Trying Again

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[connor-murphy-askblog]

Important Rules and Notes

•In this portrayal of Connor, he is alive and going on with his life as a young adult (Early-Mid Twenties)

•This blog will contain occasional themes of self-harm/ suicide, but it will be mentioned in passing. The intention is that it is a part of Connor’s story, but not the focus. I do not want to dwell on the topic as it is sensitive for me and others, but cannot be erased entirely from Connor’s story.

•I am not a mental health professional. Seeking cheering up or general advice is one thing. However, I am not capable of aiding a mental health crisis and implore you to seek professional help.

I will repeat this.

I am not a mental health professional, if you are in a state of mental health crisis, seek professional help.

•Anon is on and DM’s will be accepted. Though my willingness to participate in interaction will depend on your willingness to respect my personal boundaries.

Thank you

-S

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*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I smile softly* You’re right

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I think it’s good that we agree… sometimes it’s hard to think you deserve something…

[ellie-gray-anon]

It is, and tryin got retrain your mind can be hard *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

you seem like you’ve done a good job though * i whisper and smile* it’s nice

[ellie-gray-anon]

Thanks *I whisper* I guess….maybe I’m good at making it look put together on the outside

[connor-murphy-askblog]

yeah… sorry i don’t mean to make it sound like you dont go through all the brain stuff * i whisper and fiddle with one of my rings* i-i know you do..

[ellie-gray-anon]

It’s ok *I say softly* I don’t take offense, I promise *I assure you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Of course you don’t * i look down at my lap and scratch the back of my head* You’re made of something else… or I am… * i chuckle softly and shake my head* you’re just something else Ellie

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I can’t help but giggle softly and tap my chin for a moment* Oh, I like that….I’m something else…I think that works perfectly

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s something else but also i’m the best way * i mumble and smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Thank you *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I scrunch my nose and grin* Mmm cheek kiss!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That was good? *i whisper softly and smile*

[alexianon]

It was so good *I murmur happily*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

i’m glad i can do that… i didn’t know i could… you look nice when you smile * i look over at you and just stare at your face with a dweeby smile on my face*

[alexianon]

Yeah? It’s funny, cause I feel the same way about yours…it could light up a room *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me? light up a room? maybe there was a reason we were both in the looney bin * i tease softly and brush the hair from my face* you’re actually sunshine

[alexianon]

*I chuckle at your remark* Mmm maybe so, we’re two peas in a pod then *I tease, giving you a soft smile* You think so?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i few my cheeks turn dark pink and I nod softly* We are… and you really are

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Thank you *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I scrunch my nose and grin* Mmm cheek kiss!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That was good? *i whisper softly and smile*

[alexianon]

It was so good *I murmur happily*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

i’m glad i can do that… i didn’t know i could… you look nice when you smile * i look over at you and just stare at your face with a dweeby smile on my face*

[alexianon]

Yeah? It’s funny, cause I feel the same way about yours…it could light up a room *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me? light up a room? maybe there was a reason we were both in the looney bin * i tease softly and brush the hair from my face* you’re actually sunshine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I smile softly* You’re right

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I think it’s good that we agree… sometimes it’s hard to think you deserve something…

[ellie-gray-anon]

It is, and tryin got retrain your mind can be hard *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

you seem like you’ve done a good job though * i whisper and smile* it’s nice

[ellie-gray-anon]

Thanks *I whisper* I guess….maybe I’m good at making it look put together on the outside

[connor-murphy-askblog]

yeah… sorry i don’t mean to make it sound like you dont go through all the brain stuff * i whisper and fiddle with one of my rings* i-i know you do..

[ellie-gray-anon]

It’s ok *I say softly* I don’t take offense, I promise *I assure you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Of course you don’t * i look down at my lap and scratch the back of my head* You’re made of something else… or I am… * i chuckle softly and shake my head* you’re just something else Ellie

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Thank you *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I scrunch my nose and grin* Mmm cheek kiss!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That was good? *i whisper softly and smile*

[alexianon]

It was so good *I murmur happily*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

i’m glad i can do that… i didn’t know i could… you look nice when you smile * i look over at you and just stare at your face with a dweeby smile on my face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I smile softly* You’re right

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I think it’s good that we agree… sometimes it’s hard to think you deserve something…

[ellie-gray-anon]

It is, and tryin got retrain your mind can be hard *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

you seem like you’ve done a good job though * i whisper and smile* it’s nice

[ellie-gray-anon]

Thanks *I whisper* I guess….maybe I’m good at making it look put together on the outside

[connor-murphy-askblog]

yeah… sorry i don’t mean to make it sound like you dont go through all the brain stuff * i whisper and fiddle with one of my rings* i-i know you do..

