Little Oblivions- Julien Baker
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TW: Talk of Suicide, addiction
Iâm a very avid fan of Phoebe Bridgers. Who isnât? I mean, âMotion Sicknessâ is absolutely sick and the lyricism in great. Through Phoebe, I found Boygenius, an absolute powerhouse of a supergroup comprised of Phoebe Bridgers, Lucy Dacus, and Julien Baker. I went straight from Phoebeâs discography to Lucyâs and for some reason, I put off listening to Julienâs. Iâm not sure why I did this, because I realize now I was definitely missing out.
Julienâs lyricism is absolutely fucking insane. All of the Biblical imagery and just the regular imagery is enough to send any of my former English teachers into a coma. This album was pure perfection and my Cancer moon had me crying throughout the entirety of the album. Every track is just gorgeous.
The first track, âHardlineâ details Bakerâs trouble with addiction and relapsing. Deciding that the relapse is inevitable, Baker realizes this and rather than fighting it decides to start âasking for forgiveness in advance/For all the future things Iâll destroy/That way I can ruin everything/When I do, you donât get to act surprised.â This line absolutely hit me hard. Also the line about splitting the difference between medicine and poison. Baker realizes this addiction is poison and is affecting her personal relationships, but she needs the numbness that comes with the drug.
The second track, âHeatwaveâ is a total bop and carries the same strong imagery thatâs implemented throughout all of the tracks. Her detailing the âgruesome beautyâ she sees in every face. Growing up as a conservative Christian, Baker recognizes the Godliness in everyoneâs face but realizes that underneath all of it, humans are ugly. This concept of ugliness and sin comes up a lot. I love the bit about wrapping Orionâs belt around her neck and kicking the chair out from under her. This is such a creative way of talking about suicide.
I loved âFaith Healerâ and the equating of heroin as this sortâve magical cure or âsnake oil,â tying it back to âHardline.â This album feels like a book, each song building off of the other like chapters and adding onto the plot. The line about the smoke alarm going off, but nobody coming to put out the fire (i.e. her) was devastating.
I loved âRelative Fictionâ just for the line about if Baker didnât have a mean bone in her body, she would still find a way to hurt those she loves, so her pretending to be this good person is a moot point in the long run because she still manages to damage those she cares for. I canât explain this song nearly as well as she can, so hereâs this:
A personal favorite of mine is âBloodshotâ because it details two broken people that are so lonely, theyâre willing to overlook all of their flaws and romanticize them in order to fill whatever role they need. I really related to this song.
âSong in Eâ I think takes my personal cake. I was hardcore sobbing when it came on. This idea that itâs easier for the people you love to just shun you and hurt you because itâs easier to see them angry than disappointed. It makes you feel like a shitty person when you hurt them and then you get second chance after second chance and then when you cry in front of them it feels manipulative.
Overall- this album was great and I think it might be my favorite album from the Boygenius members (I canât decide if I like it more or the same as Punisher, but I definitely related to this album more).