*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon
* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*
@alexianon
Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?
I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*
Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine
I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite
Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*
Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*
I can’t wait to see that *I grin*
Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird
I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*
* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute
You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*
You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that
I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*
I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*
Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy
I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*
*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think
Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*
*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*
*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen
There’s a first time for everything *I tease*
* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is
But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*
No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment
Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time
* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place
I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there
Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*
*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it
Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*
It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*
Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot
You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*
* I pull you in for another hug and smile*
*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*
I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*
Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*
Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*
Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*
* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right
It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*
I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess
It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*
* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*
*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*
* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*
*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*
You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe
I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you
I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*
Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe
You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…
*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good
Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*
that makes me happy to hear *I grin*
It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever
I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*
* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked
Which makes it all that more special *I grin*
It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*
Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*
It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*
Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*
* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*
Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*
Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason
Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*
Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry
You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way
Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here
*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*
I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves
You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*
I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*
*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way
* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi
You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*
* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too
Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*
That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*
*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine
Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*
Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*
* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*
*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*
That took a lot for me to do * I admit*
I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*
* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*
*I gently pet your silky hair*
I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*
Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this
I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*
*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way
Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*
That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this
That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*
*I lean into your touch* I like being around you
I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you
I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*
* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*
*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*
I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot
Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*
Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*
I’m very glad we can *I whisper*
Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*
*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*
I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*
I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose
They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*
*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~
Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby
I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*
My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it
The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby
I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*
It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*
* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*
You’re so sweet *I whisper*
I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*
You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*
Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*
Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~
I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….
By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this
Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*
Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever
The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*
It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*
* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good
I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*
* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*
*I smile before I press my lips against yours*
* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this
Me too *I smile* It’s the best
I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*
I know what you mean *I smile*
* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*
*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*
I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*
You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*
* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh
*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*
* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that
Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*
* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~
*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!
* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh
*I purr happily against your lips* The best~
I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*
To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*
* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?
*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really
* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh
*I grin* The best~
Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*
*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us
It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy
Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile
Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever
I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*
* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do
You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*
I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*
*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy
* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh
This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*
It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*
Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*
Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*
*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*
* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*
*I gently run my fingers through your hair*
* I shudder and hum against your lips*
*I nibble softly on your lower lip*
* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*
Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*
No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before
Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~
I really like it * I whisper and smile*
Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*
I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*
It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*
It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*
I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!
You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*
Thank you *I murmur*
You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*
*I scrunch my nose and grin* Mmm cheek kiss!
That was good? *i whisper softly and smile*
It was so good *I murmur happily*
i’m glad i can do that… i didn’t know i could… you look nice when you smile * i look over at you and just stare at your face with a dweeby smile on my face*
Yeah? It’s funny, cause I feel the same way about yours…it could light up a room *I grin*
Me? light up a room? maybe there was a reason we were both in the looney bin * i tease softly and brush the hair from my face* you’re actually sunshine
*I chuckle at your remark* Mmm maybe so, we’re two peas in a pod then *I tease, giving you a soft smile* You think so?
