piss n vinegar

the stars of heaven, awesome in their majesty, are not more wonderful than the one who charts their courses

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Drew Barrymore photographed by Mario Sorrenti, 1996

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LOVE ME TODAY BY TRACEY EMIN, 1997

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“It wasn’t a secret.  The first day we met I told her I was bisexual, and that I’d been with men and women my entire life.  At the time she shrugged it off.  And it wasn’t an issue for the first ten years of our marriage.  The relationship was perfectly loving and stable.  But then I don’t know, something happened.  It wasn’t a particular man.  I never cheated on her.  It was something abstract.  I just missed relationships with men.  So I told her.  I was honest.  But when I uttered that thing it was like a bomb went off.  She turned away her face like she’d been slapped very hard.  It caused her so much pain.  She lost a lot of weight.  We cried and cried and cried about it.  For three years we cried.  We’d meet at Starbucks every day and cry in front of everyone.  We didn’t live together after that.  And we were never sexual again.  But we were still intimate.  We still took a lot of naps together.  I always held her.  We’d go shopping and walk arm-in-arm.  She kept my last name and called me her gay husband.  Her health began to deteriorate in 2007.  It was a nerve disease.  She lost her hearing.  Then her sight.  And I took care of her.  She always told me to forget about her.  To go out there and find a good guy.  But I stayed by her side.  We’d never officially gotten divorced, which helped in the end.  They let me in the hospital room as her husband.  I wasn’t allowed to touch her, but I was right next to her as she died, breathing with her.  It’s been two years now.  I’ll move away soon.  There’s nothing left in this city for me.  But first I’m going to have a ceremony in Central Park, and give an envelope of her ashes to everyone who loved her.  I don’t know whether to call her my wife.  It’s not important to me.  Alexandra was the love of my life.”

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[artist-chagall]

Meeting of Ruth and Boaz, 1960, Marc Chagall

Medium: lithography,paper

[hirxeth]

Laurence Anyways (2012) dir. Xavier Dolan

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Patrick Clelland / instagram

[aleveliquidgels]

todays thoughts

i want to start a commune and i want to give up any sense of individualism and self-importance to just foster good environments and a better world and society. unfortunately though i think i am much too selfish despite crying once a day about my fears of being a bad person even though logically i know i’m pretty good

not in an original sin type way but i am not sure if any of us can ever actually be truly good people given the way the world is set up. we need a whole new restructuring.

i do not believe in hell and i am terrified i am going to go there!

i wish to transcend time and space and i know nothing about science or honestly anything but sometimes i believe i’ll figure out how

i love the world and hate it deeply 

intimacy is very very interesting and i don’t think i’ll ever understand it. i think friendship is the only true intimacy.

 sex is cool but i don’t think that if sex is involved real intimacy can be achieved. i wonder if sex that takes itself seriously as Sex where two people don’t feel ashamed of Performing Sexuality for eachother (but, the key word there is performing) or sex that is just straight up sex for pleasure that doesn’t need or ask for performance where such a performance would feel unnatural

i wish emotions between people could be consistent

it is important to recognize that we are all humans who make mistakes who hurt each other often by accident. it is important to recognize that that is okay, that good and bad come hand in hand, and that all we can do is learn from our mistakes and act out of love and trying to teach and love each other

[aleveliquidgels]

michael cera’s hot ones interview has me crying he said the sentence “i was annoyed recently at a farmers market because there was a woman selling soups” obviously there is more but he takes a pause to chew and i lost it

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Dusty Ray aka Dusty Ray Paints aka Sloppjockey_ert (American, based Fort Collins, CO, USA) - Crybby, 2018  Paintings: Gouache, Watercolors on cold press Watercolor Paper

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Womanhood b like: *performs femininity n suddenly everyone’s nicer to u*

[coffeyunplugged]

FIRST STATE TO COMPENSATE EUGENICS VICTIMS

Over a period of 45 years, North Carolina forcibly sterilized 7,600 people it deemed mentally or socially unfit. Now, 39 years since the state’s eugenics program ended in 1974, it will finally make reparations, with lawmakers earmarking $10…

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LISTEN: IF YOU KNOW ANYONE WHO IS A VICTIM OF N.C. EUGENICS OR WAS IMMEDIATELY EFFECTED BY IT THEN YOU NEED TO APPLY FOR THESE REPARATIONS. 

YOU NEED TO APPLY

THERE IS AN INCREDIBLY SMALL AMOUNT OF APPLICANTS AND THE DEADLINE IS IN JUNE

PLEASE BOOST!!!!!

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I’m just waiting for it to kick in (hasn’t taken anything)

[tomhordy]

AMY ADAMS  for Band of Outsiders 2012

[mariamedem]

Illustrations for New York Times about regret and how to stop it. Thanks to art director Agnes Lee!