âI'm good,â you muttered, exhaling sharply.
Saera arched a brow. âBarely.â
Jangmi giggled. âWe should tie you to oppa before the wedding so you don't trip at the altar.â
You shot her a glare but didn't respond, instead turning towards the large mirror. You had barely looked at yourself since this morning, too distracted by the constant rush of preparations, too focused on following instructions, listening to Saera and Jangmiâs playful banter âjust like old times, after they had sent Hwan away with Jungkook and Taehyung.
Now, as you finally took yourself in, your breath caught.
Your makeup was soft, elegant âethereal. Shimmering eyeshadow caught the light every time you blinked, a gentle glow dusted your cheeks, and your lips had just the right tint of colour to look effortlessly perfect. Your hair had been curled and styled into a bun âit was arranged meticulously, structured yet romantic, designed to accommodate the tiara.
Your fingers trembled as you reached up to lightly touch the heirloom.
The tiara was stunning âmassive diamonds and pearls intricately woven together to form a halo-like design. A Kim family treasure, it had first been crafted for the very first Madam, a symbol of power and legacy. Only eight women before you had worn it, including the current Madam and Saera herself. It was over six generations old.
And now, it was yours to wear.
You swallowed.
âYou should put on the blindfold now,â Jangmi said suddenly, breaking your trance. She pulled a sleep mask out, holding it up with a mischievous glint in her eyes. âLetâs hope this is secure enough, and you donât catch a peek of the dress before time.â
You frowned. âIs this really necessary?â
âItâs tradition,â Saera and Jangmi chimed in unison, their synchronized answer almost eerie.
You sighed, rolling your eyes, but took the mask and slipped it over your eyes.
You hadnât seen your wedding dress yet. It was a long-standing Kim family tradition for the mother-in-law to choose the brideâs gown âa custom meant to symbolize acceptance into the family, though to you, it felt more like a test of blind faith.
A part of you had been disappointed at first, longing for the experience of selecting your own dress, of running your fingers over delicate lace and shimmering silks, of deciding for yourself that you would wear on one of the most important days of your life. But you knew better than to dwell on it. Madam Kim was nothing if not extravagant, and despite her simpler nature, she had impeccable taste. You trusted that she would choose something fitting of her sonâs bride. Besides, Jangmi had assured you, more than once, that if her mother dared to pick an ugly dress, sheâd personally set it on fire.
You had tried it on a few times, of course âblindfolded, another tradition meant to preserve its sanctity until the big day. Each fitting had been a strange, almost surreal experience. Standing still as seamstresses flitted around you, their fingers adjusting fabric and pinning lace, you had felt the weight of the gown, the soft rustle of its skirts, the gentle tug of a corset being tightened just right. It was heavy, luxurious, something undoubtedly designed to make a statement.
But what did it look like? Was it sleek and regal, or romantic and flowing? Were there pearls stitched into the bodice? Embroidered roses trailing down the train? You could only imagine, left to build a vision from the fleeting sensations of silk against your skin and the whispered compliments of the women around you.
Soon, the blindfold would come off. Soon, you would see yourself as a Kim bride.
âThe dress is here,â Saera announced.
The sound of wheels rolling in filled the room as staff carefully brought in the dress stand. There was a rustling of fabric, the low murmurs of the assistants working swiftly, and the occasional sharp inhale from Jangmi âundoubtedly reacting to the sight of the gown.
You, however, saw nothing. Instead, you felt.
The next several minutes passed in a flurry of movement. The weight of the fabric as it was draped over your body, the soft whisper of the material against your skin. The careful slide of sleeves over your wrists, the structured bodice fitting snugly against your frame, the gentle tug as they fastened the gown in place. You reached out blindly, fingertips grazing the textured embroidery, the intricate beading âtrying to imagine how it looked.
You couldnât tell much, but knowing the Kims, it would be a statement piece for sure.
Finally, they stepped back, their hands leaving you.
A moment of silence settled. Then, Saera spoke. âPerfect,â she murmured, voice full of something unreadable. There was a pause before she called out, âGo get Omma.â
You shifted slightly, fingers twitching against the fabric of your dress. The anticipation was unbearable. Then, Saera's hands found your shoulders. She turned you gently, repositioning you to face where you thought the mirror should be. Her voice was softer this time, almost reverent, as if speaking too loudly would shatter the moment.
âYou can take off the mask now.â You hesitated for half a second before lifting the blindfold.
And when you finally saw yourself âyou almost didnât recognize the woman staring back at you. You exhaled, pressing your hands to your lap to steady yourself. It was really happening.
Your breath hitched.
The dress âyour dress was unlike anything you had ever seen before.
The bodice was sheer perfection, sculpted to your figure like it had been crafted just for you. Delicate illusion sleeves clung to your arms, barely there yet impossibly stunning, an extension of your own skin. Pearls and crystals cascaded across your collarbones like stars scattered across the midnight sky, shimmering with every breath, every movement. They trailed down your shoulders, tracing elegant patterns along your arms, wrapping around your wrists like fine jewellery.
The sweetheart neckline was graceful yet bold, accentuating your neckline with a regal softness. The sheer fabric at the back was adorned with the same delicate embellishments, creating the illusion that the pearls and crystals were floating over your skin. Then, there was the skirt.
The moment your gaze dropped; your breath left you entirely.
It was magnificent. Layers upon layers of the softest, most ethereal fabric pooled around you, forming an A-line silhouette that was both grand and weightless. The skirt was full, poofyâbut not overwhelming. It moved like liquid moonlight, each fold catching the light, each gentle sway exuding effortless grace.
And the train âlong and regal. It billowed behind you in a cloud of opulence, embroidered with subtle floral patterns that glimmered under the lights. Tiny, hand-sewn pearls dusted the hem like morning dew, a final, exquisite touch to an already breathtaking masterpiece.
You didnât even realize you had been holding your breath until you exhaled shakily.
âHoly shit.â Jangmi let out a dramatic gasp. âYou look beautiful!â
You swallowed thickly, your fingers brushing against the sleeves, the beading, the skirt âfeeling every inch of the craftsmanship, the details, the weight of history and tradition stitched into its seams.
This wasnât just a dress.
It was a crown âa crown fit for the Bangtanâs Madam and you were wearing it.
âI look⊠beautiful.â You say, utterly mesmerized with yourself. You twirl around, loving the way the train followed you.
âBeautiful is a small word for you, right now,â Saera smiles, looking proudly at you, âNamjoon is gonna be on his knees when he sees you, I swear.â
You giggle excitedly because, yeah âtoday, you could have any man on his knees praying for you, worshipping you.
âOmo!â You hear your mother-in-law, the Madamâs voice ring through the room. You grin and give her a bright smile, âOh my god! You look absolutely divine, my darling! Namu is a lucky boy!â
âThank you, ommo-nim!â You let her give you a hug, flushing when she holds both of your hands and tears up.
âI canât believe this day has finally come,â She sniffles, âYou have grown up so fast and so beautiful,â She lets go of your hand, wipes her tears, âI canât wait to watch you have a family and grow to be an amazing woman I know you can be!â
âShe is already an amazing woman, Omma,â Jangmi rolled her eyes at her mum, âOppaââ
âI know that, you brat.â Madam Kim shot a dirty look, though cracking a smile as Jangmi giggled at being called a brat. âI am just so excited to see what life holds for them in the future,â
"Are you about to give another lecture?" Saera asked, eyeing him with suspicion. "You did the same thing while putting on my veil."
"Do I seem like someone who lectures all the time?"
"Yes." Saera and Jangmi nodded in perfect unison; their expressions solemn. You giggle, and the Madam shot them a glare, and turned to you.
âDid you not wear your earrings yet, sweetie?â Madam Kim asked, suddenly noticing that your ears were bare. Your eyes widen slightly, as you make an apologetic face.
âAlmost forgot,â You smile abashedly, âLet me wear them right away.â
âLet me, honey.â Your mother-in-law said, thanking Saera as she brought forward your box of accessories.
You bent down a little to help her reach your ears, feeling oddly emotional at the care she was showing as she meticulously helped your put on your simple pearl and diamond earrings.
âAll that is left is a veil,â Madam spoke again, âBring the veil,â She instructed and Seara brought in a long veil.
The veil is soft between Madam Kimâs fingers, a delicate piece of lace, tulle and embroidery, its weight light in her hands but heavy with history. Generations of Bangtan brides have worn it before, each one stepping into a marriage bound not only by love but by duty, by power, by a world that does not forgive the weak.
As she lifts it, her movements are slow, reverent âlike sheâs not just placing fabric over your head, but bestowing something far greater; something weighty with meaning.
She adjusts the veil, stepping back to admire her work, before reaching for your hands. Her palms are warm, her grip firm but comforting. When she speaks, her voice is gentle, but there is steel beneath it.
âNari,â she begins, eyes searching your face, as if memorizing this moment, âMarriage is⊠a lot of things. Itâs love, yes, but love is not always enough. Love is easy in the beginning âwhen everything is new, when the world feels like it belongs to just the two of you. But love alone wonât carry you through the years.â
Her thumb brushes over your knuckles, her expression turning solemn.
âYou will have to be forgiving. Not just once, not just when itâs easy, but over and over again. Some days, you will wake up and feel like Namjoon doesnât understand you. Some days, you will feel like he is pulling away, or that the weight of his responsibilities is greater than the space he has left for you. And you⊠you will have to choose patience. You will have to remind yourself why you chose him in the first place.â
She squeezes your hands gently, but there is an unspoken warning in her words.
âYou are marrying into a world that demands everything from its men. You are marrying a man who carries the world on his shoulders. There will be days when he comes home with blood on his hands âsometimes his own, sometimes othersâ. There will be nights when he cannot tell you where he has been or what he has done. And there will be moments when you will wonder if the man standing beside you is the same one you vowed yourself to.â
You swallow hard, your heart beating fast.
âBut listen to me, my love,â Madam Kim continues, her voice unwavering. âYou must never let this life make you bitter. Do not let silence build walls between you. Do not let anger turn to resentment. Be his peace, not his war.â
Her words settle deep, pressing into the spaces of your heart that are already bracing for what is to come.
âThere will be fights,â She says, her mouth curling into a small, knowing smile. âOh, there will be fights. He will frustrate you. He will shut you out. He will think that by keeping you in the dark, he is protecting you. And you⊠you will want to break him for it.â She exhales, shaking her head slightly. âBut you must learn to forgive. To love him even when he makes it hard. To remind him, every single day, that he is not alone in this life. That he is not just a leader, or a soldier, or a man carrying the weight of an empire âhe is your husband.â
Your throat tightens, vision blurring for just a moment. Madam Kim reaches up, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, the same way a mother would.
âMost of all, Nari⊠never stop choosing each other. Even when itâs hard. Especially when itâs hard. Because at the end of the day, love is not just a feeling âit is a decision. And every day, you must wake up and decide that no matter what, you will not give up on each other.â
She blinks rapidly, dabbing at the corner of her eye with a quiet laugh. âAigoo, look at me, getting sentimental.â
You shake your head, blinking back your tears as you grip Madam Kimâs hands tighter. âNo⊠this means everything to me, ommo-nim.â
In that moment, she became everything your own mother never was, and for the first time, you truly felt that having her as your mother-in-law was a blessing.
Madam Kim smiles, pride and affection shining in her gaze. âThen hold on to it, my sweet girl.â
She steps back, smoothing out the veil one last time, before whispering, âNow, letâs go âthere is a husband waiting for you at the altar.â
And with that, she presses a final kiss to your forehead before stepping away, letting the moment settle between you like a promise âone sealed with love, with duty, and with the quiet strength that comes with choosing forever.
The door creaked open, slow and deliberate. The room was quiet except for the rustling of fabric as you adjusted the last details of your dress, smoothing out invisible creases, steadying the breath that had suddenly become shallow in your chest.
Then, you looked up. And there he was.
Your father stood frozen in the doorway, his broad shoulders squared out of habit, but there was something else in his stance âsomething almost hesitant. As if he were seeing you not just as you were now, but as every version of you he had ever known. The child he carried on his shoulders, the teenager who tested his patience, the woman who now stood before him, ready to step into a new life.
His eyes âthose same eyes that had always held quiet strength, softened in a way you had never seen before. His lips parted, as if to say something, but for a moment, words failed him. His gaze drifted over you, taking in every detail. The delicate embroidery of your gown, the way your hair fell in soft waves, the way your hands trembled slightly before you clasped them together.
A slow breath left him, almost unsteady. He blinked once, twice, before finally shaking his head with a quiet chuckle, as if in disbelief.
âYou lookâŠâ His voice was rough, edged with emotion he wouldnât fully reveal. He cleared his throat, trying again. âYou look beautiful, honey.â
A lump formed in your throat, unexpected but undeniable. Tears pooled in your eyes; your lips lightly trembling as you reached out to him.
He stepped closer, reaching out with careful hands âthe same hands that once guided you across the street, that held onto the back of your bicycle, that fixed broken things without ever being asked. He straightened the delicate jewellery at your wrist, smoothed a stray wisp of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering for just a second longer than necessary.
Then, he exhaled, his eyes meeting yours. âIâm so proud of you.â
It was soft, but it landed with the weight of a lifetime.
And in that moment, nothing else mattered. Not the nerves, not the anticipation, not the photographers clicking pictures, not the ceremony waiting beyond these walls. Just this. Just his first look.
The sleek black limo hummed softly as it cruised through the streets, the golden glow of streetlights flickering across the tinted windows. The weight of your dress pooled around you, heavy against your lap, matching the heaviness in your chest. Your fingers twisted together; knuckles pale with tension.
Beside you, your father shifted, then sighed. As if sensing the unease in your posture, he reached for your hand, covering it with his own. His grip was warm, firm âsteadying.
âYou look beautiful, sweetheart.â His voice was soft, laced with quiet pride.
You swallowed hard, turning to look at him. His face, lined with age and wisdom, carried something elseâsomething unspoken.
âAre you ready?â
A part of you wanted to shake your head. To tell him no, to beg him to take you back home, back to a time before all of this. But instead, you only exhaled. âI donât know.â
He gave your hand a squeeze, a small smile playing at his lips. âThatâs alright. No one ever really is.â
The words didnât comfort you.
You hesitated before speaking again. âI know this is what you wanted, butâŠâ Your throat tightened. âWhat if it doesnât work? What if Iââ
Your fatherâs grip on your hand tightened, just a fraction. âYouâll make it work.â
Your breath caught.
He turned to face you fully, his expression still gentle, but now edged with something more serious. âMarriage, in our world, is not something you walk away from, honey.â He stroked his thumb over your knuckles, as if bracing you for the weight of his words. âItâs a bond that holds âpromise. You donât get to undo it because itâs hard.â
You blinked, heart hammering.
âBut what ifââ
He shook his head. âYou can visit me whenever you want, my love. My door will always be open to you.â He paused, his voice dropping just slightly. âBut it wonât be the same. This is your home now. He is your home. Your place is with him.â
Something about the way he said it made your stomach twist. You turned away, staring out the window as the venue came into view, towering and grand, bathed in soft golden lights.
âWill he treat me well?â Your voice was quiet âsmall.
Your father was silent for a moment, and then, with careful certainty, he said, âHeâll treat you right.â
Not with love. Not with kindness. But right.
It wasnât what you wanted to hear.
The limo came to a slow, smooth stop.
Your father let out a slow breath, then cupped your face gently, his rough palm warm against your cheek. âYou are strong, sweetheart âstronger than you know. And no matter what happens, you will carry this with grace. Like the women before you.â
A lump rose in your throat. âI donât want to leave you.â
His gaze softened, but there was something final in the way he looked at you. âYouâll never lose me.â A pause. âBut you have to step forward now. Not back.â
The door opened.
With a deep breath, he held out his arm. And, with the weight of inevitability pressing down on you, you took it.
It was time.
The air in the private study is thick, with aged leather, old cigars, and unspoken truths. The weight of generations clings to the mahogany bookshelves, the heavy drapes, the very walls of this room that has witnessed countless decisions shaping the bangtan empire.
Namjoon stands in the centre, sharp in his wedding suit, but tense. His fists curl loosely at his sides, not in defiance, but in restraint, in control. Yet his father sees through him, as he always has.
Behind him, the rest of Bangtan stands in silence. Their presence is a quiet force in the room, the unbreakable brotherhood that has always defined them. They are dressed in their finest, but even in their polished shoes and pressed suits, thereâs an edge to them, the unspoken understanding that this is more than just a wedding day.
This is a transition âshift in the ground beneath them all.
âSit,â the Don commands.
Namjoon obeys, moving to sit on leather chair across from grand desk. The weight of this moment settles in his chest ânot just as a son, not just as an heir, but as a man on the precipice of something unknown.
The Don studies him carefully before speaking.
âYou are about to take a wife.â The words are simple, yet they carry the weight of a decree. âAnd with her, a new kind of responsibility. Not one of duty, not of obligation âbut of choice.â
Namjoon doesnât respond, but his father sees the slight shift in his jaw. The way he braces, prepared for the lecture on power, on control.
But the Don leans forward instead, his gaze sharp and piercing.
âI know what youâre thinking,â he says, voice low. âThat this is another contract. That this is another alliance to uphold, another role to fulfil.â He tilts his head slightly. âBut listen to me, and listen well, son. Marriage is not a transaction. It is a battlefield. And if you are not careful, if you treat it like anything less, you will lose before the war has even begun.â
Namjoon exhales slowly, pressing his tongue against the inside of his cheek. He has won wars. He has commanded men. But this feels like a different kind of fight altogether.
The Don studies him, then leans back in his chair, his fingers interlocking atop the desk.
âYou think you understand loyalty,â he says. âBut you donât ânot yet.â Namjoonâs spine stiffens slightly, but his father continues. âYou have been loyal to me. To this family. To this life. But now, you will learn a different kind of loyalty âthe kind that binds two people together in ways more unshakable than any blood oath or family name.â
A pause. Then, softer, not weaker, but more deliberate.
âShe will need to trust you, even when she fears you. She will need to rely on you, even when she resists. And youââ he exhales slowly, as if speaking from experience, âyou will have to let her in, even when everything in you tells you to keep her at a distance.â
Something tightens in Namjoonâs chest. The Don sees it. He lets the silence settle; lets it sit heavy between them before speaking again.
