lose it.

i think now that this is the great division when it comes to people. those who have a natural, built-in, expectation of happiness and those who feel that happiness is not to be expected.

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rcsewoods:

Orion’s fingers found their way to Alfie’s cheeks, gently caressing, peppering gentle, caring kisses all over them. He just wanted him to feel safe and taken care of. Nothing bad would ever happen to Alfie, as long as he stayed in Orion’s arms. He brought him here for the sole purpose of making Alfie happy, so that’s exactly what he was going to dedicate his entire time to. “So, we’re here, in LA, we’ve got all the time in the world…what would you like to do?” Orion asked, tilting his head curiously. He’d say yes to literally anything Alfie would choose. “Because, you know, if it means I get all your love in return, I’d do absolutely everything. Every single littlest thing you wanted.”

moments like this where it was simply the two of them were alfie’s favorite. the smaller of the two giggled as kisses were spread across his features. he was so stupidly in love with orion it was ridiculous, it was like he could see everything he’ll ever want in the other. “ you know i’ve always want to go to one of those piers with all the games and things? is there one of those around here or we could see the walk of fame? i bet you’d have your name there one day.” he spoke confidently, soft smile evident on his face as he looked at the love of his life. the love of his life, that was a new way to describe orion, but it was completely and utterly true. “ you know one day i think i just might want to u-um m-marry you.  yeah i think that’d be something i’d want someday. you are just so kind and loving it just ugh...” he stuttered, rolling off orion in embarrassment and closing his eyes to avoid looking at the other. he really needed to stop saying everything he was thinking out loud.

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rcsewoods:

Come to think of it, they had really gone a long way since where they started. Orion was timid and anxious, he feared of disappointing him, scared of how Alfie would react if he saw the real Orion. However, things had worked out just the way they were supposed to, and now, Orion felt more in harmony than ever. He had a purpose to live now. He had Alfie by his side, and he alone was the reason Orion looked forward to wake up the following morning. “They say love can’t save anyone, but I beg to differ…I think you’ve managed to save me,” he smiled, gentle fingers stroking Alfie’s hair. He loved this, not really doing anything, but spending time with the one he loved. There wasn’t anything he needed besides his lovely boy. “I love you, I’m always going to love you. You’re my guardian angel, but you already knew that ,didn’t you?”

the progress the two of them had made from where they once began was easy to see. they began to trust each other, alfie knew that he could leave his heart with orion and that he would take good care of it. truthfully, alfie had never felt this at home in his life. which could be considered quite strange since the smaller boy had never been to l.a. before now, but having orion here made it feel so much cozier than he previously imagined. “ i think we both got really lucky, you know? a lot of people don’t find their person this early in life. i’m so glad i don’t have to look for you anymore and i just get to spend every day with you. you make life a lot better.” he chewed his bottom lip, his gaze never once leaving orion’s. “ mmhm i did actually. i’m pretty convinced that i was put on this earth to love you. feel like that’s my purpose, dancing is a passion of mine, but you are everything.” he hummed softly, pressing a gentle kiss to the others nose.

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rcsewoods:

“I….still don’t know if this is a good idea, honestly. I’ve been trying so hard to be good, you know? Just trying to get out of trouble. And..and I still don’t trust myself. One day, my leg might slip, and I might end up in the same ditch that I’ve been trying so hard to crawl out of. I don’t want to hurt you, oh god, I would never. But I do love you and I only want what’s best for you,“ Orion said, his fingers gently trailing through Alfie’s hair. Gentle, he was always so gentle with him. Alfie was his treasure, and Orion wanted to make sure he’s taken care of. He noticed the tears start to fill up Alfie’s eyes, and it instinctively made Orion pull him closer, pressing a soft kiss to his temple. "Hey, don’t cry baby. I can’t promise this will be easy, I can’t. But I’m not leaving you alone, okay? Never. I’m here for you.” Another kiss was pressed to his lips, and Orion didn’t protest at all, instead choosing to pull Alfie even closer, hugging him with all that he had while their lips moved together.

