Miss Greyson

All hail

[allisongreyson]

Its been a while but my situation calls for a bit of thinking and writing and mulling over. So forgive me for this

Ive been thinking about a lot of things lately. Very recently is death. Theres so many people I'm trying not to disappoint but I'm finding it extremely hard to keep going. Then I think about each individual person, how their lives would change when they get the news that I've overdosed or jumped off or whatever way comes to mind. It breaks my heart that I'm even having these thoughts but I am and I no longer want to burden anymore people by messaging them and making them listen to my problems that they cant even help fix. So here I am writing about it.

It breaks my heart to think about how my fiancé would react when I literally just sent him a link for a possible home for us.

Or the only two people who go out of their way to help me escape at least for a couple of hours a day. How would they react knowing I was just sharing a meal with them not even 48 hours ago?

My new friend from work who I had just cancelled on for lunch tomorrow.

How about the people that look up to me? The ones who think I'm so lucky--the ones I've inspired with my hard headedness and strength in school. The ones who keep me going? They would probably be so disappointed that the person they looked up to was not as strong as they thought.

Its so hard to be strong all the time but its also so hard to be weak and feel absolutely broken and lost in life.

Its like I cant breathe.

Where will they find me when I've lost everything?

[allisongreyson]

But yes I suppose uttering the name "Jared" lovingly to a living being would be nice.

[allisongreyson]

You don't owe anyone an explanation.

There are people in this world who won't like your posts just because its you. Its the same people who refuses to crack a smile when you've done something wonderful with your life. These people are the kinds of people who does things just to spite you because they feel it their job to not encourage you since they feel that you are encouraged enough and that some of the blessings need to go to them too. These people are nothing but jealous and no matter how seemingly close they get to you they are and will always be jealous of you. They will always look at your relationships and accomplishments and the things you have in envious green lenses and they will always try to one-up you, trying hard as it may to be "better". These are the people who will try to dull your shine and wont understand you and no matter how hard you try, you will always be the bad guy in their eyes. This justified opinion of theirs will always root in envy. Let me tell you something sweetheart: You owe nobody an explanation. People will talk but you just need to keep quiet and know that deep within yourself you know the truth and the truth always comes out. Make the world your runway and walk with powerful stride, not caring what the others have to say about you. Remember you don't owe anybody an explanation. Don't waste your breath on people who has it set in their minds that youre the bad person because no matter how good your argument is, you will always be a villain to them and these are the people who aren't worth keeping in your life. These people are poison and a hindrance to your success. Let go, baby doll. Let go and be free. Be yourself. Do whatever you want with your life. While you rise to your success, these people are slowly killing themselves with jealousy and anger and bitterness and stooping to their level is only gonna drag you down.

[allisongreyson]

The things I learned this summer:

After ending the school year with a less than pleasant bang and starting the summer roughly, there are things I've learned and relearned along the way. 1. People would kill for the romamtic relationship I have so I should cherish it more. 2. People come and go despite how much you try to convince yourself that your souls are meant to be forever friends. 3. True friends are the ones who don't constantly need your attention, are not into petty arguments and would speak to you like you are not halfway across the world despite the years you've been apart but rather like you are her very own sorority sister whom she sees everyday. 4. While its easier to focus on people who try to drag you down, there will always be people who look up and believe in you. These people are the ones worth remembering. 5. The people I would realistically keep in contact with after this upcoming final year of my college career can probably be counted on one hand. 6. The family I so begrudgingly put up with are one of my greatest treasures because some people--no matter how hard they try--does not have what I have even though both their biological parents are present. 7. I am beautiful and awesome and I am the crown of the world for I am a daughter of the one and only king. 8. I don't need to explain myself to people. Not my actions, not my religion and NO ONE has the right to put me down on any aspect of my life. 9. This generation is pitiful and needs love. 10. I am beautiful no matter what the scale says. 11. Life is better when you just sit and smile and know who you are deep down even though people are pointing fingers at you. 12. Beware of friends who keep you close because you might just be an enemy in their eyes. 13. Dogs will love you unconditionally and life can't get any better than that. 14. Life gets better when you focus only on yourself. 15. I will most likely delete my facebook after graduation. 16. Understanding is key and it disappoints me that people who study communication are the ones who have such a terrible time at this. 17. "Throwing shade" is stupid 18. Living a quiet mysterious life is a way to take away ammo from the enemy. 19. God is love.

[allisongreyson]

Trying to stop but always thinking "love me" when I see your face.

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[allisongreyson]

There's actually so much hurt and anger and hate inside me Lord take this away.

[allisongreyson]

The "strong" ones are always unappreciated. Meanwhile, everyone else is in line ready to catch the shit of the whiny, "sensitive" one.

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[allisongreyson]

Low key real scared to love like I did before

I just wanted forever with you. Why did you have to go?

[allisongreyson]

I've honestly got so much to say but I have been silenced. Don't be like me. Don't let thr world ruin you. *insert Lori*

[allisongreyson]

I've struggled so much with deciding on whether this person or this person is still worth keeping or if they really are my friend but THIS one is a no brainer.

[allisongreyson]

There's absolutely nothing wrong with being a little selfish and choosing yourself first. Never let anybody make you feel bad about it.

[allisongreyson]

People will be jealous of your shine and turn it into a bad thing. You musn't let them.