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hello friends. happy pride
i'm going to make a concerted effort to answer some of the messages i have (languishing) in my inbox this afternoon, so if you want to pop in and say hi, ask any burning ambition related questions, etc. feel free to do so!! i'll try to see if i can share any scraps too to prove progress is occurring behind the scenes but no promises on that lol
with humble appreciation,
-- Maggie
2 question when will the cruel summer-esque hiatus project, âfive years⌠(is a long time) be back and season 5 loved series just want to know when we will see fav characters again
Hi pal!! Thanks for asking and apologies for the delay -- both in answering this and the series as a whole. I had big dreams to have an update out before an entire calendar year passed since five years (2022)... it's not looking hopeful now is it. I swear my plan is NOT to make each installment actually take a year LOL đ This is due to a myriad of factors: job promotion at work (yay!!), big positive life changes for those close to me (also yay!), and the wicked evils of mental illness (not yay!)
BUT, here is my good news. The reason there was such a long gap is because after I posted 2022, I made a pledge to myself that I was going to finish all the other outlines for the time jump, so that I wouldn't hold myself up each year and so I would have a clear and accurate progression all ironed out to avoid missing things I wanted to highlight or having continuity errors. And the great news is I have done that; all of the outlines are locked and now it's just about creating magic and pulling the fictional world through the veil and into reality. Which is also in active progress for 2023 as of this month.
So while I don't have an exact date for y'all, I promise things are brewing. More is coming. I'm endlessly grateful to you all for your steadfast patience and faith in this fake show and I am optimistic the wait will be worth it.
With my dedication and persistence,
-- Maggie
đ The Dynamics Library is Now Open to Patrons
The first up of my promised tricks up my sleeve... I'm so excited to introduce the Dynamics Library for all my wait-weary AMBITION warriors who are missing the amblorbs bad!
After Season 4 ended two years ago (don't talk about it), I immediately came up with the concept of wanting to be able to find some way to be able to reread specific aspects of the show without having to dig through the entire tome. Partially inspired by my internal "Screen Time" project -- calculating word counts to determine which characters have the most theoretical screen time in the series -- where I was already compiling character-specific scenes, and partially inspired by the ever constant drumbeat amongst my pals of "I wish I could just go to Youtube and type in [ x dynamic ] Scene Compilation," this project is my best stab at recreating that experience for a fake TV show.
So if you've ever found yourself daunted by the prospect of rereading the entire 2mil word series, but you really just want to hang out the techie crew for a while, or find comfort in the dynamic of Dylan and Asher, or re-experience the insane clusterfuck that is De La Minkus's journey from enemies to rivals to besties to lovers to... whatever, do I have amazing news for you. You're now able to do so, just by finding your preferred dynamic on the library page! You can view / download the dynamic compilation you want in either PDF or doc format.
Another little added bonus -- I have taken the liberty of including anything I've written for the series into these compilations, for the full completionist effect. So Cruel Summer? In there. Any bonus content? In there. Any scraps or pieces I've been writing on the side but never released? In there. Depending on what dynamic wheel you choose to spin, you never know what you might find; there may be a little nugget of new AMBITION content ~from the vault~ that you'll get to enjoy for the first time.
One caveat, however: this is a living library, constantly updating, and so not every dynamic is yet included. For my RL and ZC warriors, forgive me, but they're not there yet (as you can imagine, putting those comps together will take a lot of time and probably any sanity I have left). These are also only up through Season 4 (naturally), so they'll get another update someday in the future when the series is complete.
But hopefully there should plenty there to keep you all satisfied, at least until new content finally, merrily rolls along. It's a great way to fill in the gaps of the hiatus, or just spend some time with the relationships you've (hopefully) fallen in love with while investing the last several years in this series. A current list of what's available now is tucked under the read more.
From us to you, thanks for sticking with us. If you decide to do a reread, please, feel free to scream about it in our inbox (you'd be amazed how much being insane together helps feed the the creativity engine).
Most of all, remember the love, and read on,
-- Maggie đŠś
Current Dynamics Available for Checkout (as of 05-03-26) â´
Three new dynamics have been added!!
Isa & Eric
Jade & Nigel
Riley & Nigel
love The AMBITION Dynamics Library but what about Riley Asher and Dylan?
What a wonderful little dynamic to shout-out, thank you for asking!! They are on my list of dynamics to compile and eventually add to the library (technically under the title of "Riley & Dylan (feat. Asher)," since it's definitely more a Dyley heavy dynamic, but Asher and Riley have enough of their own interactions to at least be included as a subset).