“ and you know if you find yourself slipping i’ll be there to catch you before you fall. i’ll always be here for you through the good and the bad, that’s what you do when you love someone. and i don’t want you to doubt the decision you made to give this relationship a try with me because i know it was the best decision either of us could have made. you just make me feel so loved and taken care of and i just know this is right. you are it for me, orion. you are it and i don’t think that will ever change even if you decide that you can’t do this anymore and that’s some really scary stuff.” alfie spoke softly, leaning into the feeling of orion running his fingers through his hair. “ i know this won’t be easy. i just never really thought this would happen to me in my lifetime. that someone could love me like you do and it’s the best thing i’ve ever felt.” he mumbled against orions lips before pulling away only to bury his face into orions neck. “ i love you.” 

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rcsewoods:

The sudden surprise that appeared in Alfie’s eyes when Orion confessed his love only made his smile widen. His reactions were always so cute, as if he experienced everything with Orion for the first time. It made the bigger one of the two feel special, and softened his heart even further. “My trust doesn’t come easy, and people often leave me disappointed. But not you. Whenever you’re around, the smile on my face is instant. You make me happy, and I mean it when I say I love you. You’re literally my missing half,” Orion admitted. There was so much more he could say, but the sudden kiss pressed to his lips shut him up. All Orion could do is tighten the grip around Alfie and kiss him back, conveying every emotion with his lips.

this was a first, another amazing first for alfie. he’s never truly experienced love until now. he didn’t know that everything in him loved orion until the other put the word out there. he always knew the feelings he had were always so intense, taking his thoughts over completely, but he couldn’t put his finger on the word to describe it all. “ --- w-wow i’m so in love with you. i think that’s the word i’ve been looking for to d-describe how i feel for you, my feelings are always so genuine when i’m with you. i’m glad you didn’t mean it when you said i couldn’t fall in love with you, because even then i think i was already there.” his oceanic hues flooded with tears, happy ones of course, as he kissed orion with everything in him. “ i want everything with you. i want every morning to be with me by your side, i want to have a future with you, i want to have stupid arguments that end up with us in each others arms apologizing. i want everything. just with you, only you.”

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rcsewoods:

A soft smile was playing on Orion’s lips as he held Alfie in his arms. The boy was small and light as a feather, almost as if he was made to be hold by Orion, that’s how perfect their bodies fit together. Smiling, he leaned in and pressed a tiny kiss to his temple, just letting himself enjoy the warmth and sweetness that he felt just being so close to his baby. “You know I’m always going to want your kisses. I think we’ve established that it’s something I’m quite obsessed with,” Orion chuckled, and to prove his words, leaned in again - this time, for a proper kiss. “You know I love you, right? I’ve never known what that word means, until I met you. I know it sounds sappy and cheesy, but that’s how I feel. Sweetheart, you’re my everything.”

this was happiness to him, just laying here in orion’s arms. the smaller boy moved his hands off the others chest only to let one play with orion’s hair and the other to rest on his cheek. “ i like always. i like the thought of always with you as cheesy as it sounds. i’m glad though because kisses are the best thing you could ever give me.” he smiled softly, easily responding to the kiss making a noise of disappointment when it was over. though that was lost completely at the others next words. “ ---- w-wait? you love me? really? are you sure....” he spoke in shock,“ i mean if you are, i hope you are, then i-i love you too. i love you so fucking much. i love ever sappy thing you say and will ever say to me. you are the best thing that’s ever happened to me.” he spoke softly, pressing a passionate kiss to his lovers lips.

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rcsewoods:

As his fingers ran through Alfie’s hair, there was a gentle smile on Orion’s face. Here he was, in his favorite place on earth, spending time with his very favorite person. The only way life could get better was if they never had to leave this place, the perfect harmony. “I’m not ever going to get annoyed of you, I’m always going to want you around. I guess that means we’ll be together forever, huh?” He chuckled, leaning in closer to press a slow, gentle kiss to Alfie’s lips. “We can check out dance companies as well, of course we can. And later we can do as many touristy things as possible. But right now, I just want to stay here and hold you,” Orion beamed, wrapping his arms around Alfie and pulling the small boy on top of him.

the thought of being together forever with orion was probably the best thing that could ever happen to him. no acceptance into a prestigious ballet company could touch that ever. alfie let out a small hum as if he was actually thinking about this, “ forever? i think i could handle forever with you if it means i get your kisses for the rest of my life.” alfie let out a small squeal when he was pulled on top of orion, “ alright. i guess i’m okay with you holding me.” alfie faked a scoff, before crossing his arms on orions chest and laying his head on top of them. “ you know, i wish i could put into words how much i care about you and how you make me so happy. i don’t understand how you do that? make me so happy and all that sappy shit. do you have some superpower i don’t know about, hm? that has to be it.” 

