All the Spaces in Between the Spaces

human/anxiety ridden/ spacey as fuck been here before but back to see what trouble i can get myself into. /married / Bi/open/little/kink positive/ supporter of people just not assholes :). On a journey of therapy for anxiety, adhd, trauma, and depression. my therapist says i need more of a community, and i am introverted weird and that is hard for me. Would love to meet like minded people for friendships here! The blog is sfw!!! Random stuff i enjoy,like,love. Stuff about my life and all the spaces in between. I repost things, if its yours and you need me to remove let me know. Ill give credit ect just posting things i like looking at ect come say hi, ask questions ect.

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Ok I must stop procrastinating and go do my work out before showering and work. How can one fit a 30 min workout into 15 minutes? Asking for a friend... 🙃

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THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS 1993 | Henry Selick

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I am starting to get discouraged by working in the healthcare industry. I am in school for a business admin degree with a focus on healthcare. I am thinking about switching to merchandising and sales industry. I feel pretty sad about it though.

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My self care this morning is doing my nails even though I should be showering and rushing to make sure my nails are dry and I can shower and get to work on time. Maybe I should rethink this. My day will probably consist of being yelled at my patients, being confused by providers not knowing how to do parts of their jobs. Being exhausted by lunch but also being happy about lunch because I am on a weird cucumber salad kick and I get to go for a walk since it's finally semi nice outside. I am trying to take care of myself more since it's been a hard weekend with a love of family issues and my head is just ready to explode. Anyone have tips on how to talk to one self to say ok so this is happening and you did what you could at this time and to be ok with it. Or using the drawer method to place things in for later. I am doing better at it put still struggling. My therapist wants me to start seeing someone for emdr therapy and I am a bit terrified not sure why. Maybe mostly because I never really can explain anything going on in my head or my emotions.

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I am back and determined to stay this time! Little updated for my 2 followers! I am almost done with school yay. Aug 23 is the end date. I started therapy 2 months ago and it's pretty exhausting and scary but I keep showing up for myself. We got this one day at a time.

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I haven't been around in a while cause, well, life!

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Me starting to read my first book, for my first class starting in Jan for my Bachelors degree first class is a cultural awareness class. Trying to figure out my culture/self-identity as I listen/read this thing and all I got is a blob. Ima blob people. Love learning out others cultures and ethnic backgrounds and what makes them tick though so that's a plus just not myself really : (. I think if I had to put myself in an identity it would be a nervous hairy chunkie frizz ball. Part Native American/part German with some others splattered in there. Know next to nothing about my family and we were never much into anything traditional/religious/ or cultural wise. Sadly since I would like to know more about where I come from. It's weird having to think about me in this way since it was never really a thing.

So anyone just want to talk to me about them and their identities/cultures/ethnic backgrounds etc.

I do sometimes envy cultures where the family is super tight-knit and it's like it takes a village type thing. Although I see how that could be hard as well for people. We as people are so complex and just identifying as multifaceted is a good way to place it. Ever changing... The world changes second by second, day to day, etc people should be able to change and be what they are/who they are as they choose or even not choose since really we are who we are who we are in all the changing fascinating ways. We should not be afraid to ourselves whatever that is. The world is scary though and the pressure to be or not to be something is so high and sad but the world is changing and maybe for the better maybe someday. We can only hope one day it will and we won't have any one person judge anyone else.

Ok maybe the pit bulls of the world can judge with those judgy eyes.

Love one another no matter age/race/sex/identity/religion/culture/ethnicity it's all just a messy mix up and maybe one day we will be ready.

Sorry started to ramble there. Have a good night world

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Always and forever chasing that.

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Sorry but I can't with this.