Alfwrites

Writing or poetry by Alfrecht

[weltenwellen]

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

[iamcon-fu-sion]

if i set my teeth into the flesh of your arm and rest there know that i do not mean to tear it away only to latch myself onto you in some more permanent way

i feel your blood on my tongue but do not fear the hunger in my eyes i am a wild thing at best and my love is a violent guest

[traumashitpost]

[alfrecht]

Nothing feels real anymore.

I haven’t believed in an afterlife in years, but I still feel damned.

Nothing better to do though, I’ll try again tomorrow.

Either something else will give or I will. And I don’t have anything better to do.

[alfwrites]

Embarassed

Thoughts roll through the cavernous expanse of brain

Filling the cracks and crevices like fiery rain

These memories rain down like lava and brimstone

Striking down confidence, security, and trust

Breaking down progress and leaving the pain alone

Corroding away comfort into a form of rust

The molten assault burst of scenes left behind

Searing liquid cutting deep ridges into the mind

The onslaught hails down with harsh tone

Leaving one and all; to each their own

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Please

If I could ask one question;

Would you marry me please?

I’d even beg, get down on my knees.

It wouldn’t matter where we are,

Or if others were judging from afar,

My feelings for you are much too strong

So I’ll wait here patiently to prove them wrong

Even if you say no, the offer will stay

You could accept or decline, it will be your way

My fate and life could be so easily twirled

Around your finger if you agreed to be my world

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Dream

Is this dream really a dream?

Or is reality more than it would seem?

Is this life real, as believed?

Or is it a phantasm perceived?

Would it be known it is reality?

Or a nightmare of brutality?

Are these thoughts even mine?

Or are they cast from another line?

Is this fantasy from another lore?

Or is this another’s thoughts engaged in war?

But who could come up with such a past?

How could a world such as this even last?

If the world is as terrible as it would seem,

Perhaps it would be better if reality were a dream.

[alfwrites]

Sorry

I have been in the middle of a move and working and haven’t had the time to update the queue. I’ll probably get to it next weekend! Again, thanks for your patience, I hope you enjoy!

[alfwrites]

Regardless

Like the sun shining on a flower in bloom

Or all the beauty that tags along

Your presence alone is enough to fill a room

The very sight forces the heart to song

To accompany your beauty is a heart of gold

Often overlooked, but present all the same

Having all who glimpse of it wish to, with you, grow old

Your strength of spirit makes a lion’s seem tame

Whether or not you notice is irrelevant

Only those that perceive you could understand

That no matter the intentions sent

Your image is crisp while all else turns bland

Regardless what it is you believe

Regardless whether these facts ring true

Regardless of how yourself you do perceive

Keep in regards, that never any less do I regard you

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Tarnish

Oh, the days of yesteryear lathered in a light acrylic that belied a sense of fantastical wonder. The golden decades of excitement give way to sleepy silver linings stuffed into the dreary hours of the night reserved for yourself. Until eventually even those melancholy years are illuminated so brightly compared to the brazen bronze of creaky bones that yearn for the youth of yesteryear.

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Heart

Isn’t it strange that I don’t where you are?

Yet I can still feel when you hear and you scar

Every piece is kept alive by this part

So intricate and beautiful; it is all but art

The source of all joy, light and uplifting

Also of despair, heavily drifting

The center of all dramas and feats

Continually pulsing rhythmic beats

It can leave a man light as air

It can also show him the meaning of despair

Beware how you handle a heart given over

A bruised or battered soul will gladly crossover

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Maybe

Maybe if I saw you

   Gazing plain as day

Maybe if I had said hello

   It would have made you sway

Maybe if I listened

    This wouldn’t be the case

Maybe if I had been brave

    I wouldn’t of found you in this place

Maybe if I had been there

    You would of know that I cared

Maybe if I had noticed

    You wouldn’t of picked the path to nowhere

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Difficult

Strong as an ox, with a skull to match

People always said I was the best of the batch

But when I get scared, I tend to bold

Trust me I know, it makes your life difficult

Built up my entire life upon a pedestal

Always working for an impossible goal

Until one day I realized it was all for naught

Now I put things aside until I feel the are forgot

At the top of a bottle without to the courage to dive in

If I forget it ever happened, can it really be a sin?

Whoever said life was easy just didn’t have a clue

Whomever says that doesn’t know me like you

These trials grow harder and manifest daily

I miss the walk and talks so gaily

Maybe that’s why I do what I do

It takes someone blue to understand you

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Virtuareality

Reality is an illusion?

Does that mean I’m just code?

Stuck in this fusion

Within an unholy abode

Just trying to make sense of it

The programmer must be laughing

At the bug that is me

A glitch that can not be had;

An error that can not be free

Swimming in conspiracy

The reality is what reality was

No use trying to decode

Let the program continue with a buzz

As it carries on with its’ mode

The illusion of knowledge holds

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Peers

Sometimes I’m lazy, sometimes life’s hazy,

Sometime I act a little bit crazy

But that isn’t me

People accuse me, set up, and ruse me

So forgive my occasional atrocity

That just isn’t me

Let the masses purport to be some sort of mythic authority

That controls my whims and gratuity

It will be as it will be, I will be me

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Lapis

Did you see me...

Walking across the room

You know I saw you

Leaving a trail sensing of doom

But in a world that is so stagnant

You had me enthralled

Leading me by my fingertips

Time and space seem stalled

So when you disappeared

To reveal nothing is what it would seem

I still remember you vividly

And you still haunt my every dream

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Willpower

What does not kill you makes you stronger?

Not a more repeated phrase can be found in life

Shouldn’t I then be invulnerable to all this strife?

The stronger one is the harder they are hit

Yet here I get up again and again and again.

Not as a glutton for pain but for a need to win.

So let the world hear me roar.

Let them try to keep me from the soar.

Let them watch as all the strings are tore.

Let them wallow as I thrive,

I will not allow them to stop my drive.