[alfieisms]

rcsewoods:

Los Angeles always felt unnecessarily huge. Too spacious for a soul as lonely as Orion. His Hollywood Hills house, while shielded him from the world outside, was suffocating. That’s why he was never too excited to return there. However, now everything was different. He wasn’t alone, he wasn’t unhappy, because Alfie was there with him, illuminating his day. Seeing him lay there on his day, Orion’s heart was fond - he felt like he belonged there. “I’m really glad I can have you here with me. It’s a beautiful city, I agree, but you make it much better.” Orion said, laying down next to him, his fingers gently stroking a loose strand of his soft hair. “We can do anything you want, love. If you want to go to ballet auditions, I can take you there. We can go exploring the city whenever you want as well. We can walk through West Hollywood, see the walk of fame, maybe do a little shopping. I really do want to spoil you, you know,” he chuckled, leaning in to press a gentle kiss to his cheek. Alfie was his favorite person, and he didn’t want to share his life with anyone but him.

there was so much happiness flowing through him in this very moment. he was here with his boyfriend, in a place he only ever dreamed to see. everything was so incredibly perfect, but when weren’t things perfect when orion was by his side. a smile graced his features as the taller of the two joined him in bed. it was crazy to think about how far they had come, from hesitant touches to being completely and utterly comfortable with each other. “ i want to stay here with you for a long time, i mean until you get annoyed with me and simply can’t stand to have me around anymore. i do? how so? i mean it’s pretty perfect here. you know the people, the beach, disneyland.” he giggled slightly at the last part of his own words. the smaller male let out a content sigh at the thought of everything orion spoke of. “ it’s always been a dream of mine to dance for a company. it’s sort of weird that it could possibly happen one day. i would love to do all of that and more with you. i makes me stupidly happy that i have all the time in the world to do all of those things with you. like we can really take our time.” he smiled, cheeks turning a slight shade of pink as he was kissed their. alfie rolled over so he could cuddle with his orion before adding “ do you think we can go to the aquarium one day, we could look at the dolphins and hold hands and things, it’ll be fun.”

[alfieisms]

he was in los angeles, fucking los angeles with his orion. this must have been a dream, the whole damn thing. there was no way this could have been real, the whole situation was just too perfect. l.a. was one of those places alfie’s had on his bucket list, right under new york of course, and he was here he was laying back on the bed in which orion and the tiny dancer were probably going to share. he just let out a content sigh, opening his eyes and taking everything in around him. “ i’ve always wanted to come here, you know? you’ve got no idea, it’s one of my favorite places i’ve seen on television and they got one of the best ballet companies in the states.” he spoke dreamily, glancing at orion with a smile on his face. “ is it okay if we do touristy things someday? i mean i know your famous and all that, but i think it could be fun. we could wear disguises or something.” he mused, still completely in awe of the whole situation. “ thank you by the way. for bringing me here with you, i mean you didn’t have to do that. though i’m so glad you did.” @rcsewoods

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rcsewoods:

Orion was so, so gentle with him. He kept tenderly petting Alfie’s cheeks and ran his fingers through the boy’s soft hair, slow and careful, just wanting to show Alfie that he got him, that nothing bad was ever going to happen to him as long as Orion was by his side. The past may have been hurtful, but he was here now, and he was going to make sure only good things were in his life now. “I’ve literally been arrested. How hypocritical would it be of me to judge you for something you’ve done?” Orion attempted to reassure him, the smile on his face bitter. Nothing could change his opinion of Alfie, really. “My little angel. I could never be disappointed with you, yeah? Your past doesn’t make you what you are now. I’m never, ever going to leave your side, okay?” He said, focusing his eyes onto Alfie’s, meaning every word he said. “You’re with me now, okay? She can’t hurt you anymore. I promise I will protect you.”