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I smile softly* You’re right

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I think it’s good that we agree… sometimes it’s hard to think you deserve something…

[ellie-gray-anon]

It is, and tryin got retrain your mind can be hard *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

you seem like you’ve done a good job though * i whisper and smile* it’s nice

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Thank you *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I scrunch my nose and grin* Mmm cheek kiss!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That was good? *i whisper softly and smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*I smile softly* You’re right

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I think it’s good that we agree… sometimes it’s hard to think you deserve something…

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Thank you *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re welcome * I grin and gently place a kiss on your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[alexianon]

I’m glad that I can *I smile* I’m always happy to help!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You always smile… it’s really nice * I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

I”m glad, you deserve them, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

And you deserve them too * I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[alexianon]

It’s easy to forget at times *I say softly as I stroke your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is… but Im getting better at it, and you’re helping * I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*

[ellie-gray-anon]

*i wiggle my shoulders and grin* Yay! Happy times

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve been having more of those lately * I chuckle and smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I roll my eyes as Cassandra rambles on with her crocodile tears and poor me in the group session. I glance at the clock, tapping my gold painted nails against my ripped jeans, letting out a soft sigh as I wait for this all to be over. My eyes dart around the room and I catch sight of you, giving you a half smile and a little nod* ~ Alexi // @alexianon

* i raise a brow and smirk a bit, nodding in recognition before rolling my eyes at Cassandra. When the session ends I go outside pulling out my cigarettes*

@alexianon

[alexianon]

Yeah *I grin* Umm do you like arcades at all? Or is that too many people, too much noise?

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can do that… I mean it’s not like we have to talk to too many other people, it’s all games * I say softly*

[alexianon]

Cool, I think it might be fun *I smile* I like video games and oh the claw machine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like pinball * I admit shyly* it’s my favorite

[alexianon]

Pinball is very fun, they have some good machines for that there *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah, I kinda get in the zone * I chuckle softly*

[alexianon]

I can’t wait to see that *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah? * I ask softly and blush* I probably look all hunched over and weird

[alexianon]

I’m just thinking about a lock of your hair falling across your face and I bet you look pretty cute *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I manage to blush deeper and shake my head* I don’t look cute

[alexianon]

You’re pretty cute to me *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re weird * I tease softly before sighing* most people don’t think that

[alexianon]

I am weird! *I laugh* I own it, and you know…beauty is in the eye of the beholder *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I guess, and in your eyes it’s what you behold * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I grin* But I promise not to get too mushy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’m just not used to Mushy, not in a good way Atleast * I say softly* it was always either no mush at all or so much mush my mom would forget I’m a real person * I admit*

[alexianon]

*I nod my head* Yeah, it’s all about finding a balance I think

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah…. * I mumble and look up at you again before blushing deeply*

[alexianon]

*I munch on another pretzel* Connor…….you’re gonna make me fall for you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*My face glows a firey red and I shake my head* no that doesn’t happen

[alexianon]

There’s a first time for everything *I tease*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i go to say something but pause, taking a deep breath and sighing* yeah I guess there is

[alexianon]

But I can also back off if you’re uncomfortable…sometimes I push too hard *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No It’s okay, i would let it be known if you did…. It’s just so not normal for me, you know? Like I’m so not used to it…. This is why I’m the worst * I mumble* I can’t just take a compliment

[alexianon]

Hey now, you’re not the worst *I assure you* It’s hard sometimes to adjust and accept new things, believe me, it took me some time

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I look up at you and sigh softly* I hope I can get to a good place

[alexianon]

I’m sure you can *I smile* It might take a little time, but you’ll get there

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… I really hope so * I give you a small smile*

[alexianon]

*I lean in and gently kiss your cheek* You will, I believe it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks Alexi…. It means a lot to have someone believing in you * I murmur*

[alexianon]

It does, and know that I’m always gonna be in your corner ok? *I say gently*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I mumble and look over at you* thank you a lot

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome *I smile and gently squeeze your arms*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I pull you in for another hug and smile*

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms firmly around you and hold you close*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve never met someone as warm and cozy as you * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Yeah? I’ve never met someone I like holding as much as you *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Even though there’s a lot of me to hold? * I ask curiously*

[alexianon]

Oh yeah, and if you haven’t noticed there is a lot of me too, so it works out perfectly *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush softly and nod* yeah… yeah you’re so right

[alexianon]

It took me awhile to figure out all my limbs and get used to my height *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I still don’t think I have * I mumble and shrug* happens I guess

[alexianon]

It does *I assure you then kiss your cheek*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* my cheeks turn bright red and I look up at you soft*

[alexianon]

*I smile and gently press my forehead against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I close my eyes again and just relax agaisnt you*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close and nuzzle your neck*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You’re nice and warm, it makes me feel so safe

