amara_speaks_sammy

18. She/Her. Sam Winchester Girl. Current Hyperfixation Supernatural. Also interested in Marvel, B99, fleabag, The Mentalist, Friends, Harry Potter, Book girlie: dark romance, Bridgerton and more.

[amara-exists]

Hello Guyss!!

Amara Here! I am super excited to join the supernatural fandom. 25 years late I know :(

Anwayss I am a Sam Girl and his biggest Defender not an apologist because my baby has done nothing to apologise for...as a matter of fact he deserves an apology from every character. I also love Dean very much. He is an interesting character just sometimes not my cup of tea. I am a little anti Castiel cause he did my boy Sam very bad and in general for me he didn’t really felt that important to the show.

I am a non shipper. Not into wincest..not into destiel. Nothing against those who do though. I am proship. It's all fanfiction anyways...right? ;)

I am also trying to be an ao3 writer because I have so many ideas for my fanfiction and I love writing. This is my ao3 account

https://archiveofourown.org/users/DeanlovesBaby

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Any prompts about for any of the fandoms mentioned in my description are welcome!

SO THIS IS ME! COME SAY HI!!🧜‍♀️

[sp00kiep00kie49]

Shoulder to waist ratio go crazy

[lowsodium-freak]

[amara-exists]

What the fuck is that body and what the fuck is that shoulder to waist ratio?!

Jared Padalecki....I can't I fucking need him right the fuck now!!

[amara-exists]

Sometimes it's hard for me to imagine "Sammy is a chubby 12 year old" idk why...it's confusing considering everything yk? The lack of food that has been mentioned in the flashbacks and also the fact that all young Sam are portrayed skinny. I don't know what they were aiming for when they added that line in the pilot.

[jellybracelet]

Character bleed

[amara-exists]

Jared's tweets are so fucking wild🔥🥱 and I am here for it all

[starrose17]

[amara-exists]

Love this scene. It was peak brotherhood. Sam is moody and sulky rn but still won’t let anyone else have the privilege that only Dean has access too.

I remember reading a fic a long time ago where even John wasn’t allowed to call him Sammy and like John didn’t know he wasn’t allowed and there were these group of hunters I think and Sam was getting angry when one of them called him (I guess?? My memory is foggy) and John was like Sam only wants his family to call him that and then Sam just turns and says you too or smth like that and runs and Dean was like I’ll go after him and John’s heart brakes a little idk :)

[sauron-writes-slash]

I would love to read that, do you by any chance remember what the fic was called?

[amara-exists]

Oh yeah I had it saved :) took a while to find it out but here you go!

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9460943/

[amara-exists]

Watching Sam and shape shifter Dean fight in the ep skin was so captivating. It was fucking raw and brutal..neither of them holding back their punches. And Dean talking condescendingly to Sam all the way through it. Fuck.

[snlthw]

no monsters, no demons, no j*hn. it's just that bobby and dean came to visit sam at stanford, and bobby said they had to take a picture

[amara-exists]

Awwww my brothers😭😭😭 what a perfect world would that be???😭😭 the idea of Bobby taking their pictures is so fucking addictive...he just sees his boys happy and together and he be like imma save that as a memory 😭♥️

[a-fan-friggin-tastic-blog]

[amara-exists]

Oml he is adorable. I am dead.

[starrose17]

[amara-exists]

Love this scene. It was peak brotherhood. Sam is moody and sulky rn but still won't let anyone else have the privilege that only Dean has access too.

I remember reading a fic a long time ago where even John wasn't allowed to call him Sammy and like John didn't know he wasn't allowed and there were these group of hunters I think and Sam was getting angry when one of them called him (I guess?? My memory is foggy) and John was like Sam only wants his family to call him that and then Sam just turns and says you too or smth like that and runs and Dean was like I'll go after him and John's heart brakes a little idk :)

[maevevervain]

It's easy to blame Sam Winchester yk, it's easy to hate him, to pick out his flaws and lay them down for the world to see because yeah he has so many, it's easy to call him weak, it's easy to call him selfish, it's easy to call him impure, it's easy to call him a monster, it's easy to call him a boy who makes the wrong choices, it's easy. For John. For Dean. For Gordon. For The Angels. You know why? Because Sam would agree. He would never say anything in his defense because he believes it all to be true.