he felt safe, he truly did even though he was completely in his head about the whole thing. that was one of his biggest flaws, making everything worse by overthinking it and yet he wasn’t completely blowing this whole thing out of proportion, not yet anyways. “ arrested? for what? she wants me to come back home, she w-was guilt tripping me saying i’m the r-reason her life is so messed up that it should be my j-job to fix it. she basically wishes i would have never been born. s-she put me through so much shit and i can’t do that a-again. it’s the wh-whole reason i left to come here in the first place.” he admitted, his voice soft and full of hurt. “ c-can you promise me that? that you won’t leave? y-you are everything to me and i don’t think i-i’d be okay if you weren’t with me anymore. i just want to make you h-happy and i-i’m probably not doing a good job at that am i.” he mumbled, “ yeah i’m w-with you. i guess i have to keep reminding myself just l-like i remind you that i’m not in this alone anymore.i guess it might be a harder thing to get use to then i thought.” alfie sniffled, trying to force a small smile to appear on his face as he placed a gentle hand on orion’s cheek.

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rcsewoods:

He immediately felt the smaller boy snuggle right into him, which relieved Orion a tiny bit - they were together, so whatever had happened, they would handle together. However, his baby was crying, and it worried Orion - what had happened to make him so sad? Instantly, Orion tightened his grip around Orion and picked him up, still snuggling close. With his arms wrapped tightly around his small body, he began carrying him inside his apartment so that they could sit down and have a proper talk. “Your mom? Angel, what happened? What did she do to you?” He asked, sitting down and pulling Alfie on his lap. Gentle fingers caressed Alfie’s cheeks, carefully wiping the teardrops off. Softly, he leaned in a pressed a caring kiss on his temple, then pressed their foreheads together. “You can always talk to me, love. Okay? I’m always going to be here for you. Whatever it is that you have on your mind, I’m here to listen,” he said, his voice tender, yet serious. He wanted to do everything that he could to make Alfie feel better.

alfie wrapped his legs around orions middle as he was lifted off the ground. he hated being upset around others, he didn’t want to be a burden because his problems never seemed to be as important as others. yet this has been on his mind ever since he started his shift and all he could think about doing is letting it out. he let out a sigh when he was placed onto orions lap, letting his oceanic hues met with orion’s emerald ones. “ i-it’s a long story. ever since m-my dad uh went to jail my mom has been kind of went c-crazy, she wasn’t c-capable of doing things herself and d-dragged me into everything, every single bad thing she e-ever did.” he muttered, averting his eyes feeling ashamed. he didn’t want orion to think any less of him because of the things he was forced into doing. though something in him made it clear that his worst fears weren’t going to happen, maybe it was in the way he touched him so gently. “ --- i don’t w-want you to be disappointed in me, or think any less of me because o-of the things i was forced to do.” he spoke softly.

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rcsewoods:

Orion was having a lazy day in, like he seemed to be doing every single day ever since he’d arrived at Marbella. His routine was pretty simple - he woke up, took a shower, got dressed, then if he didn’t feel too terrible, went out for a stroll outside. He played the guitar or the piano, and tried to write a song. Throughout the day, his gaze kept looking back at his phone, waiting for a message from his Alfie, face lighting up whenever he heard the buzz of an incoming message. He never expected guests, though. That’s why the sudden knock on his door came as a surprise. Full of suspicion, Orion went to open up, only…to be greeted by Alfie, looking sadder than Orion had ever seen him. “Alfie, baby, is everything alright?” He asked, a concerned tone in his voice. Without hesitation, Orion pulled him in his arms and closed the door behind them, closing his boy close. “Did something happen, sweetheart? Did somebody hurt you? Who do I need to fight?” Orion rambled, immediately going in protective mode. “I’m here, yeah? I got you.”

alfie felt slight relief run through him as the door opened, he hated coming to others about his problems but this was orion. he didn’t have to hold back, right? that’s not what people did in relationships. as soon as orion pulled him into a hug, he held on tight trying to stop the tears from falling. he couldn’t get himself to talk just yet, letting himself get engulfed by the familiarity. “ --- no, n-no. i’m a little okay, not r-really.” he mumbled softly, before continuing “ remember the bad things i s-said that happened to me. it’s my m-mom she um contacted me, she w-was the reason those things happen to me.” he mumbled, looking up at orion with red eyes. “ i-i’m so sorry that i’m crying. i k-know that we were suppose to just hang out, but i just need t-to talk to someone.”

