Alyssa

Hi! If you don't know me you'd probably come across this website and wonder what it's for considering that's it'll pretty much random. It's a place where I escape, my haven, where I vent thoughts, and clutter all my randomness.

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Hello Friends, If you have the time kindly click on the link below and have a read and if you've got a few bucks to spare we would be incredibly grateful for your donation as little goes a long way to help my cousin get her open heart surgery. Any help would be appreciated. Bless you all and thank you 😍❤❤ Lots of Love, Lally xx https://gogetfunding.com/christine-angelica-estal/

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It's been a great weekend! To top it off I'm having this delicious beef cheek special paired with a delicious glass of wine 👌👌 (at Grill Steak Seafood)

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The moment that I try to explain myself to someone who doesn’t understand me. I stop, and think to myself, what’s the point? No one, will ever get how you feel.

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Chicken Adobo a la Lally 👌👌 It's that time of the week again haaaaaa 🙊🙊

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Make room for better memories.

I woke up today and realized that tomorrow is supposed to be our Anniversary. I feel some sort of sadness, but do I want him back? No. Do I regret that we broke up? No. Do I wish I was still with him? No. Do I wish it could have ended better? Yes, of course. Before he became my love, he was my friend.

I think, I’m sad because thinking about it, I remember all the good memories. I remember how much we loved each other. How much we had gone through together. I think I’m sad, because, we fit like a glove, him and I. We understood each other perfectly, hung out like best of friends. Then we grew apart, and with that he changed, I changed. The business was so hard on him, that he felt like he needed to be better, towards me and towards everything, thus, making himself feel unworthy and at the same time I felt like I needed to silence myself, to keep quiet and just made sure he was okay. Every time we spoke about problems he’d get angry, so I felt like a burden. We both took the wrong choices, and in the end we made no time for each other. He began to see all that was bad, rather than what was good. With that, he questioned why he was still with me. Obviously, with everything so difficult at the time, the cons weighed more than the pros.

I’m mostly sad about it because, I wish I didn’t miss what I had with him when it was good, but there are days when I do. Then I remind myself how he treated me, how the person I loved is gone. The last time I spoke to him on the phone, he was so cruel that up until today it makes me cry remembering it. The only mistake I have done was that I trusted that he would be true to his word, and helped him build what means the world to him now.

I’m sad because, I don’t see him the same way as I did anymore. Now, it’s mostly disappointment of how he allowed himself to listen to others before listening to himself, I had always known him to have a mind of his own.

I’m sad because, up until today, I don’t know why he hates me so.

But, what do I do? I don’t allow the sadness to eat me up! Valentine’s Day is around the corner! I may be single but that doesn’t mean I do not have people that love me. I may be alone, but that doesn’t mean I feel lonely. Let’s all celebrate the day of love, with kindness in our hearts. You should always remind your loved one how much you love them, every single day, you don’t need a holiday as an excuse.

The thing about memories is that, you can either look back, let it sink in, and not deny that it ever happened, because it’s shit, you know that, but then it makes you stronger, but, if you question everything, blame yourself, you come up with stupid shit in your head, not everything will make sense now. I believe that one day, it will. Everything always happens for a reason. It’s up to you to think of it as a lesson, stop being a sucker, and be the best that you can ever be! Smile, and let the whole world wonder why.

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The secret of being happy is accepting where you are in life and making the most out of every day.

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For Sunshine and Shenanigans, Inquire Within.

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The only thing I like about laundry day is fresh sheets! 😄 Then after the excitement dies, I return to procrastination to avoid folding the rest 😕

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“Trust” card from the Spirit Cats Inspirational Card Deck on Kickstarter Painting by Nicole Piar www.spiritcatsdeck.com

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All smiles on this glorious day 😊 #melbourne #summer #sunny #love #happy #singlelife

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Went home for my break, no regrets, get to be lazy with this sweetheart. 😍❤

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I like the way my eyes pop on this one 🙊

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Because being sick isn't getting in the way of my selfies 😂😂 Lucky the sun helped with good lighting 🙊🙊

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We all have our go to comfort food when we're sick. Mine? Always Arroz Caldo, but of course I always try to make it the way my grandma, my mama, or my tita makes it, but nothing not even my cooking beats that. It sure does come close. What's your go to when you're ill?

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A lot has happened in the past year. It has been crazy! Though it ended horribly I must say I believe it wasn't all for nothing. Through my mistakes I have learnt a lot more and more knowledge through experience. I have learnt that love isn't always what it seems and that despite how true it seems you can never fully know someone, because sometimes even though you think they love you the same, they dont. I learnt that the only permanent thing in life is change, it is our choice to accept that and go with it. As my Dad always said, "if you cant be good, be better, if you cant be better, be the best." He always used to say it as a joke but I live by that with everything, whether it be my career, how I act as a person towards other people, and how I carry myself. I learnt that despite of being kind to everyone it is not always that you get the same in return but thats okay, I will continue to be the way I am in the hopes that people will too realize that kindness goes a long way. I learnt from a friend, that it is okay to be sad, its okay to be upsettl that I don't always have to appear strong. I still get sad from time to time despite of how far I've come today. People always say, "you were doing this and now you're JUST a waitress??" Well to all of you who do not know four months ago I had lost everything. In one day I had no man, the man whom I thought I could trust, I had no money and no home. Everything that I worked hard for I lost. At 21 I started managing a restaurant thanks to many people who have guided me, and by 23 I was renovating a restaurant with two of the best Chefs I know, and by 24 I opened that restaurant with my influence. So, yes why am I just a waitress now? Because putting yourself back together takes time. I'm still doing it! The important thing my friends, is that I did. I allowed myself to be the strong person that I have always been, and in the midst of all the heartache and loss sometimes reminding yourself who you are is impossible. But I knew, I felt free. Now, I am able to grow. Without anything nor anyone stopping me. Here's to 2016! I hope this year will be kinder to me.

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The Series of A’s Cloddish Events I figured I could have started ages ago to share how clumsy I am. Boy oh boy! How I am in hospitality is baffling!! I know that @livvv__leone @liivvvv___ would definitely know about this and well can also relate to it 😂😂😂 From getting toothpaste in my eye from brushing my teeth to soap in my eye from washing my hand to milk all over my hair and shirt this morning for making coffee and to a single dot bruise on my bumcheek (which I literelly don’t know where I got from, im guessing from a corner of a table..somewhere…It’s literally a dot, which i poke sometimes as it’s a weird addictive pain) I decided as much as I can to document it as much as I can as Facebook memories and timehop come into play nowadays and I dont ever get to blog anymore. Tonight, I stepped on the shelf in front of the pass because I can’t reach it, (i am incredibly vertically challenged) to grab a napkin as there was no service cloth and the stupid risotto always burnt my arm everytime I carried it. Loosing balance I ‘gracefully’ hopped off the shelf and while doing so my hand flipped up to maintain balance and may have seared my hand on the pass light. Why do I always try to save the food first? #hospitality #clumsy #theseriesofascloddishevents