The Dealer

of my life

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Sneaky ass men 🤦🏾‍♀️

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He been spending ao much time with me. I don’t know what to do when he is not around. I can’t sleep without his smell.

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I’m inlove with a serial cheater

He has my heart yet he look for love and affection else where. I put my heart on the line time and time again yet he still finds away to be unworthy of my love. I try so hard to believe he loves me and he is doing better for his self and what he is trying to build. I feel so let down at times on how he will fly to his friend for a great time or go out of town with other woman. I been asking for a local day for months. It really hurts mu feelings and make me feel empty at times. I feel so confused and worried that I’m losing my best years for someone who doesn’t see me as I see them.

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Sometime I miss him so much and he just don’t understand. I love him so much yet it seem like no reason at all for the love. When he around my love come downs and my heart feels so full. When he not around and I don’t hear from him my feelings seems like he don’t understand them. Love should feel pure and honest.

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My pain doesn’t even feel the same no more. I honestly have learn to deal with hurt as if it doesn’t exist. Then when I do feel any emotional attachment I cry until it’s faded. I just want what I’m giving. I’m not picky just want a spontaneous text and pop ups. Sweet I’m thinking about you for nothing and I miss you because deep down inside you miss me.

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I’m have to let him go

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Yesterday

Today’s sorrow will heal and they are not the end of you. Tomorrow you will be stronger and gain more then they know. Destiny wil continue to grownas you grow out what is holding you back.

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I hear a voice

I hear a voice but it is so low

My pain is so deep that the voice it ache is bareable

I use to think cause the voices told me I’m special

But im not

I’m rare

I hear the voices trying to tear me down but I woke

I’m here

I’m not listening to that sad aching song

I’m Jamming and dancing my heart out

That voice that cry almost sease to exist in my life

The only crying I’m do is for joy that I am king

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I feel torn

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I feel little

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I feel so alone inside

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You never know how much you need to be held until there no one for you cry on.

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I just want my man

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Depression

One of the most Deepest and crazys emotion to have you lose you self in this sad setting. You are trying to get ova someone and they do things to hurt you purposely. I know I need to be alone for a while even someone you thought would never hurt you does but not in away you would ever.

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I just want him to see me and hear me

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I love him so much

Yet I’m tried of fighting for love that wants to die

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Love

His love is tough and sheilded, I’m trying to break through those barriers and wall When he look in my eyes I see such pure love. When he tell me he loves me and is inlove with I catch chills up my spine. He keeps it so real with me and love me flaws and all. Today I just sat and watch him sleep as I daydreamed of our future. It’s funny causes he try so hard to fight our connection and it’s so deep and the love we make is so passionate and I lust for it so much. How I love this man so much.