labor, delivery, nursing and life with 6 week old twins!!
Wow! Life is crazy!! But a good crazy! Life has changed un so many ways...well in all ways. I"ll start with my final MFM appointment I had on dec. 4th. Baby B(girl) was much smaller and the MFM suggested moving the induction date from Dec. 10th. He said they would be fine but theres no benefit keeping them in another week. So we moved the induction date to dec 6th. thursday night.
We went in thursday night, and at about 9pm was inserted with cervidil. It was a very chill night, we just went to sleep and waited. So about 3-4am I started getting light contractions. The cervidil was putting me into labor. Still nothing eventful. They were checking my blood pressure and I was getting pre-clampsia.
I have 4 doctors in my practice. The doctor I wanted to deliver me was on call at 7am. I was waiting for her bc she was the one to deliver the twins vaginally. The other 3 wanted to do a c-section on me so when I started getting pre-clampsia before 7am, the other doctor wanted to rush me to c-section. My husband and I got upset bc I was perfectly healthy and had a perfectly healthy pregnancy. They called the OB who was delivering me and she said to wait and she was coming in at 7 and I was fine and she was going to deliver me vaginally. She said it was not at the point to have an emergency c-section. I was fine and my blood pressure was going down with meds and laying on my side. So the other OB's backed off and listened to the directions of my veteran OB. We waited the few hours for my OB. When she came in I was so happy and relieved. She said I was fine and everything was in control and we are proceeding with our plan to deliver me vaginally.
I got the epidural some time Friday when I couldnt take the pain anymore. My water broke as I was getting the epidural. I remember being so thirsty! So very thirsty and all they could give me were jello and popsicles.
My labor was progressing beautifully, I went from 3 cm to 6 cm to 10 cm dilated. And then they wheeled me into the operating room to push! Baby b was transverse but my ob was going to manipulate her to come down head first.
I started pushing Friday night dec. 7 at 10Pm. It was like nothing I've ever experienced! It was more grueling then running a race!! It was so tiring! I didn't feel a thing while I was pushing though. It was completely painless. My husband was great couching me on and counting 10 seconds for me. It felt like I was pushing forever and I kept asking is he there yet, is he out yet. And at 10:51pm my baby boy came out! Screaming and crying and punching! haha. I took a breather and asked if he was ok and normal. They said he was just fine and it was time to push again. She was head down! Who hoo! This time I only pushed for about 20 minutes. And she was out at 11:18pm! But she had a scare. The cord was wrapped around her neck and she was not screaming and crying. She was taken to the side by the neonatalogist and they put an oxygen mask on her. I was freaking out. No one said anything. My husband was telling me to be patient they were working on her. My OB wouldn't say anything, she just continued working on me. It was awful! I kept asking my husband to go over there but he wouldnt. Then finally, cries!! Her cries! She was fine! They wrapped them up, and let me hold them and kiss them. Both of them were wide awake staring at me. They knew I was their mama.
My family was waiting in my room. They wheeled the babies and I back in. I was so exhausted!! i just wanted to sleep and drink water. i immediately did skin to skin and latched them on my breasts. They latched on beautifully!! :-)
They took us to recovery and took the babies to the nursery bc I was sooooo sleepy and out if it. I barely remember any of it. It was like a dream
I was on medication to keep my blood pressure in control and that was making me drowsy and woozy. But other than that I felt great, my episiotomy was great. I stopped taking the pain meds after a day.
The first day with the twins in the hospital was not fun. It was nothing I can describe. Motherhood at that point was not what I imagined. I was not enjoying it. My husband and I hadn't slept all night, it was overwhelming and a lot to deal with. We went home Sunday night and even leaving the hospital getting them ready was a huge task. I definitely felt the baby blues. I was crying alot when I got home. My was mom staying with us to help and I cried to her begging for help, telling her how hard this was and I don;t know if I could be a good mom.
And then there was the nursing. I felt like my milk was not coming in fast enough and they were always hungry and I felt bad for giving them formula to supplement. I wanted to give up on nursing all together. So many times I wanted to give up but I kept at it. Even now I wonder when I can do it it till. It finally did come in after a week but was not enough for then. They would nurse at hour at a time, tandem nursing and i just could not do that. It was tiring and would be my entire day. I now pump majority of the time and give to them in bottles. I get a good amount now. They latch on a drink from me great and now almost 7 weeks they tandem nurse quite well. But just for conveience I pump in bottle feed most of the time. I try to tandem nurse a few times a day just to keep my milk coming. But I feel like its alreayd starting to go down.
I formula feed them at night and pump and start to collect that supply for the next day. So al day they get my breast milk. And then at night again I give formula and pump. This has been working out great. The are getting majority of my milk. But now they are drinking more and I barely have enough supply for them for the day. I need to latch them on more during the day to keep my milk. :-(
Things have definitely gotten easier. The babies are becoming easier to take care of. They are so cute and so cuddly. I love them so much and can;t believe they were my tummy! Its so surreal! I have taken them out to the mall twice and my in laws once. But other than that they've been inside. It's flu season an so cold in Chicago right now. Can;t wait for the spring weather to them for walks outside and just enjoy life more with them.
My mom has been great and gives my husband and I date nights every now and then. Even if it's just dinner or a stroll at the mall we need that time and enjoy it. We have become much closer and but also different with each other, in a good way. We are parents now and definitely act like it. Watching my husband with them is so sweet and he is so hands on. I trust him fully with them! He gives me 4 hour naps at a time and does such a good job taking care of them. I feel so confident in him that I knock out right away. :-)
Sleep has gotten better too. I was so sleep deprived in the beginning I thought I was going to die. But now I feel great. I sleep when they sleep and then get stuff done the other times they are asleep. I began exercising again. It feels great. I've already lost 45 lbs just from delivery and nursing. I gained about 56 from the pregnancy, so 10 more to go.
I usually look pretty sloppy most of the time just because who has time to do their hair and makeup with twins? But now I am taking care of myself more and try to look decent for my husband. He says I look back to normal and that makes me feel good.
Overall, it's crazy hard, but getting better, much better as time goes by. I"m enjoying life with my new little miracles. And I can;t ask for more. :-)
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