[alfieisms]

he smelled like latte, he knew this but at this point he didn’t care. his eyes were a little red from the tears that shed as soon as he got off work and the only thing he could think about was needing to go  see orion. he was his home. his mother had contacted him earlier today, wanting him to come home because she couldn’t survive on her own, she needed his help and there was nothing innocent about what she wanted. in his current state of distress all he could think about was needing orion, since its been a whole week since they’ve be together, and so there he was knocking on the others door wiping his tears.

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rcsewoods:

It would take a long time for Orion to actually find joy in being alive again. However, he was more than certain that Alfie was here to make it easier for him. Perhaps unintentionally, but it was something that came naturally. A tiny smile was all it took for Orion to finally feel hopeful again. And that’s what the fight was for, right? Not losing hope that there was still a reason for life. Alfie was Orion’s reason. He wanted to hold him and cuddle him, and kiss him and be with him for as long as he was allowed to live. For someone that didn’t enjoy being alive too much, it was truly an achievement. “What if I want you forever, huh? It’s a big commitment, but that’s how I feel. You’ve come into my life and shaken it entirely, and for the first time in my life, I wake up happy, because I know I’m going to see you that day. You’re so, so special to me, Alfie. And I hope what we have never changes,” Orion admitted, looking at the smaller boy with genuine fondness in his eyes. He felt so happy to call him his. “Of course it’s not weird, sweetheart. You know you’re my favorite person too, right? I kinda want to spend all of my time with you. And I know you have to work and other responsibilities as well, but just know that I’m going to bother you with my presence as much as you’ll let me. You’re never gonna get rid of me,” he giggled like a small child, gently poking Alfie’s cheek, then leaning in to kiss it. He was simply unable of staying away from him.

every minute they were together, the thought of this intense feeling in the pit of his stomach wasn’t as scary. it was easy, to just look at his singer and know that he could trust him with everything in him. alfie had never felt so taken care of in his life, he was so used to taking care of himself growing up because he didn’t have anyone to rely on. it felt nice to not just have that load of being okay all the time on him, that it was okay to not be well, okay and that orion wouldn’t tell him to brush it off and just be there for him. it never really dawned on him how much easier life would be with someone who would just want to exist alongside him, but he was glad it was all starting to make sense to him. alfie bit on his bottom lip slightly before answering “ forever? i think forever is more than perfect to me. yeah, i don’t think i’ve wanted a forever with someone before, well until now. i’m excited to hopefully spend forever being yours. it makes me feel so special that i could make you happy, i’ll always try to make you happy. never want to see you sad because it’d just break my heart. i don’t think we will, i’ve got a good feeling about this.”  alfie pressed a kiss to his lips, because how could he not when orion was looking at him like that. “ i’ll always want you around. you make everything better, i’m pretty convinced at this point. good, i would never want you to be anywhere except with me.” he smiled fondly as he heard the other giggle, “ and i think you missed.” he giggled as orion kiss his check, the smaller boy moved so he could place a kiss on his lips. 