âThere will be nights when you are tired. When the weight of this life is too much. When you will want to bear it alone.â His voice dips, a warning, a plea. âDo not shut her out.â
Namjoon clenches his fist, his pulse steady, but his mind restless.
His fatherâs gaze sharpens. âA man who rules his home with fear is not a man. Power is not about control âit is about how much you are willing to give away, and still be unshaken.â
Namjoon swallows. He has never been afraid of power. Never doubted his ability to wield it. But this is something else entirely.
Then, his father speaks the words that shake him to his core.
âDo you love her?â Namjoon stills. His breath catches, just slightly, just enough for the Don to notice. For the first time in his life, Namjoon has no answer.
The Don exhales through his nose, as if he expected it. Then he nods, slow and measured.
âThen listen to me.â His voice is quieter now, heavier.
âLove is not something you wait to feel. It is something you build âbrick by brick, day by day. Love is deciding, every morning, that you will not walk away, that you will not be the kind of man who leaves his wife wondering where she stands.â
The words cut deeper than Namjoon expects.
His father has never spoken to him like this ânot as a Don, not as a leader, but as a husband who has fought this war himself. For the first time, Namjoon wonders what kind of man his father was on his own wedding day. If he was just as unsure, just as shaken.
The Don rises from his chair, walking around the desk until he is standing before Namjoon. Then, slowly, he reaches for the tie draped around his sonâs collar.
With steady hands, he begins to knot it.
âYou are my heir,â he murmurs, tightening the fabric, making it crisp and perfect. âYou are my blood. But today, you take on a new title.â
He lifts his gaze, meeting Namjoonâs eyesâthe same dark, piercing gaze that mirrors his own.
âHusband.â
Namjoonâs throat feels tight.
The Don fastens the last knot, then pins the Bangtan brooch to his lapel, securing it with a firm press of his fingers.
Then, the final touchâthe boutonniĂšre. A delicate bloom, carefully chosen, carefully placed. A symbol of unity.
The Don steps back, surveying his work.
âBe a good one,â he says. âBecause when the world tests you and it will, when the weight of this life bears down on you, she will be the one standing beside you.â
He turns then, letting his gaze sweep over the rest of the room. Over the six men standing in silence âwatching, listening, learning.
âAnd this lesson,â he says, voice firm, carrying across the space, âis for all of you.â
The Don turns to look at all the Elites standing around.
âAll of you have made me proud,â he says, his voice steady but carrying something deeper than authority. âYou have stood beside each other, as brothers, as comrades, as made-men, as my sons. You have built this empire with us. You have proven yourselves again and again.â He takes a breath, âBut one day, each of you will stand where he is standing now.â His eyes sharpen.
âAnd when that day comes, I do not want to repeat this conversation.â He says, âYou think you are only here to witness his moment, but you are wrong. This is a lesson each of you will need.â
Thereâs a faint smirk from Yoongi, the ghost of a smile from Jimin. But none of them dare to break the gravity of the moment.
âAs always, you will learn from each other. And I expect you to remember these words when your time comes.â His voice lowers, rough with something that feels almost like affection. âWhen you stand where Namjoon is standing now, I hope you will not have to ask yourselves the same questions. I hope you will already know the answers.â
He exhales, looking over them one last time.
âWhen you take a wife, you take on more than a title. You take on a life that is now tied to yours, irrevocably.â His gaze lingers on each of them. âDo not take it lightly.â
His gaze lingers âpiercing, searching.
âYou will owe her more than your name, more than your protection, Namjoon-ah. You will owe her certainty.â His words settle like a final decree, something absolute, something unshakable.
âDo not take it lightly. Love is not given. It is earned. It is protected. It is built.â
Then, almost like a farewell.
âWhen I am gone, and you have only each other, remember this.â
The weight of those words lingers.
The Don looks to Namjoon one last time, adjusting the lapel of his suit with deliberate care, as if imprinting this moment into the fabric itself.
The silence is deafening and then, softer but no less powerful:
âDo not be the kind of men who make their wives wonder where they stand.â Then, with finality, the Don gives Namjoonâs shoulder one last squeeze. âNow go,â he murmurs. âYour bride is waiting.â
Namjoon nods, and for the first time all night, he does not hesitate.
You stand beside your father in front of the towering double doors leading into the grand wedding hall, your fingers clutching the bouquet tightly in one hand while the other rests in the steady grip of his arm. A quiet tension hums in the air, your heart pounding against your ribs as the weight of the moment settles over you. Inside, Saera, Jangmi, and the rest of your loved ones are already seated, waiting. But beyond them, beyond the lavish floral arrangements and the golden glow of chandeliers, waits the most important figure of all âNamjoon. The next Don. The man who will soon be your husband.
The moment the doors swing open, a rush of music swells from the live orchestra, and for a fleeting second, anxiety grips you so tightly you nearly forget to breathe. The sea of faces, the hushed murmurs of admiration âit all feels too overwhelming. But then, your fatherâs reassuring hand squeezes yours, grounding you, and you inhale deeply before stepping forward.
You opted not to wear a veil, allowing everyone to see the quiet determination in your eyes, the soft curve of your lips as you take your first steps down the aisle. And then, as if drawn by an invisible thread, your gaze locks onto Namjoon.
He stands at the edge of the stairs leading to the altar, framed by the soft glow of lights, a vision of strength and elegance. His bespoke navy tuxedo fits him like a second skin, accentuating his broad shoulders, his presence both commanding and impossibly magnetic. His dark hair is styled to perfection, but itâs his expression that steals the breath from your lungs.
He isnât just watching you âheâs drinking you in. His lips curve into a small, knowing smile, one that holds a thousand unspoken promises. And he never looks away. Not once. Not as you glide down the aisle, not as your father gently places your hand into Namjoonâs extended palm, and certainly not as he grips it with a tenderness that makes your pulse stutter.
âTake care of my daughter, Namjoon.â Your dad places your hand on Namjoon's extended ones, smiling and pats his arm affectionately.
âI will, Abeo-ji.â Namjoon replies, making you father nod, turn to you and place a kiss on your head. Namjoonâs gaze flickers to him only for a moment before returning to you, his thumb brushing over your skin in a silent vow. âWith everything I have,â he murmurs, voice low, rich, and meant only for you.
âI love you, sweetie.â He says, eyes slightly teary.
âI love you too, Appa.â You say, your own voice is shaky at the range of emotions you were feeling. Namjoon lets you two have your moment before your father, gives him a smile and leaves the two of you at the end of the altar.
âShall we?â Namjoon whispers and you give him a nod, looking up to him. He leads you up the stairs to where the officiant stood, waiting for you.
Once you had taken your place beside Namjoon, the two of you exchanged shy smiles. The weight of the ceremony, the hundred eyes watching, should have made you uneasy âbut standing next to him, watching his dimpled grin peek through his usual calm exterior, you felt something unexpected âcomfort. A quiet part of you was genuinely happy to be here, to be marrying him.
The officiant took a knowing glance at your expressions before subtly signalling for the music to stop. The room hushed as he began to speak.
âMarriage is not merely the joining of two names, nor is it a bond woven by convenience. It is a sacred vow âone that will be tested by time, by fate, and by the trials that only life can bring. Today, in the presence of those who stand as witnesses, Kim Namjoon and Baek Nari vow to stand together ânot just in the brightness of prosperity, but in the shadows of uncertainty, in the storms that may try to tear them apart.
A husband and wife are not bound by love alone, but by loyalty, by trust, by the quiet strength of knowing that through all things, they will choose each other. This is not a promise of perfection, nor a pledge that all will be easy. It is the assurance that when the weight of the world grows heavy, these two hands will share the burden. That when darkness falls, this light will not be extinguished. That through betrayal and war, through grief and joy, through power and ruin âthis bond will endure.â
The officiant turned his gaze to Namjoon.
âKim Namjoon, do you take Baek Nari to be your wife âTo honour her as your equal, to shield her from harm, to walk beside her through the trials of fate, vowing to be her fortress in times of strife, her solace in moments of doubt, her greatest ally and fiercest protector and to hold no other above her, to cherish her with all that you are, for as long as breath remains in your body?â
Namjoon's fingers tightened slightly around yours, his voice low and steady.
âI do.â
The officiant turned to you.
âBaek Nari, do you take Kim Namjoon to be your husband âTo trust in his strength, to stand unwavering by his side, to be the fire that fuels him when the world demands more than he can give, vowing to guard his secrets as your own, to be his refuge when the world turns cold, to love him not just in days of peace, but in the storms that will surely come and to stand as his partner, his equal, his home âuntil time itself is no more?â
Your chest ached with the weight of the words, but there was no hesitation as you met Namjoonâs gaze and answered, âI do.â
The officiant nodded, solemn and knowing.
âThen, as a sign of this unbreakable vow, you will now exchange rings. These rings are not mere ornaments, but symbols of the promise you have made today. Metal, as strong as the bond you have forged. A circle, without end, as eternal as the commitment you have sworn.â
âNamjoon, please place the ring on the brideâs left hand and repeat after me,â The officiant says, waiting to read the next words.
Namjoon bends down to the ring-bearer Hwan, adorably giddy in his red suit and pulls at the ribbon keeping the ring in place. He takes the ring, pats the young boy on his chubby cheek and murmurs, âThanks, buddy.â
He stands up, straightening himself and he extends his palm out. You give him your hand, expecting another luxurious multi-diamond ring that will catch everyone's attention. You are almost lazy in the way you try to keep your expression neutral but your eyes widen, at the ring Namjoon is delicately sliding onto your finger.
You gape at your wedding band âa breathtaking eternity-style ring featuring a continuous row of vivid, deep-red rubies, each gemstone meticulously set to catch the light with every movement, delicate layers of brilliant, pave-set diamonds frame the sides, adding a touch of ethereal sparkle that enhances the fiery glow of the rubies. The combination of rich crimson and shimmering white creates a striking contrast, making the ring an exquisite symbol of passion and elegance; a ring worthy of the next Madam of Bangtan.
Your eyes widen and you look up to Namjoon, who only smiles back softly, dimples showing as your cheeks warm. Despite the doom you were facing, your heart soared, bursting with sudden adoration and affection.
Diamonds were the gemstones for Bangtan âno one really bothers to change or take into consideration what the bride wants but the fact that you had mentioned you preferred rubies in a possibly forgettable scenario and Namjoon chose to have your wedding band âsomething you'll wear for life, made to your liking meant a lot to you.
âWith this ring, I bind my soul to yours. It is a promise of devotion, a mark of my love, a claim that no force in this world can sever. From this day forth, you are mine, as I am yours.â Namjoon repeats, placing the ring on your finger. Bringing your ring-clad hand to his lips and pressing a loving kiss on it. Your heart bursts with affection, as you meet his eyes and he smiles.
He was smiling so much today and it wasn't helping your sanity.
âAnd now, the Bride, please place the ring on the groomâs left hand and repeat after me,â You bend down to Hwan, untying the ribbon to take the ring from the little pillow he was holding, grinning at you.
âYou did great, boo-boo.â You whisper, pressing a little kiss to his cheek as the little boy loudly giggled, making the audience laugh at his cuteness. You can't help but let out a giggle of your own, before he runs away to Saera sitting next to the Kims. The Don lifted him up to place him on his lap and the Madam ruffled his hair and kissed his head.
You cast a glance at his matching ring, taking in itâs much simpler details âa striking yet understated piece, crafted from rich, gleaming metal. Its smooth, polished surface catches the light, the deep crimson rubies set within it glowing like embers. Bold yet refined, the ring is a perfect balance of tradition and individuality, a perfect balance of bangtan and you, and a symbol of unwavering commitment towards you two.
You take Namjoon's hands in yours, steady despite the whirlwind of emotions rushing through you. Carefully, you slide the wedding band onto his finger. As your fingers linger over his, you lift your gaze, meeting the steady warmth of your husband's eyes. With a quiet breath, you speak, your voice soft but certain.
âWith this ring, I give you my heart, my trust, my vow. It is a symbol of all that I am, and all that I will ever be. From this day forth, you are mine, as I am yours.â
Namjoon extends a hand toward you, and without hesitation, you take it, fingers slipping naturally into his. Then, he offers the other, and you accept it just as easily, your gaze locking onto his. Thereâs curiosity in your eyes âperhaps even more admiration than one should have in a Bangtan marriage. You give him a soft smile as his thumbs brush gently over your fingers, his expression distant, as if lost in thought.
The officiantâs voice rings through the quiet moment, steady and heartfelt.
âTo make your relationship work will take love, love that grows stronger with time, nurtured by the little moments you share. It will take trust, the kind that reassures you that, in your hearts, you always want what is best for each other. It will take dedication, to stay open, to learn, to grow together. It will take loyalty, to walk forward hand in hand, even without knowing what the future holds. And most of all, it will take commitment, to honour the promise you both make today.â
You glance at Namjoon, his deep, thoughtful eyes mirroring yours. With a small but resolute smile, you silently promise to the both of you that you will do just that. You will try your very best to make this marriage a happy one.
âThen, by the power vested in me, it is my honour and privilege to declare you husband and wife. You have entered this union with open hearts, and you will walk from here bound as one. May your love be fierce, your loyalty unshaken, and your journey together unbreakable. You may now seal this union with a kiss.â
The officiant steps aside, allowing the photographers to capture the moment in its perfect intimacy. As if drawn by instinct, you tilt your head slightly, shifting closer. Namjoon follows suit, his large, calloused hands gently cradling your cheeks, his touch both firm and tender.
âThank you for marrying me,â He murmurs, his voice so soft you almost miss it before he presses his lips to yours.
The kiss is warm, featherlight, yet undeniably real. Your hands find their place on his shoulder and chest, grounding yourself in the moment. His lips feel like heaven against yours, but the moment ends far too quickly, and you hate to admit, even to yourself, that youâre just a little disappointed when he pulls away.
The officiantâs voice carries through the air once more.
âI am so pleased to present the newlyweds âKim Namjoon and Baek Nari!â
Hand in hand, fingers intertwined, the two of you turned toward Bangtan and the gathered crowd. The piano tune played, and you felt yourself relax and smiled at the audience, watching your loved ones smile back at you.
The weight of the moment settled between you, unspoken but understood. Whatever came next, you would face it together.
Park Youra was a pianist of the otherworld, and with a face like hers, you wondered why she even stuck to performing at shady events.
You had often wondered how she had gotten tangled up with Bangtan. The Madamâs soft spot for her was no secret, but there had to be more. Hoseok had once offhandedly mentioned that she was repaying a loan, though that explanation had never sat right with you. Bangtan didnât deal in simple debts.
And it seemed almost absurd âwas this really their version of repayment? Performing at weddings and elite clubs, her delicate fingers dancing across the keys while dangerous men watched?
You didnât have time to dwell on it. The speeches began.
The Elites spoke first, their words polished and deliberate âhonour, loyalty, prosperity. They spoke of the traditions that bound Bangtan, of the unshakable foundations that had allowed them to thrive. And then they welcomed you, weaving you into their world with carefully chosen words and polite applause.
Then, the Don took the floor. His presence alone commanded attention, his voice smooth but lined with steel.
âToday, we do not just celebrate a union âwe fortify an alliance. We do not just witness vows âwe reaffirm our loyalty. Family is not merely blood; it is built in trust, in sacrifice, in the oaths we take and keep.â His gaze swept over the room, measured, assessing. A silent warning wrapped in a blessing.
Finally, your father stepped forward. The room hushed. His very presence was a force, and when he spoke, the words were edged with something heavier than sentiment.
âMarriage in our world is not just love âit is duty. It is the thread that weaves empires together. And so, to the newlyweds, may your bond be as strong as the family you now stand for. May your loyalty be unwavering, and your love a fortress.â
The room erupted in applause, but you felt the heaviness in the air.
These werenât just well-wishes.
They felt more like warnings.
The applause was thunderous, but beneath the sound, you felt it. The weight of expectation. The unspoken conditions laced into every syllable. These werenât just blessings. They were reminders.
And then, the music changed.
Your father turned to you with an expression that was both soft and knowing. âCome,â he said, offering his hand. âLet me have this dance.â
You hesitated for only a second before slipping your hand into his. The moment you stepped onto the floor, the melody shifted into something sweeter, gentler âa song from your childhood. His grip was steady as he led you into the dance, his movements guiding, careful. A father with his daughter. A moment meant to be tender, a farewell to the past before he placed you into your future.
âYou remind me of your mother,â he murmured as he turned you. You would have felt insulted, if not for the very rare look of tenderness in his eyes at your motherâs name. âFierce. Stubborn.â A pause. âAfraid.â Your breath hitched, but you said nothing. He sighed, squeezing your hand. âYou donât have to love him. He doesnât have to love you ânot yet at least. But you do have to trust him and I hope you never have to fear him.â The song reached its final notes, and your father pulled back slightly, his gaze flickering to the man waiting at the edge of the floor. Namjoon.
âHe will be a great Don, my darling and he will do right by you,â Your father twirls you around, âand all I ask is for you to stay by his side and be the Madam he requires.â You nod, eyes teary at the overwhelming emotions you feel. He cups your cheeks, presses a kiss to your forehead, and looks at Namjoon who was walking towards you.
Your stomach twisted.
Your father exhaled slowly, almost reluctantly, before taking your hand and placing it into Namjoonâs waiting palm. His warmth spread instantly, engulfing yours. The moment your fingers touched, something shifted. Your father stepped back, nodding once to Namjoon before walking away.
Namjoon didnât move at first. He just looked at you. The air between you felt thick, charged âsomething unspoken lingering between your breaths.
Then, finally, he spoke, his voice low. âMay I?â
You swallowed, your fingers tightening slightly around his before nodding.
He pulled you in, one hand settling at your waist, the other cradling your hand in his. His touch was gentle but firm, his presence commanding without force. The music played on, slow and melodic, as he guided you across the floor.
âYouâre nervous,â He observed quietly.
