I Will See My Collarbones

Just a fatty with skinny dreams Sw:109kg Cw:102,9kg Gw1:85kg Gw2:75kg Gw3:65kg Gw4:55kg

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450 kcals!!!! I’m so freaking exited

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So, only ate 280 kcals today, I’ve been so busy that I’m not even hungry, freaking love it, I’m in so much control!

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Ok, so I tried to get better and it didn’t help, so I’m back, hoping that this time I won’t be so fucking weak, I feel much more in control, and I’ll be busy af for the next 6-18 months which means that I won’t even have the time to binge!!!

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just recently back on tumblr, reblog if you’re an active ed blog in september 2019 ☁️🦋🌷✨🍄

25/9/19

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Just coming back

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Hate that time of the day

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So, I think I’ll die cause I’m fucking disgusting and fat and I hate to see myself in a mirror,I’ll be emotionally eating for the rest of the day, bye.

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Bitch I’m back, on popular demand (jk no one notice that I was gone)

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My reality, anyways thanks everyone that’s been supporting me, even though is in such horrible moment in life, I feel bad for creating this space, but I just need to laugh at myself to avoid having a breakdown, every one that’s going through the same, I just wanna say good luck and I hope you get better, I’m in the shit but you are welcome to talk to me anytime 😊

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That will take a long time

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anorexia

/ˌanəˈrɛksɪə/

noun: anorexia

1 lack or loss of appetite for food (as a medical condition).

◦ an emotional disorder characterized by an obsessive desire to lose weight by refusing to eat.

bulimia

/bjʊˈlɪmɪə,bʊˈlɪmɪə/

noun: bulimia; noun: bulimia nervosa

1 an emotional disorder characterized by a distorted body image and an obsessive desire to lose weight, in which bouts of extreme overeating are followed by fasting or self-induced vomiting or purging.

Me: sometimes starves, sometimes binges, feels like 800 cals is a LOT, but sometimes eats up to 2000 cals with no consequences, sometimes is so sad to even be hungry, other times just wants to eat everything on earth.

Me: A BIG FAT FAILURE 🙃🙃🙃

It’s funny how I’m not sad anymore, I just don’t care, I don’t feel anything anymore, and I’m sure that my friends are sick of me

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@ all the bigger sw anas,

Imagine only having to loose 20lbs to be at ur ugw lol

I’ve lost 50lbs and have to loose at least another 30 in order to have a healthy BMI, then another 20-40 to be at my ugw before it lowers again

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That’s me

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I’ve been in a non stop circle of depression binges, and literally stuff my face until I’m sick, so I suppose that means that I don’t have an eating disorder, even though that I feel disgusting and gross afterwards, I’m honestly at the lowest point in my life, and I can’t stop myself, is it only me??

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True

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I’m so tired of this shit...

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I tried

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Hahahha you have no idea