Allelie Flogio

Open book for my thoughts.

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My mom died yesterday

Someone have texted me that my mom passed away in the hospital due to severe heart attack and I need to go there immediately.

I was so devastated  and I called a grab car to go there as fast as I can. 

This is my dream last night and I still remember what I felt but I wasn’t able to finish my dream while I’m heading to the hospital.

This is very odd because in reality, my mom have died due to the same cause and in the same hospital 16 years ago, but in my dreams it tells me a different story that she survived the first heart attack that exactly happened 16 years ago.

This will coming March 10, 2021 will be her 16th year death anniversary.

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I’m losing my strength

I’m losing my strength to go on

I’m losing all my hopes and my desire to continue what I want to achieve.

Everything is not running smoothly or according to plan.

How can I face these challenges?

I don’t know how to do this, that.

I hope everything will fall in the right place.

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My neighbor's cat is a wasteland warrior. 😂

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What really makes hard to live is when love dies inside you

You are afraid of promises

You expect too little

You overthink

And you develop some sort of dark world within you

Where you contain your real emotions so no one can hurt you again

But you still get hurt and can't find any help

You're no longer trusting anyone

You're no longer believes in everything

Life is nothing but a journey of every life forms

We live, we die and everyone forgets you.

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Metaphor for a missing moment.. Pull me in to your perfect circle 👌

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Damn

I made a vow Not to mess up with you anymore I promised myself to move on But here i go again I'm not good at promises See, I'm calling you again! Saying how much i miss you But here you are, you only ignored it. I was enraged, mad as hell For making me feel like I was worthless at all Asking how much it cost To see you again That's sounds crazy But i have no choice Why i can't get you out of my head? Do i need to take a med? I hope i can finally see the dead end Because I'm tired, I'm sick To love someone as worse as you are You don't admit you're wrong Don't admit you finally found new You just want to dump me Even if i spent three birthdays with you That's how you do it You're coward as hell You don't even care even a single tear Of your guilt.. I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you so much I wish i can witness how someone will break your heart