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rcsewoods:

Orion was new to this whole relationship thing. He knew he was going to need too much all at once, and he didn’t know the right way things needed to be done, however, if one thing was for sure - he swore to cherish Alfie with all that he had. It wasn’t going to be easy, Orion knew he’d still feel immense, suffocating amounts of sadness that made him want to turn to the bad things until he forgot how hurtful it was to exist, but he could never harm Alfie. Not ever. He was his treasure, and Orion was going to stay for as long as Alfie would let him. “If you want to make sure I’m happy, just stay here with me. That’s all I need, literally. Simply looking at you is enough to cheer me up,” he said while a soft smile illuminated his features. Alfie must be a wizard - before he’d arrived, Orion was so upset he didn’t know how to deal with himself, but the small boy had managed to cheer his mood up immensely. If life meant spending more time with his Alfie, then maybe it wasn’t so terrible after all. “I’ll never understand what exactly it is that you see in me, I certainly don’t consider myself to be worthy of your affection. But you’re honestly making my life better just by being in it, and for that, I am always going to be grateful. You’re my own personal angel, little one,” he said, fingertips gently tracing Alfie’s jawline as he leaned in to press a gentle, caring kiss on his lips. “Good. Since I haven’t planned to ever let you go, it’d be awfully weird if you tried kissing someone else. I simply won’t allow it.” Orion declared, smiling, yet nodding his head in all seriousness.

alfie knew this wasn’t going to be easy, and that was okay because he didn’t want easy. he wanted orion and everything that came with wanting him the way the tiny dancer did. how could he not want orion so intensely, when he felt so protected in orions arms or how he felt like he was floating on a cloud when the other kissed him. he was in this so fucking deep, he wondered how he could possibly feel this much about someone else, what a truly impossible task. he wished he could convey everything he felt to the other, seeing as the passionate kisses the two shared still didn’t seem like it was doing the job completely. “ i will stay with you as long as you want me. though i hope you want me for a very long time because i’d probably be sad if you didn’t. you are so lovely, did you know? i don’t think i’ve ever been this content in my life.” the way that orion spoke about him was so full of care it practically made alfie swoon. the tiny dancer blushed at orion’s words, eye fluttering close for a second at the gentle touches. “ well then i guess i’m going to use this time that you want me around to show you and tell you everything i feel about you. you are my favorite person, you make me feel like home. i’ve never had that feeling and i hope that isn’t weird.” he muttered nervously, even though he responded easily to the simple kiss.

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rcsewoods:

Orion didn’t trust people easily - they had betrayed him too much. That’s how he learned to filter out which ones were bad and which not. He didn’t open up easily, kept his heart guarded, in case someone decided to come and stomp all over it. That was definitely not the case with Alfie - it was so easy to trust him, how could he not? Kind, baby blue eyes, soft smile, uplifting voice. He adored him with everything he had, and something told Orion Alfie might be right there as well. “I hope you’re ready for an intense battle. I do have quite a few flaws, I’m a difficult person. But I adore you, Alfie Logan, with everything that I am. I could not imagine anyone else I’d rather share this life with. Please, don’t ever stop thinking about us,” he spoke before the other was drawing him in for another kiss, as passionate and meaningful as the one before. A kiss had never meant to much to Orion before. It finally felt like he had someone who didn’t need something from him, but rather enjoyed simply existing together, and it was so fucking rare that Orion never wanted to let go. Rest of the world forgotten, he kept leaning in for more kisses, squeezing Alfie in his arms, afraid to let him slip away.

the care the smaller male held for orion was insane. the lengths that he’d go through just to make sure the other was okay was probably ridiculous. when alfie cared about something, he didn’t know how to half-ass it. he just knew to give his all, it was what he did while he danced and it just translated over into his everyday life. alfie placed a hand on the others cheek, thumb rubbing gently across his skin, with adoration never fading from his hues. he truly didn’t think he could look at orion any other way. “ and i adore you, orion rosewood. which means i’m here for the long haul, no matter what you throw at me. it’s my job to make sure you’re happy and i’d be pure shit if i gave up so easily. and i don’t think i could ever stop thinking about you.” he mumbled, although he was way more focused on kissing his orion. he wanted the other to know how much he truly cared, how much he’d never want to leave his side and this kiss was the best way he thought he could. “ you know i don’t think i’ll ever want to kiss anyone else. don’t think it’ll compare to this ever.” he admitted softly, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips.  