You exhaled softly, forcing yourself to relax into his hold. âWouldnât you be?â
A small smirk ghosted across his lips. âIâd be more nervous if you werenât already shaking.â
You tried to steady your breathing, lifting your chin slightly. âI have been handed to a man who commands half the underworld tonight,â you murmured. âForgive me for being a little unsettled.â
Namjoonâs grip on your waist tightened ever so slightly. âYou donât have to be afraid of me.â
Something about the way he said it made your pulse stutter. The way he held you, the way he moved, it was controlled, patient. As if he knew exactly how to ease you into his rhythm and that is exactly what you did. The world around you faded, the murmurs of the crowd becoming nothing more than background noise. It was just the two of you, moving in sync, the air between you thick with something unnamed.
You looked up at him then, into those dark, steady eyes. And for a moment âjust a fleeting moment, you almost believed him.
The music ended. The applause came and loud hoots and cheers, washing over you in a wave.
But you barely heard it.
Dinner was nothing short of opulent, a feast fit for kings and conquerors alike. Platter after platter of rich, decadent food was placed before you, each dish more extravagant than the last.
Bowls of steaming janchi guksu arrived first, the delicate wheat noodles swimming in a golden broth, garnished with thinly sliced eggs, scallions, and strips of seaweed. A dish meant for celebration, for longevity âfitting for a night like this.
Then came the meats. Galbi, beef short ribs, glistening under the dim light, their surface caramelized from hours of marination in sweet soy and garlic, grilled to perfection. Slabs of samgyeopsal, thick pork belly, sizzled as they were seared at the table, wrapped in crisp lettuce with a dollop of ssamjang, the spicy bean paste adding a kick of heat.
Seafood, still tasting of the sea, rested atop beds of crushed ice âfresh hwe, thin slices of raw fish, paired with vinegared chojang dipping sauce. Steamed abalone, soft and briny, arrived in ceramic plates, while buttery grilled eel was basted in a dark, glossy glaze.
Rice, a staple, was anything but simple tonight. Bori-bap, nutty barley rice, was served alongside small dishes of jangajji âpickled vegetables bursting with sharp, fermented flavours. There was also yubuchobap, seasoned rice wrapped in thin pockets of fried tofu, slightly sweet and tangy.
And of course, no banquet was complete without jeon, crispy golden pancakes, stacked high. There were seafood pajeon, brimming with green onions and squid, and kimchi jeon, their edges perfectly crisp, the tangy fermented heat cutting through the richness of the other dishes.
For dessert, an array of tteok âchewy rice cakes, dusted with powdered soybean flour, filled with sweet red bean or crushed nuts âsat alongside elegant hwajeon, honeyed flower pancakes adorned with delicate petals. Small golden cups of sikhye, a sweet rice punch, were served to cleanse the palate, cooling and subtly spiced with ginger.
The wine poured endlessly, but not just the deep reds of European vineyards âtonight, there was also baekseju, a rice wine infused with medicinal herbs, and makgeolli, the milky, slightly effervescent drink served in rustic brass bowls.
Namjoon sat beside you, his presence an unwavering force, his fingers grazing yours when he reached for his glass. The warmth of the room, the richness of the food, the weight of the evening âit all pressed around you, thick with something unspoken. Neither of you spoke much, but the silence between you wasnât uncomfortable.
Just new, maybe even exciting.
The wedding cake was nothing short of a masterpiece âan opulent creation that towered over the banquet table, grand enough to feed all of Bangtan and then some. It stood tall, at least five tiers, each one adorned with handcrafted sugar flowers, intricate lace-like piping, and delicate gold leaf detailing that shimmered under the warm glow of the chandeliers.
Saera had outdone herself. The floral arrangements cascading down the tiers were so realistic they could have been mistaken for fresh blooms âpeonies, roses, and magnolias in soft ivory and blush, interwoven with delicate strands of edible pearls. At the very top, a sleek, minimalist topper bore the initials of the newlyweds, cast in fine gold script.
When it was time to cut the cake, the room hushed. The knife, its handle wrapped in a silk ribbon, was placed in your hands first. Namjoonâs hand covered yours a moment later âfirm, steady. Together, you sliced through the bottom tier, the blade gliding effortlessly through the velvety layers beneath the pristine fondant. A rich aroma filled the air as the first slice was lifted âa decadent combination of vanilla bean sponge, honey-soaked chestnut filling, and white chocolate ganache.
The first bite was tradition.
Namjoon turned to you, holding a piece between his fingers, the slightest smirk tugging at his lips. âOpen,â he murmured, his voice just for you.
You hesitated for a fraction of a second before parting your lips, letting him place the sweet morsel against your tongue. The flavours melted together âsoft, airy cake, the warmth of chestnut, the silkiness of ganache. Your turn. You took a piece and held it up to his lips. He didnât hesitate. His gaze met yours as he bit down, something unreadable flickering in his dark eyes before he swallowed.
Polite applause rippled through the room, and then the servers took over, carefully slicing and distributing the cake to the guests. Plates of the masterpiece were carried across the grand hall, each portion accompanied by a drizzle of honey or a scattering of crushed nuts, the perfect final indulgence after the lavish feast.
The wine flowed endlessly, deep red and velvety, tasting like warmth and fire on your tongue. Every sip burned just enough to remind you of the reality settling around you.
That this was your wedding night.
That you belonged to Bangtan now.
That you belonged to him.
Namjoon sat beside you, his presence an unwavering force, a shadow that had merged with yours the moment your father placed your hand in his. He didn't say much, but he didnât need to. The weight of him beside you, the subtle brush of his fingers against yours when he reached for his glass, the way his gaze flickered toward you every time someone made a toast in your honour âit was enough to keep you aware, too aware.
The night stretched on, thick with laughter, murmured conversations, the low hum of celebration. Around you, the men drank, their voices rich with satisfaction, their hands clinking glasses filled to the brim with aged liquor. Women draped in silk and diamonds moved gracefully between them, offering flirtations and hushed words into waiting ears.
But none of it compared to him.
Namjoon wasnât like the others. He didnât revel in the festivities the way some of them did. He sat composed, his expression unreadable, his fingers tapping lazily against the stem of his wine glass. Observing. Calculating. Even now, surrounded by the warmth of victory, he remained untouchable.
And yet âhe was yours.
The thought alone sent something shivering through you. Not fear. Something else. Something new.
Even as conversations resumed, the laughter and clinking of glasses filling the space, your mind lingered on that fleeting exchange âthe briefest moment of sweetness in a night built on duty. The night stretched on, thick with laughter, murmured conversations, the low hum of celebration. But eventually, it was time.
And Bangtan did not let you leave quietly.
The farewell was grand, dramatic in a way that only Bangtan could make it.
The made-men grouped in two making a pathway for you two to walk, their suits crisp, their expressions joyous, their eyes happy. It was an honour âthis parting. A tradition meant to seal the night, to acknowledge the weight of what had been done.
The moment you stepped forward, the sky erupted.
Fireworks exploded above, bursts of gold and crimson shattering the darkness, illuminating the night in violent beauty. The light painted fleeting shadows across the faces of the men who had now become your family, the ones who would kill for you, die for you âif Namjoon willed it.
Then, Namjoon took your hand.
Not forcefully, but deliberately. A silent reassurance. A quiet claim.
His fingers wrapped around yours, firm and unwavering. His grip was warm, steady, grounding. He did not pull, did not drag. He simply held, possessed, as if this was the most natural thing in the world.
And you let him.
You walked together, step by step, down the aisle of men who had fought wars in the shadows, who had bled and killed for the empire they now welcomed you into. And thenâ
The gunfire began.
The deafening crack of bullets shattered the air, a chorus of steel and smoke. Shot after shot rang out, fired not at you, but at the sky, a salute, a tribute, a blessing wrapped in danger. It was tradition âBangtanâs way of sending you off, their way of ensuring that the world knew this was not just a marriage. This was a union of power.
The vibrations of the gunshots thrummed through your bones, your heart pounding against your ribs as the scent of gunpowder and burning embers filled the night. The sound should have startled you. It should have felt ominous.
Instead, it felt like a beginning.
Somewhere among the noise, someone called outâ âFor good luck.â
Your grip on Namjoonâs hand tightened involuntarily. You didnât know if it was from uncertainty or something else. Something raw, something electric.
He turned his head slightly, catching the motion. His thumb grazed over the back of your hand in response, a barely-there movement, an offering of comfort. Or perhaps a reminder. That you werenât walking away from something tonight.
You were walking into it.
The doors of the sleek black car stood open at the end of the procession, waiting. The very last step before you left behind the version of yourself that had existed before.
You hesitated âjust for a second.
Namjoon noticed.
He turned toward you, his free hand reaching out to brush the stray strands of hair from your face. It was an oddly tender gesture for a man like him, for a man who carried power like a second skin. But then, his fingers trailed downward, past your jaw, lingering for a second longer than necessary at the pulse of your throat. His touch was light, but deliberate. Testing.
"Ready?" he asked, voice low, just for you.
You werenât sure if he was asking about the car.
Or about him.
You swallowed, the weight of his hand still ghosting over your skin, the sound of gunfire still ringing in the distance. The air smelled of burnt powder and champagne, of roses crushed beneath hurried footsteps.
Were you ready?
It didnât matter.
The door closed behind you. The car pulled away. And your new life began.
ânext chapter âą chapter six
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You Never Walk Alone | BTS
âpairing âą werewolf!bts Ă you (fem!reader)
âchapter three âą embracing a new dawn: wolves of bangtan and yoo ahmi
âcollection âą ot7!bts Ă reader stories
âstory masterlist âą you never walk alone
âprevious chapter âą chapter two
âgenre âą werewolf au Ă mate au Ă supernatural au Ă strangers to lovers au ( angst Ă romance Ă fluff Ă supernatural )
ârating âą mature-rated
âwordcount âą 9 k
âwarnings âą vampires exist. mentions of blood. consumption of blood and human remains. human body mutilation. badly written action scenes. death of loved ones. talks about insanity, cults, mass-psychosis and serial killings. the reader is found extremely hurt and almost dead. bites are a constant mention.
âauthorâs forenote âą hi everyone! I have edited the last chapters a bit because I realised there were a few things I needed to add and remove to help better understand the flow of the chapter. So, please give that a read before reading through this. I am trash, so I am back after a year, please forgive me, and enjoy the chapter ahead!
âchapter summary âą you meet jin's brothers and we find out partly how you ended up in the cult.
âJin, do youââ You hesitate, your fingers fidgeting with the edge of the blanket. âDo you mind staying back for a bit?â
His brow furrows in concern. âIs anything wrong, Ahmi-yah?â
âNo-no,â You rush to say, shaking your head. âI just⊠I feel a little bored.â The admission feels small, almost selfish. Youâre certain Jin has better things to do than entertain a heartbroken, injured girl whoâs desperate for distraction.
Jin laughs softly, the sound warm and comforting. âOf course, Iâll stay. What do you want to do? Though,â he adds with mock seriousness, âIâm not sure screentime is advisable for you right now.â
âI mean, anything is fine.â You shrug. âYou could just⊠talk. About yourself, about the people outside this room, about your world.â
His lips quirk into a small smile. âMy world, huh? Well, I live here with my six younger brothers.â As if summoned, a loud crash echoes from somewhere down the hall, followed by a cacophony of shouts âhalf in agony, half in laughter. Jin rolls his eyes so exaggeratedly you canât help but grin. âThatâs them, by the way. The rascals causing the chaos.â
âTell me about them?â you ask, your curiosity piqued. You had heard all these loud noises the past few weeks, but you knew nothing about the people causing them.
âLetâs start with Yoongi,â he begins. âHeâs the second oldest.â
âDr. Min?â you ask, eyes widening in recognition. âI didnât know you were brothers.â
âYep,â Jin confirms with a wink. âThough itâs hard to connect my worldwide handsome face to his old-man energy.â
You laugh, shaking your head at his antics. âHe doesnât seem like an old man to me.â
âThatâs because you havenât seen him groaning about his back after sitting at the piano for two hours,â Jin retorts. âSpeaking of which, heâs incredible at playing. You should hear him sometime.â
âIâve always wanted to learn the piano,â you admit wistfully.
Jin brightens. âOnce youâre better, Iâll ask Yoongi to teach you.â
âReally? Youâd do that for me?â You look at him, startled by the consistent kindness heâs shown you since you arrived.
âOf course. Anything for you.â His gaze softens, and you feel warmth bloom in your chest.
He continues. âThen thereâs Hoseok. Youâve probably heard him âheâs loud, very loud.â As if on cue, another booming cheer erupts from the hallway, and you hear someone yell, âDance-off time!â
Jin sighs dramatically. âThatâs him being quiet, mind you.â
You giggle at his expression, and Jin gives you a playful grin before moving on. âNamjoon is the one recommending books to you.â He gestures toward the stack on your bedside table. He had asked you two weeks into your bed rest if youâd like reading and brought some really varied book recommendation stacks. âHe says you have great taste and even invited you to his book club.â
Your eyes light up. âOh, Iâd love to join!â
âHeâll be thrilled,â Jin chuckles. âItâs just him for now, so heâs been looking for new members.â
âWhat about the others?â You ask, eager to hear more.
âAh, letâs see. Thereâs Jimin. Heâs sweet but also loves teasing everyone. If you ever need someone to cheer you up, heâs your guy. Heâs great at dancing, too.â
âAnd?â you ask.
âTaehyung,â Jin says fondly, âTaehyung is an artist at heart. Heâs a bit eccentric but in the best way. Loves photography, painting and collecting random things that somehow make sense to him.â
âSounds like fun,â You muse.
âDefinitely. And lastly, Jungkook, the youngest. Heâs insanely talented but also a bit of a troublemaker. Always trying to outdo himself and everyone else.â You smile, imagining the lively household Jin is describing.
You grew up alone, with only your mother and dad to call as family, so to hear about a large group of siblings felt so interesting. You wondered how they might be, seeing as Jin was such a kind and beautiful man.
âHow about this?â Jin suggests. âJoin us for breakfast tomorrow. It is about time you left this room,â You still looked unsure, so he added, âIâll make all you two types of bulgogi and at least ten side dishes.â
âYou donât have toââ You start, but Jin cuts you off with a wave of his hand.
âNonsense. Itâs settled. Iâll see you at breakfast.â He grins, âOr is it brunch?â
You woke the next morning stuck between dread and anticipation, the two emotions tangling so tightly in your chest you couldnât tell where one ended and the other began.
You moved slowly, deliberately, as if care itself could steady you. You brushed your teeth, washed your face, took a long shower, letting the familiar scent of soap bloom in steam. You put on the lotion Jin had gotten you, applying skincare with gentle precision. You had washed your hair, dried it, combed it through until it fell obediently over your shoulders. You redressed the wounds carefully, especially the ones at your neck which were still tender and half-healed. The fabric of the pants and sweatshirt Jin had washed and left for you yesterday felt soft in the gentlest way.
You sat in the lounge chair by the window, hands folded in your lap, staring at nothing. Minutes passed and with each one your pulse climbed a little higher. The silence wasnât comforting at all, instead it was amplifying everything. You exhaled sharply and you stood up, smoothing your sweatshirt as if preparing for battle. One last look in the mirror, not to admire, but to check. You slipped your feet into the ridiculously soft slippers, their comfort almost comical against the storm in your stomach.
You swung the door open. The hallway was empty. And for a split second, a strange stillness washed over you, not relief, not fear. Just the hollow, echoing awareness that you were stepping into something new without anyone escorting you there. You stepped out, exhaling the breath you held.
It had been nearly two months since youâd arrived at the packhouse, and this was the first time youâd stepped beyond the safety of the room. You knew logically that you were safe here, no shackles, no locked doors, no cold stone walls, no shadows waiting to swallow you whole, and yet, something restless lived beneath your skin.
The hallway was wide and sunlit, the wooden floors warm under your feet. Built-in shelves lined the walls, holding framed photographs, small sculptures, and pieces of artwork collected over the years. It felt lived in. One particular painting caught your eye; an artwork washed in deep blues and silvers, almost lunar. You slowed, drawn to it, taking a hesitant step closer.
A door opened by you. âItâs bulgogi time, everyone!â a voice called out in an exaggerated sing-song tone. You nearly leapt out of your skin. Your shoulders hunched instinctively, breath catching as you spun around. Your face registered fear even before your mind did, not true fear but something sharp and electric. Your heart was racing, hammering against your ribs.
âOhâshit,â the boy breathed. He approached quickly but carefully, dropping into a crouch a few feet away from you, hands raised slightly as if approaching a startled animal. âHey, Iâm sorry,â he said, voice softening instantly. âI didnât mean to scare you.â
You lifted your head. And promptly forgot how to think. He was shirtless. For a full second, your brain went completely blank. You blinked. Once. Twice. Your eyes lifted to meet his, and then, traitorously, dropped back down again.
His eyes widened. âMy badâagain,â he said quickly, crossing his arms over his torso in an almost comically modest gesture. It reminded you absurdly of a vintage film heroine clutching a towel. âIâm not used to there being a lady in the house.â He gave a sheepish little giggle that died almost immediately when he saw your expression.
âAre you okay?â he asked, concern replacing embarrassment. âI really didnât mean to scare you.â
You realized then that you hadnât said anything. That silence had become your default again. âYeah,â you managed finally. Your voice felt rusted from disuse. âIâm okay.â
He frowned slightly. âI mustâve really startled you,â he murmured. âYour heartâs still going a mile a minute.â
Your eyes snapped back to him. You stared. He stared back, patient, observant, waiting. Youâd gone quiet again, and before panic could bloom fully in your chest, another voice drifted down the hall.
âHobi-yah.â Yoongi stepped into view, exasperation lacing his tone. âDid we not tell you to keep your decibels under control for at least the first week Ahmi is out of her room?â
âAhâhyung!â Hobi grimaced. âI didnât realize she was outââ
âAnd,â Jin added, appearing behind Yoongi like a second wave of authority, ââclothes are not optional.â
He fixed Hoseok with a pointed look. âRespect the feminine presence in this house, Hoseok-ah. Wear a damn shirt.â
Hoseok lifted his hands in surrender. âOkay, okay. I get it. Iâm the villain.â He shot you one last apologetic glance. âSorry again.â Then he retreated into his room, the door clicking shut far more gently this time.
