Can You Feel It?

// ! // German // Ace // 34 (I’m old!)

[alexins]

I want to draw..

I want to write the next chapter...

I want to craft something..

I want to play games..

I want to watch a movie...

I want to buy food...

I want to be happy...

I want to enjoy a day...

But I can't!

[alexins]

Hey guys!

It's been a while since I was active on tumblr. As many other people I've moved over to Twitter.

I miss tumblr. And I don't know if I should be more active again? I mean both @silverryu25 had been busy with Sonnettale. The development of the story and characters is amazing and I love all the feedback ;///; I wasn't sure if people would like it. And also the characters. They're my babies. And with each chapter I fell more and more in love with them.

Live hasn't been easy on me. After being sick for half a year, I could finally quiet my job and I will move back home this Saturday. I'm really scared. Anxiety and depression kicking in but I try to be brave! Best thing is I can take my cats with me. I will also pay way less for rent and stuff as here. And I'm way closer to my family (only 15/30 minutes drive to my brother and parents!).

That's it for an update ^^ if you ever want to talk about Sonnettale.. the characters.. feel free to ask! I would love to be more active. Even if I now they will never get as much attention as other AUs, I still love them ❤️

[alexins]

Hey guys!

Luck wasn't on my side since the end of november 2019! Since than, I had 3 surgeries and a fourth one to be in april!

I had an abscess, a really bad one. Together with a beginning sepsis (fever was already over 40 when I came into the hospital). Since that I couldn't go to work. After the second surgery I was blessed with a wonderful bacteria called 3MRGN (feel the Ironie here!). And as I work as a nurse, I'm not allowed to go back to work. Wouldn't be possible since it's on a very sensitive spot on my body!

The worst is, I've reached a point where I could no longer pay for medication, material to take care of my wound or even food for myself. I'm tried from being tired.. all stressed and have to worry about a lot of stuff.

Maybe some of you won't mind helping me out a little bit, so I could deal with the upcoming March until the next surgery.

If you can't donate, feel free to share the post ;///; every single bit helps!

Buy Alexins a Coffee. ko-fi.com/alexins

Buy a Coffee for Alexins with Ko-fi.com

https://ko-fi.com/alexins

[alexins]

My goal is to get 50€ so I could pay for my medical stuff this month ;3; please help if it's possible!

[alexins]

Hey guys!

Luck wasn't on my side since the end of november 2019! Since than, I had 3 surgeries and a fourth one to be in april!

I had an abscess, a really bad one. Together with a beginning sepsis (fever was already over 40 when I came into the hospital). Since that I couldn't go to work. After the second surgery I was blessed with a wonderful bacteria called 3MRGN (feel the Ironie here!). And as I work as a nurse, I'm not allowed to go back to work. Wouldn't be possible since it's on a very sensitive spot on my body!

The worst is, I've reached a point where I could no longer pay for medication, material to take care of my wound or even food for myself. I'm tried from being tired.. all stressed and have to worry about a lot of stuff.

Maybe some of you won't mind helping me out a little bit, so I could deal with the upcoming March until the next surgery.

If you can't donate, feel free to share the post ;///; every single bit helps!

Buy Alexins a Coffee. ko-fi.com/alexins

Buy a Coffee for Alexins with Ko-fi.com

https://ko-fi.com/alexins

[alexins]

I can't tell how happy I am for SonnetTale getting so many positiv response ;////; it's amazing! Thanks everyone for reading and I hope we get more people to read the story ^^

[damnedxfate]

For your lovely soul-event ❤️ I'm Alexa, 34.. never married or had kids. I enjoy music, thunder and rain. I love to take naps, rest and play videogames. I have two cats and I truly spoil them to much. I love to cook, but sometimes it's to stressful. I cry a lot, I don't have many friends but the ones I have are the kindest people. I put others over myself ❤️ I work hard as a nurse. I just try to find a place in the world 🙂 but being to nice and friendly is often mistreated!

A cloudy, stormy day only illuminated by the bright flashes of your patient soul. Though the storm is dark, look closer at their color. Beyond the glorious blue is a steady perseverance. Remember that though things may be dreary at times, hard to withstand, brace against the winds and listen to the thrum of thunder. The purring of the skies mirrored by the cats at your side.  Soothing rainKitten pawsRumbling skies

[alexins]

Oh geez!!!! This is amazing 🙈 thank you so much!