[alexianon]

I’m glad *I smile* I feel protective of you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t know what it’s like to feel protected in that way * I mumble and smile*

[alexianon]

Hopefully I can help show you *I whisper* I want you to feel safe

[connor-murphy-askblog]

You make me feel safe * I whisper* safe to be me, safe in your arms…

[alexianon]

*I sway with you gently against me* Good, very very good

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Probably the best I’ve ever felt, I haven’t smoked that much either so I can’t blame that * I mumble*

[alexianon]

that makes me happy to hear *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It makes me way happier to say* I laugh and smile* I-* mean over never felt this way before… ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re getting to experience it now and wow…I like your smile *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply and hide my face* it’s crooked

[alexianon]

Which makes it all that more special *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s embarrassing * mumbled Connor, now hidden in Alexi’s shoulder*

[alexianon]

Noooo, I promise it’s not *I assure you as I rub your back, gently stroking your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It is for me * I mumble into your shoulder, trying to relax under your touch*

[alexianon]

Alright, alright, fair enough *I say gently and kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* Connor looked up at him with soft eyes, clearly still unsure of himself*

[alexianon]

Come on, let’s go cuddle on the couch if you’re feeling it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yes please * I murmur and nod, getting up so they could move to the couch* I also think my bed could also work…. Not for any bad reason

[alexianon]

Bed might be better, it will give us more room since we’re all lanky and tall *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Uh yeah, you’re probably right * I laugh softly and shake my head* sorry

[alexianon]

You have very good ideas *I grin* Lead the way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Thanks * I whisper and stand up, offering g my hand to you* it’s hard to get lost here

[alexianon]

*I take your hand and give it a squeeze* I like to respect people’s spaces, you know? I just don’t wanna be wandering around *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ll still lead the way * I whisper and bro g you into my bedroom, rather bare except for a few painting and bookshelves

[alexianon]

You’re very neat *I smile* I’m a bit of a slob *I admit*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I just don’t do a lot in my room, hard for it to get messy * I murmur*

[alexianon]

*I lay down with you on the bed and hold your hand* You seem like a pretty neat guy, and I mean that in a good way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply to myself and squeeze your hand* thanks Alexi

[alexianon]

You’re very welcome, Connor *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile and shift over a little closer to you* you’re neat too

[alexianon]

Why thanks, cutie, that’s one of the nicest things I’ve had said about me *I smile and wrap an arm around you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That can’t be true * I pout softly and nuzzle my cheek into your chest*

[alexianon]

*I gently stroke your hair* Eh people weren’t always the biggest fan of mine

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Why wouldn’t they be, I just can’t understand it * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Who knows? I’ll admit some of that time is blacked out in my mind cause of the drugs *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I frown softly and gently stroke your cheek* Atleast you can remember this * I whisper and lean in to give you a kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile as I kiss you back softly, humming against your lips*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That took a lot for me to do * I admit*

[alexianon]

I know, and I really enjoyed it *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I blush deeply, smiling to myself and closing my eyes*

[alexianon]

*I gently pet your silky hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve really liked doing this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I could really get used to this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I’ve only kinda had this once… * I mumble*

[alexianon]

*my thumb gently grazes your cheek* I don’t get close to many people this way

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Like I said it’s not really a me thing either * I mumble and frown*

[alexianon]

That’s ok *I say softly* Just know I’m enjoying this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

That’s good to know * I whisper and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch* I like being around you

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I do too, I like being with you and I like just being me * I whisper* I can do that with you

[alexianon]

I’m glad, I like it too *I smile and kiss the tip of your nose*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I scrunch up my nose and smile, getting a bit quiet and shy again*

[alexianon]

*I hold you close, rubbing your back and shoulders as we cuddle*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I like cuddling * I whisper and squeeze you close* a whole lot

[alexianon]

Me too, it’s one of the best things in life *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me too, I’ve never gotten to do it like this * I mumble*

[alexianon]

I’m very glad we can *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me roo * i whisper we and stroke your cheek*

[alexianon]

*I lean into your touch and sigh happily as I rub your side*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I never thought I was allowed to be happy with a man * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I’m glad you’re learning otherwise *I smile* Everyone deserves happiness with whatever sort of partner they choose

[connor-murphy-askblog]

They do… I wish that my parents felt that way * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I gently rub my nose against yours* I know the feeling, baby~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Baby * I whisper and blush even deeper than I did before* you called me baby

[alexianon]

I did, I hope that’s ok *I say softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

My heart is beating really fast * I mumble and smile* I like it

[alexianon]

The good kinda heart beating fast *I grin* I’m glad you like it, baby

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forgot that it could be good too * I whisper and frown a bit*

[alexianon]

It really can be *I say gently as I pet your face*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I sigh and nuzzle happily into your touch*

[alexianon]

You’re so sweet *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think you know how much it means to me that you say that… I’ve never been sweet * I whisper and frown*

[alexianon]

You’re sweet to me and easy on the eyes too so…..but I don’t expect you to be anyone but you. Neither of us are perfect and that’s ok *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… it’s okay to just be me…. To just be us * I whisper and hug into you a little closer, feeling small*

[alexianon]

Exactly *I reply as I squeeze you close and rub your back* Sweet boy~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay here for a while, I’m actually really happy….

