Amber Ortolano

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6 am // July 29, 2016 

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self portraits, October 2017

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I’m trying to write something down, maybe trying to keep some sort of memory.  

I feel incomplete a lot.

Not physically, not anything outward.  I’m not really sure. I think my brain is empty. I think someone has robbed me. I think I’ve robbed myself. I’ve ripped out all of my memories and shoved them into a camera and I have none in my brain anymore. They’re there of course, because I have the photographs; I’ll always have the photographs.

Sometimes I cry because I can’t remember a moment. Maybe that’s why I take pictures. To keep a moment that I don’t even remember - I have it in photograph form just so I know it existed at some point. To know that all of this isn’t fake, that I’m not some sort of figment of my imagination. 

Maybe that’s why I photograph myself; to prove to myself that I’m actually real. I want to know that I’m there. But I don’t see my outer body, it’s like someone has turned me inside out. My mind is on the outside, but it’s falling apart.

Maybe I take photographs to keep my mind from falling right out of my head.

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- Amber Ortolano

my little sister is so fucking talented guys idek

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 Amber Ortolano

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Amber Ortolano. Haunt Me, Haunt Me Do It Again, March 2015.

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(by amber ortolano) Polaroid from around 5 years ago when I was around 12.

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In other news I’m still finding myself in this healing process

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brilliant, brilliant young woman

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Accidentally deleted this oops!

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(by amber ortolano) Documenting the renovation of the office under my apartment.

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My amberortolano pages in one of my visual diaries for conceptual process class. Colours! So delicious.

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4x6 (aka postcard) - $5

8x12 (aka photographic) - $15

http://www.redbubble.com/people/amberortolano/shop/

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PRINTS FOR SALE

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Amber Ortolano. Color As Therapy Vol. Two, January 2015

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From October, before we moved.

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Amber Ortolano. I am almost invisible (drowning), January 2015 

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http://www.redbubble.com/people/amberortolano I have prints for sale! As always, money is tight and I'd really really appreciate it if you bought a print! (also if you want a print of a specific photograph not already listed, just tell me and I'll add it on Redbubble ASAP!)

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"The Conquest of Illusion" with Theresa Manchester.