[silverryu25]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Undertale (Video Game) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Sans/Sans (Undertale), Red/Sopran, Papyrus/Sans (Undertale), Edge/Sopran, Edge/Red/Sopran Characters: Sans (Underfell), Papyrus (Underfell), Sans (SonnetTale), Papyrus (SonnetTale) Additional Tags: Kidnapping, Minor Character Death, Past Child Abuse, Abusive Parents, Suicidal Thoughts, Depression, Panic Attacks, First Time, Sexual Inexperience, SonnetTale Summary:

What do you do when all your HoPe has been taken? Destroyed beyond recognition? Your family abandoned you? And you end up with an irreversible mistake that is plain to any Judge that might cross your path? And there were a lot of them wandering around lately…

Sopran decided to finally give up. After years and years of holding on, the last drop feel and nothing was left… right?

New chapter is up!! ♥＼(￣▽￣)／♥

Red is on a mission! Hopefully he makes it ;w;

[alexins]

Next chapter is finally up! ❤️

[alexins]

No food for the rest of the month ...

Thankfully Fortuna is not with me atm.

I've hurt my back and had to buy expensive medication, since I got allergies for the ones my healthcare normally do pay. Now I'm out of food, eating only cereals for the last 2 days and I feel exhausted. Being hungry is the worst feeling in the world. Never thought I would ever felt that way.

Every little bit would help me to get something to eat. If you can't donate, please share ;////;

https://www.ko-fi.com/alexins

Or without having to pay change fees you could send it directly to [email protected]

Thank to everyone who could help me getting out of that misery!

Buy Alexins a Coffee. ko-fi.com/alexins

Buy a Coffee for Alexins with Ko-fi.com

[alexins]

No food for the rest of the month ...

Thankfully Fortuna is not with me atm.

I've hurt my back and had to buy expensive medication, since I got allergies for the ones my healthcare normally do pay. Now I'm out of food, eating only cereals for the last 2 days and I feel exhausted. Being hungry is the worst feeling in the world. Never thought I would ever felt that way.

Every little bit would help me to get something to eat. If you can't donate, please share ;////;

https://www.ko-fi.com/alexins

Or without having to pay change fees you could send it directly to [email protected]

Thank to everyone who could help me getting out of that misery!

Buy Alexins a Coffee. ko-fi.com/alexins

Buy a Coffee for Alexins with Ko-fi.com

[alexins]

No food for the rest of the month ...

Thankfully Fortuna is not with me atm.

I've hurt my back and had to buy expensive medication, since I got allergies for the ones my healthcare normally do pay. Now I'm out of food, eating only cereals for the last 2 days and I feel exhausted. Being hungry is the worst feeling in the world. Never thought I would ever felt that way.

Every little bit would help me to get something to eat. If you can't donate, please share ;////;

https://www.ko-fi.com/alexins

Or without having to pay change fees you could send it directly to [email protected]

Thank to everyone who could help me getting out of that misery!

Buy Alexins a Coffee. ko-fi.com/alexins

Buy a Coffee for Alexins with Ko-fi.com

[silverryu25]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Undertale (Video Game) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Sans/Sans (Undertale), Red/Sopran, Papyrus/Sans (Undertale), Edge/Sopran, Edge/Red/Sopran Characters: Sans (Underfell), Papyrus (Underfell), Sans (SonnetTale), Papyrus (SonnetTale) Additional Tags: Kidnapping, Minor Character Death, Past Child Abuse, Abusive Parents, Suicidal Thoughts, Depression, Panic Attacks, First Time, Sexual Inexperience, SonnetTale Summary: What do you do when all your HoPe has been taken? Destroyed beyond recognition? Your family abandoned you? And you end up with an irreversible mistake that is plain to any Judge that might cross your path? And there were a lot of them wandering around lately… Sopran decided to finally give up. After years and years of holding on, the last drop feel and nothing was left… right?

A new chapter is up! :D Poor Sopran isn’t doing so good ;w;

[alexins]

The next chapter is done ❤️

[angryartist113]

“Is This Healthy” is a comic that I made for an independent study in which I looked deeper into the idea of health, mental, physical, and emotional as it relates to myself.

This project was extremely personal and I thank any of you who take the time to read it

[fandomsandfeminism]

It is so hard to unlearn fat-shaming rhetoric, and it takes a lot of strength and vulnerability to even try. <3

[alexins]

Exactly how I feel every single day!

There are days, where it’s hard for me to just clean my lower half. Going to the toilet could be a real Desaster. I don’t fit in any chairs, clothes are ether looking like I’m a 80 years old granny or like I’m wearing a tent.

