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figured out how to use this website

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just ate a big cucumber in bed to unwind after a stressful day like it was a cigarette

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theres a post on here that went kinda viral about you, not telling which one, figure it out i guess..

Cheers pal thank you

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HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WEEK YALL !!! 🔥

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how to kind of cope with being an adult, especially with depression or any other mental health issues? I moved into my first apartment a couple months ago and I’m working and doing the things and the new excitement has now washed away and I keep being like… now what? I’m unsure what to look forward to or how to spend the time.. is being an adult just making rent and watching random bullshit and making sure you eat dinner? I’m trying all the things (walks, going to the movies, etc.) I just think a melancholy has set in where everything feels kind of empty once I’m home. Maybe I should be content with mundanity but it’s hard to not become depressed or anxious or see some sort of “purpose” now that I’m all by myself.

"a couple months" is still well within the adjustment period so I think what ur experiencing is normal. I mean tbh I've been out here for 5 years now and I am definitely still prone to this. but it aint as suffocating. Lowk my trick is just to find something that gets me excited for the next week. That way the constant cycle of eating, pissing and paying bills becomes a lot less daunting. It's also a great time to learn new skills. Really rewarding. Slowly I think things fall into place. Basically my point is: I feel like this still sometimes but there's never a moment where I regret moving out or I am desperately reaching back for a time that's gone.

I think my brain has finally evolved in some kind of way, cuz this year has SUCKED. I am depressed and exhausted, yet I wouldn't say this has impacted my view on the future like previously. I'm just kinda waiting for the storm to blow over. soooooo. yeah. It becomes easier. Hang in there and try new things!

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#tucked in to bed!

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My new Friends. My dear pals.

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i’ve received a lot of messages since my father passed. Many showing support and sharing their own stories whether it’s also to do with a distant parent or one they loved very much. I’ve read them all and just wanna send out my appreciation. The love i have received from the so called “dead dad club” has helped me a ton. I’ve been joking through a lot of it cus embracing the absurdity of this has been super helpful, but admittedly it’s also been very difficult and exhausting.

I wish everybody going through something like this could see all the messages i’ve seen. It does unfortunately feel super isolating knowing your family is filled to the brim with lunatics; so everyone’s stories were a nice reminder that (un)fortunately a lot of people can relate to this.

Sending love and warmth to you all!! we got this .

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Here’s a lighthearted post for all my followers with a silly side!!:

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🤘🏻👃🏻☝🏻

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why is the middle so big ?

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incredible sunset yesterday to end off a day i will never forget

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I’m sorry if this has been asked before but

Why did you stop posting on YouTube?

Honestly I burnt out on it because i was extremely unhealthy in my habits during it. Made some slop in the middle which was fun because it allowed me to do a lot of really cool stuff which i’m eternally grateful for. Never really imagined any of my life would be possible. After a while i transitioned into content that I felt genuinely proud of, but then I started getting intense anxiety whenever I’d start working on something so I kept putting it off. Nothing i worked on really ever felt right which partly, i’m sure,was driven by self doubt and overthinking. I just really didn’t feel like I had anything new or interesting to contribute to the scene after a certain point. Now a lot of time has passed and with it I am an entirely different person from when I last pressed upload. My interests and priorities have shifted, so it’s generally just not something i’m interested in anymore.

I enjoy streaming to my small community. Lots of eyes really stresses me out these days. My chat is full of interesting and funny people and generally speaking i feel pretty satisfied with all that. I think the most important lesson in life is to understand when you’re at a good place with something! So yeah., I’m just happy that there’s a community around the streams which people enjoy. Life can be cruel and cold sometimes, so i’m glad it’s a place where people can sometimes run away to.

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One more update on the hacking saga. If your microsoft account ever gets hacked, do NOT ask them for help because they will just ban your account and tell you to end your life. Which means my minecraft account is just GONE LOL. When i asked if they could atleast recover the minecraft account their answer was: “No, just buy a new one. “ Amazing!!

Although there is a positive to this. After the horrendous response from Microsoft, I tried to weasel a resolution through Xbox support. Unfortunately Hari could not assist me, but we forged a friendship. We will be going to Portugal together this summer to celebrate new beginnings and to heal from this horrific Attack which has taken place.

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Ok i just realised this was the username Microsoft pulled from my account for my conversation with Hari. No wonder we hit it off so well .

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One more update on the hacking saga. If your microsoft account ever gets hacked, do NOT ask them for help because they will just ban your account and tell you to end your life. Which means my minecraft account is just GONE LOL. When i asked if they could atleast recover the minecraft account their answer was: “No, just buy a new one. “ Amazing!!

Although there is a positive to this. After the horrendous response from Microsoft, I tried to weasel a resolution through Xbox support. Unfortunately Hari could not assist me, but we forged a friendship. We will be going to Portugal together this summer to celebrate new beginnings and to heal from this horrific Attack which has taken place.

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Brev the guy who hacked my twitters gifted 3 months of twitter premium to my alt so now i got that blue check mark . Actual fucking humiliation ritual.

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Sorry to disappoint all my beautiful fans but I am NOT starting my own cryptocurrency. I have been the repeated victim of a cyber crime! But it should all be Okay now. This Mf tried to Scam bernie sanders

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Those phases in your life where you own your consciousness for about an hour after waking up and an hour before going to bed. the rest is auto pilot 🔥🔥🔥🔥 When did I even put these pants on. Who knows…but thank god I did !