[alexianon]

By all means, we don’t need to move anytime soon *I smile* I like this

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im really glad we did this * I whisper and snuggle with you*

[alexianon]

Me too *I whisper as I hug you close* Best idea ever

[connor-murphy-askblog]

The weed was also nice * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

It was, this is the frosting on top of the cake *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i laugh and bury my face in your neck* mmmmh it was pretty good

[alexianon]

I’m glad you think so *I smile as I kiss the top of your head*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smile softly and look up with soft eyes before giving you a small kiss*

[alexianon]

*I smile before I press my lips against yours*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly against your lips and smile* I really like this

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* It’s the best

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I don’t think… I’ve been more content doing something * I whisper*

[alexianon]

I know what you mean *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I smirk to myself and cuddle more into you*

[alexianon]

*I squeeze you closer and nuzzle you*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I could stay cuddled here foreverrrr * I whisper*

[alexianon]

You’ll get no complaints from me, I don’t wanna let you go *I murmur*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I get a tiny little smile on my face and pull you even closer to me* mmh

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up and kiss you softly*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I kiss you back with a soft grin* I like that

[alexianon]

Good cause I really like kissing you *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I laugh softly and snuggle into you* mmmh me too~

[alexianon]

*I wrap my arms tighter around you* Mmm good!

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I give you another soft kiss and smile* mmmh

[alexianon]

*I purr happily against your lips* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I can’t be that good * I whisper softly*

[alexianon]

To me you are, and that’s all that matters *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i flush softly and look up at you with big eyes* really?

[alexianon]

*I nod my head then gently rub my nose against yours* Yes really

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I capture your lips in a kiss and smile* mmmmh

[alexianon]

*I grin* The best~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Who knew therapy would be good for something * I tease softly and snuggle into you*

[alexianon]

*I laugh and hug you close* Very true, it worked out nice for us

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It really did * I mumble and smile* it makes me so happy

[alexianon]

Me too *I smile* I haven’t felt happy like this in awhile

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Me neither, I’ve never felt happy like this ever

[alexianon]

I’m glad I can help make you feel it *I whisper and gently pet your cheek with my knuckles*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I hum softly and close my eyes* you really do

[alexianon]

You’re a good boy and you deserve it…all the good things *I whisper and pet your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I am a good boy * I whisper and cuddle into you deeper*

[alexianon]

*I kiss the top of your head and hold you close* Yes you are, a very good boy

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i blush super deeply and close my eyes* mmmh

[alexianon]

This has honestly been the best date *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

It’s the only date I’ve ever been on… I don’t think anything Can top this * I whisper*

[alexianon]

Well I’m glad I could set the bar high *I grin*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Yeah… me too * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

*I tilt your chin up with one thumb and give you a kiss*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* i kiss you back and hum, melting against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I gently run my fingers through your hair*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I shudder and hum against your lips*

[alexianon]

*I nibble softly on your lower lip*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

* I let out a low hum and my face goes a deep shade of red*

[alexianon]

Sorry..was that too much? *I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

No it’s okay * I whisper and open my eyes wide* no one has done that before

[alexianon]

Ohhh ok *I smile and gently stroke your cheek with my tongue* Gotcha~

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I really like it * I whisper and smile*

[alexianon]

Good, I’m glad you’re discovering things you like, that’s very important *I smile*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

I forget that life is meant to be enjoyed * I whisper*

[connor-murphy-askblog]

*I put Cordelia’s service vest on her before placing her in the little carrier and heading to the library with my bag of books to return, eager to get my hands on some new ones. I have Cordelia’s bag on one shoulder as I heft the books onto the counter with my free arm, the stack of them actually hiding my face due to my short stature* ~ Ellie // @ellie-gray-anon

“Connor, can you take care of the counter for me, I need to take care of this first” * Called Lucy, though she knows I’m supposed to be kept to the back. I silently nod and go out the the front, going to the counter and analyzing the stack before starting to scan them silently*

@ellie-gray-anon

[ellie-gray-anon]

*my smile widens slightly* I’m so glad you enjoyed it

[connor-murphy-askblog]

Im glad you took me here, it’s really good * I whisper and smile*