sighing theatrically

 kitties

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

honestly all of my dreams are dead

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

do you know

that whenever i see your name or hear your voice

the joy and sadness that overwhelms me

i wish i had the words to make all of the pain go away

but nothing i say will make any of this easier

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

i didn’t realize how much i missed the sound of your voice 

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

you know

i just want to be sure

i am sure that i want to be with you

but i am also sure that i do not want either of us to hurt

and i don’t know if we can fix it

but if you still believe in us like i believe in us

it does not matter how many times we fail as long as we keep trying

if you are willing

please come find me

i am waiting for you

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

the thing you posted

the only place i can see

and when it’s gone

are you over me?

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

i think about you everyday

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

when you feel like you’ve made no meaningful connections with anyone except for the one person that has been completely and utterly cut out from your life

[dumdolly]

who just sent me money “for being perfect”

[dumdolly]

turns out boys r useful 4 sumthin

[naked-yogi]

^ yup.

[squeejaw-deactivated20180323]

Reblog to let your followers know it’s okay to send you $40 for “being perfect”

[nudityandnerdery]

I’ll also accept $20 for “being pretty okay”

[systlin]

I’d take $10 for “She’s alright most of the time, I guess”

[costanzadere]

[mihgyu]

men moaning is basically the hottest thing a guy can do besides give you neck kisses

[r-efracted]

lets not forget when they whisper ugh fuck under their breath

[ehunk]

or when they write me a check for $100,000

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

my favourite thing you’ve said to me

u were on the bed

next to the window

and hiding underneath the covers

and then u were smiling

but u didnt realize ur face was showing

cuz u were hiding ur eyes like

if u cant see them they cant see u

and then u were smiling out loud

with ur teeth

like rly happy

and i thought it was rly cute

and i was like

wow

a cute gir llikes me

finally

ive been waiting so long

fo someone to like me

that i like back

and thats it

thats my story

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

i just can’t give a shit about anything or anyone around me

i am empty and you are gone

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

fixed my tablet today so i could play osu

reminds me of 2 summers ago when we would stay up all night playing and doing nothing and being so tired the next day

it’s hard not being reminded of you

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

that time you told me to fight you back in arena because we randomly came across each other but i didn't because I was lazy and disinterested, I should've just done it because I knew how much you liked the game and it would've probably made you happier It's such a small thing but it makes me wonder how many of the little things I did made you feel the way you felt and led us here I guess it's more concrete to me now that I wasn't the only one feeling hurt If I could go back and change it but I can't

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

life has been dull and i have no motivation you are the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me i wish i could tell you how much i want to be with you but all of it is pointless please don't ever think i have malicious feelings towards you

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

I cannot fucking get over you

[alpha-ketoglutarate]

after watching last episode of kobayashi

i think

i knew the chances of us growing old together was slim

maybe even none

did you treasure our time together?

do you still value our time together?

it doesn’t seem to get better for me

i don’t miss you any less and i don’t want you any less and there is no one in this world who i can say these things to

there are no words in this world that can express how much i still want to be with you

but that can never be accomplished and i could never ask for you to be mine

so i hope you are doing fine

i think i will be happy with that

as long as you are alright