For reference if y'all are curious, here are the ones I have on the To-Do list for the library, so they'll be available eventually (alphabetical order):
Asher & Jade
Charlie & Farkle
Charlie & Brandon (feat. Haverford)
Farkle & Maya
Isa & Dylan
Isa & Eric [ IN PROGRESS ]
Jade & Nigel [ IN PROGRESS ]
Lucas & Jack
The Matthews
The Minki
Maya & Riley
The LA Gals (Maya, Yindra, & Jade)
Riley & Dylan (feat. Asher)
Riley & Farkle
Riley & Lucas
Riley & Nigel (feat. Lucas) [ IN PROGRESS ]
Rosie & Uri
The True Star Squad (Zay, Nigel, & Yindra)
Zay & Charlie
If there's any not listed here or already available in the library y'all would love to see compiled, feel free to let me know and I can add it to the reserve!
-- Maggie đ
đ The Dynamics Library is Now Open to Patrons
The first up of my promised tricks up my sleeve... I'm so excited to introduce the Dynamics Library for all my wait-weary AMBITION warriors who are missing the amblorbs bad!
After Season 4 ended two years ago (don't talk about it), I immediately came up with the concept of wanting to be able to find some way to be able to reread specific aspects of the show without having to dig through the entire tome. Partially inspired by my internal "Screen Time" project -- calculating word counts to determine which characters have the most theoretical screen time in the series -- where I was already compiling character-specific scenes, and partially inspired by the ever constant drumbeat amongst my pals of "I wish I could just go to Youtube and type in [ x dynamic ] Scene Compilation," this project is my best stab at recreating that experience for a fake TV show.
So if you've ever found yourself daunted by the prospect of rereading the entire 2mil word series, but you really just want to hang out the techie crew for a while, or find comfort in the dynamic of Dylan and Asher, or re-experience the insane clusterfuck that is De La Minkus's journey from enemies to rivals to besties to lovers to... whatever, do I have amazing news for you. You're now able to do so, just by finding your preferred dynamic on the library page! You can view / download the dynamic compilation you want in either PDF or doc format.
Another little added bonus -- I have taken the liberty of including anything I've written for the series into these compilations, for the full completionist effect. So Cruel Summer? In there. Any bonus content? In there. Any scraps or pieces I've been writing on the side but never released? In there. Depending on what dynamic wheel you choose to spin, you never know what you might find; there may be a little nugget of new AMBITION content ~from the vault~ that you'll get to enjoy for the first time.
One caveat, however: this is a living library, constantly updating, and so not every dynamic is yet included. For my RL and ZC warriors, forgive me, but they're not there yet (as you can imagine, putting those comps together will take a lot of time and probably any sanity I have left). These are also only up through Season 4 (naturally), so they'll get another update someday in the future when the series is complete.
But hopefully there should plenty there to keep you all satisfied, at least until new content finally, merrily rolls along. It's a great way to fill in the gaps of the hiatus, or just spend some time with the relationships you've (hopefully) fallen in love with while investing the last several years in this series. A current list of what's available now is tucked under the read more.
From us to you, thanks for sticking with us. If you decide to do a reread, please, feel free to scream about it in our inbox (you'd be amazed how much being insane together helps feed the the creativity engine).
Most of all, remember the love, and read on,
-- Maggie đŠś
Current Dynamics Available for Checkout (as of 05-03-26) â´
Quick Spiritual Reset
Happy March, AMBITION warriors. Spring is springing, birds are chirping outside my window. I've had the privilege of getting to have my windows open again since it's not frigid outside, and fresh air really is a balm.
(Though we did have a wild climate swing this week where it was 80 degrees one day, and then it snowed the next. You can't make this up.)
Even though she's never been featured in AMBITION (yet!), I don't know if I've ever mentioned, but I have such a deep admiration for singer-songwriter Maggie Rogers. I've been comfort-binging her discography lately -- highly recommend if you haven't checked her out. I feel a sort of spiritual affinity, a kinship with her, as we're close to the same age and well, we're both Maggies. But she also speaks so passionately and similarly to making music as I do about storytelling, and with near perfect symmetrical timing, she just sent out her newsletter for the first time in months yesterday. Apropos of the delays going on in this neck of the woods, I wanted to share some sentiments that really resonated with me.
From M.R.'s latest newsletter, "silencing the noise of nostalgia" (Mar. 13), emphasis mine, [ swapped music for writing ]:
This has been the longest incubation process Iâve ever been through and Iâd be lying if I said it hasnât been painful. I miss [ writing ] more than anything. I miss the conviction and the sense of identity that comes when I know so truly how to express my insides on the outside. Thereâs been a lot of tears. In January, I was crying so hard on the phone to a friend about it that I got a nosebleed, which felt like the equivalent of my brain working so hard to solve a puzzle that it physically emitted steam.
