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Breakups shoud be about missing your ex and wanting to go back together right? then why are the only feelings I have are regrets of being in a relationship in the first place? Why is my vision of a happy future is one with no relationships in it?

Whenever I read for other abuse victims i just find myself thinking: Why couldn’t my ex be that kind of abusive? why couldn’t he just cheat on me and lie to me..etc. why did he have to make 100% sure that I think I’m crazy? why did he chose the one thing I can never be truly sure wasn’t true?

#tw: abuse

espressogal

once you stop fantasizing about that ideal version of yourself and start working towards becoming that person by setting your alarm clock earlier and actually going to the gym and actually volunteering at places and actually eating healthier and not procrastinating and working just a little bit harder you’ll realize that it was so easy all along. becoming your ideal self will only ever exist in your mind until you make the decision to work towards becoming that person. get up!! get going!! it’s now or never!! there is no light at the end of the tunnel!! get that flashlight and pave your own path bitch bc no one else is going to do it for u!!

positivepastel

myglitterkitty

Kind messages

yekkes

Why are men

cuddle-brat

so cute? man idk

cuddle-brat

it’s absolutely hilarious in a pathetic way that none of these notes have anything good to say but if this post said “why are women” every one would be like “so BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING” like god tumblr is cringe

sanderdraws

amemoryatbest

just stop.

here you have tumblr: where everyone who doesn’t know how to speak still has an issue with you.

Stop what? eating apples?

amemoryatbest

this reminded me of something. I noticed on many platforms that there always people who are against you just talking about therapy as an option to someone who might be suffering but they are never able to just say it in a clear comprehensive manner and some of them go as far as to just say random insult words. I’m sorry to be the one to say this but: if seeing someone giving advice of thinking about going to therapy to someone else who might be suffering is that annoying to you: you might really be in need of learning some ways to deal with your feelings and thoughts.

just stop.

here you have tumblr: where everyone who doesn’t know how to speak still has an issue with you.

Stop what? eating apples?

purplebuddhaquotes

“Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth.”

— Benjamin Disraeli

parentless-suggestions

It’s only recently I’ve started seeing just how cruel and abusive you were (from what limited memories I even have). Thanks to you, I don’t know if I’m dealing with past trauma from you with the aid of a loving significant other or if I’ve found a new abuser even more subtle than you. You’ve always laughingly said I turned bad at 3….what did I do to you? That from then on I stopped being your child and became your servant, to obey and serve silently. Even then I failed to meet your standards..

amemoryatbest

“Thanks to you, I don’t know if I’m dealing with past trauma from you with the aid of a loving significant other or if I’ve found a new abuser even more subtle than you“

I relate with this on so many levels.

I was so scared of going to sleep last night but a friend texted me and we chatted for a while and in the end I dreamt about having good dreams, Like how sweet is that? I didn’t just have one good dream I dreamt about having a lot of happy dreams.

I don’t feel okay.

I have been working so hard for so long just to feel okay and I’m still not okay. I always feel like i’m in the danger zone. like I’ll be hurt by everything and everyone.

No matter what I do or how hard I try I still feel like a horrible person

I feel like a coward because i’m too terrified of going to sleep because it’s just painful. I’m tired of feeling pain.

#personal #negative thoughts