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Why is that whenever I need ‘somewhere’ to escape, I come here. After however many years since I’ve been on here or written anything. I’ve returned to vent on what’s on my mind. Let me fingers do the talking now really I feel so uneasy and and unsettling and frustrated and bored and stuck. AGH. I just want to scream! But that’s not always the most helpful way to express how I feel. LORD! Help me. When do I feel so stuck in my own shell/ skin! Like I just want to rip it off. Is this my mental health creeping back in. I feel like it is a bit. The feeling of being caged inside and not able to escape! I feel like that. Calm my soul oh Lord. Please help me fight my inner distress and bnfsdjhgbwerhsdbgwrhsbgjsdbgjsdfbgl, you know what I’m trying to say. Holy Spirit I am weak, and so FEEBLE please sustain me Jesus as you have been doing and help me to keep my eyes fixed on you and fight try to feel some pleasure or joy in seeking to find ways to feel some sort of pleasure. But that will only make me feel worse. I’m struggling. Lord I need you! Help me to focus and stay focus in the work you’ve set for me to do, and help me to do it with clarity in knowing it’s all for you Lord. To share the sturdy Hope I have in you, in Jesus! To not self-gratify but self forget and to give ALL the glory to you! I am nothing without you. And I long to serve and love you with all that I have. I am yours, send me and I will go, even if it’s hard. Thank you Father for hearing me out! I lift all my inner junk and thoughts to you who knows deeply how I feel.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen

This photo depicts how I feel right now! Even though it's been a pretty grey week, full of intense and draining paddling training and assessment along with our climbing assessment. We did it!! It's done, we passed! I'm so happy. 😁🎉👍 So proud of my fellow ITP buddies. Yayyyy!!! It's not quite over yet though... Tomorrow we have our last and final adventure together. We have come together to do a massive challenging fundraiser as a group to raise money for our training. Please check out the link in my bio if you're interested in knowing more and want to support us!

|ROCK UK Staff Conference| The past two days has been real cool and encouraging having the opportunity to meet and hangout with staff from all 4 centres! Such unity! I feel very blessed to be part of an organisation filled with the great love and fellowship! 💛Praise God for his provision! #glorytoGod #rockadventures

#glorytogod #rockadventures

This past week has been fun learning to shoot and fence. We can now say we're archery and fencing instructors! 💪😁🎉 #rockadventures #rockuktraining

#rockadventures #rockuktraining

|Peak District| Weekend in Sheffield celebrating Jon's belated 21st along with Amy & Ben's birthdays. Lovely couple of days reuniting with friends from home and meeting Jon's cool flatmates. Worlds colliding. 💛 God surprised us with an amazing sunset above the fog as we explored the Peak District. 😍 #sunsetappreciation

#sunsetappreciation

|Canoe Expedition| The past 3days we have been paddling on Loch Tay further up in Scotland, from the lake to the river. In the wind, rain, snow and sunshine. Camping out on a small bay to hammock-ing on an island. It has been an experience which involved both pain and gain for sure, what an adventure! 💚 We made it without any of us getting hypothermia, thanks God, glory goes to you! #rockadventures

#rockadventures

|St.Bees| Such a lovely afternoon by the beach with my book and tea watching the sunset. Missed times like this 💛 #homeappreciation

#homeappreciation

Although I started the day worrying today would be slightly miserable and not so enjoyable. God took my expectations and surprised me once again with his wonders, supplying us with sunshine, though not the answer we're expecting or hoping. I see that his plans worked best, including some rain ☔️ What a day spent with the ITP family, a lot of laughing and fun on and in the lake we thought wouldn't be so pleasant. 😊 #praiseGod #showingappreciationtotoday #rockadventures

#showingappreciationtotoday #rockadventures #praisegod

|ITPeeps| ❤️ Only been here for 2 and a half weeks yet I feel so blessed to have this group of people in my life, who would have thought 2 weeks in and I feel like they're like family. #extendedfamily #rockadventures #godisgood

#godisgood #extendedfamily #rockadventures

|End of Summer 2016| Thanks everyone for a great last adventure weekend with you all for a while! Fire, stargazing, mountain biking in the rain, bacon-pancakes, social cooking, hide and scare, movie night, church, spoons lunch and rock jumping! #lifeinthelakes #fellowshipadventures

#fellowshipadventures #lifeinthelakes

"When your words came, I ate them; they were my joy and my heart's delight, for I bear your name, O Lord God Almightly." - Jeremiah 15:16 Reminded today the importance of being in God's word and being filled with the 'food' & satisfaction from Christ than in things of this world. #Goddoesntneedafilter #reflections

#goddoesntneedafilter #reflections

|Wales| - you have been good to us. 💛Although there was big surf. We managed to make the most of it! 🏄🏊What joy it has been to have spent the past few days with great people. Thanks for the laughs and company! #adventureiswhatyoumakeit #nextcalifornia

#adventureiswhatyoumakeit #nextcalifornia

|CCYC 2016| "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaiah 40:29-31 Another incredible week; building friendships, making new ones, facing challenges, seeing growth and learning. Praise God for his faithfulness and goodness, definitely would not have made it through the week without his provision. 💛 #ccyc2016

#ccyc2016

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"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28

God works in everything. Today I was reminded of God's sovereignty working through people and things that I least expected. His timing is perfect.

I am in awe of his faithfulness, power and love once again.