(Granted, I'm not a crier -- I cry maybe twice a year -- but mentally I Felt That).
At its core, a creative life is about searching. Fumbling around in the dark with a flashlight looking for something shiny that can set your soul on fire. In my creative frustration, my instinct has been to âwork harder.â Show up to the [ outlines ] everyday and let it be messy, put paint on the walls, make some things you love and some things you hate. But by the end of January, I had run out of steam on that as well. I donât think this [ project ] is a problem my brain can solve. Itâs not something I can âwork harderâ at. Iâm learning that itâs actually about letting it happen. Being kind to myself. The whole process has been kind of a self-love bootcamp, as corny as that might sound. Learning to trust myself and trust the pace of the slow drip of sweet water from the muses that can make up a [ story ]. Iâve been learning about craft. How to be an editor. How to allow myself to get it wrong out loud and trust that one day, Iâll get it right. And knowing that I wonât let it come out before I know in my bones that itâs right. Or that itâs sitting in its own harmonic resonance (because as Iâm learning, there is no ârightâ). Iâve been going back to the beginning. Working alone. Working with my college friends. I re-listened to all my albums for the first time since completing them. That was a trip. Maybe its own newsletter at some point. What that really did for me is debunk the myth that I was better at the start of my career when I was all young confidence and blind instinct. The albums are great, and Iâm so proud of them, but Iâm 100% clear that Iâm at my best right now. And thereâs something really exciting about silencing the noise of nostalgia.
What Maggie R. says about going back to the beginning is true here, too. While I've been incubating on the final season and the time jump, letting all the creative juices steep and fielding conduit calls from Dylan (when he actually picks up the phone to let me back in), I've been reflecting too. Revisiting dynamics and elements of the show that I've been so proud of and loved so much; opening back up dusty old memory boxes of ideas for this series and its sprawling world that I was so excited about shelved for one reason or another. Remembering why I love it so much, why this project feels so special. How it brought all of us together, in this vast and insane planet we're living on right now. It's not a sensation of Heated Rivalry proportions, no, but it's got its own magic. It's just right. It connects with the people who are meant to find it, this tiny rabbit hole in a stage-lit corner of the internet.
All this to say, thanks for your patience, as always. Thanks for investing in this silly little fake show, that maybe isn't so silly and so little anymore (once you've hit 2 million words, "little" feels like a blatant misnomer, lol). And I promise you, with a few tricks up my sleeve (including some I'll share imminently), what's to come is 100% going to be at its best. The wait, I hope, will be worth it.
With the utmost humble sincerity,
-- Maggie đŠś
here's the ticket y'all. it was all a scheme the entire time. because by the time we get to s5, conceivably, most if not all of us ambition warriors will be in adulthood. and thus, we will all be able to relate to the topsy-turvy surrealism, the epic highs and lows, of having to be in your 20s.
hope everyone is doing okay as we trudge into a new year. just wanted to state for the record that your endless patience with the creative process here is so so appreciated. hoping to have stuff to share in due time...
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Nigel Chey + Now That Iâm Older by Sufjan Stevens
My beloved Lena, have a Super belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!
Myth in which the PJO brain worm fought the Ambition brain worm.
đ Happiest AAAGC Secret Snowflake @leoleofitz you know how much I love you! Please accept these small tokens of my boundless friendship and joy đ
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THE CHARM OFFENSIVE
A LOATHE STORY
STARRING ISA DE LA CRUZ AND FARKLE MINKUS
Happy Secret Snowflake, Sunny (@amarakaran)! A movie poster for a DLM enemies to lovers romcom for THE fluffy DLM truther! âď¸ @ambitionsource
Star Trek: Ambition
This series of the landmark franchise follows an up and coming crew on the USS Ambition, part of an initiative from Starfleet HQ to give leadership opportunities to promising officers in all fields.
Happy Secret Snowflake @charliezay I hope you enjoy this combination of two of your favourites đđ˝đ @ambitionsource
In the steady and capable hands of Captain Jack Hunter, and First Officer Eric Matthews, the young talent has the opportunity to gain medium to long term trip experience before moving to a higher combat or technical vessel.
Programme Commander, Officer Harper Burgess, has her work cut out for her when it emerges that this crop of new officers carry a fair bit of baggage and more than a few grudges from their time at Starfleet Academy and previous ship assignments. Two of the Science officers are either fighting or flirting (she can't tell yet or ever), the Communications Officer and the Senior Engineering Officer haven't seen each other since their bad breakup three years ago, and the new pilot, Officer Isaiah Babineaux, has enough ego to power the ship itself.
