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But like, i’m always gonna take offense to that. Putting myself in that position and not having someone there with me genuinely irks me. Not physically there, but psychologically there. Just as impaired as me. Being in that position is the one thing that i genuinely hate. And it’s just a thing now. People are noticeably tired of me in that state, so i never want to be in that state. There’s nothing more vulnerable than being the court jester and no longer having control of your body. Especially when you thought you were gonna be part of a troupe.

Like, i’m not comfortable with it because i’m just submitting myself to my middle school trauma all over again. It’s just not a fun thing.

kevin leader is a stalking asshole

as many of may know, i blocked kevin leader on everything i know to. i guess it seems kind of odd as my policy on friends is usually "once you pass a certain threshold you're in for life."

so here's why:

A little while ago kevin admitted on facebook that he has in the past been attracted to underage women and discussed it. Since i was privy to the knowledge before hand i was only shocked he let that out on facebook.

Earlier this week or sometime last week he posted a lengthy post about how he thought pedophile was an unnecessarily hurtful term and grouped the ones who "just loved kids" and the ones who want to have sex together. He proposed that the ones that want to have sex with kids be called pedosexuals and the rest be called pedophiles.

Until this point i thought kevin was trying to be a better person. i spent a long time trying to get him to stop being creepy and stalking and shit, though it strained the relationship to where i didn’t really like talking to him. The whole post gave me the most clear feeling that i needed to end the friendship and there would be no compromises, no talking, no nothing. So after around four hours of letting it sit to find out if i truly felt that way i unfriended him. Then i went to sleep because that's a lot of emotional weight and it was either that or cry.

Less than an hour later kevin sent a friend request to my sister. Three or four hours later i awoke to my sister asking who he was and informed me of the request. I told my sister a summarized version of this and suggested she delete the request.

I was pissed. So i naturally couldn't focus my thoughts on anything else and fucked around for a little while keeping myself busy.

Shortly after i got on facebook that next day, kevin messaged me asking what was wrong and asked to talk and tried to tether it to the situation i had known of before and that he would never have done that to her.

I firmly told him this was in no way related to that, that this was a me-centric decision, and that next time he wanted to talk to me he needed to talk to ME and not try to go through some backdoor to try to get in my head.

Kevin said that it was coincidence because he was "sending out a bunch of friend requests that day". He didn't however, tell me that he messaged my brother to ask what was up with me before making any effort to talk to me.

After one of my close friends talked with me yesterday i blocked kevin on everything, and i have been informed that kevin has a habit of stalking women and it wasn't just the one friend i knew.

So now every time i think of kevin i get angry not just because he does that shit, but because he lied to me and didn't seek help on the things that matter. And kept telling me he valued our friendship but then never listened to me when i'd tell him how to not be such a creepy stalker. He'd act like he was going to change and then i find out later he kept doing the same heinous shit for months after we talked.

So i'm done with kevin. He and i are not friends and we never will be again.

tl;dr i dropped kevin because he's a borderline pedophile (or becoming one), and he lied to me, and stalked/harassed one of my friends.

#kevin indra leader #stalkers #stay away #fuck that guy #borderline #pedophile #warning #to whom it may concern #spreading the word #kevinindraleader #manipulative #jackass #used us to sate his ego

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I know how “introvert culture” is pretty popular on this site but there’s a lot of misconceptions

Introverts get drained from being with other people and recharge their “social battery” by being alone

Extroverts charge their “social battery” being around other people

It has nothing to do with how shy/outgoing you are. You can be an outgoing introvert who loves parties but ultimately needs to recharge at home before going out again. You can be a shy extrovert who gets their energy from 1-2 close friends.