Silence settled again but softer now. Yoongiâs eyes flicked over you briefly, assessing, before his voice dropped a few degrees. âYou alright?â You nod, straightening up to your height, and looking at Jin again.
Jin, despite his scolding moments earlier, looked openly concerned. âI am okay,â you tell him, wanting to ease his worry. âReally,â You press. The hallway no longer felt quite as overwhelming, when he smiled softly at you.
âCâmon,â Jin said gently, his voice softer now. His hand settled at the base of your back, not pushing, not firm, just there. You let yourself be steered out of the hallway, down the wide staircase, your fingers brushing the smooth wooden railing as you descended. The space below opened up gradually, and when you reached the last step, it felt less like entering a room and more like stepping into air.
The living, dining, and kitchen area flowed together in one expansive sweep. There were no harsh divides, just subtle shifts in furniture and lighting that suggested purpose without confinement.
Floor-to-ceiling windows stretched across the back wall, flooding the entire space with daylight. Warm golden light that spilled across wood floors and stone accents. It reflected softly off glass surfaces and metal fixtures, making everything feel alive. Your eyes squinted slightly. It was brighter than what youâd grown used to.
The living area sat slightly sunken, almost like a modern conversation pit. Two massive sectionals faced each other across a low stone table, with thick woven rugs anchoring the space. Throws were carelessly draped over armrests. A wide hearth of pale stone framed a modern fireplace, currently unlit but commanding attention nonetheless.
To the right, another seating area curved toward the windows, armchairs angled toward the view, as if meant for late-night talks or early morning coffee. A long bookshelf ran along one wall, filled with an odd mix of hardbound novels, vinyl records, framed photographs, and small sculptures that hinted at shared history. Beyond the living space stood the dining area.
The table was solid wood, long, heavy, capable of seating at least fourteen comfortably. The chairs didnât match perfectly, but they complemented each other, as if added over time and one side held a long, solid wood bench. Above it hung three pendant lights, matte black with warm interiors that probably cast a golden glow at night. You could almost imagine it.
âPick any seat,â Jin said warmly. âThe boys arenât territorial over the chairs.â
âIâll sit beside you,â you replied quietly. âTell me which one is yours.â
âI always take the bench,â he grinned. âBut Iâll sit next to you even if you choose the prettiest, most comfortable throne in the middle.â
âThe middle chairs are dangerously cushy,â Yoongi called on his way to the kitchen. âThe boys used to fight over them. There were casualties.â
âTranslated,â Jin said dryly, âthe younger brats claimed the chairs, and we were exiled to the bench.â Yoongi snorted.
âBut today,â Jin continued, turning to you with a soft smile, âAhmi is the guest of honour. The brats can take the bench.â
âI donât want toââ you began quickly.
Jin gently shushed you. âTheir well-fed butts can survive one meal on hardwood.â
You nodded, though a small knot formed in your stomach. You didnât want to disrupt their rhythm. Didnât want to feel like an intrusion. Youâd already startled Hoseok upstairs. You probably kept upsetting their balance just by existing in it. Jin pulled out one of the centre chairs for you, the very one Yoongi had called dangerously cushy and you slipped into it carefully. The seat was softer than expected. You folded your hands neatly in your lap, back straight, posture almost formal.
You felt like you were being introduced to royalty instead of family.
âGood morning, everyone~â You stiffened at the familiar, jovial voice before you saw him. Hoseok appeared at the top of the stairs, this time very much clothed, followed by a taller man with broad shoulders and thoughtful eyes. You rose instinctively to your feet.
âYouâve met Hobi, of course,â Jin said lightly. Hoseok offered you a small, apologetic grin.
âI am really sorry, Ahmi. I genuinely didnât hear you earlier, and I promise I wasnât trying to give you a heart attack.â He bowed deeply.
You bowed immediately in return. âNo, no, Hoseok-ssi. Iâve just been⊠jumpy lately. It wasnât your fault at all.â
âCall me Hobi,â he said, laughing softly. âHoseok-ssi makes me sound like I pay taxes and complain about back pain. I am not fifty, I swear.â
Before you could respond, Yoongi called out, âHoseok-ah. Help me carry these to the table.â
Hobi gave you a playful salute. âDuty calls,â he declared, then bounced toward the kitchen.
The taller man stepped forward. âIâm Namjoon,â he said, offering his hand. You hesitated just a fraction before taking it. His handshake was firm but gentle.
âYou have excellent taste in books,â he added, smiling in a way that felt both amused and sincere.
Your lips curved before you could stop them. âThe book club president,â you teased back softly. âYou have a beautiful collection.â
âBut apparently my taste is questionable,â Namjoon gave a definitely uncharacteristic pout of misfortune.
You turned sharply to glare at Jin. âYou told him?â You said, the accusatory tone making Namjoon laugh.
âI presented it as constructive feedback,â Jin defended, before he could continue, you turned back to Namjoon quickly. Your face warmed in embarrassment.
âI didnât mean it like that! I just meant âyour collection is very far-reaching. You read authors from everywhere. Different styles, different eras, different languages. Itâs just⊠hard to pinpoint what is that you exactly enjoy.â You cringed inwardly. That hadnât sounded better.
Namjoon blinked at you once and then laughed. âI was teasing you,â he said easily. âYouâre right. I read anything that keeps my brain occupied. Philosophy, poetry, sci-fi, political essays, obscure Lithuanian novelsââ
âThat might explain the chaos he carries around,â Jin muttered, rolling his eyes.
âExactly,â Namjoon nodded solemnly. âMy shelves are organized. My taste is not.â A small laugh slipped out of you before you could stop it.
âAww,â a new voice chimed from the staircase, warm and honeyed, ââshe has a cute laugh, hyung.â
You turned to the voice. A shorter beautiful man with bright blonde hair was descending the stairs with effortless grace, sunlight catching in the soft waves of it. Behind him followed someone taller, broader, quieter, his steps heavier, more measured.
âJiminâs a bit of a flirt, Ahmi,â Yoongi informed you flatly as he set a bowl of rice onto the table. âAnd Jungkook needs time to thaw before you see his true colours.â
âI am not a flirt,â Jimin shot back immediately, scandalized. He reached the bottom step and walked straight toward you like you were the only fixed point in the room. You froze. He stopped just a breath away, his eyes bright and openly curious. There was something feline about his movements that were fluid and deliberate.
Before you could prepare yourself, he gently took your hand. He bent slightly and pressed the faintest kiss against your knuckles, his lips barely grazing your skin.
âIâm Park Jimin,â he said softly, looking up at you through his lashes with exaggerated sweetness. âBut since youâre so beautiful âyou can call me Oppa.â Your brain short-circuited. The room seemed louder and brighter.
âUmâŠâ You blinked at him, still very aware of the warmth of his hand around yours. âNo?â
There was a split second of silence and then Jin burst into his signature, windshield-wiper laugh. âGood girl, Ahmi!â
Yoongi snorted. Hoseok clutched his chest dramatically. âRejected on first attempt. Thatâs rough.â
Namjoon hid a smile behind his glass of water. Jimin, meanwhile, gasped like youâd mortally wounded him. âYou didnât even hesitate.â Jimin placed a hand over his heart. âI was being welcoming.â
âYou were being shameless,â Yoongi corrected.
Jimin ignored him entirely, turning back to you with a softer expression, less theatrics and more sincerity. âIâm really glad youâre here now,â he said quietly. âWeâve all been waiting.â
That softened something in your chest. âIââ Your voice almost caught, but you steadied it. âThank you.â
Behind Jimin, the taller man gave you a small nod. You nod back, instinctively. He didnât step forward immediately, just gave you space. His eyes flickered over you briefly before turning them away when your eyes met.
âHeâs shy at first,â Jimin stage-whispered very loudly, making Jungkook shoot him a look. âIâm not shy.â
âYou didnât even say hello.â Jungkook hesitated. ââŠHi,â he said, directing it to you properly this time. But his eyes flickered away right as they met yours once again. You now could see the blush creeping up his face.
You offered him a small, polite smile. âHello.â
Jimin leaned slightly toward you again, lowering his voice conspiratorially. âDonât let them bully you. If anyone gives you trouble, you can sit next to me.â
âBut You are the trouble,â Jungkook deadpanned.
âI am charm,â Jimin corrected, flipping his hair.
âYou are delusion,â Yoongi added dryly. Jimin clicked his tongue but finally released your hand, though not before giving it one last, deliberate squeeze.
âWhereâs Tae?â Jimin asked, glancing around. âHe had a full identity crisis last night trying to pick a suit for the occasion.â
âA-a suit?â you repeated, suddenly hyper-aware of the oversized sweatshirt and soft lounge pants youâd borrowed. Your fingers instinctively smoothed the hem. You hadnât even brushed your hair properly.
âAhmi-yah,â Jin said gently, sensing the shift in your demeanour. âRelax. This is completely informalââ He looked up toward the staircase and froze. âTaeââ Jinâs voice rose a full octave. âWhat the hell are you wearing?!â
All heads turned. You turned too and your brain momentarily left your body.
Descending the stairs like he was stepping onto a red carpet was a tall man with sharp features and effortless poise. He was, in fact, wearing a suit. Not just a suit, a deep emerald velvet blazer tailored to perfection. Crisp white shirt underneath. Black slacks. Polished shoes. A silver brooch pinned at his lapel. His dark hair was styled deliberately, falling artfully across his forehead as if wind machines followed him indoors. He paused halfway down the stairs, tilted his head almost akin to a puppy.
âI dressed appropriately,â he said smoothly. âThis is a special occasion.â
âThis is brunch,â Yoongi muttered sighing tiredly. Tae ignored him entirely, his gaze locking onto you. He descended the rest of the stairs with slow, controlled steps. When he reached the bottom, he adjusted his cuffs and offered you a small bow, deeper than necessary, almost theatrical but not insincere.
âIâm Kim Taehyung,â he said, voice low and warm. âI wanted to make a good first impression.â
Your throat went dry. You were painfully aware of your borrowed clothes now, of your messy hair, of your heart beginning to beat a little too fast.
âIâ you lookâŠâ Your brain scrambled for vocabulary. ââvery prepared.â Behind you, Hoseok snorted.
âHe tried on four different jackets,â Jimin stage-whispered. âHe asked if charcoal made him look emotionally unavailable.â
âIt does,â Yoongi replied without missing a beat. Taehyung shot them a lazy glare before returning his attention to you.
âYou donât need to feel underdressed,â he said quietly, as if reading your thoughts. âYou look comfortable. That matters more.â The comment wasnât teasing. It was grounding. Something in your shoulders eased.
Jin let out a dramatic sigh. âFashion week is over. Sit down, Taehyung.â Taehyung gave one last small smile in your direction before moving to the table. âAlright, enough theatrics everyone,â Jin announced, clapping once again. âSit and eat, before the meal gets cold.â
âI made everything I promised, Ahmi,â Jin said, as he pulled out your chair, âBeef bulgogi, spicy pork bulgogi, beef and radish soup,â He pointed at each dish, and went on to list over fifteen side dishes, making you wonder since when he was cooking and a little guilty, he had to cook so much.
âThank you, Jin,â You smile, awestruck but grateful, âEverything looks and smells delicious,â Jin smiles bashfully at your compliment, moving to pull the chair next to you. Jimin made another bold attempt toward the chair beside you. Jin cleared his throat pointedly. Jimin froze mid-step, slowly, dramatically. He pivoted toward the bench instead.
âYou wound me daily, hyung,â He muttered, pouting.
âYouâll survive,â Jin replied calmly, taking the seat beside you as promised. Yoongi took the other seat on your side, giving you a small smile when you looked at him. The rest of the five naturally had took on the bench. The seat directly across from you on the bench side, remained empty. Three pairs of eyes noticed at once. A silent understanding passed between the youngest three.
Jimin straightened first. âI think,â he said smoothly, âI should sit there. For balance.â
âFor balance?â Jungkook repeated.
âYes. Aesthetic balance.â
Taehyung leaned back slightly, unimpressed. âYou just want direct eye contact.â
Jimin didnât deny it. Jungkook crossed his arms. âWeâre not arguing over a seat.â
âWe are,â Jimin said calmly.
âSettle it quickly,â Yoongi muttered, already taking a bite of the seafood pancake.
Jimin perked up instantly. âRock, paper, scissors!â
Hoseok and Namjoon took to the end seats on the bench, leaving enough space for the three in the middle. You blinked. They were absolutely serious. The three of them stood shoulder-to-shoulder at the end of the table like warriors preparing for battle.
âOne round,â Jungkook said.
âBest of three,â Jimin countered.
âOnly chickens need three rounds to decide,â Taehyung replied coolly.
âFine,â Jimin agreed.
âRockâpaperâscissors!â They crouched slightly. Hands shot forward. Jimin put out scissors.
Jungkook put out scissors as well and Taehyung put out a rock.
Jungkook blinked. âNo.â Jimin wailed dramatically.
Hoseok burst into laughter. âClean sweep!â Taehyung didnât celebrate but looked smug enough to annoy the other two. He simply adjusted his blazer sleeve like this had always been the inevitable outcome.
Jungkook stared at his defeated scissors. âI demand a recount.â
âThere is no recount in rock-paper-scissors,â Namjoon said wisely.
Taehyung exhaled through his nose but couldnât suppress the small smile tugging at his lips. Taehyung slipped on the bench seat directly across from you back and sat down with unhurried grace. Jimin and Jungkook sulked dramatically; Jimin dropping to Taehyungâs left with exaggerated despair, Jungkook taking the right side with dignified resignation.
âYou cheated spiritually,â Jimin accused.
âI simply won,â Taehyung replied, folding his hands neatly on the table.
From your seat, you could feel your confusion fighting with something lighter. This was ridiculous, loud, unnecessary and completely harmless. Taehyung glanced up at you, just briefly with victory in his eyes.
You looked down quickly, pretending to focus very hard on your soup. Across from you, the three youngest continued muttering about ârematchesâ and âstrategic errors,â while Namjoon and Hoseok settled onto the bench, and Jin quietly added another slice of bulgogi to your bowl like none of this was out of the ordinary. The absurdity of grown men battling over seating arrangements made something loosen inside your chest.
âWe lost the visual advantage,â Jimin muttered.
âYouâre acting like this is combat,â Namjoon sighed as he moved to grab some more pork.
âIt is,â Jungkook agreed solemnly, sliding onto the bench beside him. Jin ignored all of them and focused entirely on you. He placed a bowl gently in front of you first ârice, fluffy and steaming. Then a bigger bowl of soup. He added portions of beef bulgogi with careful attention, and even pieces of pork before asking quietly, âToo much?â
You shook your head lightly at the extra portion.
Jin studied your face for a second longer, then nodded once, satisfied. Heâd been quietly tracking things; how much you ate, how often you finished your meals, how your appetite had grown since that first fragile week when even a few bites had exhausted you. He had noticed you loved eating a lot, so he always brought you different dishes to try and enjoy. Only after your bowl was filled did he finally serve himself.
The table settled into a rhythm. Chopsticks lifted. Ceramic clicked softly. Someone reached for water. Low conversation threaded through the space, overlapping but not overwhelming. The food was amazing like always. You let the noise blur into the background and, for the first time without panic clawing at your ribs, really looked at them. Now that the rapid introductions were over, now that your pulse had steadied. They were all distractingly good-looking. Not in the same way. Not identical. Each carried something distinct.
Jin, beside you, felt almost unreal up close. Broad shoulders beneath a simple shirt, posture relaxed but assured. His face was striking in that balanced way, sharp lines softened by warm eyes. He looked like someone who could command a room without raising his voice, yet would kneel to fix a loose shoelace if you asked. There was authority in him, yes but never intimidation. Sitting next to him felt like leaning against something steady and solid. A calm you hadnât known you were missing.
Yoongi, on your other side, was the opposite kind of presence. Quieter, denser and composed in a way that felt carved rather than grown. Dark hair falling just enough over sharp eyes that seemed to register everything without announcing it. He spoke rarely, but when he did, it was precise and efficient. There was something undeniably feline about him; pale skin, delicate features, a brooding gaze that softened unexpectedly when he smiled. And that smile, small, gummy, and disarming, was startling against his otherwise controlled demeanour.
Namjoon, seated across on the bench, was larger than youâd first registered. Taller, broader, carrying himself with quiet intellectual weight. His features were strong, handsome in a thoughtful way rather than flashy. When he spoke, even casually, there was intention behind his words. His hands were big, movements occasionally awkward as if he forgot his own size but you could see the care in the way he adjusted his strength around objects and around people. He looked like someone constantly balancing ideas in his head, philosophy and curiosity layered beneath muscle.
Hoseok seemed to emit light. Even sitting still, there was a current to him; expressive face, high cheekbones, skin clear and luminous. His smile came easily, full and bright, but when his eyes flickered to you, that brightness softened instantly. It dimmed into something protective, almost tender. Heâd startled you earlier, but he looked more troubled by that fact than you ever had been. His warmth was so immediate that it almost disguised how handsome he truly was at first glance.
Jimin, currently sulking in exaggerated defeat beside Taehyung, was compact but magnetic. There was easy-going beauty in him. The way he tilted his head. The way he folded his hands. The way he pouted just enough to be dramatic but not enough to be childish. His jawline was sharp, but his cheeks still held softness. His lips were a natural pink that made you briefly and traitorously wonder if theyâd always looked that way. When he smiled fully, his eyes curved into crescents, and you could absolutely imagine how easily he made people blush. Flirtatious, yes. But observant. Calculating in a gentle way.
Jungkook was quieter than the others but not smaller for it. If anything, the silence made him more noticeable. He was broader through the shoulders, his build solid in a way that felt earned rather than decorative. The fabric of his t-shirt pulled naturally across his chest and arms when he reached for something, muscle shifting beneath like it was simply part of him, not something he displayed, just something that existed. His face was unfairly handsome. Large, dark eyes framed by thick lashes, soft at first glance, almost doe-like but sharpened by the way they focused.
A few piercings glinted when he turned his head, small flashes of silver against warm skin. They suited him. Not flashy, not rebellious for attentionâs sake. Just a quiet edge that contrasted with the softness of his eyes. There was youth in him, but not immaturity.
