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My personal info? Need not to know. Just all of the fucks goin' around me. It's summer but it is cold inside me.

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Why I love?

I was like that one man standing in the ocean, staring at the sunset hoping that one girl might love me for the rest of my life. And then suddenly she came. She came right at me. She didn't love me right before that, in fact we were friends. A good friend but not quite long enough to be a close friend. But she chose to be. She chose me as a friend that will comfort her for the reason of her ex hurting her and left her at the worst moment possible. Where her life doesn’t go right. She had that gap in her heart that someone must accommodate. And I did. I did it. 

I loved her. I unconditionally loved her. I didn’t even know that we will be lovers at a very short amount of time. But it happened. It happened like a ketchup falling to a plate, ‘slowly and then all at once’. It felt like it. 

I loved her. So much. 

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Who I love?

Who I love was a girl from college. Some superficial talks and a few interactions over the semester, you know like most guys fantasizing over a girl they barely know, I felt like a fairy tale author. And who she became in my head, probably more than the reality. She was a first year. Yah, I was an infatuated senior high back then but when there is a time that we will spend together, it really allowed me to see that she have a good heart and a bright spirit. And really sink in me that she might have that authentic feelings for a typical, awkward senior high.

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Who, why, when, where, and how I love?

I will make a future blogs answering the question who, why, when, where and how I love. Obviously, I will not mention any names, or any kind of hint that will lead to knowing my identity.

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Reasons;

First of all, I ‘needed' this blog. I badly needed this to express and let out my feelings. I cannot hold this in my own anymore, that is why I decided to create this blog to somehow lessen the stress and sadness all over me. I think that if I cannot let this out, I might die. Hahahaha lol

BUT! I do not want people to know me ‘cos you know, ‘she’ might be stalking this blog. (as if hahaha) That is all, I hope you’ll understand, future readers.