hiding behind metaphor

alex | he/soul/they | 27 | NO AI/NFTs. art blog. i love my characters more than myself. see pinned. blog header by greypij.

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Alex, he/soul/they, 27. Art blog. Additional info under the cut.

NO AI/NFTs. Do not repost my work to other sites.

Sheezy / Ungenerated / Toyhouse / ArtFight / Ko-Fi

Longtime hobbyist. Actually a tiger, avid gamer, fiction adorer, & dragon fanatic. Hates lineart but still does it, no consistent subject matter outside of my own characters, guy of a thousand sketches.

I love my characters. A lot. (though I do have a very obvious favourite!)

I use a Wacom Intuos Pro (M), Clip Studio Paint (old version), sometimes Paint Tool SAI 2, and various traditional tools.

Do not draw my characters without permission*. *Unless we're close/mutuals/for ArtFight. Not open to trades/collabs/requests.

Just a note: I'm plural and one of our system members has a personal sideblog. If you get an ask from this blog and it's signed as 'Ryley', that's why.

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Really messy doodles.

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I forgot to say thanks for 75+ followers on here, BTW. So, thank you for the support, everyone! 💖🥺

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Oh hey, my birthday is in exactly a month. (August 15th)

You know, as somebody who spent a very long time being afraid I'd never see my 18th birthday, turning 28 is pretty damn cool.

I have complaints, yeah, but I'm still here, I have a stable life, I have my hobbies, I have my loved ones, I have art and video games, so. Go me!

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This was gonna look different but I lost the vision halfway through.

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I love joining a new website and subjecting a whole new audience and group of people to just how much I hopelessly adore my main character.

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sunchild.

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I'll remain most active here and on Sheezy, but come join me on this new art website I just discovered, it seems promising so far!

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I just remembered Pincurchin exists, so I made a character out of one. Colours are based on a fire urchin. Its name is Spitfire.

Really becoming a huge fan of Pokemon that are just this:

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i choose to believe, i was made to become, a sanctuary.

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Shaggy mane mushroom (inky cap) Breloom. Their name is Blot.

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Quick little in between attack for @aldredite

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sun-dappled.

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X3 I had to draw the aquarium kitty! HEHEHEHEEH Art Fight attack for @aldredite Speedpaint HERE

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Hi @aldredite (artfight attack)

kept things on the simpler side this year! he does not have a mouth because artfight is not on mouth budget (and doubly because sonic characters thrive in have expressive mouths, so a hand drawn mouth would suite him better) but it wouldn't be hand to animate in blender with the grease pencil!

The politest character to be modeled ever :> ty alex for behaving!

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circular.

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cloth - green and orange - strings - an exercise in self love Poems about a certain somebody. Text versions under the cut.

if we're cut from the same cloth yours, made of golden silk expertly spun and carefully woven; yet mine, of scraps and pieces scattered across the boarded floor and now i find myself in the humbling (and incredible) place of watching you, constantly thin the spool to make me gilded

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what a terrible sadness he might carry (one he would never admit to) that he can't see himself without a broken pair of eyes unless looking through somebody else's

and what a wonderful joy he might be handed (one he could never accept) to be delivered himself at a banquet table and from a silver spoon

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i can never tell if you're a metaphor, or if i'm a simile (i don't think i'll ever answer the latter) but i know that whatever you are, i'm hiding behind you, behind a sword and a shield, behind hands that would cut through hellfire and back just to take mine, and have them cease cease the shaking, the grasping at nothing, the clenched fists, the clawing, that has left gouges in everything i have ever loved the hands that can't loosen their grip on anything (least of all your own) i (we) can only hope, pray, beg that i never have to let go

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and if i can't hate myself into some fantastical version i can love if i can't mould myself into a shape that satisfies my grand, artistic vision and if i can't trust myself into a person i can truly, deeply believe in i will love you instead (and maybe, someday, somehow, i'll catch up to you, and stand beside you.)