And then Taehyung, seated directly across from you.
Taehyung didnât need to try to be noticed. He simply was noticed. Even seated casually across from you, even with his brooch removed and his blazer slightly loosened, there was something composed about him. Intentional. Like every line of his body had been arranged with unconscious elegance. The emerald of his jacket caught the light when he shifted, rich against his skin tone, dramatic without being gaudy.
Strong brows. Straight nose. A mouth that seemed sculpted rather than grown. His features werenât soft like Jiminâs or sharp like Hoseokâs, they were balanced in a way that felt almost classical. And yet there was something playful hidden underneath, something that flickered in his eyes when he thought no one noticed. He looked every bit of the art you had heard he adored.
âSo, Ahmi,â Jimin began smoothly, resting his chin in his palm as he cast an exaggeratedly sharp look at his older brother, âdo tell us about yourself.â
His eyes flicked toward Jin again, playful but accusing. âJin-hyung only ever sings praises about your manners and beauty.â He rolled his eyes dramatically. âIâm certain youâre far more accomplished than that. Surely a lady like you deserves to be known for more than just her looks.â
Your brain stalled again. You swallowed. âUmâŠâ The word came out smaller than intended. âIâI donât really have any remarkable achievements, Iâm afraid.â Other than getting kidnapped by monsters, your mind supplied unhelpfully.
Hoseok barked out a soft laugh. âIgnore whatever theatrical nonsense heâs performing, Ahmi.â Jimin gasped in mock offense. âJust tell us about yourself,â Hoseok urged gently. Then, seeing the way your fingers tightened slightly around your chopsticks, he softened further. âOr⊠actually how about we start? And you can follow in a similar way?â You nodded quickly, grateful for the lifeline.
âIâll go first,â Hoseok declared, grabbing his spoon and holding it like a microphone. He cleared his throat theatrically. âI am Jung Hoseok but you can call me Hobi. I am twenty-four. Born on February eighteenth. I help with the family business,â He tilted his head proudly. âBut what I truly enjoy is dancing. Iâm a part-time instructor at the Seoul Dance Academy.â There was warmth in the way he said it, like dancing wasnât just work.
You tilted your head slightly. âWhere did âHobiâ come from?â
âItâs from J-Hope,â Jimin chimed in immediately, barely suppressing a giggle behind his palm. âHeâs the Jung Hope of Seoul Dance Academy. Jung Hope. Hope. Hope-ie. Hobi.â
Understanding lit up your face. âOh! Hope because youâre bright and happy?â You clapped softly to yourself, pleased with the connection. âThatâs adorable. Itâs such a cute nickname.â
Hoseok froze, then dramatically turned toward Jin in pride. âDid you hear that, hyung? Iâm cute.â
Jin didnât even look up from his plate. âDonât let it get to your head.â The table laughed, including you.
âIâll go next,â Jimin announced, snatching the spoon-microphone from Hoseok with unnecessary flair. He sat up straighter, smoothing imaginary wrinkles from his shirt. âPark Jimin. October 13th. Twenty-three years old. I also assist in the family business which let me tell you, is tragically dull but I am, in contrast, an exceptionally talented dancer.â He paused for effect. âI teach at Seoul Dance Academy as well. With Hobi-hyung.â There was satisfaction âbut it wasnât arrogant. It was earned.
âAre you trained in any particular style?â you asked, leaning forward slightly. The second mention of dance had sparked genuine curiosity.
Jiminâs eyes brightened at your interest. âContemporary and modern.â
You turned back to Hoseok. âWhat about you?â
âStreet dance,â he grinned. âHip-hop, locking, popping. Anything that lets me move.â
âDo you dance, Ahmi?â he asked, tilting his head curiously. The attention shifted again, but this time it felt lighter. You felt a little bashful under their interested gaze.
âI trained in ballet when I was younger,â you admitted. âBut my parents moved around a lot, so I couldnât stay anywhere long enough to continue properly. I did contemporary and modern for a while too.â You gave a small, almost embarrassed shrug. âOnce I started university, I couldnât keep up with that as well.â
âYou did ballet?â Jiminâs posture changed instantly. Gone was the teasing flirt; in his place was a dancer, alert and interested. âFor how long?â
âA few years,â you said softly. âNothing professional.â
âThatâs still training,â Hoseok said quickly. âBallet foundation is no joke.â
âYou should come by the academy sometime.â Jimin leaned forward, elbows on the table now. âWe host workshops all the time. Contemporary, fusion, even ballet crossover sometimes.â
âYouâd like it,â Hoseok added, his grin gentler now. âNo pressure. Just fun.â
There was no mockery or teasing, just genuine enthusiasm at sharing the same passion. Across from you, Taehyung had gone still again, watching the exchange with thoughtful eyes. Jungkookâs gaze lingered a second longer when you mentioned ballet, as if picturing it. Jin placed another small portion of food onto your plate without interrupting the conversation. Yoongi filled your glass with warm water.
âIâd like to, someday,â you said.
The words sounded agreeable enough, but even to your own ears they lacked certainty. The idea of dancing again felt distant, like something belonging to a version of you that existed before fear carved hollows into your days. Lately, even joy felt exhausting. Reading was easier. Reading was safe. It wasnât happiness âit was escape. And with how wildly different Namjoonâs book recommendations were, you could disappear completely. Exist between pages instead of inside your own life.
âIâll go next,â Taehyung announced, lifting the spoon-microphone with dramatic reverence. He sat up straighter, shoulders squaring as though preparing for a performance.
âI am Kim Taehyung. Also, twenty-three. December thirtieth.â He tilted his head slightly, a playful glint in his eyes. âI like dancing. I like taking pictures. I like art. I like jazz. I like doing a lot of things.â The enthusiasm in his voice made you laugh before you could stop yourself.
âI heard you paint as well,â you said, warmth returning to your tone. âHave you been working on anything? Can I see some?â For the first time, his energy quieted.
âI havenât completed the recent piece, it is the closest to my heart,â he admitted, fingers absently tracing the edge of the spoon. âNot with everything thatâs happened recently.â You stiffened faintly. The shift in his tone was subtle, but real. The ârecent happeningsâ hung between you like an unspoken understanding. He noticed your reaction and softened immediately. âIâll finish it soon,â he said, voice low and certain now. His eyes held yours steadily. âYouâll be the first to see it. I promise.â
âOoh,â Jimin sing-songed. âThatâs a privilege.â Taehyung didnât deny it. He simply smiled.
âGuess itâs my turn,â Namjoon said, taking the spoon with far less flair.
âIâm Kim Namjoon. Twenty-four. September twelfth.â He adjusted his shirt unconsciously as he spoke. âI handle most of the strategic side of the family business. I read a lot. Probably too much.â He smiled faintly. âI enjoy museums, poetry, philosophy.â
âAnd breaking things.â Jin added helpfully, making the rest chuckle including Namjoon.
He sighed. âItâs not intentional though, only accidental.â
âYou recommend books like a literature scholar,â you said softly before you could stop yourself. His eyes flicked to yours, surprised.
âDo I?â
âTheyâre all very different.â You say, âBut immersive.â
Something in his expression shifted, pleased, but contained. âIâm glad.â
Yoongi didnât reach for the spoon.
âIâm Min Yoongi,â he said simply. âTwenty-five. March ninth.â He leaned back slightly, arms crossing loosely. âI am a doctor. I prefer quiet.â His gaze lifted briefly to you. âNoise gets exhausting.â
âYou live with six brothers.â The corner of your mouth twitched. âI canât imagine you getting much quiet,â
âI said I prefer quiet,â he corrected dryly and you giggle at his correction. You turned to Jungkook, finding absolutely no other way to ignore Jimin who had been pretending to reintroduce himself again, with his spoon-microphone near his face, that Taehyung nearly wrestled out of him and held out to Jungkook. He hesitated a second before taking the spoon from Taehyung.
âIâm Jeon Jungkook. Twenty-one. September first.â His voice was steady, sweeter than expected. âI box and do martial arts.â He shrugs, âI like working out and cooking.â That made sense and you could see it in him, the alertness, the way he tracked movement without appearing to.
He added after a second. âAnd eat. Sometimes.â
âSometimes?â Jin scoffed lightly. âYou devour the kitchen.â
Jungkookâs ears flushed slightly pink. âHyungââ You smiled softly at that; it was endearing to see the relationship the brothers seemed to share. Jungkook finished, a little stiff at the attention, and gently set the spoon back in the centre of the table like he was returning something ceremonial. There was a beat of silence.
âAhem.â Jin reached forward and claimed the spoon with exaggerated dignity. âHow rude,â he said lightly, arching a brow at the rest of them. âThe eldest nearly forgotten.â
âYou were too busy feeding her,â Yoongi muttered and your cheeks heated up. Jin ignored him completely. He straightened in his seat, shoulders rolling back effortlessly. âKim Seokjin. Twenty-six. December fourth.â His voice carried natural authority, warm, but unmistakably firm. âI oversee the primary operations of our family business.â
âThatâs a very vague description,â Namjoon commented mildly.
Jin shot him a look. âItâs intentionally vague.â A ripple of amusement passed around the table. âI also cook,â Jin continued, gesturing lightly toward the spread before you. âClearly better than some people appreciate.â
âI appreciated it,â you said quietly, gesturing to your empty bowls and plates. His gaze softened.
âGood,â he replied, and there was no teasing in it. âThen my work is done.â He tapped the spoon thoughtfully against his palm. âI enjoy fishing. Traveling when time allows. Collecting recipes from places I visit.â A faint smile tugged at his mouth. âAnd making sure everyone eats properly.â
âEspecially you,â Hoseok sing-songed, wiggling his eyebrows at you and your blood rushing up to your cheeks again. Jin didnât deny it. He simply reached over and adjusted your bowl a fraction closer to you, as if the motion alone proved the point. There was something about the way he spoke; less flashy, less bright, less deliberate than the rest. Jin didnât try to impress. He stated facts. He existed solidly within them. When he finished, he didnât toss the spoon back dramatically. He placed it gently in your hand.
âNow,â he said quietly, turning slightly toward you, ââcontinue.â His tone wasnât pressing. It was steady and supportive, like he was anchoring you before you stepped back into deeper water and so you did.
Seven faces looked at yours, not expectant in a demanding way; just open and curious. You swallowed.
âI am Yoo Ahmi, twenty-one years old.â you began quietly. âI was born in China, but my parents moved around a lot due to my fatherâs job. He was a Diplomat. So, we barely spent a year in one place. I was homeschooled till university. Iâve lived in China, Japan, Vietnam, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Canada, the UK, Switzerland, FranceâŠâ You let out a small, almost breathless laugh. âItâs easier to list where I havenât been.â
Hoseokâs eyes widened. âThatâs incredible.â
âIt sounds exciting,â you admitted softly. âBut it was mostly temporary. I never stayed long enough to call anywhere home or make any real friends.â Jinâs posture shifted beside you, so slight most wouldnât notice. But you did. âThis is my first time in Korea. Even though Iâm Korean.â You gave a small, almost self-conscious smile. âI wanted to finish university in one place. Just once. So, we stayed inââ You named the city quietly. âThe plan was always that Iâd graduate there and then move to Korea.â
You rolled your eyes faintly, fondness threading through it. âBut Appa said weâd spent far too much time away from home. That it was time to return to our roots.â A few of the boys exchanged subtle glances. âI didnât want to,â you admitted. âBut he bribed me. Said weâd build a house that looked exactly like my Pinterest dreams.â A tiny, broken laugh escaped you. âHe knew that would work.â You drifted somewhere else for a moment, back to that version of life where the future still felt solid.
âHe promised it would finally be ours. So, we packed everything again and moved to Seoul.â Your voice thinned. âWe stayed in an apartment while searching for property. And then, we found one.â Your fingers curled into themselves. âIt was near the woods. There was a wide stream nearby. The backyard was huge. Omma said we could host summer dinners there. Weâd already started unpacking and decorating, pulling things out of boxes.â You swallowed.
âBut I never got to actually live in it.â The table had gone completely still. No one touched their food. No one interrupted. âOmma and I went out to buy ingredients to make tteok,â you continued, your throat tightening. âShe said if we shared it with the neighbours, it would help us integrate, make a good first impression. It was supposed to be the last move after all, the last beginning.â
Your breathing grew uneven. âWe were on our way back when we-we got kidnapped byââ The word wouldnât come. Your pulse roared in your ears. âByââ Monsters sounded childish. Creatures sounded fictional. Men sounded too human. Your breathing hitched sharply.
Around you, every trace of playfulness vanished. Jinâs hand moved closer to yours, not touching yet. Just there. Yoongiâs jaw set hard. Jungkookâs shoulders squared almost imperceptibly. Hoseokâs brightness extinguished completely. Namjoonâs gaze sharpened with focus. Taehyung and Jimin looked almost unreal in their seriousness, like masks had been stripped away.
âYou donât have to tell us more,â Jin said gently, he put an arm around you, âNot right now.â The silence that followed wasnât suffocating. It was shielding. And somehow, that made it easier to force the truth out.
âI donât know what they were,â you breathed, tears spilling despite your effort to stop them. âThey were monsters, fangs and sharp nails. They had eyes that werenât right, it was inhuman.â Your voice trembled violently now. Jin held your hand his, stroking with his thumb, âThey bit Omma, drank her blood.â Your hands shook. âThey were cruel. There wasnât just one. There were many. He kept touching meââ Your breath stuttered. âI begged themâhim to let us go. I begged themâhim to let my mum go.â No one moved.
âThey fed on us, over and over.â A sob tore from your chest before you could contain it. âShe kept telling me Appa would come, that heâd find us.â Your vision blurred. âHe did find us,â you whispered. Jinâs hand finally closed around yours. âBut they killed him too.â The words dropped like stones. âThey hurt him first. And then they killed him.â Your voice fractured completely now. âThe feeding didnât stop. It just kept happening and happening. And one day⊠Omma didnât wake up.â Tears slid off your chin and you sobbed.
âThere were many like me,â you continued hollowly. âSo many. Some of them died. I kept wondering when it would be my turn.â The room felt smaller, tighter but not because of judgment, but because of fury.
âAfter Ommaââ You blinked hard, as if forcing yourself back into your own body. âI donât remember much. I remember being bitten. Feeling tired. Dizzy. Restless. Like I wasnât inside myself anymore.â Your breath trembled on the way out. âAnd then I woke up here.â
You smiled. It wasnât hopeful. It wasnât grateful. It was simply the only expression you could manage when there were no more tears left to fall. The silence that followed was deafening but not fragile, not uncertain.
Jinâs hand remained wrapped around yours, firm and immovable, like the foundation of a house that refused to crack. His thumb pressed once against your knuckles, steady and grounding. Across the table, Yoongi had gone utterly still. Not the relaxed stillness of someone at ease, but the kind that preceded violence. His eyes were dark, flat, calculating. A storm held behind glass. Jungkookâs knuckles had blanched white against the edge of the table. The wood creaked faintly beneath his grip. His jaw was clenched so tightly a muscle ticked near his ear. He hadnât blinked in several seconds.
Hoseokâs brightness, the laughter, the warmth had vanished entirely. His eyes shone, not with pity, but with something sharper; protective and furious. As though joy itself had been insulted. Namjoon inhaled slowly before speaking, like he was containing something vast and dangerous inside his chest.
âThey wonât touch you again,â he said, each word was measured and precise. âWe will protect you. At all costs.â It wasnât a reassurance. It was a vow for them. Across from you, Taehyungâs usual softness had burned away. What remained was something ancient and resolute. His gaze held yours without wavering, emerald jacket catching the light as if nothing about him had changed, yet everything had.
Jiminâs lips had parted slightly, his usual pout and theatrics replaced by something painfully quiet. His eyes shimmered, but he did not look away from you. His softness had hardened, not into coldness, but into promise. Almost all of them were holding back tears, not because they pitied you. But because something in them had shifted irrevocably.
It was one thing to look at victims from a distance; to feel anger at monsters, regret at arriving too late, frustration at the limits of power. It was another thing entirely to watch someone at your own table recount the moment their world was torn apart. To imagine their pack member, because that was what you were, waiting in the dark for death while her parents were slaughtered.
The wolves felt it like a blade through their own ribs. Their hearts, creatures built for battle, for dominance, for protection, softened in a way that startled even them. You had spoken the worst parts aloud. And instead of shattering the room, you had changed it. The air felt different now, heavier but steadier. The grief you had carried alone for weeks, months, perhaps longer than that, no longer echoed into nothingness. It landed here, on the table, in their chests, shared among the seven sets of shoulders that bore it without hesitation.
For the first time since that night, you were not the only one holding the memory of parentsâ last breaths. Your grief had witnesses. It had warriors.
You became aware of your own tears only when one slid off your chin and onto your hand. Heat rushed to your face. âIâm sorry,â you murmured automatically, voice small. âI didnât mean toââ
âDonât.â Jinâs tone wasnât sharp, but it was absolute. âDonât ever apologize for surviving.â The words settled around you like something solid, protective and final. His arm remained around your shoulders, drawing you slightly closer; not enough to trap you, just enough to steady you. Hoseok silently passed him a napkin, and Jin used it carefully, gently wiping the tears from your cheeks as though you were something precious and breakable.
âWeâre grateful you shared this with us,â Jin said softly.
Yoongi nudged a glass of water toward you. âTake a sip.â You did. Your hands trembled less than before. The air began to loosen. Not because what youâd said mattered less, but because they had accepted it and held it.
âYou know,â Hoseok said after a moment, clearing his throat lightly, âWe were going to get dessert anyway. But now we definitely are.â Jiminâs head snapped toward him.
âHyung, donât pretend this isnât your excuse to empty the hundred-box melona stash you impulse-bought when it went on sale.â
Hoseok gasped. âIt was a strategic investment.â
âCan you believe it?â Yoongi deadpanned. âWe still have over fifty left.â
âIt wouldâve been a sin to pass it up!â Hoseok defended, pointing his spoon accusingly. âDo you know how rare that discount was?â
âMaybe Jin-hyung should make a proper dessert,â Jimin mused dramatically. âLike tiramisu. Something fancy.â
âWe just ate,â Namjoon pointed out mildly.
