Amara Cer

[obscure-imagines]

none of them were being discreet about it. they were all openly flirting with you. thats when you realized no one else had been invited, this had been their plan all along. to get you to choose. 

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FLN || 06.05.17 💕

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A Small Consolation Everything that we once were, is now a sad and lonely verse. When once I had so much to say, I am now bereft of words. Sometimes it is the order of things, that make them seem much worse. It's not as if you would have stayed, if I hadn't left you first.

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Finally!!! 😭😍

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It starts in my toes And I crinkle my nose Wherever it goes I always know That you make me smile Please stay for a while now Just take your time Wherever you go

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Too many words unspoken. Too many thoughts hidden. Too many lies given.  Too many hearts broken.

Amara Cer

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coffee o'clock ☕️

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A good book and a cozy bean bag just for me. 

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"Well it turns out I never really knew how a broken heart feels like, until that day when I lost her."

Amara Cer (Yours truly)

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When you lose your mother at a very young age everyone tells you it’ll get better & you believe them, because you’re young. In fact it’s the total opposite. The older I get the harder it gets. Some days you’re over joyed with memories & some days you’re crying on your bed hysterically on your birthday because she isn’t there & never will be & that’s really ALL you want. The lost feeling you feel from not having a mom around is one only a motherless daughter would understand. Everyone will try & change your perspective but it won’t work unless they can relate. Growing up without her or any type of mother figure is like being put onto a freeway with no driving experience or starting a new job with no training, you kind of just have to wing it & watch as you go. You cling to different women hoping they’ll take you in as their own & nurture you the way she would’ve done but then you realize it’s just not the same. I’m not your typical girl, I don’t envy other girls for their fancy clothes, or looks. I envy the bonds they have with their mom, their sense of knowing who they are because they are the product of the woman who raised them. & me I’m just me.. Going through life trying to figure out right from wrong from a woman’s perspective. Trying to accept the fact that with or without her I am a woman & no one can take that away from me.. Even though at times I feel like I have no clue as to what I’m doing. I’m getting there…

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Does it always have to be like this every night? Even if everything’s fine, it feels like it doesn’t? I kept on laughing and laughing and laughing earlier, but now .. ughhh, i don’t know.

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"I can never overcome grief."