Still dont know a damn thing...

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

being single is great an all, but cuddling and kisses are also great. i dont want a relationship but i want a mixture of the two. but with one person. i dont want to mess around with different girls. i want to get close to one girl, take our time, hold her hand and then maybeeeeee be her girlfriend.

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

that taking out time part is where i’m at... 

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[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

while i wait for you you to come to me 

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

I'm always the right person, wrong time.

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I knew I did from that first moment we met. It was… Not love at first sight exactly, but - familiarity. Like: oh, hello, it’s you. It’s going to be you.

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[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

You might be my biggest challenge yet.

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denial?

IM NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU! 

i swear it... 

i just think about you all the time... 

and want to spend all my time with you 

and want to tell you everything

and want to kiss you... so bad.. all the time... 

and want to cuddle you 

and want to take care of you 

BUT I DO NOT FUCKING LOVE YOU lol get over yourself. 

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Biggest mistake you’ve done ?

Giving people more than they deserve

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

yikes. truth. 

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

when i see you

nothing makes sense when I’m around you. 

I lose all track of time, of what I’m saying, of what I’m doing... 

Your smile. infectious. 

You’re the absolute cutest little thing I’ve ever laid eyes on. 

When I see you though, its not all cute shit going through my head. 

yes, time stands still and i get butterflies and shit, but also... My sight fades to black

& I see myself throwing you down on my bed.  I look at your lips and imagine how soft they would feel against mine.  I can feel your hand holding the back of my head while we interlock and intertwine.  I so badly want to know what you taste like... while i go down on you... & you squeeze my head in between your thighs...  & I have one hand on your breasts and you hold my other hand, one finger in your mouth.... & my hand finds its way down your chest, to your cheeks, to my mouth, and back in you...

then my vision finds its way back to you... standing there.. in your doorway.. letting me in... 

let me in. 

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

built up

sometimes, seemingly out of nowhere, my muscles tense and i feel as if i have to stretch them in order for them to feel better. 

Its part of my anxiety. I call it “ansias” 

Tengo ansias. 

Its like tingles in your hands and you have to shake it out to make it feel better.  but all over my body. 

Fuck, my CBD pen just ran out.

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

Preach.

“Do u know what it’s like? Waking up every morning, Feeling hopeless… Because the love of ur life Is waking up with the wrong person? But at the same time, hoping That she still finds happiness… Even if it’s not with you. ”

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I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn’t deserve.

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[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

just be happy

mom, who doesnt understand my anxiety

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Become Dangerous

“I see you. I know you’re tired. I know the world is a hard place to navigate. And you are right to have hoped it would’ve been, if not easier, at least better by now. Instead you’re left waiting (for equal rights, for gender to be recognized as a spectrum, for reconciliation, for self-acceptance, for the right to choose, for the patriarchy to burn, for universal healthcare, for access, for it not to be audacious to demand decency and kindness).

I see you. And I’m glad you’re still here. Still struggling, resisting, fighting, yearning for all of the above and more. And I want you to know, like so many witches already know, that you are powerful. 

Find your rituals, find your power, find your reason. Become dangerous.”

-Katie West, editor, ‘Becoming Dangerous’

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

Lost

I find myself really lost these days. Unable to figure out which moves to make that will put me in the right direction. 

I guess my ultimate end destination would be “happy”. But how do I get there? 

I want so badly to be one of those people who get to say, “Yeah, i just sold everything I owned and i left my city. I moved away. I traveled. I found myself”

What a farfetched concept in my reality. Thats absolutely something that I cant do. I mean, I guess it is something i COULD do. But what about my bills? What about my family. Thats just the fear talking. 

Truthfully, I just want to finish school. 1 year left. And I can finally feel like I’ve accomplished something. Maybe when I’m done with that? Anyone feel similarly? 

[alwaysbeenaboutyou]

My Anxiety

I felt “fine” yesterday 

But when I woke up today, the world sat on my chest. 

I worked really hard to focus on my breathing. 

I caught it. What a relief. 

I feel like i have to stretch my whole body. Like when i stretch, im going to break muscles and release whatever the fuck this feeling is. 

It didnt work. 

I have to cry. I know crying will help me. My tears are all lined up and ready to go. But there are people around. 

“whats wrong?” 

“Why are you so quiet?”

I respond, “im good. Just tired” 

I not lying. I am tired. SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF THIS. 

My anxiety is a fucking monster that comes and goes as it pleases. It doesnt knock on the door, it kicks the door down anf makes itself comfortable. It lingers until its ready to leave. 

I trying talking to it. I tell it how much i hate it, how much it ruins my life. I tell it, BEG it to leave me alone. but it doesnt. It laughs at me. and watches me roll into a ball, for days at a time. It feeds off of my tears. 

My anxiety is a monster. I just want to catch my breath again. 

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