Itâs the sweltering summer of 1819 in a Brooklyn bar when Charles Gardner meets himâthe great enigma of Isaiah Babineaux, a Frenchman living in Harlem. A charismatic dandy, endlessly talented, deeply entrancing. Unsettingly beautiful. Charles only knows him bathed in moonlight, when they rendezvous despite his better judgment, his motherâs warnings echoing in his ears. Under stars they drink and dance, go to the most exquisite plays and operas, and Charles tries to ignore the pull between them. Heâs fascinated by Isaiah, relishes the small bits of truth he coaxes out of the mysterious man like the seeds of a pomegranate. Forbidden fruit bursting on his tongue. Most strangely, Isaiah seems equally if not more interested in him. Asks him about Manhattan and his interests and what he makes of the world. Tries to cut through his shame and makes it burn even fiercer. In the daylight, Isaiah continues to consume his thoughts, no matter his attempts to get lost in his studies or scripture. Charles is lost, yet he feels like heâs finally been found. He knows itâs not rightâall of it, the desire flaring inside of him, the way Isaiah stares right through him like he can see it, pins him down with dark eyes like he wants to eat him alive. Charles knows this story. The serpent, the innocent fool who wants more than they should. Still, he falls. The snake bites, sinks his fangs into his skin, overwhelming pain and pleasure, at once Heaven and Hell. In the arms of his lapsed angel, Charles cannot find it in himself to care that he was cast out of Eden as well. He knows too much now, not just of the truth of the world, of Isaiah, but of himself. Heâs a sinner. A heretic. Covetous. Licentious. But nothing felt as sublime as Isaiahâs hands, his lips, his honeyed voice, the way the other man drank him up. Charles knew he was damning himself, âme damnĂŠeâbut his heart, his soul, his adoration, it belonged to a new power. A light-bringer who belonged to the night. Isaiah. His undoing. His maker.Â
happy secret snowflake meg! hope you enjoy this zc vampire au-- i was inspired by our chats about gothic lit and horror as queer allegory. love you and hope the new year brings so much joy <3
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A moment between ZC, for Maggie with love from Meg :D
Letting the art speak for itself here.
Welcome to Adams Bay, a cozy, secluded township in the northern pockets of New York near the Canadian border. Itâs earthy and woodsy, cluttered with towering pines unlike the skyscrapers of Manhattan; due to the drafts over Lake Ontario, itâs reliably dreary, with misty cloud cover 90% of the year. The port and its surrounding locales are mainly home to tradesmen, like fishermen, lumberjacks, and mill workersâŚÂ And now, Riley Matthews, who moves in with her aunt in the middle of her junior year. Although her aunt Morgan works at the sheriffâs office, she assures -- and warns -- Riley that thereâs no much action up in their sleepy little hollow. It has the charm of a hidden coastal gem, a tight-knit community where everybody knows everybody, but probably lacks much excitement for a curious, sociable young woman like herself. Only the warmth of the sun isnât the only thing the fog obscures. Secrets abound throughout the drowsy village, and unexpected surrealities lurk around every corner. Everything is not what it seems in Adams Bay⌠as Riley soon begins to discover, once sheâs caught the startling green eyes of the Hunter clan, and she finds herself saved from a tragic accident by her brooding and beguiling mystery of a lab partner, Lucas James. A lab partner who didnât seem to like her very much, but suddenly cradles her fragile life in his cold hands. Who saved in her ways that shouldnât be possible for a nineteen year old; that shouldnât be human. Once Riley pulls one thread, the entire tapestry of normalcy starts to unravel. She learns her own family may have more history buried in this world than she ever imagined. And even though she should be wary, perhaps even terrified, Riley finds she isnât afraid. She only wants more. Perhaps sheâs finally find a home that will make her eccentric, unconventional personality feel less worth scrutinizing⌠or maybe itâs just the allure of Lucas Jamesâs hypnotic green eyes tugging her deeper down the rabbit hole. Let the eerie bay lighthouse guide the way, like a haunting ghostlight on an empty, darkened stage. Peer through the fog, and step into the unknown -- you never know what youâll discover. Prepare to sink your teeth into Ghostlight.
Character Synopses ⌠Vibes, Beautiful Vibes (Playlist)
A secret snowflake universe concocted specifically for Natalia (@everelore), the best Twilight-loving, angst-appreciating, history-nerding, vibes vampire beta a girl could possibly ask for. Bestie, forgive me for being tardy, and not proofreading this (that's usually your job!!!!!), and feeding the RL (+ friends) mental illness. I promise you I'll actually write some full snippets from this sometime. I will not promise to stop being evil. Love love love you. đ
Special additional shout-out to the Sims 4 and custom content creators, who made this possible and not the most painful manip process ever. Friends we're in a new era of possibilities!!!!! Hold onto your AAA hats!
-- Maggie