âThis is clearly an emergency,â Jimin countered without missing a beat. He turned to you, eyes bright again but softer than before. âHow do you feel about being tortured with melona, our guest of honour?â
Despite everything, you giggled. It surprised you more than them.
âWhat do you want, Ahmi-yah?â Jin asked, brushing a stray hair from your face with his thumb.
âI⊠I donât know.â You hesitated.
âWhatâs your favourite dessert? Would you enjoy a Tiramisu?â Jin leaned back slightly, considering. âProper tiramisu takes time. A few hours to chill and all. Ideally a day.â
âA whole day,â Jungkook repeated, eyebrows lifting slightly. âThatâs 24 hours!â
âHyung,â Jimin protested, âthat is forever for an emergency.â
âI like tiramisu too,â you admitted quietly. âBut I can make do with ice cream.â
The corner of Jinâs mouth curved faintly. âIâll make Tiramisu for you anyway.â He gave you a squeeze, his arm around you still in an embrace.
âActuallyâŠâ Namjoon interjected gently, glancing between you and the others. âWhile we wait for dessert, maybe someone should show Ahmi around properly.â
âThe house is big,â Hoseok added. âShe hasnât seen it yet.â
Jimin shot up slightly in his seat. âI volunteer.â
 Taehyung casually adjusted his blazer sleeves, as though this were a diplomatic assignment and said, âI can escort her around as well,â
Jungkook looked at you, and nodded to himself, but didnât speak, and he didnât look away either. Yoongi raised a brow at the three of them. Jin studied you carefully, watching your breathing, the way your shoulders had finally relaxed a fraction and then he decided.
âMaknae line.â All three youngest straightened instinctively. âShow her around,â Jin said. His voice was calm, but deliberate. âSlowly, and donât overwhelm her with your chatter and clutter.â
âYes, sir!â They saluted, like in military and turned to you.
Jimin grinned softly at you. âCome on. Weâll start with the front door, like any property tour.â
Taehyung stood, offering his hand in an almost courtly gesture. âThe scenic route.â
Jungkook moved to your other side without comment, close enough that youâd feel it if you stumbled but not touching. Behind you, the older four remained seated. You hesitated only a second before standing. Jinâs arm slipped from around your shoulders, but his warmth lingered. He gave you one last assessing look, as if confirming you were steady enough on your feet before nodding once.
âDonât run,â he warned the three youngest calmly.
âWe never run,â Jimin replied with immediate offense.
âYou absolutely run,â Yoongi muttered.
Taehyung ignored them both, already reaching into the freezer drawer nearby and pulling it open with quiet confidence.
Hoseok gasped. âDonât take more than four!â
âHyung,â Jimin scoffed, grabbing one green-wrapped bar and tossing another to Jungkook. âThis is an at least a two melona per head event.â Jungkook caught it easily with one hand. He peeled the wrapper halfway down, then paused, waiting for you.
Taehyung selected one carefully and stepped closer, offering it to you with a small flourish. âFor the guest of honour.â You chuckled but accepted it, fingers brushing the cold plastic.
Jimin already had his open, dramatically biting into it. âIf we disappear for too long, assume we got distracted by the movie room.â
âOr the art room,â Taehyung added lightly.
âOr Jungkookâs obsession with reorganizing the gym,â Jimin whispered loudly.
Jungkook gave him a look. âYouâre the one who keeps arranging them wrong.â
âIt is aesthetic.â Jimin offered.
âIt is stupid.â Jungkook snapped back, pointing his melona at Jimin.
Behind you, Jin shook his head, though there was the faintest curve to his mouth now. âSlowly,â he repeated. âGo,â Jin ordered, though there was no real heat behind it.
Taehyung offered you his arm, to link it, still playing a gentleman. You laughed again, looping your arm with his, as he led you out of the kitchen area. You took a tentative bite of the melona. It was sweet, cold and unexpectedly comforting. The three youngest adjusted their pace without speaking about it, falling into step around you naturally. Jimin slightly ahead, walking backward as he narrated. Taehyung beside you, with his arm linked with yours, matching your stride. Jungkook just half a step behind and to the side, a quiet presence.
As you moved away from the dining area, the hum of the older membersâ low voices resumed behind you. But ahead of you was space and light, the open stretch of the living area. Jimin gestured grandly with his half-eaten ice cream. âWelcome to the main living hall. Floor-to-ceiling windows, strong wood beams. Excessive but tasteful.â
Taehyung shot him a look. âYou sound like a brochure.â
âI could be,â Jimin replied smoothly. âI also could be a real estate tycoon.â
And just like that, the heaviness in your chest didnât disappear, but it shifted.
Thus, the Bangtan Packhouse tour began, with the four of you holding melting melonas in your hands.
ânext chapter | chapter four
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Hi, Since You Never Walk Alone is an OT7 story, I am assuming that the OC is everyone's mate. But why does no one else feel the bond yet? I saw another reader ask the same, and I am wondering if she's just going to remain Jin's mate but others' unbonded mate. Is that a possibility? Are you going down this that way?
I love the story so far! and I hope the updates happen soon!
Hello, anon đ
First and foremost, the oc is destined to bond with every member of the pack, gradually and uniquely. This is an ot7 story, and I want to ensure that every member forms a bond with her ânot leaving anyone in an âunbonded mateâ dynamic. To me, that wouldnât feel like a true bangtan x reader story. While the bonds will all happen, they will take time and be triggered by different emotions and circumstances.
Jinâs bond with the oc was an extraordinary case, triggered by the dire need to save her from being burned alive by the very wolves who were meant to be her mates someday. If this vampire incident hadnât occurred, the bonds would have unfolded differently, starting with another member and evolving more like a modern-day polyandrous relationship. Since this is so early in the story, we havenât yet explored how the oc would have naturally met the pack and bonded with them under normal circumstances.
The essence of the mate bonds as being tied to the Moon Goddessâs divine timing. Each bond is often triggered by a powerful emotion or cause; something that deeply resonates within the wolfâs heart âI imagine most human-wolf bonds happening in airports, right when someone is about to travel away đ
Jinâs bond was triggered by the desperate need to save her life. Jinâs bond almost represents a cruel irony âthat the wolves nearly burned their own mate.
For the future bonds, and giving a sort of spoiler: each of the other wolvesâ bonds will also be ignited by a strong emotional connection or moment: a protective instinct, emotional vulnerability, the relief of knowing sheâs safe, a friendship deepening into something more, the ache of yearning, or simply pure, selfless love all of which begins with a spark of infatuation that happens once they meet her.
Weâll delve into those moments as the story unfolds. Each bond will have its own timing and its own story, reflecting the uniqueness of the pack and the ocâs relationships with each of them.
In the YNWA universe, mate bonds are an enigmatic phenomenon, deeply tied to the moonâs magic. Revered and sacred, they defy logic and understanding, existing far beyond the grasp of science or reason. Researchers have studied patterns, triggers, and trends, but no definitive explanation for how or why bonds form has ever been discovered. They simply happen as a reflection of deeper truths or needs that transcend comprehension of a simple human/wolf mind. There are certain things that are said to trigger a bond, but if the bond doesn't get triggered, you'd have gone too far with someone who is not your mate. So, trying to trigger a bond is often discouraged. Though, many wolves indulge in healthy amounts of flirting, platonic skinship etc.
For most wolves, bonds develop gradually. They often begin like any human relationship âthrough attraction, friendship, proximity, or even platonic companionship. A bond might not manifest immediately but could suddenly appear, reshaping the relationship overnight. The connection is like a fine thread, delicate and unnoticed at first, but over time, it can weave into a rope of unbreakable fibers, symbolizing the deepening and strengthening of the bond.
Sometimes, though rarely, bonds defy this gradual process and strike like lightning. A sudden realization, a singular moment of shared vulnerability, or an inexplicable pull can forge an immediate connection. This is what makes Jinâs first-sight bond so extraordinary. In a world where such bonds are almost unheard of, his experience is an anomaly, a sacred event that draws both curiosity and awe. For Jin, the thread didnât take years to weave into a strong rope; it was already fully formed the moment he laid eyes on the oc.
While this is deeply significant to Jin, the rest of the pack views it differently. They respect the moonâs will and the mystery of its magic. To them, bonds are deeply personal and unpredictable, and Jinâs bond doesnât necessarily mean the oc will bond with the rest of them. Polyamorous bonds, while more common among packs are just as unpredictable. A single person might bond with an entire pack, or the pack could divide into smaller clusters, each forming separate connections. In some cases, all members of a pack bond with the same person except one; instead, they find another mate.
The process is never rushed or forced. Wolves understand that bonds are not about science or choice but about trust in the moonâs guidance. Proximity, emotional closeness, skinship, and human feelings may encourage bonds to form, but they donât guarantee them. Bonds happen whenâand ifâtheyâre meant to, and wolves know better than to question their timing.
For now, the pack approaches Jinâs bond with curiosity rather than assumptions. His connection to the oc is rare, even sacred: plus, the unfortunate situation of the bond and how they found her makes it hard for them to view it as a sign of an inevitable polyandrous relationship. Instead, they chose to remain open-minded, allowing time, proximity and shared experiences to reveal the moonâs will. As they spend time with the oc, dynamics will evolve, shifting in ways they cannot predict. Bonds will form between the oc and other pack members but Jinâs bond of first sight is gonna remain singular and unique.
From the universe's point of view, it is this uncertainty that makes mate bonds so profound. Whether gradual or instantaneous, they are deeply personal and sacred, bound by magic that no wolf truly understands. They trust in the journey, in the mysterious thread that connects them all, knowing that only time will reveal how their stories are meant to intertwine.
P.S.: Iâd love to hear your thoughts on who you think will bond with the oc next! Feel free to share your predictions about the bonding order âwhoâs next, who follows after, and why you think so. Iâm genuinely excited to know your guesses and see how they line up with the journey I have in mind!
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
Hello there :)! I hope you're doing well. Idk where to start or anything but still I wish you're okay. Do you mind telling us a "lil" bit of when you're going to upload "You never walk alone"? It's such a good fiction and I've re-read it again again for like 30 times now đ, you haven't been active so just wanted to make sure. Are you gonna upload it?
Hello Hi, dear anon đ„ș
I have updated the second chapter of You Never Walk Alone today. I hope you like it and I'm not sure if you are still actively waiting because I've been gone for so long đ„ș but I still hope you get to see this and I hope to complete the story.. no matter how long it takes, but as of now I'm back.
And thank you so much for your kind words đ
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
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Hi, first off : i love your fanfics, youâre an amazing storyteller and I fell in love with thĂ© Lily of Bangtan. Do you plan on continuing the story ? I loved every bits of it !
Have a nice week, I hope youâre doing well :)
Hello, dear anon đ„ș
Yes, I am going to complete the stories âjust not sure if I can complete it in one go. As of bow, I have updated the second chapter of another story called You Never Walk Alone, and planning to update the next chapter of Lily Of Bangtan in the upcoming week.
Thank you so much for your kind words đ„șđ„° Trust me, I've read you ask a hundred times already đ and I hope you enjoy what's coming for the stories next đ
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
When are you going to finish this story? Would love to know what happens next đ
Hello hello, dear anon đ„ș
If you are talking about You Never Walk Alone or The Lily Of Bangtan, I'm planning to write more chapters for them soon. The second chapter of You Never Walk Alone has been updated. The next chapter of Lily Of Bangtan will be updated hopefully by the next week if all things go well.
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
Heyy! Idk if you're still here but I hope you're doing alright! It's been a while, hasn't it? -đŠ
Hi, đŠ anon.
I'm doing well âhave answered your other ask as well đ„ș Thank you so much for dropping by to check on me đ« You are truly an angel and I hope 2025 is going well so far for you đ
I hope we can continue to be friends đ„ș
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
Heyy! I finally got around to reading "you never walk alone" and your writing seriously blows me away. Reading the 4th chapter of Lily of Bangtan, I realised that the next chapter is gonna be the wedding, where I assume Saera and Jin will meet. Another variable that I hadn't really given much thought is Jin's current wife, Yeojin. What's the deal with the two of them? Also why exactly can't Jangmi and Tae talk to each other? I mean they are already engaged. Sorry if this seems kinda dumb â đŠ
Hello hello, dearie đŠ anon đ€© I hope you are having a great week so far â„ïž
First off, I'm absolutely ashamed at having vanished out of here, but life has been such a rollercoaster ride the past year or so that I didn't find the mind space to come on here, much less work on any writing. I apologise and I'll try to do better. Moving on.. đŹ
You Never Walk Alone is my baby đ âšmy first-bornâš and it's my longest brain-dwelling story â„ïž I can't truly wait to write more đ„ș I have some âš ideasâš for it and I'm going to have fun writing it đ The second chapter has been updated today, so I hope you like it đ„°
And as for Jin and Yeojin, they are the better, slightly safer, questionably healthy example of bangtan-marriage-gone-wrong.
Yeojin is a pretty important negative character. If she wasn't there, Jin and Saera would've had a very, very different road to being married. There's a lot to unpack in their past âbut it has been a while since they met, so you are right đ€© they are going to meet again at the wedding.
At one point, Jin and Saera could have been even considered close friends but now, there's too many cracks in their bond to be considered a friendship anymore.
They will remain amicable of course, but there's a lot of unsaid words between them to get into all this comfortably đ€
To Taehyung and Jangmi now.
In Bangtan, long engagements don't really exist âthe main reason being that the couple get too curious, impatient, do the deed and fail during the sheet ceremony. I think I'll highlight it during the sixth chapter but the Sheet Ceremony is the final step to becoming the mafia man's wife. If you don't prove that you have remained pure for the wedding night, you are not accepted into the family.
Again, this is a pretty stupid way they handle things âFirst, if an engaged couple does it consensually, it shouldn't be a problem but lacking patience and self-control isn't really a good look for the mafia, is it?
Now, failing the sheet ceremony isn't a big deal for the man âbecause let's be honest, no man in Bangtan gets married as a virgin and there's no unscientific way to prove that he is pure. But, for a woman, her purity is determined in the most unscientific possible and not passing this test, is the end of her life. Not the best way to handle it, but this is how it's done in Bangtan.
During the engagement period, dates and talking to them etc used to be heavily frowned up on when the current Don was younger. When the current Don took over, dates were allowed but with chaperones. Over the last decade or so, a date or two after the engagement, exchanging numbers and interacting at social gatherings and at the soon-to-be bride's home is accepted, even expected by the brides.
Taehyung and Jangmi are the longest engaged couple in Bangtan, but the interest in this marriage or engagement is heavily one-sided. Plus, Jangmi is studying abroad; Taehyung specifically takes up missions that ensure he stays in Korea and keeps himself busy.
They went on one date right after the engagement and a few phone calls after that, but Taehyung's lack of interest was enough to curb Jangmi's overwhelming interest đ¶
So, as of now there's no dates, no calls, Jangmi had his number, but is always too scared to text him or call him. This is also why she heavily relies on Nari for her daily Taehyung updates.
The relationship is complicated at best, and I hope this mess of an answer to your question keeps you satiated enough till I actually write their story đ
None of the question are dumb âI love that you are asking questions, makes me very very very happy đ so please keep them coming đ«
I hope you can forgive my long long absence and we can be friends again đ
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
When are you going to update you never walk alone??
Hello hello, anon đ
The second chapter of You Never Walk Alone has been updated today! I'm hoping that I'll update the third chapter after finishing up the 2 chapters I have planned for my other fics. As for now, please enjoy reading the chapter two of You Never Walk Alone.
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
Hiii, i just wanted to ask when the next chapter of âThe Lily of bangtanâ will be up? I looking really forward to it! Also iâm a big fan of your work!! <3
Hi, @puffyxpeach đ„ș
Thank you so much đ„ș I'm back to writing again after ages, so I'm hoping to finish The Lily of Bangtan's next chapter soon! As of today, I've updated the second chapter of You Never Walk Alone. I'm hoping and praying I find the time and motivation to continue writing and posting. And, I hope the wait feels worth it for the next chapter if Lily Of Bangtan đ„ș
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
Heyy! I hope you're doing wellđ„șđ
Hello hello, dear anon đ„ș
I am doing better, thank you so much for asking! I hope I continue to do better and hopefully 2025 is kinder to me than 2024. Anyways, I'm looking forward to do a lot of things I've given up on in the past few years, so here I am âšïž
I hope you are doing well, lots of love and take care, aksh đ
You Never Walk Alone | BTS
âpairing | werewolf!bts Ă you (fem!reader)
âchapter two | within bangtanâs embrace: dashing savior and the goddessâ blessing
âcollection | ot7!bts Ă reader stories
âstory masterlist | you never walk alone
âprevious chapter | chapter one
âgenre | werewolf au Ă mate au Ă supernatural au Ă strangers to lovers au ( angst Ă romance Ă fluff Ă supernatural )
ârating | mature-rated
âwarnings | vampires exist. mentions of blood. consumption of blood and human remains. human body mutilation. badly written action scenes. death of loved ones. talks about insanity, cults, mass-psychosis and serial killings. the reader is found extremely hurt and almost dead. bites are a constant mention.
âauthorâs forenote | i am sorry for being away, life was fucked in all areas. for now, think of this as an apology, and enjoy! a bit of a filler chapter, speed-running through recovery, and slightly jin-focused. please let me know what you think.
âchapter summary | what happens after jin finds you till you are recovered enough to meet all the boys.
"She's my mate."
Jin's body shakes in anguish as he pulls you to him, trying to comfort you with his warmth, repeating himself over and over again.
"She's my mate!" He howled and screamed in pain. He sobs harder, trying to warm you and caressing your cheek to wake you up somehow.
"Lo-love, wake up," He cries harder, tears falling over your skin. "Please, wake up."
Hoseok stands behind Jin, stunned for a few good seconds before he's had the mind to reach out to his brothers through his mind-link.
The boys on the other side are in a state of utter panic at not being able to reach the two.
"We can't reach Jin-Hyung! Is he okay?"
"What happened?"
"Are you alright?
"Did you get attacked?"
"Why can't we reach Jin-Hyung?"