Sam would never explain to Dean that the reason the last time he was fighting with his Dad was because of Dean. Because John refused to show that he was working smth to save Dean and let him assume that he was still after revenge. Sam would never confess how he spent the 6 months during mystery spot determined to find the trickster to save Dean. How he spent those 6 months grieving Dean because 'it wasn't supposed to happen like this'. Sam could never expain how he felt manipulated by Ruby. How she used the most vulnerable moment of his life for her own motive. How she said the right words at the right time and made him believe that he was doing smth good, that Finally he was saving people by turning his disease into something helpful. Something that would stop him from going darkside. How could he ever explain that? Revenge is all he has known. Revenge is all their Dad has talked about. Revenge has always been their driving force. So Sam tried to find the his old foundation after Dean died. The path to kill Lilith consumed him so much that he couldn't think about anything else. He found comfort in that because that feeling was familiar. He would never say how violated he was after lucifer's possession and the trauma he carried. Even though he tried to explain how betrayed and alone he felt when Dean tricked him into making Gadreel possess him. How he lost his one and only foundation. How he lost his 'stone number one and build on it'. Dean still didn't understand. Why would Dean ever do that to him? But Dean had never been possessed so how would he know? That's how Sam tries to justify it to himself. Maybe Bobby would have understood it. But Dean didn't know... he didn’t know how angry....how betrayed...how used... how dirty....he felt and he wouldn't want him to. He would never want Dean to feel all of this. That's why he said:

"Same circumstances.....I wouldn't"

It's easy to blame Sam Winchester. What's difficult is...to understand him.

[amara-exists]

Fuck this is so good like actually this is a good study. Beautiful and so fucking sad. Poor Sammy. The world doesn't understand him.

[sp00kiep00kie49]

He's so devastatingly beautiful

[amara-exists]

Is this a safe space to say that I just loooove when Dean is being very mean in fics about Sam's demon blood after he has given up on it? Like the taunts and the unnecessary hurtful jabs towards Sammy that he does deliberately to hurt only to regret immediately but the damage is done? The stricken look on Sam's face..the way his eyes turn glassy or his mouth trembles as he tries to keep the hurt off his face and take it like a man but can't and Dean just can't stand the look on his face his words has caused so he just leaves? I love mean Dean fics with poor submissive Sam who just takes it because it's his fault and he thinks he deserve it.

[sp00kiep00kie49]

Sam winchester side profile appreciation

[hexedwinchester]

Sam Girls United

i love how, we as Sam Girls, from different countries, race, background, ethnicities, watch Supernatural and invariably agree on these things...

His Carhartt jacket is just as iconic as Dean's leather jacket and we miss it.

Sam's anger towards John is completely valid as someone who believed in questioning everything instead of blindly following orders.

It wasn't selfish of Sam to ask for the last of lucky charms. Plus, he really didn't eat it. He plucked out the toy from the packet and offered it to him.

Sam was a lonely kid and this has nothing to do with Dean.

He grew up believing he was a freak and unclean.

He didn't have closer bonds outside of Dean and it fucks us up.

Sam didn't start the apocalypse. It was a result of combined efforts of angels, demons and unknowingly Dean but Sam ended up being the fall guy.

Loss of bodily autonomy!!!!

Soulless Sam was nobody's fault but Castiel's.

Soulless Sam was hot and we stand by him.

Just because Sam hit a dog and didn't look for Dean doesn't mean he does not care about his brother.

Dean tricking Sam into letting Gadreel possess him was a worse betrayal than Sam not looking for Dean when he was in purgatory.

We are suckers for Sam Whump/hurt Sam because we love how pretty he looks when he is hurt!

Majority of us don't like sabriel or sastiel.

Demon Dean not feeding Sam his blood was a missed opportunity!!

Sam is BAMF and you can't tell us otherwise!

Bonus: Jared's eyes are sunflowers and he is a freakin ray of sunshine

[amara-exists]

Hard agree to all of this. Great points.

[ohmysinner]

drunk, guilt ridden sammy oh how i love you

[adaav]

Sam Winchester 1x14 vs 12x04

[theedaythatnevercomes]

Those sweet eyes never changed one bit 🥹