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[amberglow]

Use the madness

To turn the switch on

The right words just slip out of my mouth

When I see you

It's like magic

They say that soulmates unlock you

Unblock you from everything that held you back before

And I am careful with my words

Not calling any hot guy a soul mate

I've made that mistake before

But there was something different about you since the day we met

Something I couldn't really point out except:

You empowered me from day one

You spit honesty like the gospel

You didn't give a fuck what anyone else thought

You had that mischievous look

The same one that shook

And took me

From the depths of despair

To a fresher breath of air

And no, it wasn't just the purple haze we were on

Though I am sure that helped

I thank him really

For letting me be free to choose

I struggled with my love for you both

And yet, the one for you doesn't feel like a choice

I don't yearn for the day we rejoice

Because I've learned the true love lasts in these long moments of trust

But I know it will happen

I just...

And I must, most definitely

Wait this one out

Youre a huge one

The biggest lesson yet

And I am so grateful to be fighting this out

With your silent presence always here

You are most definitely the friendlier ghost

The ones from the past only left me engrossed

In self pity

But with you its different

I feel powerful, every single day

I am always turned on

I am going to let my hips sway

To the winds of change and uncertainty and embracing that great unknown

Out West is where they make it

Out West is home

I knew this years before I met you

And I'm glad it rings true for you, too

I may have ruined his Colorado trip by accident

But there are only happy accidents

In retrospect, he's definitely more of a Tennessee

It leaves room for you and I

Or so many other fish in the sea

And I also thank him, for letting me go

The hard way but maybe the best way

And for letting me, be

He taught me not to chase guys

Not chasing you

But I do

I do

Know that I'll be chased

Chased till you get a taste

Of my sweet, ripe, and dangerously potent love

I hope that it ripples out already

Cuz I can't hold it in

The vibrations carry, far and wide

You make me grin

You.

Make me.

Win.

Over and over and over again

I'm finding myself again

Because of you

Youre not a ghost boy

You...are true.

The realest

Like I am and have always been

Its finally nice to have met another real person

And someone worth knowing

For the rest of my days

I thank you

And stay true

[amberglow]

There's so much distance between us (its only physical)

And yet its like you're right here,

I can hear your thoughts, your doubts and hopes

Your desires and those things you might dread

Hoping to be someone before you're dead

You know I love you for who you are

Without the mask

With all your scars

I know I felt that same acceptance from you

Its the only thing that feels true

And worth holding on to

So now, we wait

Will there be a right time?

Will we ever be ready?

Whats love but always a work in progress?

And to you, I hold steady

Our dreams are not fleeting,

They endear

Just like the things you told me,

Which made you so dear

I've come too far to completely let go

You've held me like a boomerang

You throw me, but I come right back

It's not fair, this we both know

And this time, you've thrown me really quite far

And yet the lure

Grips me

Hoping that I stay

Further away this time for longer

It's the only way you'll be okay

Its the only way you know as love

And maybe in time, I will be free

But will you?

I want you to show me a sign that this is all true

I am running away harder and harder

And slowly coming back to you

A treasure needs time to form,

And "nothing thats ever worth possessing can ever be possessed,"

I'm a gem you can't catch

Unless I want to be, caught that is

You're a mysterious treasure I don't understand

Just limerence that sparks my pleasure

Of body, soul, and mind

But the thing that's sparks the brightest

Is my endearing heart

Beating at the rhythm of your breath

So keep breathing baby

I can't afford to lose you, not yet

Our lives are one, tied together by invisible heart strings

Entanglement has always been around

It just gets a little more complicated when the heart sings

And two particles meet in flesh and bone

But with our union I know, we'll both be set free

Our love is not written in stone

Its ephemeral, like this galaxy

Which makes it all the more lasting and true

Infinity stretches on forever

"For those who love, time is Infinity"

Youre my Infinity

[amberglow]

Runaway Shoes, Left the Blues

Glowing in Your Limerence

Trying out different sizes

Looking for where the Prize is

Your love is Full of Surprises

Goodnight Moon, Goodmorning Sun

Nothing left to do but Glimmer

When all is said and done

When we become one

(When we become one)

I look forward to that day

& until then don’t let this shimmer, fade away

Looks like I found myself, another twin flame

Sitting cross-legged in bed, breathing deeply

When all is said and done

You will see more clearly

The things left unsaid,

Hold me dearly.

Left the Blues, with my Runaway Shoes

Glowing in Your Limerence

Showing No Resemblance,

Of who I used to be,

Except I’m everything I was, times three.

Growth unfolded, tenfold

Unlearning everything you were told

Finding Meaning, in this Gleaming

(Hoping you will too)

Hoping that this fun will make the time pass by fast

Until the next time I see you.

Runaway Blues, Left Shoes

Putting my Right Foot Forward.

You were a miracle,

Not like the typical

Questioning all of my morals.

In running free, with these shoes that feel right

Understanding Cinderella

Freedom tastes like wings

The sky is not the limit

Letting go of things that only prolong the gimick

When everything else felt too tight,

You were Just Right.

So these shoes will carry me home

Back to me, not back to you

& if this love holds true,

I’ll find you there too.

& Until the LImerence Fades/Or we unite

I’ll be thinking of you

Every step, a new journey begins

& it all started with this left shoe, and my runaway blues

Glowing In Your Limerence