If u think ur an introvert bc you can’t go outside/have panic attacks/cannot answer the phone you could have an anxiety disorder and

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100 Random Character Development Questions

001. When is their birthday? 002. Do they do anything to celebrate their birthday? 003. Does your character like coffee better, or tea? 004. Do they prefer being alone or with others? 005. Are they in good health? 006. What sense do they most rely on? 007. Is your character an optimist or a pessimist? 008. What is their favorite fairy tale? 009. Do they believe in happy endings? 010. Do they believe in love at first sight? 011. How would your character court the person of their dreams? 012. What makes your character embarrassed? 013. Have they ever been bullied or teased? 014. Detail one secret shame your character feels. 015. Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? 016. What is their choice of weapon? 017. When does your character think that violence is justified or deserved? 018. Your character wakes up to find that war has been declared. What do they do? 019. If they could have a superpower, what would they choose? 020. What are their hobbies? 021. How do they display affection? 022. What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen? 023. What do they consider beautiful in others physically? 024. What do they consider ugly in others physically? 025. What do they consider beautiful in others personality-wise? 026. What do they consider ugly in others personality-wise? 027. What is their idea of perfect happiness? 028. What makes them laugh out loud? 029. What sort of sense of humor does your character have? 030. Do they believe in the afterlife? 031. Are they superstitious about anything? 032. Does your character believe in ghosts? 033. Do they keep their promises? 034. What’s their view of lying? 035. What is the most important rule your character lives by? 036. How honorable is your character? 037. If your character saw someone drop a large sum of money and knew that they could probably take it without anyone noticing, what would they do? 038. What bad habits do they have? 039. What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person? 040. What is their obsession? 041. Are they comfortable with technology? 042. What is their greatest achievement? 043. What will they stand up for? 044. What disgusts them? 045. Does your character have any chronic medical conditions? 046. How do they handle getting sick? 047. What was the last medical problem your character had? 048. Do they have any allergies? 049. How does your character feel about growing old? 050. How does your character feel about their own mortality? 051. If they knew they would die tomorrow, what would they do today? 052. What is your character’s worst flaw? 053. What is your character’s greatest strength? 054. Does your character want power or authority of any kind? 055. Is your character an introvert or an extrovert? 056. Has your character ever struck someone in anger? 057. Has your character ever killed anyone? 058. What is your character’s idea of a perfect day? 059. List several phrases your character is fond of uttering. Where did they pick them up? 060. What is your character’s attitude toward education and learning? 061. Does your character prefer adventure or safety and security? 062. What sort of legacy does your character wish to leave behind? 063. How well does your character handle difficult people? 064. In what ways does your character annoy others? 065. Is your character better at leading or following? Which do they prefer? 066. Does your character prefer city life or being out in nature? 067. Does your character believe in fate or destiny? 068. How strong is your character’s sense of responsibility? What kinds of things trigger it? 069. What about your character is heroic? 070. What about your character is cowardly? 071. How kind is your character? 072. In a Dungeons & Dragons game, which class would your character be? (wizard, fighter, bard, priest, ranger, etc.) 073. In a novel, what plot role would your character fill? (hero, anti-hero, sidekick, villain, etc.) 074. What is your character’s favorite game? 075. Is your character ticklish? 076. How do they express anger? 077. How often do they cry? Over what? 078. How emotionally stable is your character? 079. How easy is it for them to read the emotions of others? 080. How easy is it for others to read your character’s emotions? 081. Is your character religious? 082. What are your character’s sleeping preferences? 083. What is the first thing they say and/or do when they wake up? 084. Describe your character in one word. 085. Describe your character in three words. 086. How would your character describe themself in one word? 087. How would your character describe themself in three words? 088. Is your character quiet or loud? 089. How vocally expressive is your character? 090. How bodily expressive is your character? 091. What type of music does your character like? 092. What emotion does your character evoke in others? 093. What is your character’s goal in life? 094. Name three things most would not expect your character to be able to know. 095. Name three things most would not expect your character to be able to do. 096. How do they move and carry themselves? What energy do they project? 097. How well do they adapt to change? 098. Does your character like animals? 099. Do they talk to inanimate objects? 100. Does your character dream? If so, what do they dream about?