i'm almost happy here

For the broken hearted🍃scream poetry my poems are tagged: my poem I give advice the best I can too

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Hotel Books//Wooden Floorboards

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My Breakup Letter

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America'a Next Top Model

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This wasn’t supposed to hurt so much.

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The problem I keep coming across is I can't stop saying I miss you.

But the issue is that I don't miss you.

I don't miss wondering why I wasn't good enough to text back

Or trying to figure out why you didn't behave as though my body was enticing enough.

And then trying to fix a problem I didn't understand.

I don't miss making small talk because, even though we were dating, you could never really talk to me.

And how you never wanted to talk about difficult things. And stop opening my messages when it go too heavy.

You have to discuss difficult things to make a relationship work. And that is something you said you understood but it never showed in practice.

And I'll never miss being shut out after, or even during, an argument. You don't like it when others are confrontational yet you never took my advice to solve issues that would make me as such.

And I don't miss wondering why I'm not good enough for you. Why you never wanted to talk to me or see me. Why I wasn't good enough to argue with, you always just backed down and let take verbal swings at the air. Why I always had to say 'I love you' first. Why there wasn't a single effort made by you to fix our relationship, because I had fought the entire time to keep it going, but I still couldn't get an ounce of sincerity from you.

And why you didn't put up any fight when we broke up. I was calm, I told you exactly why I wanted to leave and that I loved you so much it was tearing my heart out of my chest to do this. I told you that maybe just this once I can't keep something toxic around. And you didn't respond for days.

So I miss you, I miss the good days we had and the good times we shared but I do not miss you and the way you made me feel. But thank you for teaching me the strength to let something I love so dearly go when it's no longer good for me.

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Hotel Books

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im sad again

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<I>myself

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Gentle Asks

🌸- What’s your favorite color? 🌺- Name a song that reminds you of a happy moment in your life 🌷- Do you have a best friend? 💐- Are you in love? 🍡- Name 3 things you love about yourself 🍬- What food makes you happy? 🍭- List things that help you fall asleep 🎆- Do you have a favorite person? 🎀- What is your favorite tumblr account? 🛍- Who do you admire that you don’t talk to? 💕- List two reasons to love yourself 💗- List three good things about your friends 🦄- What’s your dream job? 💒- If you could live with anyone, who would it be? 🍉- What would you do if you had one day with unlimited money to treat yourself? 🍂- List simple things you can do to make yourself happy everyday 🍁- List things you can do to make other people happy

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I honestly feel like I'm never going to be happy agian. Is it normal to feel this depressed and worthless whilst in a relationship. He talks to people about our problems and then comes to me and says I've spoke to everyone about it. I put a picture as my display picture as I lost weight and I was proud and then he said everyone has been calling me a slut and I should be ashamed its only for him to see. It was my stomach and knickers like it's the same as wearing a bikini. Sorry for the rant

It's never normal to feel worthless, do not normalize these things to yourself. And get away from him. He's emotionally/verbally abusive. From what you've told he sounds like he may be mildly manipulative in the sense that he's tearing you down and making you feel worthless to other people so you feel like you can't ever find someone better than him. Don't listen to that. He also sounds hyper suspicious, calling you a slut cause of body positivity, and saying that you talk when you don't and he talks instead. Don't take my absolute word for it but he could be at least talking to other people, and he may know he can do that without any consequences because he thinks he's torn you down enough that you won't leave no matter what. Prove that bastard wrong.

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my boyfriend and my best friend hate eachother they've both fucked me around more times than I can even remember but I love them both and don't want to loose them however I feel like I was happier before I started going out with him and when I wasn't arguing with the people I love. Should I end it with him and be with my best mAte or should I stick it out because i do love him but I feel like I'm in a deep black hole that I'm never going to escape and I wanna get out

Damn, I like to let these messages simmer in my inbox don't I? Well I'd say just to take them out of your life firstly. I know it sound hard and really harsh but it can be done. If really they have nothing positive to give to your life, they shouldn't be in it. I don't feel like if he's been nothing but bad you should try and work it out, it might not even be possible. I've had to cut my child hood friend out of my life, so it can be done. It's hard and it will hurt but you have to give it time and find other people to fill the void that's left. Better more positive people.

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