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rcsewoods:

The way they had met was purely coincidental. His manager could have picked literally anyone to be a dancer for his video, and yet, he had chosen Alfie. The boy that had first caught Orion’s attention with his talent, but ended up becoming such an important part of his life. The way Alfie made him feel was pure magic, and he didn’t know such emotions even existed before. And although for the longest time Orion had felt like he’s lost his muse, Alfie changed it all - he made ideas flutter through Orion’s head, words line up in sentences, and he could already figure out the melodies. “I won’t hide from you, I could never. I’m used to spending all my time alone, but that was when I didn’t know how much better everything is with you,” he said, the smile on his face was soft and honest. The sudden kiss that Alfie pressed to his lips, while expected, still surprised Orion. He could never get used to this feeling, soft lips gracing his own with their present, the kiss gentle and caring, yet firm and passionate. All Orion could do was tighten the grip around him and pull him closer, kissing back fiercely and with intention. He tried to convey everything he felt through that single, emotional kiss, and what he couldn’t say with words, he transferred through his lips. Alfie was his most precious treasure.

something in his gut told him that this was going to last. that his very first kiss, might be his very last as well. it was such a beautiful thing, scary to know that you’ve found the person you’d want to stick life out with, but very beautiful nonetheless. it was probably so selfish to think that he never wanted those emerald hues to leave his, or that he never wanted those enormous hands to be taken away from where they currently sat on his waist. it was selfish, probably borderline clingy, but he didn’t care. how could he when his person was holding him like he’d drown if he let go. “ good, because i want you and all of your so called flaws to be with me for a stupidly long amount of time.” the amount of fond that was in the way he spoke and just the way his oceanic hues looked at orion was practically ridiculous. alfie hummed softly when he was pulled in tighter, fingers threading through orion’s hair as they kissed. he felt it, every emotion and words they both couldn’t explain in this kiss. the smaller of the two only pulled away for a small second, his lips practically hovering over orion’s as he spoke. “ you know i think this is going to be a good thing. i’m probably going to think about this, you and us for a really long time. is that okay?” he mutter softly, before pulling the other back in. he was addicted to orion and he really wasn’t ashamed by it. 

[alfieisms]

rcsewoods:

Orion was used to thinking that good things simply didn’t happen to people like him. He didn’t believe in love or soulmates, simply because he hadn’t seen an attachment like that with his own two eyes. However, the connection he had with Alfie was proving to be something they fairytales about. He couldn’t betray his Alfie, he simply wasn’t allowed to. The adoration he saw in the small boy’s eyes made Orion’s heart warm and he never wanted it to disappear. He’d spent quite some time hiding the feelings that he had for Alfie, but not anymore. Now, he’d let him now in explicit detail so that Alfie would understand just how much Orion adored him. They could simultaneously take care of each other - it sounded like a brilliant plan. “I’m not really a people person, and usually, I like my personal space,” Orion admitted, his fingers loosely threading through Alfie’s hair. “However, it’s not the case with you. You’re never too much, I always want to be around you, ” the smile on his face was soft, and he tilted his head to press a soft kiss to Alfie’s cheek. “Okay, beautiful. I’ll do anything if it means I don’t have to take a single step away from you,” he chuckled, and reached for his phone to quickly make the call, ordering them a pizza. “While we wait, you should probably kiss me some more,” he chuckled, biting his lip, the look in his eyes a bit mischievous.

there was something to be said about the connection the pair had with one another. how it was so raw and genuine, it was almost unheard of in alfie’s mind. to have someone that makes you want to come home just to spend more time with them or just someone who makes you feel whole was so incredibly special and it was all his. it was certain that the smaller boy would hold every tiny moment the two shared close to his heart, never wanting to forget about them. as orion’s fingers threaded through his hair, alfie listened to every word his orion spoke. his orion, he loved the sound of that. “ and i always want you around me. no more hiding away or anything. not as fun as being together, don’t you think. --- and i want you to know that i’m really in this. that i’m going to stick this out because you mean that much to me. i’ve never had a relationship or anything close to it before, but i know i want this. i want this so much.” he admitted, smiling softly as a he was kissed on the check. “ oh you’d like that wouldn’t you.” he teased, laughing a little as he leaned forward. “ luckily, i think that’s a fantastic idea. best one you’ve ever had for sure.” he giggled, before placing a passionate kiss to his orion’s lips.