It’s not easy to loose weight. Some people just simply can’t because of their past, illnesses or anything else. And I don’t see myself as beautiful.. I hate myself.. but on other days it’s okay. I just want to be accepted, not judged or anything else. I am fat! I know I am. I have beautiful eyes! And it’s so hard..

Some people aren’t just lazy because they don’t loose weight, it’s good damn hard! Same as for skinny people to gain weight...

[alexins]

59, 33, 24!

59. How long have you had them?

Levi is with me for a year now ^^

Olivia only 2 month.

33. Weirdest thing they try to eat?

Levi is really picky when it comes to eating. She ate a cricket once. That was weird!

Olivia is different. She tries to eat EVERYTHING! No exceptions XD and no matter if it’s eatable or not. She had to try it.

24. Any hiding spots?

Both cats love to stay in open places and not hiding at all. But their favorite spot is this :

And they love boxes!!!

[girlblocker]

Ask me about my cat

Send me a number and I’ll answer for my cat

1. Name? 2. Fur color? 3. Any family you know (other than you)? 4. Age? 5. Favorite toy? 6. Nicknames? 7. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? 8. Length of fluff? 9. Any funny habits? 10. How old were they when you met? 11. What does their food bowl look like? 12. Indoor or outdoor cat? 13. Recent picture? 14. Old picture? 15. Cuddly? 16. Ever changed their name? 18. Eye color? 19. How do they express love for you? 20. How do you express love for them? 21. Any theories on what breed? 22. Do they ever wake you up? 23. How much do they meow? 24. Any hiding spots? 25. Do they enjoy guests? 26. Lofty objects to sit on? 27. Wear a collar? (and describe collar?) 28. How much shedding? 29. Do they enjoy brushing? 30. Ever drink from the toilet? 31. How do they get your attention? 32. Embarrassing thing they’ve done? 33. Weirdest thing they try to eat? 34. Are they like your siblings, children, or friends? 35. What time do they eat breakfast? 36. Do you cut their nails? 37. Do you think they understand you? 38. Ever make fun of them? 39. Do you take their picture often? 40. Ever hiss at you? 41. Ever try to scratch or bite you? 42. If you try to grab their paw, what do they do? 43. Do they ever eat bugs? 44. Canned or dry food? 45. Weight? 46. Ever got lost? 47. Do you buy them presents? 48. Do they respond when you call? 49. Do they ever see other cats? 50. Declawed? 51. Funniest expression? 52. Favorite place to be pet? 53. Worst thing they’ve destroyed? 54. Give them a head kiss. 55. What time of the year is most exciting for them? 56. Are they good at hunting real prey? 57. Do they ever attack nothing? 58. What are they doing right now? 59. How long have you had them? 60. If you could have them stay as a kitten forever, would you? 61. Ever baby-talk to them? 62. Favorite napping position? 63. Have you ever stepped on their paw? 64. Ever tripped you on stairs? 65. Any ear hair? 66. Favorite view from a window? 67. Describe why they are precious. 68. Fit the cat stereotype? 69. Chaotic neutral? 70. Do they enjoy following/ keeping you company? 71. Are you their favorite human? 72. Do they like tv? 73. Favorite noise to make? 74. If they were a Neko Atsume cat, what would their momento be?

[alexins]

Just send me some for Olivia (front) or Levi ❤️

[fluffmoth]

[contagioushappiness]

Everything about this post is perfect. Because growing up is for losers. 

[forestry-kids]

I just want to hide from the world in one of these

[carerxsmolreg]

solid heckin guide

[dolltale]

Kustard week: day 7

Happy kustard week! :D

Thank you for sending in the prompt @mystery-fic-anon! (≧◡≦)♥ You’re right! Red is super cute when he’s annoyed! Though with all those bigger skeles around he’s bound to be annoyed all the time. It’s good Sans knows how to make him relax ;3 

Kustard week masterpost Day 01 | Day 02 | Day 03 | Day 04 | Day 05 | Day 06 | Day 07 | Day 08

[alexins]

Awwwww!!! That’s adorable ;3;

[dolltale]

Kustard week: day 5

Happy kustard week! :D

Thank you for sending in the prompt @anon! (≧◡≦)♥ Red forgetting to eat when he’s working on something is the daily occurrence… as is Sans coming to pick his little lover up. Though maybe at this point Red could be doing it on purpose >;3

Kustard week masterpost Day 01 | Day 02 | Day 03 | Day 04 | Day 05 | Day 06 | Day 07 | Day 08

[alexins]

That’s so freaking adorable 🙈