"Is Jin-Hyung okay? Are you okay?"
His brothers were yelling through the link. He's almost sure some have already entered the building, trying to reach them.
"What happened to him?! His scent and heart are going crazy!" Jimin sounded anxious, "I'm coming in."
"Jin-Hyung," Hoseok takes a breath, "âhe-he found his mate." Hoseok relays through the mind-link, "We need you here, Yoongi-Hyung. Sheâ" He pauses before continuing again, "She looks dead." He winced, the thought sending his mind on a wild negative drive.
"I'm already inside, stay exactly where you are!" Yoongi demands, led inside by Jimin, following Jin's distressed scent and throwing quick orders for the boys outside.
"What?!" Hoseok recognized Jungkook's voice, "Is sheâ" The youngest wolf stopped himself from continuing the question.
"She looks dead," Hoseok sighs, throat heavy and dry, eyes running over his brother and you, "âand I can't pinpoint anything more."
"Hyung!" Jimin burst into the room, running up to the two, "Are you okay?" He kneels beside Jin, throwing an arm around his shoulder, concerned at the way Jin's scent was seeping distress.
"She-she won't wake up, Jimin-ah." Jin sobs, face red, and tears down his face. "She-she won't respond," He continues, still cradling your body to his chest, he turns to Yoongi, the only trained medical professional among them. "Why won't she open her eyes? Why won't she respond?"
Jimin looks at you and his stomach drops. You didn't look like you'd make it out of this and he felt his eyes tear up, heart clenching in pain for you two.
What would happen to his Hyung if you passed away?
"Is-" Jin sobs harder, more tears falling, "Is she okay?" He looks at Yoongi, pulling him down to you.
"Let me see, yeah, Hyung?" Yoongi assures him softly; afraid any harsh action would set him off. He carefully crouches down next to your limp body, taking note of your shackled limbs and the vicious bite marks all over your body.
Yoongi already feels his heart clench in pain, eyes unusually tearing up as he sees your lifeless frame. You didn't look and smell alive. Yoongi's hands are clammy and shaky as he takes your hand to check your pulse and takes a whiff of your bitten wrist.
Your scent was clouded by the stench of the place you were held in and many other unpleasant scents. Your pulse was weak and you barely smelled human. Your breath was shallow, lips cracked, your skin dry, and your hair matted. Your body was struggling to keep you alive at this point.
From what he can see, you were severely starved and abused. You were bitten and fed to the brink of death. There were no large, gaping wounds which should mean all your organs were intact.
He prays all your organs are intact because that could be a whole new problem to solve. As he checks on you, he takes glances at Jin who was vibrating holding you, his canines now having grown longer, peeking out. His eyes are completely golden, the flickering is gone.
Yoongi needs to think and act fast. If he wasted any more time, Jin would go on a rage-hunt.
"She's barely holding on," He mind-links his brothers, careful not to let Jin in, "We need to hurry the fuck up."
"What happened?" Jin breathes, shaking and trembling. His voice is deep, rounding on growls and animalistic. "Will she be okay?"
The chances honestly were low, but he couldn't let Jin know. Jin and the distress of his mate bond could cost lives at this point.
"Let's get her out of here, yeah?" Yoongi strokes his arm, trying to calm him down. "We need to get her out of here," He tells Jin again, "Can you lift her?" Jin nods, lifting you with no words, completely forgetting the shackles in your limbs.
"Wait-wait," Yoongi and Jimin stopped him from running out and unintentionally hurting you more, "Let's get this away," Jimin said, using all his strength to break them, Hoseok and Yoongi joined in and took the last ones off.
"Let's get her to the pack infirmary," Yoongi told Jin and as Jin ran out, careful not to hurt you, he mind-linked the boys.
"Keep the van ready and the Head Salutary on call," Yoongi barks at the other boys. "Tell them to have anti-venoms and other supplies at the pack infirmary âwe can't treat her with the rest if things go wrong..." Yoongi took a pause, "Hyung can massacre them all." He continued gravely, giving more instructions to everyone.
Everyone in the conversation understood the implications of the instructions Suga was giving them. Jin was in a very dangerous mindset, if anything happened to you âJin could and would kill everyone regardless of who they were. Jin was probably already in his wolf's mind, the animal overtaking his body, and unable to think straight.
They could only imagine the kind of emotions coursing through him âfinding the love of your life in a near-dead state, having been through severe abuse, and the fear of losing someone so dear to you without a word to them.
Why was Moon Goddess so cruel to their Hyung? Why was this happening to him, when he was probably the one who believed in her abilities and loved them the most?
When they saw Jin carry you out, they all got into the vehicle, Jungkook helping Jin place you on the stretcher in the van. Jin growls at his brothers as they close the door and it hits the stretcher, making it hit the seat ahead.
All of them noticed how his eyes were golden, his canines and nails were long and pointy, and his skin was taut and sweaty âlike he was minutes away from shifting into a wolf. The growls and pulsing of his veins alone were proof that if they didn't do something, Jin was going to go crazy before they even reached the pack house.
As they drive out, Yoongi sends one last message to Namjoon.
"Tell them to keep a heavy dose of sedation ready just in case," Yoongi said, "âfor Jin-Hyung."
At the pack infirmary, the healers were doing their best to follow their Alphas' instructions. All the drugs and medical supplies were set in the medical unit, the Head Salutary, Chaewon was sending away wolves that didn't need to be there and instructing only few of the strongest warriors and healers on your treatment and the course of action in case Jin needed to be sedated.
According to the Yoongi, it was better to ambush him and sedate him as soon as he arrives because if they waited for him to listen to them âthey'd never get the job done. The Healers agreed with the Alpha. Jin was too strong for them on a normal day when he was determined and with his disturbing emotions, the alpha will be physically impossible for them to hold back.
Chaewon was not okay with that at all; she wanted to have Jin conscious and present while they worked on you, because she feared trauma on him and the bond. The days following the bonding was so fragile, special and very important for the newly bonded pair. The bond really depended on these initial days to blossom, to settle in, to prosper for the pair to have a happy life ahead.
Finding you the way he did itself was going to cause so much harm to Jin and his wolfâs mental health, Chaewon couldnât fathom the wreck his wolf would be in case Jin was unconscious right after finding you, without any consolation that you were doing better at least. Chaewon wanted Jin to see that his mate was safe now, she was being treated and that she would heal. And in the case that things went south, sedation would be considered.
She prayed that you weren't in a very bad shape and that whatever happens next, happens smoothly without many problems. The wolves stood at the entrance of the pack compound, praying to the Moon Goddess for your health and safety. They needed you to be strong and safe for Jin to be the same. If you didn't make it out today, Jin wouldn't too and they didn't want to lose their pack member to the pain of losing their mate.
The loud honks of the vehicle pulled them out of their prayer and they ran straight to the stretcher being pulled out and wheeled in, ignoring Jin's loud growls and whimpers. Their hair stood straight, bodies shaking in fear as their usually chirpy, happy alpha growled viciously at the wolves who opened the door.
âLet him take her inside,â Yoongi mind-linked them to stay away, âLetâs wait âstay away till I give you any instruction.â
He ran straight to the bed inside the unit, placing you gently on the bed, kneeling right next to it âwhimpering and begging the Head Salutary, âAjhumma, Ajhumma, please- She-Sheâs not waking up,â He held your cold hand in his warm ones, tugging the older ladyâs scrubs, âPlease help her, please heal her,â He sobbed, whimpering more. âPlease, sheâs my mateââ He cried, tears choking him, âI canât lose her, please-â
âJin-ah,â Chaewon kneeled next to him, âSweetie, you need to believe in her, yeah?â She caressed his hair, âSheâll get through this, but for that I need you to be strong, okay?â Jin only sobbed, his golden eyes on your frail body. âI need you to let us handle this, I swear by the Moon Goddess we wonât let her go, okay? Let us help, trust usâ â
âPlease, save herâ â Jin was beyond consolable, but somehow found the strength to cry and nod his agreement, âIâll do as you say, pleaseâ â Chaewon gave him a small smile, getting up to see that the healers were at work already.
Yoongi who had followed Jin right behind, had already instructed the healers to check for your blood type and to begin transfusing blood, asking to have your injuries cleaned and medicated âand adding more treatments and tests that needed to be run.
The next 24 hours were very crucial for you and in a way, for Jin as well.
Jin had stuck to his word to not cause distress and by your side, eyes never leaving you as the tests were being done, as the wounds were cleaned and medicated, as the blood was transfused, as the anti-venoms were injected, and as you were oxygenated. He even stayed by your side as Chaewon cut out your filthy clothes, cleaned you and put you into hospital gown. Chaewon smiled gently as she saw Jin close his eyes and she changed your clothes, her heart tugging at the sweet gesture of the Alpha.
Jin had a few minor wounds too, which Chaewon tried to dress but was dismissed because you needed help more than him. It was evening the next day when Chaewon and Yoongi sighed a breath of relief at how things went. Jin had been an angel throughout, though an anxious and cautious one. You had stayed stronger than anyone could expect you to be, your vitals very stable for someone who was at the brink of death last night. Your multiple wounds were medicated, doses of anti-venom, blood and electrolytes already in your system plus the ongoing IV and the oxygen mask only adding strength to your bettering health.
âJin-Hyung,â Yoongi called him, hand on his shoulder, âWeâll be back yeah? The boys are waiting outside since last night, they wanna see you and your mate, weâll also need to give them an update,â Jin nodded at Yoongi, murmuring an okay.
Yoongi and Chaewon had stepped out, only to be ambushed by the Alphas.
âIs Jin-Hyung okay?â
âIs she okay?â
âSheâll live right? Jin-Hyung will live right?â
âThereâs no lasting health concern for both of them, right?â
Many such questions were thrown their way, and Chaewon shushed them, taking them away from the room. She didnât want Jinâs heightened hearing to pick up anything and to trigger him.
âJin-Hyung is stable, and her condition is stable âmiraculous for someone who was in the state she was.â Yoongi said, sighing in relief, âI wouldnât say she is all okay, but she is definitely healing at a much faster pace than I ever anticipated.â
âWhat has happened with her exactly?â Hoseok asked, âShe was a mess when I first saw her âItâs a miracle Jin-Hyung found her natural scent when sheâs covered in all the vampire filth and dirt.â
âYeah, she smells more vampire than human,â Jimin piqued, âShe⊠is human, right?â
âShe is human,â Yoongi said, âSheâs been fed on and has been captive among them in such horrendous conditions for long enough that it masked her scent, thatâs all.â
âSheâs all in one piece, right?â Taehyung asked hearing âfed onâ, remembering finding some bodies with missing organs.
âYeah,â Chaewon gave a small smile, âHer organs are intact,â
âBut that just raises more questionsââ Hoseok started, âWhat was she doing there? If she was kidnapped as a feed, why was she held captive for so long? All the captives we found alive were kidnapped in the last few days, she looks like she was there for weeks minimum.â
âWe canât actually conclude much on the circumstances of her capture without her telling us, butââ Chaewon said, âBut in my opinion, I think she was kept alive to make sure she produced enough blood to keep the supply going.â The boys collectively winced, feeling their stomach drop at the words, âShe was definitely physically abused, seen by the multiple wounds all over her body, fed on multiple times, seen by the bite marks on her neck, wrists and calves and ankles, starved and made to live in horrible conditions by those monsters.â
âThey didnât keep her around because they liked her,â Yoongi continued, âThey kept her around to harm her. Rest assured, Jin-Hyung isnât bonded to a perpetrator, but a victim.â The boys nodded, even looking a little embarrassed and guilty.
âWhen can we expect her to wake up?â Namjoon asked.
âIn a week or two maybe,â Chaewon said, âBut then again, this is assuming sheâll heal at a very stable and quick pace. I wouldnât be surprised if it took longer than that.â
âWill she be kept here till she wakes up?â Hoseok asked, âJin Hyung needs rest, I donât think heâll get any if heâs here.â
âWeâll be keeping track of how well sheâs faring with the treatment, I think we should be able to move her to your packhouse, preferably to Jinâs room, once sheâs stable enough to not need breath support.â Chaewon smiled, âItâll calm down Jin too, I think âto have his mate, in his den. Itâll do well for both of them.â
âI know thereâs a lot of questions and uncertainties around this,â Chaewon sighed continuing, âBut I think you need to trust in the Moon Goddess that sheâll not put any of us in harmâs way. For now, sheâs Jinâs mate, a human and in desperate need of our help. Treat her with the same kindness youâll treat Jin with.â
âWe will,â Namjoon smiled at her, âWe wouldnât treat her badââ
âI know, let her heal and wake up, I think all your questions will vanish when that happens.â Chaewon smiled, âGo and meet your Hyung now and then, get some food and rest.â She told the boys, âI have assigned some healers to her, theyâll be here overnight. Iâm always a call away, and Iâll see you tomorrow.â
The boys bid the lady bye and stood in silence thinking about what they heard.
âLetâs get in and meet Jin-Hyung,â Yoongi told his brothers. He knew how restless their wolves were, from all the fear and uncertainty drowning their oldest brother. Seeing him, talking to him and making sure heâs okay would definitely settle their nerves after all thatâs happened.
Yoongi led his brothers in, mind-linking them to not hover over Jin, but give him space and let him choose to respond or ignore. Bangtan chorused an agreement, cautiously stepping inside the room. Their eyes first fell on you, attached to medical equipment and their eldest Hyung, holding your hand in his, elbows on the bed, sitting on a chair. He looked tired, eyes swollen, face still red and his scent drenched in gloom and permeating the room. He didnât look at them, only making a sound when they called for him.
âAre you okay?â Jungkook asked voice on the brink of tears. Jin made a sound, suspiciously sounding like yeah. âIs your mate okay?â He continued and was met with silence.
âHer condition is stable,â Yoongi told Jungkook âmore like to Jin to reassure him, âI am going to freshen up, I think we all should,â He glanced at the rest, still in their bloodied and soiled clothes.
Namjoon sighed, âWe should also inform the pack leaders about everything that has happened and ask them to intimate the necessary details to the WSO.â
âCanât we stay with Hyung instead?â Taehyung asked, Jimin adding, âHe looks so broken, I donât wanna leave him alone.â
âWe can come back in,â Hoseok consoled the younger ones, âLetâs give them some alone time.â
It was truly a tough day for Bangtan âJin might be the one who found his mate in a near-dead condition and going through the traumatic situation, but as his brother, their wolves were linked and while they didnât feel all the pain he was feeling, they still were burdened with the pain he was feeling. And, truth be told, that burdening feeling was suffocating.
But they also knew, they couldnât let themselves be crushed. They had to be strong for their Hyung, and for you. You were a pack member now; your healing and health was their responsibility. They had a hundred questions for you, but that could wait till you were all okay to answer them.
You were moved to the Bangtan packhouse a few days into your treatment. You were off breath support and a little colour had returned your skin and your vitals were strong and stable.
Jin was elated to have you home, in his den. He had rushed to the packhouse after never leaving your side since finding you âto clean up his room to make it comfortable for you. He changed his usual sheets to the softest linens he could find; he cleaned his room he hadnât returned to in days, he set everything up so that when you wake up, youâd be the most comfortable.
He had made all his brothers stay with you while he came to the packhouse, telling them to call him and the healers if they felt anything was off. The boys had assured him they would, and that theyâd even have Chaewon in the room with them, if it made Jin feel safe enough to drive home and get things done. Jin had given them a grateful smile, the first one in days.
âHyung~â The youngest suddenly bawled, and threw himself on Jin, startling the older boy. Before Jin could say anything, Jimin and V had thrown themselves on Jin as well, in a weird hug situation.
âYah! Yah! Yah!â Jin exclaimed, âWhat is wrong with you three?â He shouted, but holding them in a hug nevertheless, somehow feeling that they probably needed it.
âWe are so glad you are okay!â Jungkook sobbed, eyes full of tears and voice choking, âand-and your mate.â
Jin softened, suddenly realising what this was about. He did know he wasnât acting himself the past few days, but it mustâve been on a different level if his younger brothers are so shaken.
âIâm okay,â He reassured them, hugging them tighter, âIâm sure my mate will be okay as well.â The three nodded, and Jin let them go, wiping their tears, as if they are still little kids and ruffling their hair like he always did when they were kids.
Just as he moved away, Hoseok shouted, âGroup hug!â and Jin finds himself crushed in a hug again.
Finding Jin cooking breakfast had become a rare sight these days. Mornings, for him, were usually reserved for attending to your needsâgiving you sponge baths, untangling your hair, and whispering gentle reassurances as you lay unconscious. His absence from the kitchen had certainly not gone unnoticed.
"Good morning," Yoongi greeted as he stepped into the kitchen, stopping abruptly in his tracks. His eyebrow quirked at the sight of Jin, who stood with his back to the room, entirely focused on the stove. "What are you cooking?"
"Good morning, everyone~" Hoseokâs voice rang out as he entered the kitchen and stopped short. His eyes widened in surprise. "Whatâs this? Back to being the chef of the house?"
Jin didnât even look up, his attention solely on the pot in front of him. "Good morning," he replied nonchalantly. "Love canât handle heavy meals first thing in the morning, right? So, Iâm making juk." He added with a hint of excitement, "Sheâs going to wake up today!"
Yoongi raised an eyebrow, intrigued. "And how do you know that?"
"Because I just do," Jin answered with unshakable certainty. His tone left no room for argument. "Sheâll be hungry, but heavy food isnât an option. Juk is gentle on her stomach, yet nourishing. Once I know what she likes, Iâll make meals to help her recover faster."
"Did the guys bring the groceries yet?" Jin asked, his eyes scanning the kitchen for the younger members. "I asked the farmers to drop off some dongchimi and white kimchi."
On seeing the puzzled expressions on the othersâ faces, Jin explained, as though it were the most obvious thing in the world, "Side dishes for Love. She canât handle spice; you all know that!"
Living on the outskirts meant their groceries came fresh daily from local farms. The deliveryâearthy vegetables, fragrant herbs, fresh cuts of meat, and a mix of side dishesâwas part of their commitment to supporting the nearby farming community. The responsibility of handling and storing everything fell to the younger three, a task they shared.
Just then, Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jiminâs voices echoed through the back door, the sound of boxes being carried signalling their arrival.
âYour grocery delivery is here~â they chorused, laughter in their voices over an inside joke only they shared.
"Jimin-ah," Jin called, looking over at the younger member. "Serve the dongchimi and white kimchi in the side dish plates, please."
"Yes, sir!" Jimin saluted with a grin. "One serving of dongchimi and white kimchi coming right up!"
"And pass me the eggs," Jin requested from Taehyung, who was carrying the carton of eggs.
"Are you making gyeran-jjim?" Taehyung asked, watching intently as Jin set a stone bowl on the stove.
"Yes," Jin replied, adding casually, "Protein for muscle growth. Sheâs lost so much weight already." His focus on you was unwavering.
Jungkook, who was carefully organizing vegetables in the crisper, couldnât help but overhear as Jin spoke so fondly of you. His curiosity had been bubbling ever since you were brought back, and hearing Jin speak with such certainty about you only deepened his intrigue.
Jimin, unloading other side dishes, raised an eyebrow at Jungkook's sudden stillness. "Eavesdropping again, Kookie?" he teased, placing lids onto containers before putting them away.
Taehyung, wiping fruit gently with a cloth, chuckled softly. "Can you blame him? Itâs not every day we see Jin-hyung this smitten. Itâs kind of adorable."
Jungkook shrugged, feigning indifference, though his eyes betrayed his interest. "I mean⊠Heâs been walking on air since she woke up. Youâd think she invented soup the way heâs been raving about her."
Taehyung let out a rich, warm laugh. "To be fair, itâs been a while since weâve seen him this happy. If his mateâs the reason for that, I say let him have his moment."
Jimin nodded in agreement, his smile softening. "Itâs nice, isnât it? After everything thatâs happened, seeing him like this feels... hopeful." The kitchen fell into a companionable silence, the rhythmic sounds of unpacking groceries filling the space.
âHyung,â Jungkook began hesitantly, his voice tinged with curiosity, âthis isnât the first time youâve just⊠known something about her.â
"Hyungâs gone full psychic mode since meeting his mate," Jimin teased with a grin, entering the kitchen with a fresh batch of washed cabbage.
Yoongi nodded thoughtfully. "Like when you insisted the healers move her to a quieter room because you said she couldnât rest properly with all the noise."
"And when you said the IV was too uncomfortable for her," Jimin added as he placed rice in a washbowl.
"Or when you noticed she was getting joint stiffness," Taehyung continued, a mix of awe and exasperation in his voice. "How do you even know that through a bond?!"
Jin didnât stop stirring, but he glanced up with a shrug. "I feel it," he said simply. "Her discomfort, her uneaseâitâs like it runs through me too."
"Hyungâs definitely more tuned in," Namjoon said, walking into the kitchen with a book tucked under his arm. He gestured toward the pile of freshly laundered blankets on the table. "You changed her sheets again yesterday, didnât you?"
"She needed them changed," Jin replied matter-of-factly. "Her skin is sensitive, and the old ones were beginning to irritate her."
Namjoon exchanged a look with Yoongi, both curious. "Itâs fascinating, honestly. Thereâs so little research about human-wolf bonds. What youâre describing feels like an extreme extension of the mate bond."
"Maybe itâs enhanced by her condition," Yoongi suggested, his gaze lingering on Jin.
"Or," Jimin said with a teasing grin, "Maybe itâs just Hyung being hopelessly smitten." He pulled out a chair and sat, a mischievous glint in his eye.
"Hopelessly devoted," Taehyung corrected. His voice was warm, his tone teasing yet fond. "Itâs kind of sweet, though. Seeing Hyung all flustered for once."
Jungkook smirked, "I mean, he did demand the healers bring in a softer IV, custom-made, just for her. Thatâs next-level dedication."
Jin shot them a pointed look, though there was no heat in it. "Laugh all you want, but she deserves the best care. Iâd do it all again."
"Of course you would," Hoseok said with a small smile. "Itâs what makes you, you, Hyung. But seriously, is this⊠heightened connection going to fade when she wakes up? Or will it stay like this?"
Jin set the spoon down and leaned against the counter, his expression softening.
"I donât know," he admitted. "Maybe itâll change, maybe it wonât. But what matters is that sheâs comfortable, happy, and healthy. Thatâs all I care about."
Namjoon leaned against the counter, deep in thought. "The mate bond is supposed to connect emotions, maybe intentions, but thisâŠ" He gestured toward Jin. "This feels like more than that. Youâre reading her like an open book."
Jin finally turned to face them; his features softer than theyâd ever seen. "Maybe itâs because sheâs human," he suggested quietly. "Or maybe itâs because sheâs in this state. I donât know, but it doesnât matter. Iâll do whatever she needs, whether itâs adjusting her roomâs temperature, helping with her muscles, or cooking for her."
Jimin crossed his arms, his curiosity piqued. "Do you think this connection will change once she wakes up? Will it fade to the usual mate bond weâre used to seeing?"
"I donât know," Jin admitted, but his tone was firm, resolute. "And I donât care. As long as sheâs comfortable, Iâll adapt."
Yoongi exchanged a glance with Jimin, unspoken questions lingering between them. While human-wolf bonds had been rare, theyâd existed before. But what Jin was experiencing felt unprecedented.
A sudden, subtle shift in Jinâs demeanour caught everyoneâs attention. He straightened, his eyes widening ever so slightly.
"Sheâs up." His voice was barely a whisper, but the certainty in it was undeniable.
"What?" Yoongi asked, startled. Jin didnât answer, but the excitement and happiness wafted off him. Without another word, he brushed past them, heading toward the stairs with purpose. The boys watched him go, a quiet understanding passing between them.
âWell," Namjoon said after a beat, breaking the silence, "I guess that confirms it."
"Confirms what?" Taehyung asked, raising an eyebrow.
"That the bond really is something else," Namjoon said in awe. "Heâs connected to her in ways we donât fully understand."
"Either that," Jimin teased with a grin, "Or heâs officially lost it."
Taehyung smiled warmly, his voice full of affection as he murmured, "I think itâs kind of beautiful."
The clean smell of the place you were in is the first thing you notice when you regain consciousness. Your eyes sting a bit at the sudden bright light streaming inside, and you squint them shut, whimpering a little as the pain begins to engulf your body. The soft sheets rubbing against your skin are only a little overwhelming, adding to the sensation of discomfort. Your heart begins to race, and despite your best efforts to calm yourself, the feeling of helplessness tightens around your chest.
You take deep breaths, trying to ease the pain away, but the pressure in your chest grows stronger with each passing second. Slowly, you begin to move your fingers, toes, and limbs, testing them one by one. A dull ache lingers in your joints, but it's manageable. That is, until you try to sit up. That's when you notice the IV attached to your hand, and a sharp pain shoots up your arm. The sudden sensation causes panic to spike within you, making you sit upright and your breath hitches, becoming shallow and erratic. Your heartbeat quickens, and your vision begins to blur.
You canât control the rising tide of panic. It spreads through your body like wildfire, and your chest tightens painfully, making it hard to breathe. Every muscle seems to seize with tension, and a quiet whimper escapes your throat. You desperately try to pull away from the IV, but your hands feel too weak, your body too uncooperative.
The room spins, and the soft sheets suddenly feel suffocating, too heavy against your skin. You try to blink away the tears welling in your eyes, but they come anyway, and soon, you're trembling uncontrollably. The panic is taking hold, and you donât know how to stop it. You just want to get away, to run, to escape the tight grip of fear wrapping around you. You shut your eyes hard and try to hold in the whimpers coming out of you when a voiceâcalm, gentleâcuts through the noise in your head.
âHey. Hey, itâs okay. Youâre okay. Iâm here.â Your mind struggles to process the words, your body still trembling with anxiety. But that voice, warm and steady, helps anchor you, even if only a little. "I'm not one of them; I'm not going to hurt you. You are okay now. You are away from those monsters now."
âEverything is alright,â The voice said again, âYou are gonna be okay,â The gentle voice then coaxed you into breathing in a patter, âTake a breath, yeah and exhale âcalm and steady,â The voice even peppering you with compliments as you felt yourself calm down.
âYou can open your eyes, if you feel better.â The voice, which now you recognise as a man, said âI promise, nothing is gonna hurt you again.â And you open your eyes, letting the last of the tears fall down.
You see a man crouching at the edge of your bed, a hard grip on the sheets. His posture seems tense, but he has a comforting smile on his face, eyes warm enough to burn you down.
âAre you feeling better?â His voice is gentle and kind, nothing like the people who kept you all those days. You take in his appearance, eyes tracing his features âhe was broad-shouldered, lean, and too handsome with pretty lips and eyes that radiate warmth and affection. He seemed kind and human, so you nod.
âDo you want water?â Now that he mentions it, your throat burns, and you realize just how thirsty you are. You nod again, watching warily as he pours water into a glass and approaches slowly, holding it out to you.
âHere,â he says. âTake your time.â
Your hand trembles as you reach for the glass. He doesnât comment, just holds steady until youâve taken it. The cool liquid soothes your throat, and you finish it quickly.
âDo you want more?â You hesitate. Asking for anything feels strange, wrong even. But the look in his eyes breaks something in you, a flicker of trust forming despite your fear.
âCan I?â you whisper. âPlease?â
âOf course, love.â His voice softens further at the term, heart breaking a little and he moves to refill the glass. You sip this one more slowly, your heart rate beginning to calm. When you set the glass down, he crouches to meet your eyes.
âHow are you feeling?â You think about it for a moment. Your head and body ache, but compared to before, thereâs a strange lightness in you. Youâre tired but awake, alive.
âBetter,â you say finally, your voice raspy from disuse. He smilesâa warm, breathtaking smile that makes your chest tighten.
âThatâs good. Does your head hurt?" Jin asks gently, his voice filled with concern. You nod slightly, wincing as the motion aggravates the pain.
"Yoongi said itâs a side effect of the anti-venom," You nod, but you donât press the about Yoongi or the venom. Instead, you focus on the immediate pain.
"A little bit," You admit, feeling the throb in your skull with every beat of your heart. âA lot bit.â
Jin nods sympathetically. "Are you hungry? We canât give you solid foods just yet, but I made a warm juk for you. I'll get it for you and ask Yoongi to check on you, too."
You try to nod, but before you can, Jin notices something and looks at you with a soft expression. "Waitâare you comfortable like this?"
"Hm?" You blink, confused.
"Let me help you," He says, leaning forward to adjust your pillows for you. The scent of his cologne âwarm and musky, overwhelms you for a second, and itâs enough to send your heart rate spiking. You canât stop the flutter of anxiety that bubbles up in your chest.
"Iâm sorry," he says quickly, sensing your unease. "I didnât mean to startle you. "You breathe a little easier, offering him a small smile.
"Itâs okay," You reply, your voice hoarse but steady.
âIâll be right back,â Jin grins and leaves you alone once again with your thoughts. A few minutes passes by and a soft knock on the door break the moment.
"Hi!â Another good-looking man was peeking into your room now, âIâm Dr. Min Yoongi. Can I come in?" The voice is calm and he offers a polite smile. You nod and he comes in, sitting on the side edge of your bed.
"Before I explain your condition, Ms..."
"Ahmi," You croak, your throat still dry, the sound of your name feeling foreign on your lips. "Yoo Ahmi."
"Thatâs a beautiful name," Jin says, nodding approvingly. He was standing at the door with a tray of food, smiles warmly at you. You catch his eyes, and for the first time since waking, you feel a strange sense of comfort.
âYes it is,â Yoongi agrees. "How old are you?" Yoongi asks, his gaze soft but clinical.
"Twenty-one," You answer, your mind still foggy.
"What are you feeling right now?" He presses gently, though you can hear the care in his voice.
"Everything hurts," you answer honestly, your voice shaking with the weight of it.
Yoongi nods. "Thatâs actually a good sign," he says, his voice reassuring. "It means the anti-venom is working. Did you drink water?â
You nod, âGood. Are you hungry?â You nod again.
âFor now, youâll be on a soft food diet since you were severely starved." He places a small cup of pills on the bedside table. "Iâve prescribed some medication for you. Take these, get plenty of rest, and if you feel anything strange, let me know. Iâll leave you to eat and rest then."
âBreakfast is served~â Jin sings, his voice a cheerful melody as he sets a bed table over your lap. His smile is warm and inviting, and the aroma of the food makes your stomach rumble in anticipation.
On the tray is a comforting bowl of juk, steaming and fragrant, accompanied by a small dish of dongchimi and white kimchi. Your mouth waters, and you donât realize how ravenous you are until you pick up the spoon. The first bite of the juk is like heavenâitâs creamy, savoury, and perfectly seasoned. The tangy crunch of the kimchi complements the soft porridge beautifully, and you canât help but let out a small, satisfied sigh.
âThis is delicious,â you murmur between bites, eating almost hungrily. âDid you make this?â
Jin grins, his chest puffing out slightly in pride. âOf course! A masterpiece by me.â
You chuckle softly, the sound unfamiliar to your own ears after so long. âIt really is,â You say, your voice genuine. âThank you. I canât remember the last time I had something this good.â
He beams at your compliment, watching you finish the meal with a satisfied expression. âIâm glad you like it. You need to eat well to recover.â
You clear the tray quickly, your hunger overpowering your self-consciousness. When the bowl is empty, Jin takes the tray away, setting it on the side table. He hands you a small glass of water and some pills. âHere,â he says softly. âThese will help with the pain and keep your recovery on track.â
You take the pills without hesitation, the water cools and refreshing as it soothes your throat. Jin lingers for a moment, then steps back, clearing his throat. âIf you feel up to it, you can take a shower,â he says. âEverything you need is in the bathroomâtowels, soap, shampoo, even a toothbrush. And I brought you some clean clothes, too.â
He motions toward a neatly folded set of clothing on a nearby chair. âThey might be a little big, but theyâll be comfortable.â
You look at him, a little overwhelmed by his kindness. âThank you,â you say softly, your gratitude evident in your voice.
Jinâs smile softens, and he waves a hand as if to brush off your thanks. âItâs no trouble, really. You deserve to feel a little better.â He glances toward the door. âIâll give you some privacy, but Iâll be right outside if you need anything.â
As he steps out, you feel a warmth in your chestânot just from the food but from the kindness of the man who has been nothing but patient and caring. The thought of a hot shower and fresh clothes fills you with a sense of normalcy, a small but comforting step forward.
"Thank you," you whisper, grateful for the calm, the space, the kindness.
"No problem," Jin replies softly, his eyes kind. "Rest now."
The door closes softly behind him, and you find yourself sinking back into the pillows, exhaustion pulling at you. You try to close your eyes, but then you pause.
"Wait," You scramble, your voice shaky, and a hint of embarrassment creeps up on you. "Your name... I donât know your name."
Jin pauses, looking mildly embarrassed himself. He chuckles lightly, turning red. "Oops! I didnât tell you?" He smiles sheepishly. "My name is Kim Seokjin."
"Jin," You say, the word like a breath of fresh air. Your heart flutters at finally having a name for the man who had been nothing but kind to you. "Thank you, Seokjin. Thank you... very much."
His smile is soft and full of warmth, and for the first time since you woke up, you feel a small sense of peace. "No need to thank me, Ahmi," he says, his voice filled with affection. "Iâm just happy youâre okay."
The boys watched with warm smiles as Jin hummed softly around the kitchen, his movements fluid and almost dance-like as he prepared dinner with care. It wasnât just any mealâit was a meticulously crafted recipe he had spent the whole day researching, ensuring it would nourish both your body and your heart. His joy was palpable, radiating from him in waves, and the others couldn't help but feel a sense of contentment just by being in his presence. After everything that had happened, after the panic of finding you, they were all grateful to see their oldest brother so happy.
Jin's delight only grew as he served the meal, taking great pride in presenting the braised chicken soupârich and healthy, just as he had planned. First, though, he made sure to serve you, his hands gentle as he placed the steaming bowl before you. When you tasted it, your eyes lit up, and you practically licked the bowl clean, a blush creeping up Jinâs neck at your praise. It was a moment of sweet simplicity that filled him with warmth, the love he felt for you shining in his gaze.
Hoseok, unable to keep his curiosity in check, asked, "How is your mate, Hyung?"
Taehyung, ever the observant one, leaned in. "Is she doing better?"
Jinâs face lit up like a beacon. "Yeah, she woke up," he said, a soft grin tugging at his lips. "Yoongi said she's doing better than anyone expected. Sheâs so strong, so sweet, so beautifulâmy mate." He nearly trembled with excitement as he rambled, his heart full. The boys couldn't help but smile, their gazes softening as they watched their older brother's joy unfold before them.
"What's her name?" Jimin asked, even though they all knew. Yoongi had already filled them in, knowing they needed to track down your family.
Jin sighed dramatically, his eyes sparkling with the same adoration they had seen him shower on you since the moment they learned of the bond. "Ahmi," he murmured, as if the name itself was a treasure. "A beautiful name for a beautiful person."
The boys nodded in agreement; their smiles affectionate as they watched Jin speak of you with such warmth. They had no reason to argueâhow could they, when the love in his voice was so evident?
It had only been a week since the bond had formed, but already, Jin had been swept up in the whirlwind of emotions that came with it. The connection between him and you were still new, still being tested and explored, and Jin hadnât fully adjusted to the effects of the bond. He had been so preoccupied with your chaotic recoveryâensuring you were safe, that you woke upâthat he hadnât yet allowed himself to truly settle into the changes that came with having a mate.
"But sheâs so sweet," he continued, his voice barely above a whisper, as though speaking too loudly might break the magic of the moment. "She said my name... I nearly fainted." He sighed dreamily, a soft chuckle escaping him. "And those eyes of hersâgorgeous. Iâm so lucky... so incredibly lucky to be bonded to her."
The boys watched him fondly, understanding the whirlwind of emotions Jin was experiencing. It was a bond unlike anything they could have expected for their older brotherâa love that had taken hold of him completely, sweeping him off his feet in the most beautiful, tender way. And, despite the chaos of the past week, they were happy for himâhappy that he had found someone who made him feel this way.
ânext chapter | chapter three
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14 January, 2025.
